愛情像顆種子，深埋在胸口，有天它無預警地冒出了小芽，你甚至沒注意到它呢，它就開始茁壯了。546Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ46qNhNRuTj
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後知後覺的我，待胸口的芽已成了小樹，才意識到它的存在。546Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbixOHzbFwP
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然而我沒有繼續灌溉滋養它，而是拿起大剪，抹去了它未來的可能。546Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcmZiYyOG4z
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逃避式的不和阿龍見面，每次的邀約都從馬上答應變成立刻拒絕，刻意到像是要讓他知道這是刻意的。546Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4Ul8cGMGdm
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也許我心裡某處的希望，是他戳破我的刻意，把已經歪斜的天秤打翻。546Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK6iqIh98M0
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但他沒有。546Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwYEej3Sgem
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在第五個或第六個週末，他不再打電話來；而我，也開始和追求自己的男人約會了。546Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzBkMQuKWba
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或許是直覺，也或許是太了解，我知道就算阿龍喜歡我，他也不會承認。愛情和友情、親情不一樣的是，我們很容易因為自私，而要求對方改變、要求對方配合自己。認識阿龍那麼久，加上這段時間的相處，我也知道要是兩人交往，會有諸多問題與不合。我不害怕自作多情的丟臉，而是害怕我們的關係一改變，就再也回不去。
說穿了，就是沒有勇氣。
我的勇氣不足，阿龍也是。546Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfV6qofvjyK
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再接到阿龍電話是半年後的事了。546Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLW9p9rYtlI
546Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTCw5SQDm1I
花了半年時間，體會了一段荒謬的戀愛，還以非常難看且難堪的方式收尾，搞得全世界都知道了，當然也包括阿龍在內。546Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKQE6704ZLL
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「妳在家嗎？」546Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8KSMhXZK4b
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「嗯。」546Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTczsVQ22dO
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「下來。」546Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbYd6gnOnrn
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我下樓，看到阿龍的車停在門口。546Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVkN6rim9Hq
546Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoZn35Jxjkp
阿龍從車裡出來，戴著墨鏡，咧嘴笑開，他整齊漂亮的牙齒回來了。546Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjXfV0hTuEl
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「上車。」他敲敲車子。546Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ6FwjOmWUx
546Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2viN7yZBWh
「去哪裡？」扣好安全帶，我問。546Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWP2dIYLoUh
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「把妳載去賣。」546Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxIVVho5nHZ
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「嗯，好。」546Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1a9k5Vg75O
546Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuMKh9tsOQA
阿龍又笑了，雖然我沒笑。546Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjwPK8BI9Wb
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我把椅背往後仰了些，閉上眼睛，整個人躺在椅子上。其實，我也不是那麼在乎阿龍要帶我去哪裡。546Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzKlP0k57xu
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「起床了。」546Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGj9s2CC7gt
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「快點起來，小豺！」546Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQP9nN5KX61
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我張開眼睛，居然睡著了啊…546Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVtvrUDJHKH
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「妳是多累啊？有好好睡覺嗎？」546Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ2Go4Ocmnd
546Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb6982J0Vbx
我還躺在椅子上，只稍微轉頭看駕駛座的阿龍，他戴著墨鏡，我看不清楚他的眼神，但他的眉頭緊緊的皺在一起。546Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqGXrhnnP2C
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「我臺灣人啊，上車睡覺，下車尿尿。」546Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXV6VoNw9HL
546Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLKhErBwDY1
「噗嗤。」他的眉頭鬆開了。546Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuNdP6aqdT0
546Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡefzpMbq7Jq
「我們在哪？」我坐起來，解開安全帶，看看車子外面，我們在某個停車場。546Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzUIVQvDPct
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「在山上。」546Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8jf1PpBk8F
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下車後，看到了熟悉的特大尊土地公神像，還有往山頂土地公廟延伸的樓梯…546Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBKVEis0BJL
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「你要拜拜啊？」546Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPbCOpoIh4u
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「沒有，妳最近不是很愛爬山嗎？帶妳來山上走走啊。」546Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpmpTvHA2bc
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「……喔…」
我心裡一沉。546Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcu8VWD1NAV
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我們延著樓梯，爬到了山頂的土地公廟，便隨意找了個地方坐下，那是山頂的展望區。546Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKZn2D1NLaS
546Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1mtA8JjiO1
「那是什麼山啊？」
我指著橫過城市、遠處一座被雲海包圍的山。546Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWuPl14WaNo
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「我哪知道。」546Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh4GMquTiFF
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「……說的也是。」546Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡszwXWXPOZ9
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「失戀的人不要一直待在家裡。」
好長一段沉默過後，阿龍開口說。546Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUfuzLpDmlK
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「嗯。」
我知道，阿龍是帶我出來散心的。546Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1BG6orCaVT
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「會發霉。」546Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn4qMbDM6Bc
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「哈。」我舉起手聞了聞，再把手湊到阿龍鼻子前。「你聞聞看，有沒有發霉的味道？」546Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgVcMY77NGV
546Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTb5CSNZRDH
「噁，有耶，妳看妳的手，都長香菇了。」546Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdVaNfT46z8
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「我這是靈芝，你懂屁啊！」546Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA993YVq4S5
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「妳還是這樣笑比較好。」546Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeczNOPw9ZH
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「啊？」546Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDJoxXZp69J
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「我剛以為自己要出借胸口還是肩膀讓妳哭一下勒。」546Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW6It3sYH8L
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「哈…你很噁心耶。」546Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWKg7DtCkpB
546Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA8vQ8x9jM2
「什麼噁心，欸，我的胸口還算結實吧？」他搥搥自己的胸。546Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5qTrScT7z2
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「是啦是啦，好結實，可是我不需要啦。」546Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXaijduiNF3
546Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOHl7k2EBjL
「不識貨，那不然肩膀？」
他又拍拍自己的肩。546Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ942NcEKdaq
546Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5lwA2IyUdZ
我笑出來，這傢伙真是夠了。546Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv3JeGb5kCL
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「好啦，我勉強用一下。」546Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqqW3ytBYCp
546Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbAYFThWc96
我坐到阿龍旁邊，把頭靠上他的肩膀。
「這樣？」我說。546Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjHFEqU2PHp
546Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9imCZrNSqk
他把手繞過我，摟住我的肩，這個動作，讓我從肩膀滑到胸口。
「這樣。」他說。546Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuhnHwb4us0
546Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvYjLWtoZzr
我聽得見阿龍的心跳，以規律的速度跳動著，咚，咚，咚。546Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7ze5Du3aPW
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那是我和他最靠近的一次。546Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfehqgzGar7
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待續。
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