等我能見到他時，又過了一個月。493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnmF15so7Qp
493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE79UKDZ3hU
深呼吸了好幾口氣，練習了幾次微笑，我才踏進病房。493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiNtCPC74P9
493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5U4s0MjcJI
他盯著我走近，待我在床前站定，見我微微一笑，他便咧開嘴笑了。493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSP470qkaLD
493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1z6rsKy4CT
「我妹怎麼變這麼漂亮啦？」493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGVu6xutmLw
493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqnQk2Pja53
我沒理會他的玩笑，只是看著臉色蒼白的他，當下覺得自己的微笑只是一道不讓自己哭出來的防線。493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzAcIPSU0uZ
493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3JMrfPfI1q
我查過他的病，既然已到末期，治癒機率已經極低，幾乎是零。也知道他會長期處在各種疼痛裡。493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh5AFhq38kZ
493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmckKoWuU17
所以我無法開口問他還好嗎，也沒辦法要他振作，更不能祝福他康復。493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX13sDDZEQd
493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzjL5Pp3nQM
只是他仍然對著我笑，笑得那麼真。493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNLGbVi2p7m
493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfl9RB3qvMl
「幹嘛傻在那裡，過來這邊坐啊。」他指指床邊的椅子。493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPkiH7mUZ9J
493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiAPYKtcgDT
我走過去，把椅子拉近病床，坐下。493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsQbc5B9m1k
493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzfFtESHma2
我們幾乎是同時伸出雙手的。493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡThbUS4N6hY
493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlrT1BQtVRJ
碰到他的手時，我的鼻子就酸了，眼睛也模糊了。493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeXjnnwOeJk
493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgcljPiYodv
「不是答應我不哭了嗎？」那句話有著溫柔的指責。493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6lmt7Hz0LQ
493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCJyPV8V6cB
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「現在有沒有哪裡會痛…？」我開口問。493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTL1mkVwYy9
493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5s7keTXeNV
「每天都在痛啊，肚子也痛、頭也痛，骨頭也都會痛…」493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAyJWESf2aD
493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq6w6fbnCQT
他數家珍地說出，而我的眉頭也因此糾結。493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEkRH1bgMsA
493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWpzdCEDMmV
「現在不痛啦，看到妳都不痛啦。」見我皺眉，他胡亂地撒謊。493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzfaIEBERp3
493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvwTId4emZw
我揉著他的手，好像有很多話要說，但又覺得沒什麼好說。493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0MJ8ww5iej
493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvX88hmsoBN
「爸…妳爸爸，有說什麼嗎？他知道嗎？」493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUTePAowCA5
493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoEbAMSw2dd
我愣了一下，沒想到他會問這個問題。493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw8Aug607NJ
493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj9tmw11lcI
「他應該知道，但他沒跟我說什麼…」493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtOIpUnvg8K
493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgh2G0SIRUy
「是嗎…我想也是啦。問問而已，妳不要多想。」493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHfWgu7Q8Er
493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeVECtJE8nj
那一瞬間，我覺得父親的無情是無法被原諒的。493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡASxf7V5TAt
493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRrIRpRiLZs
493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPqWGTws25w
我拿出那晚編好的手繩，放到他手裡。493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzbxGQ0hUPj
493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdR1JDbSAG4
「這是新編的。」493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQFndmF1OSU
493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgTcCfb8wbV
他看了看手繩，又看看我。493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsIRqaS60By
493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHBSbhJ4zg5
「妳幫我拿櫃子裡的皮夾出來。」493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe5XTHt7wcE
493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcbag107C8R
我把皮夾遞給他，他從皮夾裡拿出了…好幾年前的那條幸運手繩。493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOghbUb7ePp
493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOpNabNJMnE
白色的線都變成灰色，已經髒髒的了，他拿出來時還是小心翼翼。493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWuU3FBasBn
493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAS0rNjxEyb
「妳看。」他得意。493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxfne6Iqz6j
493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJLswQEZneT
「虧你能留那麼久，我之前皮包掉了，你的照片也搞丟了…」493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMlVqxRTfO0
493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDOgZDr0wEk
「幫我戴新的在手上。」他說。493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxpayr37bnr
493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ8vEhKFBMT
我一邊把手繩綁上他變得好細的手腕，一邊說著…493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU7HQhIB1YR
493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2u0zgdRXAQ
「我們以前還說要一起合照，但都沒有做到…」493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRgXFO0b9oK
493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0oMKG8unzQ
「現在拍。」493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHu0y5yaqqc
493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZa7KwFZsS3
「啊？」493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9uif2lcrKZ
493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQZcBEpbo9t
「現在就拍啊，妳手機有照相功能吧？」493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHt7zAXrr2l
493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNeRfxU7QCl
「有。」我拿出手機，翻開摺疊螢幕，開啟相機功能。493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEk3KVql2qB
493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBuFfzyVMdj
「等一下等一下。」他伸手拿了旁邊的眼鏡戴上。493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0401RZNePx
493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpXZmHkmpf7
「我這樣看起來比較不像流氓吧？」他又在笑。493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9A6pt2nnKN
493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpbz1gJiKSI
我笑了，起身貼近床，把頭靠在他臉旁，拿著手機對著我們倆的大頭拍了一張照片。493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0lhjpTkSoq
493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGBsN7PRwlk
493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKLQqjYgNCb
我坐回椅子上，有那麼一段時間，我們都沒有看著彼此，也沒有說話。493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtPgcm7kuvX
493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQZIbqkAfwr
「我離婚了。」英傑突然說。
「我被抓後，妳嫂子自己提的。」
「簽字是一定要簽的，拖著她也不對。」493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6BD8CAqXOQ
493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ4GIO4xSCC
我想起那個沒有喊過他「爸爸」的兒子，但我沒有勇氣開口問。493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyI0I0T5dFN
493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ92WsPfwIaD
493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡswClJyx4oe
「妳還有在寫小說嗎？」493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJypaJiacMu
493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡayQVRtKUX5
「…有寫一些小故事。」493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgQH2tYbcyd
493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7CiLmKf4QA
「那就好，不要隨便放棄喔。」493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlRAAuEBwbE
493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpdezZpTuPe
「嗯。我好久沒看到你寫的詩了。」493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY7wSuN36SW
493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡitmBy6dEnI
「我太久沒寫字啦…字已經不漂亮，腦子也沒東西了。」493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB7gviPMucY
493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiC5fqjvjX9
「不會啦，字跡不會隨便改變的。」情感也是。493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuazQ471YbM
493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbPjW8jkwfX
「妹。」493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZBEbLdatIA
493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8g7cYBcTIg
「嗯？」493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXXvF37o9T3
493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQmaaQoq8rD
「人真的要走到末路的時候，才知道只有家人會無條件的陪在身邊。」
「所以妳一定要好好珍惜家人，不要交壞朋友，也不要太相信外面的人。」
「也不要抽菸、喝太多酒…」
「如果可以，就回去念書，這個社會還是很看學歷…」493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQEHAXjs266
493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa5UNToCrfQ
我突然意識到他正在做什麼。493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9LdfOhZdE5
493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkY6dDu4PP9
像是交代後事般的叮嚀，我聽在耳裡，痛在心裡，但我不能阻止他這麼做。493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMgZbKSGwUf
493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmWjjZunx3G
因為我甚至不知道還有沒有下一次見他的機會。493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu5hkYm5qit
493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4Yr9UFgzy7
493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6Qg8COtIVi
那天我在醫院陪他直到晚上才離開，他始終笑著，在我面前不表現出痛苦或難過。493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡewUnpEjQXh
493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSrzRKCg7bU
他也答應讓我再去看他，只是要先跟他聯絡。493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9PtlNAskgq
493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjdJLp1EUo9
「我媽有點介意，所以不希望妳們碰到面。」493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhxDGne4cw3
493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ64RLYCMKZv
爾後我又見了他兩次，其中一次他告訴我，他信了主耶穌。493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBFrj3efymR
493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1g47cl852I
我知道是身體病痛的折磨，讓他尋求精神上的慰藉。他親自寫了信給教會的小孩子，用自己的經歷告誡孩子們勿入歧途。493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4Dh8VGmgNA
493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNWXMkGDfOM
我知道他害怕，知道他尋求救贖。493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs1BjZknDdl
493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS5P8OZtRyA
我知道他就算把地獄或罪人掛在嘴邊，仍是害怕受苦的。493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeJb6Jwo0VZ
493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDhsvoOLw7w
我知道他也許到了這一刻才開始後悔。493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5T3k5jXSTo
493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSeJEcTKAjK
但我是欣慰的。493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBOEGuadR4n
493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr8ZcF1E5Bv
493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡibPVvjfAx8
493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuV2dZ9e3gT
那一天來的又快又急。493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2IEiGZONwW
493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQz1ecwllPz
「妹…」493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2EsWbVpQRm
493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCZfOmrhDrm
我接起電話，只聽到英傑喊了我，然後是沉重的喘息與啜泣。493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOr4iUzQ9sI
493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1Q909zLNRq
「你怎麼了？怎麼了？」493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuUHjTUB8sP
493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlwF4dByMh1
還拿著手機和他說話，我已經起身準備出門去醫院。493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPj1pBPpVXo
493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKdK93XhgWI
「我還不想死…」他哭著說。493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW1JTQwiPXL
493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk6rVt5d8HA
那句話狠狠地撕裂了我的胸口。493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLdEmsiTTbn
493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPZe6iuaLjr
493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡslSWVovUUu
我跑進病房，英傑似乎剛剛才穩定下來，吊著點滴、眼眶泛紅、面容消瘦，也比上次更加蒼白、手臂上都是青色與紫色的瘀青。493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUUL2MRUOqQ
493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsnpzzUaQRL
他的母親與姐姐看見我，臉色明顯地不自在。493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd0yCFSKXOG
493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5pNqKgFdXh
英傑打那通電話給我的時候，她們是不是也在呢？493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqillD0PUHb
493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv6zn8gp5Dn
她們小聲地和英傑說了幾句話，就走出病房，留給我和他說話的空間。493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaQEr4iGWsT
493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrtXRW49tA4
493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCYUpX2fYum
我坐到上次的位置，握住他的手。493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdctuaMq5QS
493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmEdNFpSPTn
那雙手已又更瘦更冰冷了。493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQfnA8CeTtQ
493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡapeQ9gMzaa
「我真的，還不想死。」493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNWEjQleNP9
493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtyWXj0Gn8O
我握著他的手出了點力。493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5cGdT622vO
493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ22zBRZYoMO
「我很害怕。」493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYoL8TA6xcE
493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1Njv0HY0DB
「我很怕死…」493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9Rd4Yg1fXC
493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvCwUFYdKHN
他沒看著我，只盯著手。說完，他的眼淚就掉下來。493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOHWidUCcEF
493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmDNAhpARiP
那是我第一次看見他掉眼淚，也是最後一次。493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyVs6kA8gu0
493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6v5m3RNpWz
「你已經悔改了，你一定會去天堂的。」我已經滿臉淚水，但還是看著他的眼睛說。493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡccT7lfZ89W
493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPPDiyj7Z06
「全身都很痛…」他終於抬頭看我。493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡudHEzzto7l
493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5Znko89Rl4
我趕緊抽幾張衛生紙擦他的臉，他的雙頰與眼窩都已經凹陷，我的手盡可能地放輕力道，就怕他疼。493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoPdBThwgkH
493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsabeaZuBAR
「你很努力了，我知道你很努力了…」493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFJWL5AHXTp
493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlx4bSe1NHN
我抱住他，驚覺他已弱不禁風的事實。493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdX5gEH3NqT
493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlDpK1Dnek2
這讓我倏地停止了自己的眼淚。493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1UGbrp9rTQ
493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3Nql6TKP0D
「沒事的，你的主會帶你離開，之後就不痛苦了。」493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJSVd39NIqZ
493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeKw8a8zOKW
英傑在我的臂彎裡哭泣了許久，才安靜下來。493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ88FNkVSNEj
493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVxX6fkz0xv
493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcP6N1YMZaq
「妹。」493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3cNpiwL7bV
493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl9ymKABZaB
「嗯？」493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡerDNXEIZn3
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「抽屜裡有一封信是給妳的。」493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJvH6ORWPAw
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我打開抽屜，拿起那個信封。493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSaXXiuCV4U
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「回去再看。」493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQLTxbtrgtz
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「好。」我收起信。493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAIsOXR569f
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「妳回去吧。」493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfThhu3dRVl
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「什麼？」493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2ltyjV1MEN
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「謝謝妳來…可是不要再來了。」493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbXBAffw69X
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「為什麼？」493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ35GxftOP78
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「我不想要妳送我離開，妳會很傷心，我也不想要看到妳那麼傷心。」493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4yaptwyaRP
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「……」493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFjESZEPlAT
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「回去吧。」493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOopWwj7Zn4
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他看著我，又對我笑了，那個笑看起來很費勁，也是他一直以來對我的溫柔表現。493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn4TIf5WyLb
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不讓我送他走，也是哥哥對妹妹的溫柔。493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL2UFQNcmhX
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我又抱了抱他才離開。493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOpv3iUFwUz
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當天晚上十點多，我收到他姊姊的簡訊。493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv4ktgNWdjZ
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「英傑已經走了。」493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTdt7xMr56d
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那一瞬間我向心裡所有知道的神祈求，希望英傑能到更好的地方，希望他不要再受苦了。493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpraN93mdQ4
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我打開信封，裡面只有一張書籤大的紙。493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWIIQtyFWV2
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「Dear 妹：」493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFjx27cz0Ek
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「妳永遠是我的天使，493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrwmR0ypAoi
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請不要忘記我。」493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡms7J3dXsmE
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「哥 英傑」493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmfLhupHBCQ
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我抱著自己，放任自己哭到睡著。493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3gXS2y3WIS
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之後的每一年，我不選在英傑的忌日，而是在他的冥誕當天悼念他。493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJxv42nNX7M
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每一年的五月三十，我都會寫一封信，表達我的思念，讓他知道「我沒有忘記他」。493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd1FfafhZvB
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前幾年每到這天，我總是哭，總是放任自己因為想念而哭得泣不成聲。493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu5EBWPJVtv
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後來的後來，我漸漸不哭了，但沒有改變在這一天寫信的習慣。493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaL4Tr4ioFL
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英傑的回憶有時像巨石背在背上，有時像羽毛沾在胸口，無論哪一種，都是無法遺棄。493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBDLbF3Lkkn
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他走後，我便不再輕易評論一個人的好與壞。493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpr7ZCWYQQ0
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曾經我在英傑的新聞底下看見很多網友的謾罵、抨擊甚至是汙辱，我感到憤怒與心痛，想一個一個回應他們「你們什麼都不知道！」493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd7bAIr6tvO
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但我什麼也沒做。493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ36jxHNTts
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因為那些人不認識他，也永遠不會認識他。493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU3FGtpFVzU
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所以我再也不對任何新聞或社會事件做評論。因為我知道，我不認識當事人，更不能體會當事人的親屬心情。493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7Icx2MsSLr
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我回去念書，考進了大學，年年以取得獎學金為目標，只為不要白學。493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpGEi13dJHb
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一直沒有放棄創作，可能也是因為惦記著他說過的話。493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9RNeiQp3ML
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說起遺憾，大概是我喊他「英傑」比喊他「哥哥」的次數要多更多了吧。493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTtkAkkb5UV
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去年，我沒有寫信。493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh6CYUVaqV9
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我選擇在當天完成他的故事。493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNvMA85pb7r
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他是一隻孤傲的鷹，獨自在天空闖蕩，受盡風霜，最後回巢，在家人身邊闔上眼。493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCQTYYxuoqS
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我是活在地面的狼，只能抬頭望著，用我的爪在沙上畫下他在天空翱翔的姿態。493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp2NEMUz6Hp
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這是，我哥哥的故事。493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPDUtDXrMA7
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