等我能見到他時，又過了一個月。491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8ASqsc6JWk
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深呼吸了好幾口氣，練習了幾次微笑，我才踏進病房。491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0eDWlIhj8U
491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVJVJQXELBQ
他盯著我走近，待我在床前站定，見我微微一笑，他便咧開嘴笑了。491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZQvs94dTvm
491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1QFeEaPZ2l
「我妹怎麼變這麼漂亮啦？」491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZW5HiyDrN7
491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxOFM71R7ED
我沒理會他的玩笑，只是看著臉色蒼白的他，當下覺得自己的微笑只是一道不讓自己哭出來的防線。491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwqK5nFniDk
491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaTQalY8xZ3
我查過他的病，既然已到末期，治癒機率已經極低，幾乎是零。也知道他會長期處在各種疼痛裡。491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3RSxdKNGb0
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所以我無法開口問他還好嗎，也沒辦法要他振作，更不能祝福他康復。491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKv3PkGz3Nw
491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhliVSfA5R9
只是他仍然對著我笑，笑得那麼真。491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfLvtWsJPed
491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfuszdCdnYr
「幹嘛傻在那裡，過來這邊坐啊。」他指指床邊的椅子。491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8ZxfrRaBKb
491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4rBEsenljc
我走過去，把椅子拉近病床，坐下。491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqlRWiMV2pd
491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4qH0UKnsJ7
我們幾乎是同時伸出雙手的。491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4bvEAi9dJj
491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaBTjfuEsLX
碰到他的手時，我的鼻子就酸了，眼睛也模糊了。491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwhWEVNYf3Y
491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPGJQK6qFrR
「不是答應我不哭了嗎？」那句話有著溫柔的指責。491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsVk8J8KKIx
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「現在有沒有哪裡會痛…？」我開口問。491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfmRbGNvTme
491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkE9MNLbqV2
「每天都在痛啊，肚子也痛、頭也痛，骨頭也都會痛…」491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtOKXirSJIP
491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG9JauYb4M2
他數家珍地說出，而我的眉頭也因此糾結。491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTS38quUYVn
491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsVOVtQH9DU
「現在不痛啦，看到妳都不痛啦。」見我皺眉，他胡亂地撒謊。491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjQOgBqv6CA
491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNkYq1hS0ZW
我揉著他的手，好像有很多話要說，但又覺得沒什麼好說。491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyrlmr5jYrN
491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUsoTF9ggvP
「爸…妳爸爸，有說什麼嗎？他知道嗎？」491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY9aPdZf3ee
491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGlz3f0wHzi
我愣了一下，沒想到他會問這個問題。491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbdFGpQ5wFV
491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy6ufes7jG0
「他應該知道，但他沒跟我說什麼…」491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpx1cvWZtDt
491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtteChvrdq6
「是嗎…我想也是啦。問問而已，妳不要多想。」491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4VKtaq1vis
491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbtoYVen9kR
那一瞬間，我覺得父親的無情是無法被原諒的。491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOMPSDIutpm
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491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHKhk5MrcPP
我拿出那晚編好的手繩，放到他手裡。491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfdsdfXF7Zw
491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkXBgYJ14go
「這是新編的。」491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmEavZtXfGR
491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqG4mGwjBVz
他看了看手繩，又看看我。491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQYKEDZIvDH
491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuUkrjSc9bn
「妳幫我拿櫃子裡的皮夾出來。」491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQmhb62cWoj
491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTQtPIW0xKb
我把皮夾遞給他，他從皮夾裡拿出了…好幾年前的那條幸運手繩。491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkzbV6Ml3dl
491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDUPL7VtUGJ
白色的線都變成灰色，已經髒髒的了，他拿出來時還是小心翼翼。491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBqVfFYsgWY
491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhMHXNXQWX0
「妳看。」他得意。491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTcQrXzECgK
491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvQeYgZBYyI
「虧你能留那麼久，我之前皮包掉了，你的照片也搞丟了…」491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXKl8GbIscy
491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnLY0S0FkuC
「幫我戴新的在手上。」他說。491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxrkUXgrzYH
491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhB0cfMUgwp
我一邊把手繩綁上他變得好細的手腕，一邊說著…491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd1XTDNW6S8
491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf82Qp2rlxb
「我們以前還說要一起合照，但都沒有做到…」491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQE5bVLbsZO
491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfKfCfrr4Ru
「現在拍。」491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIa8LuEqYRO
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「啊？」491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMegwmDp6od
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「現在就拍啊，妳手機有照相功能吧？」491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDmmVUmRfxs
491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2Ak9ZoRmv6
「有。」我拿出手機，翻開摺疊螢幕，開啟相機功能。491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc4o3Sfr4uo
491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8zc2IbInFo
「等一下等一下。」他伸手拿了旁邊的眼鏡戴上。491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEeRtYj9X8F
491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdHQoxXmObr
「我這樣看起來比較不像流氓吧？」他又在笑。491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJVUVKbEhkt
491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg24p8pKTad
我笑了，起身貼近床，把頭靠在他臉旁，拿著手機對著我們倆的大頭拍了一張照片。491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡanRR60dCWK
491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU4Q8llBZoE
491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfVA9FO5ZUE
我坐回椅子上，有那麼一段時間，我們都沒有看著彼此，也沒有說話。491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxShPD4qM7e
491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvYWrxISSCA
「我離婚了。」英傑突然說。
「我被抓後，妳嫂子自己提的。」
「簽字是一定要簽的，拖著她也不對。」491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbjOeQpYlqx
491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ75heJZOwMJ
我想起那個沒有喊過他「爸爸」的兒子，但我沒有勇氣開口問。491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI2l6U87UR9
491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTHniniLEVL
491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYzGq46ofa0
「妳還有在寫小說嗎？」491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNhgRx4dTFN
491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVScYD7dfo2
「…有寫一些小故事。」491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡke78tClCFJ
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「那就好，不要隨便放棄喔。」491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz0NXPAemOS
491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZKXiMI8ye8
「嗯。我好久沒看到你寫的詩了。」491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTOGaoLrwrG
491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs1PIqOeF8p
「我太久沒寫字啦…字已經不漂亮，腦子也沒東西了。」491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEldIRCafVk
491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBWdj2nWk7e
「不會啦，字跡不會隨便改變的。」情感也是。491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYd4pFl6yvZ
491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAYB0MI6wWM
「妹。」491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡokN0YxeZz7
491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzjTRTZbJFD
「嗯？」491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnhoZsCsrUv
491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA2okTlEeGu
「人真的要走到末路的時候，才知道只有家人會無條件的陪在身邊。」
「所以妳一定要好好珍惜家人，不要交壞朋友，也不要太相信外面的人。」
「也不要抽菸、喝太多酒…」
「如果可以，就回去念書，這個社會還是很看學歷…」491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlNGza3TRQi
491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGKrpuySlF1
我突然意識到他正在做什麼。491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ345ef63Cis
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像是交代後事般的叮嚀，我聽在耳裡，痛在心裡，但我不能阻止他這麼做。491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnStALw8phm
491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq6XaYVEFok
因為我甚至不知道還有沒有下一次見他的機會。491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7dyLoXKMFZ
491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9acMInRwsK
491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgT99ddJ1Q6
那天我在醫院陪他直到晚上才離開，他始終笑著，在我面前不表現出痛苦或難過。491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF7WY7dTeOR
491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRnasjQIco6
他也答應讓我再去看他，只是要先跟他聯絡。491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOsrzQ1WON6
491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsWawjqBE7w
「我媽有點介意，所以不希望妳們碰到面。」491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfQGvqhirMe
491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy7MWuMfyVF
爾後我又見了他兩次，其中一次他告訴我，他信了主耶穌。491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvvpN3wGcc5
491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK9g7iWc4w3
我知道是身體病痛的折磨，讓他尋求精神上的慰藉。他親自寫了信給教會的小孩子，用自己的經歷告誡孩子們勿入歧途。491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF6gutkOzZ1
491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7f50F1k8Rk
我知道他害怕，知道他尋求救贖。491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4xS3XDQB8Y
491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcbVdTqAv1E
我知道他就算把地獄或罪人掛在嘴邊，仍是害怕受苦的。491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpjquNEGRTv
491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbxesKvgejk
我知道他也許到了這一刻才開始後悔。491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIOomdhOS36
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但我是欣慰的。491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYDhiiDmjrh
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491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgRZbMxWcwX
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那一天來的又快又急。491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwezn62vwH3
491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuqtrL7GF0i
「妹…」491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm5BHxPsUKF
491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNVg0yF8Tdi
我接起電話，只聽到英傑喊了我，然後是沉重的喘息與啜泣。491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4aAEDYd0H5
491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSGSAcm8YBQ
「你怎麼了？怎麼了？」491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSk5djlSdJU
491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhUdgLiXqHW
還拿著手機和他說話，我已經起身準備出門去醫院。491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcZ9mM92Tq0
491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzfObeGWw77
「我還不想死…」他哭著說。491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfYIGlopmVq
491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCTR4q3rDMj
那句話狠狠地撕裂了我的胸口。491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz7z1s6a2PL
491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF8lWU7XwZl
491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSlask6Kwgg
我跑進病房，英傑似乎剛剛才穩定下來，吊著點滴、眼眶泛紅、面容消瘦，也比上次更加蒼白、手臂上都是青色與紫色的瘀青。491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAlAckE0HlY
491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYSgGFvNhZt
他的母親與姐姐看見我，臉色明顯地不自在。491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmtbiVDc2pW
491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqiEyQfwZxz
英傑打那通電話給我的時候，她們是不是也在呢？491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOddty7Y9Cc
491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGF6AR5ETQW
她們小聲地和英傑說了幾句話，就走出病房，留給我和他說話的空間。491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNe06TupUaX
491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡshDA7O5Hms
491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqfuJjsmqLk
我坐到上次的位置，握住他的手。491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡruaPC4fv7Z
491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWXZjnUa7dj
那雙手已又更瘦更冰冷了。491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPJLxjiU2oJ
491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW9cQczUDPM
「我真的，還不想死。」491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc7Mi9r3A0i
491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7b8v7IvvGP
我握著他的手出了點力。491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq7XevJpr4u
491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiqasow7xiG
「我很害怕。」491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1NdrNgzC4Z
491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWAzt3KknuS
「我很怕死…」491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCk2YIJ3GVe
491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1pgMV3Doz7
他沒看著我，只盯著手。說完，他的眼淚就掉下來。491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVUUFe0eJvt
491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuDWG3mqpS4
那是我第一次看見他掉眼淚，也是最後一次。491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSpHjgBEawT
491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzgxxrWybkg
「你已經悔改了，你一定會去天堂的。」我已經滿臉淚水，但還是看著他的眼睛說。491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4rIAIEmJ07
491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyIONnpxdic
「全身都很痛…」他終於抬頭看我。491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8Lqj28juzs
491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdWabwqUw4s
我趕緊抽幾張衛生紙擦他的臉，他的雙頰與眼窩都已經凹陷，我的手盡可能地放輕力道，就怕他疼。491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡByB3oLbkUv
491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHZ369Hsgb6
「你很努力了，我知道你很努力了…」491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXXumin290g
491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP7Pbe7bRcX
我抱住他，驚覺他已弱不禁風的事實。491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa64iedGNz5
491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF6f5WCmxcv
這讓我倏地停止了自己的眼淚。491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvNeSr0lcHd
491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnbXaZBB4Lo
「沒事的，你的主會帶你離開，之後就不痛苦了。」491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmGFW5Q3fAV
491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfTsznKjq0R
英傑在我的臂彎裡哭泣了許久，才安靜下來。491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRgAsfzWWAq
491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4e3lEqiCvc
491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4K2dKN32iv
「妹。」491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbcvG14rjVh
491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVEfPpSbwqY
「嗯？」491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGxYefZrBx6
491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVN8s1pgehf
「抽屜裡有一封信是給妳的。」491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡakCPl7EEbC
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我打開抽屜，拿起那個信封。491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdgUEy2oFVy
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「回去再看。」491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvYgDF4npYp
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「好。」我收起信。491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZo5CQtlUK1
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「妳回去吧。」491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx0sFQrE01e
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「什麼？」491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmh6dO6LdTM
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「謝謝妳來…可是不要再來了。」491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyGMiodlGnY
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「為什麼？」491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMxsFQhqtXM
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「我不想要妳送我離開，妳會很傷心，我也不想要看到妳那麼傷心。」491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrnsy6IRTok
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「……」491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ43PdFstVzA
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「回去吧。」491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo1WJPzvYVz
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他看著我，又對我笑了，那個笑看起來很費勁，也是他一直以來對我的溫柔表現。491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGDRBzmK6UD
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不讓我送他走，也是哥哥對妹妹的溫柔。491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡak7Li4aceU
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我又抱了抱他才離開。491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡETgaRqoSmE
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當天晚上十點多，我收到他姊姊的簡訊。491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnTbHPaTWp6
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「英傑已經走了。」491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnbrUC68Z0g
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那一瞬間我向心裡所有知道的神祈求，希望英傑能到更好的地方，希望他不要再受苦了。491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzIXtZK2Mxd
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我打開信封，裡面只有一張書籤大的紙。491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDURfS5HYhm
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「Dear 妹：」491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjNru12Tafo
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「妳永遠是我的天使，491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKhRxdwUoxB
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請不要忘記我。」491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRwtoPF6MHL
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「哥 英傑」491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkbUAhRgKe6
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我抱著自己，放任自己哭到睡著。491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwrTAwuxMYj
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之後的每一年，我不選在英傑的忌日，而是在他的冥誕當天悼念他。491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKcAXDe8kUg
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每一年的五月三十，我都會寫一封信，表達我的思念，讓他知道「我沒有忘記他」。491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH5VneANAg3
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前幾年每到這天，我總是哭，總是放任自己因為想念而哭得泣不成聲。491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuCUoywm0HB
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後來的後來，我漸漸不哭了，但沒有改變在這一天寫信的習慣。491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFrQJnCszrq
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英傑的回憶有時像巨石背在背上，有時像羽毛沾在胸口，無論哪一種，都是無法遺棄。491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt2zgbjDICW
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他走後，我便不再輕易評論一個人的好與壞。491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdSbhkw7sqk
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曾經我在英傑的新聞底下看見很多網友的謾罵、抨擊甚至是汙辱，我感到憤怒與心痛，想一個一個回應他們「你們什麼都不知道！」491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTpMAJUqleJ
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但我什麼也沒做。491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaA0bgqMzbi
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因為那些人不認識他，也永遠不會認識他。491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCsD6epA4Py
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所以我再也不對任何新聞或社會事件做評論。因為我知道，我不認識當事人，更不能體會當事人的親屬心情。491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPgt9WPdJN3
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我回去念書，考進了大學，年年以取得獎學金為目標，只為不要白學。491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7jmGY9XXQH
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一直沒有放棄創作，可能也是因為惦記著他說過的話。491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmLd626PP9g
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說起遺憾，大概是我喊他「英傑」比喊他「哥哥」的次數要多更多了吧。491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDLkZmemako
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去年，我沒有寫信。491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLlN7qN3YbU
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我選擇在當天完成他的故事。491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ40kgMQMx3q
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他是一隻孤傲的鷹，獨自在天空闖蕩，受盡風霜，最後回巢，在家人身邊闔上眼。491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoBj2vCS0i2
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我是活在地面的狼，只能抬頭望著，用我的爪在沙上畫下他在天空翱翔的姿態。491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzvimpKazQp
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這是，我哥哥的故事。491Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEFsdyr1pRx
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