我比他先到達高潮，直到那刻我仍沒有出聲，在雙腿緊繃幾秒，高潮退去後，我靠著牆滑坐到地上。405Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2QVEqGgDcC
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然後看著他的體液沾滿手指、手掌和手銬。405Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡICOlAhbEnQ
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「豺姐…？」過了一會兒，他出聲。405Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmK9vmwiTDz
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我做了個深呼吸，站起來，拿起椅子上的裙子和內褲。405Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5az6PmvuY0
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「別動，等我一下。」我走進浴室清理自己。405Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAB9jooXHWX
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出來後，我從包包裡拿出濕紙巾，擦拭他的凌亂。405Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR6LwHXDpog
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「我自己弄就好了…」他窘迫。405Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa6k7phYvB5
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「不要動。」我說。405Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjG6r9taraE
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擦拭完畢後，我解開他的手銬、取下眼罩。405Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAOx7dKBDlv
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他慢慢地睜開眼，室內光線是柔和的黃光，他沒有花太多時間適應。405Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡklIY33fiUq
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「妳臉好紅。」他盯著我。405Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8dLhVMijDS
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「哪有你紅？」我笑了，對著他的身體使了個眼色。405Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZSk8pIIcXu
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他才意識到自己一絲不掛，匆忙站起來跑進浴室。405Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpdSbmOG1qO
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而我的笑容在他進浴室後消失。405Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3MwkWUON4l
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待他出來後，我在桌旁等他，示意他坐到另一張椅子上。405Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbRaCcd9c0k
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「我們結束這樣的關係吧。」
我直接講了重點，在他出來前的內心預演統統沒有用上。說出口後，他的表情定格了好幾秒。405Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDxHPFCneZC
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「為什麼？」405Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUpzCXj0W6J
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我想像得到他會問為什麼，但我卻沒辦法馬上回答他，只是看著他的眼睛，沉默。405Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡntVWSFHufI
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「為什麼啊？」他稍稍提高了音量。405Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡndd0iDd7VB
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「我做錯什麼了嗎？」405Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPeylea57fz
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他不停追問，而我仍沒有出聲。有那麼片刻，我還以為我們是正在協議分手的情侶。405Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6m96QhEYAe
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而那種錯覺正是必需結束的主因。405Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfwUD7ukVZU
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「你是不是越來越依賴我了？」我輕輕的開口。405Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKlDak5CfYj
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「什麼意思？我太黏妳了嗎？我可以不要太常去找妳吃飯啊。」他急著「改正」可能的錯誤。405Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡworZfKjULB
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我搖搖頭，「那不是問題，問題是我也開始依賴你了。」這刻，我還是盯著他的眼睛說話。405Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoly3p3Aqg2
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「……」他語塞。405Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtyHpTRqZ7u
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「有時候我會覺得你像我的男朋友。」
「你從來沒有做過越線的事，就像你一開始保證的那樣。」
「可是當我開始希望你越線的時候，我們的關係就很難維持了。」405Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYgczLBnWAC
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「…妳喜歡我？」他猶疑了一下才說出口。405Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIMWs6h3LlU
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「可能有一點，或只是習慣你。無論如何，這樣不行。」405Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNMrQpXiF4N
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「為什麼不行？」405Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhl2Gt62NJX
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「你喜歡我嗎？有想過跟我交往嗎？或你有想過要跟我上床嗎？」405Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5dkxqf79yr
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他被我突然的問句嚇到，過了一會兒才回應。405Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ15anZgusjA
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「我…沒想過。」405Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡomgrVy5gD9
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「是了。」405Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCMrTms0gyV
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「可是…可是我可以想想看啊，只是…可是…」他慌了，語無倫次。405Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡweWCZaH80H
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「別想了，這樣結束就好。」405Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb8B9QMPjqD
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「我不要！這樣太突然了，我不要啦…」405Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOHVo1kWn5R
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我摸摸他尚帶有水珠的頭髮，覺得他像隻淋濕的小狗，405Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGDyc450Y7w
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惹人憐愛。405Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoE2y2SaTz5
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從一開始就是這樣看待他的，我心裡的情感疊了太多層，無法和他明說。405Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFdXk4cyMow
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「你只是捨不得能陪你玩的對象而已，趁現在結束才不會有更多麻煩。」405Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJuobVNLJ0T
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也許是被我冰冷的話語刺中了，他的眼睛滾下一顆淚珠。我預料中的反應。405Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQcamnJHCCW
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他離開椅子，跪到我面前，像犯錯的孩子。405Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡskxoWpexHD
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如果是情侶，跪著的那個人大概會抱住坐著的人吧？405Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6F0gAc2pv1
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但他沒有，就是隔著剛好的距離，恭敬的、卑微的，跪著。405Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqXFbWY6dBY
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那就是我們之間的距離－－主與奴的，即便我從不肯承認。405Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKKXh2yMuLQ
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「如果我們變成男女朋友，我就能夠留下妳嗎？」他嗚咽的說。405Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEBtEZGwXo9
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那語氣裡滿是委屈，被拋棄的、不情願的…405Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpBurXevqSi
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「我們不會變成男女朋友。」405Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡslPAXy3O7R
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我把椅子拉開，也跪坐到地上，與他平視－－不再是主與奴的視角。405Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWc6HIWbMwS
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「就算我們變成情侶，也沒辦法滿足彼此。」405Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnwCCi0qLoj
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他看著我的眼神，表示不懂我說的意思。405Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgXrUDdBEaD
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我握住他的手，允許自己坦白。405Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyAEOtConnZ
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「你不是想知道我為什麼會使用麻繩嗎？不是一直覺得我對這些事很熟練嗎？」405Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAW6OvdOTb4
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「那是因為我以前也做過。」405Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj7ZlFYlZQ3
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他的眼睛倏地睜大，「我沒有別的奴。」我的雙手使了點力，示意要他繼續聽我說話。405Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqaVMcnLA86
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「……我以前是服從的角色。」405Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuwMRYyyHcN
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「那些我對你做的事，都是以前別人對我做過的。」405Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhXJGYw518e
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「所以我才知道怎麼進行，但以前那個人很野蠻，我都被弄得很痛，所以我才不希望你受任何傷。」405Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBM18kG0wXs
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「我更不希望當你看見傷痕的時候會想起我。」405Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNWdxPf4IlV
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我看著他，沒有移開目光。405Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2YsgB5fJLJ
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那些時候我看著他，會把自己的過去與他重疊。405Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2dfFe3J0zM
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對他的處境所衍生的心疼，或許也參雜了更多私心，不曉得是心疼他，還是心疼過去的自己。405Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzLPHfg5bgI
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他傻住了，什麼話也說不出來。405Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1WCo7QRToi
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我放開他的手，再次摸摸他的頭髮。405Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEZZtvIkVwV
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「去吹乾頭髮吧，會感冒的。」405Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlmNwMSbr8B
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離開旅館後，我們再也沒有見過面了。405Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTqFLNKRfWL
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那天晚上我在自己的記事本裡寫了一段這樣的話：405Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAcmw8qTzCh
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「我們都只是被情慾支配的獸，你是狗，但你不知道我是狼。」405Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV0jdozRd8S
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