第五十九．五章656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoVjdFDx04J
656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu3PCvNfKGe
「何鵬侑，其實你對我仲有無感覺？」656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfsTZTEl2mx
我終於都決定要問一次，這一個一直埋藏在我心底裡的問題。656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7LSAwMAcrT
656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBhTlccmem5
我已經拖延了Alvin不少時間了，他可是還要回去為姐姐買晚飯的。656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlGD2tEUYLw
雖然心裡是這樣想著，但我還是把他從醫院帶來了車站，再由車站從帶到來了現在暫住的家樓下。656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB2HF3MqWi1
原因就只是希望能夠問道他這一條問題……656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFinKjcg5af
656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGK7fPgEuW7
但當我問完後，只見Alvin思考了一會。656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa5GYpeg6ie
拜託，你一定要回答「已經放下了我」。656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKfK0lgYMHc
這樣我才能夠有藉口都讓自己放下你的……656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡebWxqlBzmD
656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWnJ1VXmnpd
「你要我老實答嘅話，喺仲有感覺。」他思考完後，就看著我說。656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzs82xELr9Z
聽到他這一個答案，我的大腦頓時如同電腦當了機一樣。656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjPLC2nYvwi
他這個答案，完全打亂了我原先預定好要與他說的話……656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuE8lr0g5MI
656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuqakypsBhc
我初初是希望他會回答我「已經放下了」。656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvON9Y0ukbN
然後我就可以順勢假裝自己都放下，並與他再一次由「朋友」的關係，重新再來一次。656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD6yeVLMkLK
但現在他竟然直接回答我「還有感覺」……656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoPhdNlYSkQ
656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9WlAlpB6pS
單單就是這一句，就足夠令我已經很想立即走進他懷中，然後跟他說，其實我都一樣還沒有放下……656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpDPLt2gNpg
雖然感性上，我真的想與他再一起。656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEVZjmyaUNs
但理性上告訴了我，一開始令他失望及傷心的人……是我。656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy3Tmx7vLoS
即使我知道一切都已經過去了……656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡArP151mD8p
但是曾經的傷痕裂縫，是沒法輕易就能填補得到的。656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt2E2mbrqPV
我或許已經沒有資格，在他的心裡再佔上一格。656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDK9o2AyKRJ
我更不能再在他的心裡刻上第二條傷痕……656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPTOcTIFutA
656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr6CY6u1Q6f
但是這刻情緒已經有一點開始湧現出來。656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiq6nJN15LZ
然而，我都一定要假裝冷靜，不能讓他看穿我此刻的情緒。656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrcK0wHu9c4
於是我便深呼吸了一下，然後說：「都過咗成年啦……點會仲有感覺架……」656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFBFpRgOO6q
我說著的時候，心裡其實都一陣隱隱作痛。656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTRd3tNNsTb
656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0r4vGxiMrW
「原先都無乜架啦，但同你相遇翻之後，個感覺即刻出翻哂嚟。」656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡICZPK1qpro
他回答著我。656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcBP6V4rDAc
為何你一定要說這些說話呢……656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk7qymcwRIc
656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm1oulflO5M
雖然心裡很難受，但我自己弄出來的問題，就必須由我自己來解決。656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkhGQ86XSqo
「問題就喺呢到啦！」我立即回應他。656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYRjB96FkmJ
而他都很快就看著我問：「問題？」656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2UdZhKqQFW
656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsYX6jZVjK7
「我哋依家嘅身份仲喺前男女朋友，所以一見翻臉就自然會咩感覺都出翻哂嚟……明明大家都已經分咗手成年，但你仲喺好似move on唔到咁。」656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfXykmgr9wZ
我都不知道自己正在亂說著甚麼……但我說完後，就立即轉身背向著他。656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqJHkE3xCqk
因為我真的開始壓抑不住心中一直不斷湧現著的情緒了……656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEpEn72WGr9
每當我說一句與心相反的說話，我就變得更難受了。656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVtAUUzO2Qy
656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSF8Eowz0eG
「你咁樣講，好似講到自己已經放低咗咁。」他又回應了我。656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRUMzPgfX4E
原來你認為我已經將你放下了嗎……656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9PhoVkIYlf
雖然，心真的很痛，但既然已經決定了，我就必須繼續演下去。656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRSIwE884Ak
656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAJzhKL7x9u
「我……放低咗架啦！」我說道。656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxXhPwi9Qng
但這時候，淚水都終於壓抑不住，從雙眼開始流下來。656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpdWNfyxgbw
對不起……我撒謊了，但這都是為了你好。656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIps2nPNSyI
656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1NJ91icQDT
「喺啊……你放低到咪好囉……唔似我咁。」他回答我。656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWZlJicrdRf
拜託不要再說這些說話了……656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlmI2VytMwb
656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkUwzoAzVkE
此刻，聽完他的說話後，我的心真很痛，很痛，很痛。656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxqKjGocT8p
但是我還得繼續演下去……656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEPk8RwB1Uc
於是我強忍著眼淚，並轉身看著他。656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUSO5tmZvl3
656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqRugnFlLQk
幸好，這時旁邊的的路燈剛好因時限而熄滅了。656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4rRf0UcR7b
這麼暗的環境，他應該是看不到我的表情的……656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDPS9p2xLHz
於是我便立即向他說道：「所以我覺得點解有時我哋喺班房到會有啲尷尬就喺因為我哋身份嘅問題。」656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5B6ixEOpqo
句子之間完全沒有停頓，因為一停頓下來，我就會又想哭了。656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLIBPspuQC3
656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2h1r06NVDN
「身份嘅問題？」他問道我。656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDTFl4ceE2b
「你仲覺得我喺你前女朋友，所以有時喺交流上先會有啲尷尬……你應該好似我咁放低哂，然後就以一個新嘅身份去面對你！」656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuJ6TfbZvdE
我看似很有道理地說著。656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvTredz534R
但其實我根本就沒有放下過對他的感情。656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWQLyBtGZMn
656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmvmsVpGYyB
接著，Alvin竟然沒有回應我。656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlUQ3ejYXVW
於是我都只好繼續說：「不如我哋重新嚟過，唔喺曾經嘅戀人，唔喺前男女朋友，而喺重新由朋友呢個關係再開始過。」656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy2FNvTZxZ3
本來這一句說話，是打算一開始在他回答我「已經放下了」後，就接著說的。656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgdXcKs6BNV
656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdZxmjouMsQ
656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4In7S02ZFM
雖然我都希望我們能從「朋友」再重新開始過。656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCvQE7rkzXM
但至少都讓我有一個藉口去先放下對你的感情吧……656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBEhxapP28h
現在這樣反而讓我更不想去放下對你的感情了……656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5QmR7fqEZU
656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLiyiTKMQSp
「你嘅意思即喺我哋做翻朋友，好似啲典型嘅分手對白咁。」他又開口說道了。656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLlLCXfYDSB
「咁唔好咩？你又可以放低我，而我哋又可以繼續正正常常咁交流……」656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrhkcnHaDNp
這對現在的我們來說，應該是最好的解決方法了。656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmt8lo5u6wO
656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeZ80sertV7
接著Alvin都沉默了一會，看來他都應該是在思考著這個唯一的解決方法。656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6HkAZEdevt
而很快，他都彷彿想通了一樣開口說：「好啦，我哋做翻朋友啦咁！由今日起，我哋就只喺朋友。」656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡztjFS2Bmda
656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4NZHFO3No1
當我聽到他說我們只是朋友時，我就知道「何鵬侑與蔡霜玥」這段關係，在這一瞬間……完結了。656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSYWGqUkAQp
雖然這本來就是我的目的，但為何當我聽到他所說後，我反而更難過……656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbWoJkY7uuP
656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlZMg1wP1R7
我的眼淚又開始從雙眼流下。656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5sNZreaiM6
但現在與他這麼近的距離，他一定會看得見我臉上的淚水。656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwIaiJPNOKR
656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeDQmTASDu6
因此，我只好立即轉身，並強忍著淚水說：「好啦……時間唔早啦，你……快啲翻去買飯比家姐啦，我都要上翻去煮自己份晚餐啦！」656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxm6lSqqn06
接著，我就背向著他揮手，並往前面的方向跑去。656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUZNIienl4o
我必須離開他，因為我實在不能再忍耐下去了。656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpx6MvT5jNW
再這樣下去，我一定會在他面前痛哭出來的……656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlq2X9vjXVv
我不想他後悔。656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYSUBv3UT5w
656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMgsKbitHxl
我跑著的時候，並沒有理會身後的Alvin是站著還是轉身離開了。656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyHOnTEGnmx
淚水已經不斷從雙眼滲出，而我都只能加快腳步走回家中。656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2Kaa7JRrkn
656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuTQ6lZey1A
接著，當我成功回到家，打開了門進到屋內，並閉上門的一剎那……656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7zc06CGEIn
我直接跪在地上，大聲地哭起來……656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡILyvhTui7q
對上一次，我會這樣大聲哭出來，應該是與Alvin提出分手後……656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIvHjwn1Val
656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfH6YcqDe8x
「好痛，好痛，好痛……」我哭著的同時一直說著。656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDn6fWOZpPX
這一刻，並沒有任何人能在我身邊能夠安慰及陪伴著我。656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO5vhg05mN7
而我都只能一直痛哭著，直到淚水流乾涸為止……656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSqOleCYkih
656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1xFGRtN8EH
對不起，何鵬侑，是我親手摧毀了我們這一段感情的。656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN7lw9SI8J6
過去你所認識的蔡霜玥，將不再存在。656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWBgjKAmh0r
而接下來的蔡霜玥，都只會與你以「朋友」的身份繼續相處。656Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4zLDxCFeWa
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