愛情像顆種子，深埋在胸口，有天它無預警地冒出了小芽，你甚至沒注意到它呢，它就開始茁壯了。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeaSHq4H0St
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後知後覺的我，待胸口的芽已成了小樹，才意識到它的存在。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsUdyps3kRC
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然而我沒有繼續灌溉滋養它，而是拿起大剪，抹去了它未來的可能。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSrRJU9oM7p
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逃避式的不和阿龍見面，每次的邀約都從馬上答應變成立刻拒絕，刻意到像是要讓他知道這是刻意的。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyfRwRsCeLC
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也許我心裡某處的希望，是他戳破我的刻意，把已經歪斜的天秤打翻。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR9TN39OGRZ
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但他沒有。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNmV72xTkCZ
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在第五個或第六個週末，他不再打電話來；而我，也開始和追求自己的男人約會了。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFcuCxrRSee
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或許是直覺，也或許是太了解，我知道就算阿龍喜歡我，他也不會承認。愛情和友情、親情不一樣的是，我們很容易因為自私，而要求對方改變、要求對方配合自己。認識阿龍那麼久，加上這段時間的相處，我也知道要是兩人交往，會有諸多問題與不合。我不害怕自作多情的丟臉，而是害怕我們的關係一改變，就再也回不去。
說穿了，就是沒有勇氣。
我的勇氣不足，阿龍也是。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx6LjzEPlHl
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再接到阿龍電話是半年後的事了。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGdbSLUMhwh
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花了半年時間，體會了一段荒謬的戀愛，還以非常難看且難堪的方式收尾，搞得全世界都知道了，當然也包括阿龍在內。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgaaekfHqC8
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「妳在家嗎？」545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNaIPcJXRrL
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「嗯。」545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmKIdhCSvvd
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「下來。」545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFcThbZzYQe
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我下樓，看到阿龍的車停在門口。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWpcvZPBAXy
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阿龍從車裡出來，戴著墨鏡，咧嘴笑開，他整齊漂亮的牙齒回來了。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVXq2nfQjlo
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「上車。」他敲敲車子。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtzfR8p5Zd9
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「去哪裡？」扣好安全帶，我問。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5oMFqCiDur
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「把妳載去賣。」545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGjuoYqykdZ
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「嗯，好。」545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm0SGaytYgO
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阿龍又笑了，雖然我沒笑。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsUfDp6usi0
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我把椅背往後仰了些，閉上眼睛，整個人躺在椅子上。其實，我也不是那麼在乎阿龍要帶我去哪裡。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdNiKrwwzqC
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「起床了。」545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTP6elPVGEJ
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「快點起來，小豺！」545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5Gq8U9KiHU
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我張開眼睛，居然睡著了啊…545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKqSTDnSxrD
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「妳是多累啊？有好好睡覺嗎？」545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4dCfQ2qD7m
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我還躺在椅子上，只稍微轉頭看駕駛座的阿龍，他戴著墨鏡，我看不清楚他的眼神，但他的眉頭緊緊的皺在一起。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYwbVlTfoVq
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「我臺灣人啊，上車睡覺，下車尿尿。」545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVGoC8u0WG8
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「噗嗤。」他的眉頭鬆開了。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi7vBJ6e0gI
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「我們在哪？」我坐起來，解開安全帶，看看車子外面，我們在某個停車場。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQf8Om9hPEH
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「在山上。」545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJkYUsfCvNH
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下車後，看到了熟悉的特大尊土地公神像，還有往山頂土地公廟延伸的樓梯…545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZLRKnMDlPL
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「你要拜拜啊？」545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiDc1GXIMeE
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「沒有，妳最近不是很愛爬山嗎？帶妳來山上走走啊。」545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcQoDgcB9iM
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「……喔…」
我心裡一沉。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxd8dm7zuEN
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我們延著樓梯，爬到了山頂的土地公廟，便隨意找了個地方坐下，那是山頂的展望區。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwmxxLKTJ3Z
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「那是什麼山啊？」
我指著橫過城市、遠處一座被雲海包圍的山。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxiM6SLRD5i
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「我哪知道。」545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8lB37LMHU7
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「……說的也是。」545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxxEPbLRcUd
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「失戀的人不要一直待在家裡。」
好長一段沉默過後，阿龍開口說。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM7tkuJXUFb
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「嗯。」
我知道，阿龍是帶我出來散心的。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaeJoNeiu9V
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「會發霉。」545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaEeiJqIpHV
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「哈。」我舉起手聞了聞，再把手湊到阿龍鼻子前。「你聞聞看，有沒有發霉的味道？」545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSy7I71BVke
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「噁，有耶，妳看妳的手，都長香菇了。」545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOlYwvGnVMl
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「我這是靈芝，你懂屁啊！」545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx2R9hthsUD
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「妳還是這樣笑比較好。」545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwjHCcDqkmM
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「啊？」545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsowbCeffbp
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「我剛以為自己要出借胸口還是肩膀讓妳哭一下勒。」545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkZsM5vMhip
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「哈…你很噁心耶。」545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQG0ewibsgf
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「什麼噁心，欸，我的胸口還算結實吧？」他搥搥自己的胸。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjtlJzbbblO
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「是啦是啦，好結實，可是我不需要啦。」545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoyIsmEULnm
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「不識貨，那不然肩膀？」
他又拍拍自己的肩。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1iXC3Hr5r8
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我笑出來，這傢伙真是夠了。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx9dGBfdrv1
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「好啦，我勉強用一下。」545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFtz6fcykWU
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我坐到阿龍旁邊，把頭靠上他的肩膀。
「這樣？」我說。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7tZjmSOCgZ
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他把手繞過我，摟住我的肩，這個動作，讓我從肩膀滑到胸口。
「這樣。」他說。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlrurLsLH7O
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我聽得見阿龍的心跳，以規律的速度跳動著，咚，咚，咚。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSgbB3jFY36
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那是我和他最靠近的一次。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfiExqENjXZ
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待續。
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