愛情像顆種子，深埋在胸口，有天它無預警地冒出了小芽，你甚至沒注意到它呢，它就開始茁壯了。580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCjyty29e9x
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後知後覺的我，待胸口的芽已成了小樹，才意識到它的存在。580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlmmFY1XJdj
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然而我沒有繼續灌溉滋養它，而是拿起大剪，抹去了它未來的可能。580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAkjJA5roWZ
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逃避式的不和阿龍見面，每次的邀約都從馬上答應變成立刻拒絕，刻意到像是要讓他知道這是刻意的。580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy28vREtmRo
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也許我心裡某處的希望，是他戳破我的刻意，把已經歪斜的天秤打翻。580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQoAKj4GgS1
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但他沒有。580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQOZMC7Dtiz
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在第五個或第六個週末，他不再打電話來；而我，也開始和追求自己的男人約會了。580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJKVikRi3ph
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或許是直覺，也或許是太了解，我知道就算阿龍喜歡我，他也不會承認。愛情和友情、親情不一樣的是，我們很容易因為自私，而要求對方改變、要求對方配合自己。認識阿龍那麼久，加上這段時間的相處，我也知道要是兩人交往，會有諸多問題與不合。我不害怕自作多情的丟臉，而是害怕我們的關係一改變，就再也回不去。
說穿了，就是沒有勇氣。
我的勇氣不足，阿龍也是。580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ1DY9jfjGB
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再接到阿龍電話是半年後的事了。580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMr0YJ9iQMO
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花了半年時間，體會了一段荒謬的戀愛，還以非常難看且難堪的方式收尾，搞得全世界都知道了，當然也包括阿龍在內。580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVjvEqmZXDz
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「妳在家嗎？」580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsAv6PcitRY
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「嗯。」580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTqBfMUCPTP
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「下來。」580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtIRT7p4Vm7
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我下樓，看到阿龍的車停在門口。580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgSxKhzb8Mw
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阿龍從車裡出來，戴著墨鏡，咧嘴笑開，他整齊漂亮的牙齒回來了。580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVk8netCTmN
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「上車。」他敲敲車子。580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbAhW3FqJ8t
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「去哪裡？」扣好安全帶，我問。580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq9X745PRGk
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「把妳載去賣。」580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZHvoWTaIpz
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「嗯，好。」580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWd1qWKSgnE
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阿龍又笑了，雖然我沒笑。580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs6cwO6hkDC
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我把椅背往後仰了些，閉上眼睛，整個人躺在椅子上。其實，我也不是那麼在乎阿龍要帶我去哪裡。580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmg1ruGZbW6
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「起床了。」580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGMwtR7KXAN
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「快點起來，小豺！」580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp4bmhFd0ml
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我張開眼睛，居然睡著了啊…580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5CHltbmQnO
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「妳是多累啊？有好好睡覺嗎？」580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfYlWUC71lN
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我還躺在椅子上，只稍微轉頭看駕駛座的阿龍，他戴著墨鏡，我看不清楚他的眼神，但他的眉頭緊緊的皺在一起。580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX7RuGEZFgB
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「我臺灣人啊，上車睡覺，下車尿尿。」580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg8Uobv9KtF
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「噗嗤。」他的眉頭鬆開了。580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSwSm5VzsMp
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「我們在哪？」我坐起來，解開安全帶，看看車子外面，我們在某個停車場。580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh4Xunuej2F
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「在山上。」580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9PI9BDvozl
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下車後，看到了熟悉的特大尊土地公神像，還有往山頂土地公廟延伸的樓梯…580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS3WasSZ6VY
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「你要拜拜啊？」580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ10TMx4p3VY
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「沒有，妳最近不是很愛爬山嗎？帶妳來山上走走啊。」580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY01sRJjqTV
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「……喔…」
我心裡一沉。580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs2MD5eNERx
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我們延著樓梯，爬到了山頂的土地公廟，便隨意找了個地方坐下，那是山頂的展望區。580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtPLHwCClmT
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「那是什麼山啊？」
我指著橫過城市、遠處一座被雲海包圍的山。580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwonnnIrirV
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「我哪知道。」580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO2EHSsfsHP
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「……說的也是。」580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhapaN815AC
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「失戀的人不要一直待在家裡。」
好長一段沉默過後，阿龍開口說。580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxEkxw3uyon
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「嗯。」
我知道，阿龍是帶我出來散心的。580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4j3nrLROIR
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「會發霉。」580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEc6NtSIb0E
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「哈。」我舉起手聞了聞，再把手湊到阿龍鼻子前。「你聞聞看，有沒有發霉的味道？」580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9nABgc5fAQ
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「噁，有耶，妳看妳的手，都長香菇了。」580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMClOWTiBHi
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「我這是靈芝，你懂屁啊！」580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCkf3mUkI95
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「妳還是這樣笑比較好。」580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8l6trjiP21
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「啊？」580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4WdzubIK87
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「我剛以為自己要出借胸口還是肩膀讓妳哭一下勒。」580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2ouzXiRWNa
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「哈…你很噁心耶。」580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3zQASrDAdL
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「什麼噁心，欸，我的胸口還算結實吧？」他搥搥自己的胸。580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsGMCdNAK61
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「是啦是啦，好結實，可是我不需要啦。」580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeMNCzqHi8j
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「不識貨，那不然肩膀？」
他又拍拍自己的肩。580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx8DfSMAhxR
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我笑出來，這傢伙真是夠了。580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4LUQ7MMjNT
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「好啦，我勉強用一下。」580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKUApkzRI3F
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我坐到阿龍旁邊，把頭靠上他的肩膀。
「這樣？」我說。580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBs5cvb1QbN
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他把手繞過我，摟住我的肩，這個動作，讓我從肩膀滑到胸口。
「這樣。」他說。580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdm37xZUygg
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我聽得見阿龍的心跳，以規律的速度跳動著，咚，咚，咚。580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuJ7aXBK7nF
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那是我和他最靠近的一次。580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4ySzwUwjex
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待續。
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