愛情像顆種子，深埋在胸口，有天它無預警地冒出了小芽，你甚至沒注意到它呢，它就開始茁壯了。583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn28rWlXyEO
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後知後覺的我，待胸口的芽已成了小樹，才意識到它的存在。583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7MUfnZx5wR
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然而我沒有繼續灌溉滋養它，而是拿起大剪，抹去了它未來的可能。583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhJEkszKJPG
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逃避式的不和阿龍見面，每次的邀約都從馬上答應變成立刻拒絕，刻意到像是要讓他知道這是刻意的。583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhLiSDyKbtQ
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也許我心裡某處的希望，是他戳破我的刻意，把已經歪斜的天秤打翻。583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0HJzZhRUdr
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但他沒有。583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiMhLWlbrbi
583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHR1sqrjhLv
在第五個或第六個週末，他不再打電話來；而我，也開始和追求自己的男人約會了。583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyrbA4Y0jks
583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡin33ZkGiat
或許是直覺，也或許是太了解，我知道就算阿龍喜歡我，他也不會承認。愛情和友情、親情不一樣的是，我們很容易因為自私，而要求對方改變、要求對方配合自己。認識阿龍那麼久，加上這段時間的相處，我也知道要是兩人交往，會有諸多問題與不合。我不害怕自作多情的丟臉，而是害怕我們的關係一改變，就再也回不去。
說穿了，就是沒有勇氣。
我的勇氣不足，阿龍也是。583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFBrL0jNO8t
583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfrx9OUOWFQ
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再接到阿龍電話是半年後的事了。583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGzt5xz99Xi
583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡms3jMYDncj
花了半年時間，體會了一段荒謬的戀愛，還以非常難看且難堪的方式收尾，搞得全世界都知道了，當然也包括阿龍在內。583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHg9H7qSfwu
583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs44nCGzYtq
「妳在家嗎？」583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPfXws60UJQ
583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgQKK5habtD
「嗯。」583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ18FsUBAlTk
583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLEvOl8Gr45
「下來。」583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6hnVONQlml
583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2bgiT9kEUr
我下樓，看到阿龍的車停在門口。583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkK8lKtxouW
583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9ptvTweqOt
阿龍從車裡出來，戴著墨鏡，咧嘴笑開，他整齊漂亮的牙齒回來了。583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkaaLen7rA5
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「上車。」他敲敲車子。583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzLe1UNyQUx
583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ51zdCP4c6r
「去哪裡？」扣好安全帶，我問。583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtSLangQjbt
583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyxM6qoRhJ5
「把妳載去賣。」583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdxGXPMFaXY
583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBGMLW5bsSu
「嗯，好。」583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfqmLM4hRbm
583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrsW799aLBx
阿龍又笑了，雖然我沒笑。583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSkPdhxJvTY
583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfDcdyRtemD
我把椅背往後仰了些，閉上眼睛，整個人躺在椅子上。其實，我也不是那麼在乎阿龍要帶我去哪裡。583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTpJXO9j99h
583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ14g5z3IzYI
「起床了。」583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEMghaeLA4M
583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡavdagK51wD
「快點起來，小豺！」583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNTK6orLwiF
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我張開眼睛，居然睡著了啊…583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZSI4Eh79BE
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「妳是多累啊？有好好睡覺嗎？」583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO2XChXZZd7
583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6I9ynXAOX3
我還躺在椅子上，只稍微轉頭看駕駛座的阿龍，他戴著墨鏡，我看不清楚他的眼神，但他的眉頭緊緊的皺在一起。583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmq4rW2Gq4M
583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ416mkAOQb3
「我臺灣人啊，上車睡覺，下車尿尿。」583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpgeQhTaXFI
583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvyqwAXpj7I
「噗嗤。」他的眉頭鬆開了。583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAAqgTgp5TX
583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUMlgeSwN2S
「我們在哪？」我坐起來，解開安全帶，看看車子外面，我們在某個停車場。583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5l3W3qhdCf
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「在山上。」583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD9nwZL4cXe
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下車後，看到了熟悉的特大尊土地公神像，還有往山頂土地公廟延伸的樓梯…583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJsdkSdm6Ht
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「你要拜拜啊？」583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkDn5mOGbb0
583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwi8Vzjf94U
「沒有，妳最近不是很愛爬山嗎？帶妳來山上走走啊。」583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR5Lt8p6NuF
583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL69n8sDsz7
「……喔…」
我心裡一沉。583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdsqRQnEKji
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583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE7POOn7Fh5
我們延著樓梯，爬到了山頂的土地公廟，便隨意找了個地方坐下，那是山頂的展望區。583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAV72Kr3ysf
583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoO1MkCIzDV
「那是什麼山啊？」
我指著橫過城市、遠處一座被雲海包圍的山。583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPHQQ86XoUj
583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoLG0qjxnCq
「我哪知道。」583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOMa90qw8ds
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「……說的也是。」583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQlbsxRSviA
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「失戀的人不要一直待在家裡。」
好長一段沉默過後，阿龍開口說。583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF8eiSCEgZe
583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLELTC1ca6f
「嗯。」
我知道，阿龍是帶我出來散心的。583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKkniLSaz9R
583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNidOXv93Ex
「會發霉。」583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqGbiZzTzyI
583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡndkCsvFAID
「哈。」我舉起手聞了聞，再把手湊到阿龍鼻子前。「你聞聞看，有沒有發霉的味道？」583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqJAN1HkMYA
583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaPj9CB4qNu
「噁，有耶，妳看妳的手，都長香菇了。」583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡETmU1KUrVk
583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGBVExH0hQ7
「我這是靈芝，你懂屁啊！」583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3GRfFWIRpk
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「妳還是這樣笑比較好。」583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSHPQhY23tD
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「啊？」583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBfBd1SFcic
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「我剛以為自己要出借胸口還是肩膀讓妳哭一下勒。」583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYU6NRaDvze
583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEtjZSmQZpI
「哈…你很噁心耶。」583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpbuC1KuD0P
583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTDkDWMornL
「什麼噁心，欸，我的胸口還算結實吧？」他搥搥自己的胸。583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm7YThEavLt
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「是啦是啦，好結實，可是我不需要啦。」583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9yDZ4GACwH
583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVn3MbeoJx1
「不識貨，那不然肩膀？」
他又拍拍自己的肩。583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5z1hJiYZ7D
583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4GNPRZQXoz
我笑出來，這傢伙真是夠了。583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUzDhPDB7jr
583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXmlbluztY6
「好啦，我勉強用一下。」583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJiRamKndHA
583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcyKVb39S1z
我坐到阿龍旁邊，把頭靠上他的肩膀。
「這樣？」我說。583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrbp8GWc4ek
583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfh733b9CM7
他把手繞過我，摟住我的肩，這個動作，讓我從肩膀滑到胸口。
「這樣。」他說。583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPyjENSka2J
583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkrhJbI7coI
我聽得見阿龍的心跳，以規律的速度跳動著，咚，咚，咚。583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE5U5XYJJIN
583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgLXRJIMvrC
那是我和他最靠近的一次。583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2x4sR9PGpb
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待續。
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