愛情像顆種子，深埋在胸口，有天它無預警地冒出了小芽，你甚至沒注意到它呢，它就開始茁壯了。513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvt8eyxnM5u
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後知後覺的我，待胸口的芽已成了小樹，才意識到它的存在。513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoXlD13yQR5
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然而我沒有繼續灌溉滋養它，而是拿起大剪，抹去了它未來的可能。513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjhXnWwgS9I
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逃避式的不和阿龍見面，每次的邀約都從馬上答應變成立刻拒絕，刻意到像是要讓他知道這是刻意的。513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa5FkNQicv7
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也許我心裡某處的希望，是他戳破我的刻意，把已經歪斜的天秤打翻。513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtP2gXlzzPQ
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但他沒有。513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyibxqrK39d
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在第五個或第六個週末，他不再打電話來；而我，也開始和追求自己的男人約會了。513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ43GaEV951I
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或許是直覺，也或許是太了解，我知道就算阿龍喜歡我，他也不會承認。愛情和友情、親情不一樣的是，我們很容易因為自私，而要求對方改變、要求對方配合自己。認識阿龍那麼久，加上這段時間的相處，我也知道要是兩人交往，會有諸多問題與不合。我不害怕自作多情的丟臉，而是害怕我們的關係一改變，就再也回不去。
說穿了，就是沒有勇氣。
我的勇氣不足，阿龍也是。513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB0Y8yeQnS9
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再接到阿龍電話是半年後的事了。513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6J0W4mJL5o
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花了半年時間，體會了一段荒謬的戀愛，還以非常難看且難堪的方式收尾，搞得全世界都知道了，當然也包括阿龍在內。513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1i7YLhydJR
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「妳在家嗎？」513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCtXIPRA94R
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「嗯。」513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdmuV7wIFrv
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「下來。」513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTbHewlO097
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我下樓，看到阿龍的車停在門口。513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmXwwwa8UQE
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阿龍從車裡出來，戴著墨鏡，咧嘴笑開，他整齊漂亮的牙齒回來了。513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG1vs2rrMIz
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「上車。」他敲敲車子。513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU5Stxpo21T
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「去哪裡？」扣好安全帶，我問。513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYM6Tq7QVV4
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「把妳載去賣。」513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqNCmgwKmU2
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「嗯，好。」513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCHicoqRL9B
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阿龍又笑了，雖然我沒笑。513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQTSpsQp6hj
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我把椅背往後仰了些，閉上眼睛，整個人躺在椅子上。其實，我也不是那麼在乎阿龍要帶我去哪裡。513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTVFkk3NNm0
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「起床了。」513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVbTBIPEplw
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「快點起來，小豺！」513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgSWac2JdBs
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我張開眼睛，居然睡著了啊…513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡixNTKxQBnq
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「妳是多累啊？有好好睡覺嗎？」513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFGH1BTzzQM
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我還躺在椅子上，只稍微轉頭看駕駛座的阿龍，他戴著墨鏡，我看不清楚他的眼神，但他的眉頭緊緊的皺在一起。513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNMDQyK15eU
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「我臺灣人啊，上車睡覺，下車尿尿。」513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5jOhop4UNT
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「噗嗤。」他的眉頭鬆開了。513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ58Nkjtu2qt
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「我們在哪？」我坐起來，解開安全帶，看看車子外面，我們在某個停車場。513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDZbajYuBer
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「在山上。」513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvcCamjY3cm
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下車後，看到了熟悉的特大尊土地公神像，還有往山頂土地公廟延伸的樓梯…513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvqg2XMWSbH
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「你要拜拜啊？」513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCWz3cxuGDP
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「沒有，妳最近不是很愛爬山嗎？帶妳來山上走走啊。」513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc4X0ogNu4A
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「……喔…」
我心裡一沉。513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9ePrcGVd8x
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我們延著樓梯，爬到了山頂的土地公廟，便隨意找了個地方坐下，那是山頂的展望區。513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSwdw97EqSj
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「那是什麼山啊？」
我指著橫過城市、遠處一座被雲海包圍的山。513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsZsHVfUbDi
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「我哪知道。」513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqKcQgqh6b0
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「……說的也是。」513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx58baCr4yj
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「失戀的人不要一直待在家裡。」
好長一段沉默過後，阿龍開口說。513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhfSYzIA7qi
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「嗯。」
我知道，阿龍是帶我出來散心的。513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7y5LfdSUHb
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「會發霉。」513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrHo8hWDZU8
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「哈。」我舉起手聞了聞，再把手湊到阿龍鼻子前。「你聞聞看，有沒有發霉的味道？」513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrWLBO7ZvNI
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「噁，有耶，妳看妳的手，都長香菇了。」513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMIcvTTSNe1
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「我這是靈芝，你懂屁啊！」513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8rUIgsOVUA
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「妳還是這樣笑比較好。」513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdNbAtPcuIH
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「啊？」513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlMscOuWOef
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「我剛以為自己要出借胸口還是肩膀讓妳哭一下勒。」513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJdnDmslLtz
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「哈…你很噁心耶。」513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ05ByMO2GA3
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「什麼噁心，欸，我的胸口還算結實吧？」他搥搥自己的胸。513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡre9P5bLomE
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「是啦是啦，好結實，可是我不需要啦。」513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCMm5Butud6
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「不識貨，那不然肩膀？」
他又拍拍自己的肩。513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkn9tKtM2Zs
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我笑出來，這傢伙真是夠了。513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfSiwxZg1Q4
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「好啦，我勉強用一下。」513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDoLznWsYc7
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我坐到阿龍旁邊，把頭靠上他的肩膀。
「這樣？」我說。513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuLuwNmJGzo
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他把手繞過我，摟住我的肩，這個動作，讓我從肩膀滑到胸口。
「這樣。」他說。513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpoThBjyUTa
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我聽得見阿龍的心跳，以規律的速度跳動著，咚，咚，咚。513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaVf1Do0JaV
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那是我和他最靠近的一次。513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGqV0TM4Rva
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待續。
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