愛情像顆種子，深埋在胸口，有天它無預警地冒出了小芽，你甚至沒注意到它呢，它就開始茁壯了。579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEoCUdG5KQW
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後知後覺的我，待胸口的芽已成了小樹，才意識到它的存在。579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo3piCtwZYI
579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5Mnl2WjPUU
然而我沒有繼續灌溉滋養它，而是拿起大剪，抹去了它未來的可能。579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3FBQnR8nmw
579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡphKTkG7jHO
逃避式的不和阿龍見面，每次的邀約都從馬上答應變成立刻拒絕，刻意到像是要讓他知道這是刻意的。579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCc1BXEgQz8
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也許我心裡某處的希望，是他戳破我的刻意，把已經歪斜的天秤打翻。579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG9gsIAVcAA
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但他沒有。579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7EvUX4OzoL
579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH4so0seOpY
在第五個或第六個週末，他不再打電話來；而我，也開始和追求自己的男人約會了。579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIoVxN47cEL
579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfxi4H2lku6
或許是直覺，也或許是太了解，我知道就算阿龍喜歡我，他也不會承認。愛情和友情、親情不一樣的是，我們很容易因為自私，而要求對方改變、要求對方配合自己。認識阿龍那麼久，加上這段時間的相處，我也知道要是兩人交往，會有諸多問題與不合。我不害怕自作多情的丟臉，而是害怕我們的關係一改變，就再也回不去。
說穿了，就是沒有勇氣。
我的勇氣不足，阿龍也是。579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyDOnfaFJ1R
579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg4EDT3LMCv
579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPF3VoE9tus
再接到阿龍電話是半年後的事了。579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgP2AFyEWeW
579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ15U08a2x2z
花了半年時間，體會了一段荒謬的戀愛，還以非常難看且難堪的方式收尾，搞得全世界都知道了，當然也包括阿龍在內。579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡngQ3sO2Om2
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「妳在家嗎？」579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrHW3tQxCtA
579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNfSSFA0FQY
「嗯。」579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7B8vQe2dp5
579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbunOSguk87
「下來。」579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUHeA87ZF0o
579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7Dowc9b1L8
我下樓，看到阿龍的車停在門口。579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuIZBC46jBE
579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTPzx0fubdn
阿龍從車裡出來，戴著墨鏡，咧嘴笑開，他整齊漂亮的牙齒回來了。579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg1LgCCxb4k
579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvWB3DjxS0U
「上車。」他敲敲車子。579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhJfSKdIp7E
579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkVdeJlPwsl
「去哪裡？」扣好安全帶，我問。579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSQWOtQaSnI
579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWzwiNVDpMq
「把妳載去賣。」579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjXUbRgQm21
579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3BCztxS43z
「嗯，好。」579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgrU5ofZUT6
579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEahe4mph0N
阿龍又笑了，雖然我沒笑。579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXaPwnBe3gh
579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTHAobQ7sxg
我把椅背往後仰了些，閉上眼睛，整個人躺在椅子上。其實，我也不是那麼在乎阿龍要帶我去哪裡。579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5zGGubmwWU
579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ47DFI6xEpH
「起床了。」579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoLF0fv5i6S
579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiXxkkVR59C
「快點起來，小豺！」579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTPn77F0ZW1
579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOo2ZLZIWPc
我張開眼睛，居然睡著了啊…579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc2UjaCF2qZ
579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSQmCmNsO9i
「妳是多累啊？有好好睡覺嗎？」579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5K4wyLDXW1
579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbt0mxFfwL7
我還躺在椅子上，只稍微轉頭看駕駛座的阿龍，他戴著墨鏡，我看不清楚他的眼神，但他的眉頭緊緊的皺在一起。579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFlVlY9UvX0
579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFHx5RkAj92
「我臺灣人啊，上車睡覺，下車尿尿。」579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhHJhpvLOn1
579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgv3JcT9u2r
「噗嗤。」他的眉頭鬆開了。579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUfUHfREbpo
579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHOWKDVvYUI
「我們在哪？」我坐起來，解開安全帶，看看車子外面，我們在某個停車場。579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx0zWATnNzx
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「在山上。」579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡchxL5yyNDO
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下車後，看到了熟悉的特大尊土地公神像，還有往山頂土地公廟延伸的樓梯…579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdNOWvza5TT
579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJoIbO7QhEx
「你要拜拜啊？」579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2JOdILZyX6
579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLmemqKZ9GA
「沒有，妳最近不是很愛爬山嗎？帶妳來山上走走啊。」579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwrCEKwR9Rq
579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuoLpNFNwOi
「……喔…」
我心裡一沉。579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdhRgZf7rll
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579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHHAPG2mznw
我們延著樓梯，爬到了山頂的土地公廟，便隨意找了個地方坐下，那是山頂的展望區。579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl9i6kWNtBV
579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgPhw1NnFgz
「那是什麼山啊？」
我指著橫過城市、遠處一座被雲海包圍的山。579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgSfLwkYgf1
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「我哪知道。」579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh1EZd93Jy6
579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0bCybZGxE5
「……說的也是。」579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnqAmYK22Dt
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579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMo84EIum9J
「失戀的人不要一直待在家裡。」
好長一段沉默過後，阿龍開口說。579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhV09BaNU4G
579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxdUzLMxVMP
「嗯。」
我知道，阿龍是帶我出來散心的。579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1xLTf0RrXg
579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgZ0Htg1p6M
「會發霉。」579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8sHiPAH6c3
579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHLkqClv11B
「哈。」我舉起手聞了聞，再把手湊到阿龍鼻子前。「你聞聞看，有沒有發霉的味道？」579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSH7pAYiESh
579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqR1uDTSDax
「噁，有耶，妳看妳的手，都長香菇了。」579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiRsNTZQQCZ
579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5wXkZNtHWN
「我這是靈芝，你懂屁啊！」579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrBz6itmUAM
579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGXuawEmYCe
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「妳還是這樣笑比較好。」579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZA66YNYdD1
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「啊？」579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1rWK79A8ic
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「我剛以為自己要出借胸口還是肩膀讓妳哭一下勒。」579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8qmwSEmYKG
579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiBB9XRASzR
「哈…你很噁心耶。」579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFKETPXaJCC
579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwnxWQuOhWw
「什麼噁心，欸，我的胸口還算結實吧？」他搥搥自己的胸。579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDr14gAHqiw
579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9vp8wk3j1G
「是啦是啦，好結實，可是我不需要啦。」579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ86VOXYgdnO
579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu5NNZJVSgB
「不識貨，那不然肩膀？」
他又拍拍自己的肩。579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqCNxKZTreV
579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqkWAOb5L89
我笑出來，這傢伙真是夠了。579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfELr7F4azY
579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdeEpDkMHxg
「好啦，我勉強用一下。」579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwYhVcfzKGe
579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSuEMn5B6zy
我坐到阿龍旁邊，把頭靠上他的肩膀。
「這樣？」我說。579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt2oTZiZhqh
579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTLSWWdV5gQ
他把手繞過我，摟住我的肩，這個動作，讓我從肩膀滑到胸口。
「這樣。」他說。579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5fPwXJbL7o
579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZn56d9aON1
我聽得見阿龍的心跳，以規律的速度跳動著，咚，咚，咚。579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkVMGrBNVYk
579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY3JfBpCUzH
那是我和他最靠近的一次。579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwGOt0I5Q5U
579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8goUE1Fxm2
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待續。
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