第一二八章:畢業營(七)448Please respect copyright.PENANAjePTeUaq0n
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一聲喊道下,我便把Mandy拉到懷中緊抱著。448Please respect copyright.PENANAILMLbCMw9X
已經不知道,這個舉動到底是理性控制,還是感性驅動了……448Please respect copyright.PENANAqb9HuYGHgr
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不過在我懷中的Mandy,也在一陣錯愕過後。448Please respect copyright.PENANAILGh5vpcqi
便輕聲地說:「做咩咁突然攬住人……」448Please respect copyright.PENANAcl03EpRhM8
「唔知……我都唔知點解自己會突然咁做。」我仍然摟抱著她說道。448Please respect copyright.PENANAWdFbyw0QtA
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而我們唯持了這個姿勢大約半分鐘後,她也再說:「一陣比其他人睇到啊……」448Please respect copyright.PENANAdrLBK6e4VS
聽到她這這番說話,我才下意識過來,現在還是在營區內,隨時都會有同級的同學或老師出現。448Please respect copyright.PENANARx2ODzTjWH
因此,我便很快把她推離懷中,並說:「對……對唔住。」448Please respect copyright.PENANAEObOPdefRV
但她沒有責怪我突然的舉動,反而是臉頰泛起一點紅地盯著地板看。448Please respect copyright.PENANAz8IoFg17up
我想,突然被人抱入懷中,有這個反應也不奇怪。448Please respect copyright.PENANAHTCEaFtTVS
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「不如我哋去個邊企?」448Please respect copyright.PENANAhfvvX3ma6b
發現氣氛變得有點尷尬起來的我,便指向了近河畔邊的平台。448Please respect copyright.PENANArpZ4T0tEuU
她抬頭看一看我指向的方向,沉默了一會。448Please respect copyright.PENANAsPv2566m6J
接著也少少聲地在嘴邊說:「好。」448Please respect copyright.PENANAuS15xWFOiL
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隨即我們便一同往平台的方向前去,不過路途上卻沒有任何傾談。448Please respect copyright.PENANAmAWOWyU8BK
畢竟,現在我腦中想著的,都只是她那一句「道別」。448Please respect copyright.PENANAU9rBqqVolW
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直到我們來到平台,並雙雙靠在欄杆上。448Please respect copyright.PENANAXqAkzfzyqD
她也開口說:「聖誕之後,我就會翻番澳洲讀書。」448Please respect copyright.PENANAaFqqJMU8FV
「喺啊……」我竟然比想像中表現得平淡。448Please respect copyright.PENANAam9nWbkQZK
而她對於的我反應,似乎都感到有點意外。448Please respect copyright.PENANAaAFmVimNcy
於是好奇地望向我,隨即我都一同與她對視起來。448Please respect copyright.PENANAMlqbG15Bgl
「阿侑你嘅反應比我想像中冷靜喎……啊,唔喺。你啱先都無啦啦攬住我。」448Please respect copyright.PENANAjZDQAk2ujM
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其實我的反應會如此鎮定,可能是因為我早就猜想到會有這一天的來臨。448Please respect copyright.PENANAEF8mYu0Osl
始終,她已經不是第一次離開我了。448Please respect copyright.PENANAddBrmGp3Wj
三年前,她因為移民而前往了澳洲。448Please respect copyright.PENANA409CRxOh6I
可是在一年後又回來了與我再次相遇。448Please respect copyright.PENANAlsbmY3fAB9
但是她的家人仍然在澳洲,這樣代表,終有一天,她還是要離開……448Please respect copyright.PENANAP5ctT2wfp4
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「點解又突然翻去讀書?」448Please respect copyright.PENANAzApb3dJSOV
她沒有即時回答,而是扭過頭去看著前方一片漆黑的河畔。448Please respect copyright.PENANAw4d0LVTdcV
「本來都諗住考埋DSE先,但屋企人都希望我唔好考,而喺返去讀多兩年high school,然後直接駁入U。」448Please respect copyright.PENANAAw6HzU8o8m
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聽到她這樣說道,我都瞬間理解到為何她的家人會作出如此的抉擇。448Please respect copyright.PENANAXLKNaepY3m
畢竟論教育,香港的教育實在太過落後,只專注在菁英培育上。448Please respect copyright.PENANA05YQ0z3FYH
然後又推行現在的「一試定生死」方式,來區分能力高與低的學生。448Please respect copyright.PENANAaMb4uzJ9UE
分分鐘考入大學還比在麻將桌上以海底撈月食糊更難呢。448Please respect copyright.PENANAv1FU0Ad7jD
換做是我的話,都會選擇在海外升學。448Please respect copyright.PENANAVlFSjZ4fsX
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在她的話後,我也一同望向眼前漆黑的河畔。448Please respect copyright.PENANAp2A6faAJLJ
頓時覺得眼前的景色,就如同不久的未來一樣。448Please respect copyright.PENANAj7QakV1cZp
現在晚上看著,只會覺得一團漆黑,根本捉摸不清眼前的事物。448Please respect copyright.PENANA8Z669l7ppa
換做早上看著的話,卻會清楚地看到河畔上所有的景物。448Please respect copyright.PENANAC0mI9JpjS5
人,會因為一時的迷茫,而失去向前的動力。448Please respect copyright.PENANAi9Cbk51jyM
但又會因為熟悉而感到舒適,並最後失去了探索的動力。448Please respect copyright.PENANADGa6y6O5pQ
到底是選擇留在舒適圈,還是離開,都將會引致不同的未來。448Please respect copyright.PENANAAnnyHYA4qA
而我們往往擔憂的,就只是那個未來到底適不適合自己。448Please respect copyright.PENANArQyDicRTEw
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Mandy發現我沒有回應,於是又再說起來:「所以今次真喺要再見啦。」448Please respect copyright.PENANAp7D8VcSDXq
她又再一次提起了「再見」這一回事。448Please respect copyright.PENANAjh37ZuK5R9
但這次我並沒有像剛一樣立即把她拉到懷中,而是說出心中話:448Please respect copyright.PENANAqccg7tR5ir
「老實講啊,其實我唔想你走。」448Please respect copyright.PENANAVBUxTgoGJf
「我知啊,啱先你攬住我個陣,我聽到啊。」她在話後便微笑起來。448Please respect copyright.PENANAMgNa0v1hiU
感覺就像在回味剛才的一刻一樣。448Please respect copyright.PENANA10272vsz3C
但接著又再問:「點解咁唔想我走?」448Please respect copyright.PENANAEF9XIpGphK
「因為我自私囉。」我直接說道。448Please respect copyright.PENANAvhCxklGBJX
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然而,她又沒有立即回答,而是轉過身來背靠在欄杆上。448Please respect copyright.PENANAqGc9TAXS5l
「唔可以自私喺我到架。」448Please respect copyright.PENANASFScjVpLND
「點解啊?」我一臉好奇地反問道。448Please respect copyright.PENANA0JatN7RGbu
「因為……我唔值得你自私囉!」448Please respect copyright.PENANALFqTkglBYH
她這樣一說,使我愣住了。448Please respect copyright.PENANA8rcDUvJjgF
但是正當我開口時,她又說:「仲有其他人值得你自私。」448Please respect copyright.PENANA87vaEWcLF8
「你嘅其他人喺指?」448Please respect copyright.PENANABx1j21iDBW
「Venus啊,Elaine啊,甚至可能喺你畢業之後識嘅人。」448Please respect copyright.PENANAb8dNc7EqqM
在她提起Venus的名字時,我的腦海卻聯想起一段畫面。448Please respect copyright.PENANAhhcScv3xo2
就是開學的那一天,她與Venus在6C班門前談天的時候。448Please respect copyright.PENANAOPNqCnvBSE
因此我也不禁問:「愛瑩喺咪一早知架啦?」448Please respect copyright.PENANAE4stO51dqp
她點頭,然後望向夜空:「班入面有幾個女仔都知。其實我都諗住差唔多時間同大家講架啦。」448Please respect copyright.PENANAxPYWgFUeDB
即使與全班說,大家都知道後,都是改變不了她要離開的事實。448Please respect copyright.PENANAsMWdi0Oyap
而我此刻想對她就只是:「比我……」448Please respect copyright.PENANAUoifzvGTwu
「時間都唔早啦,不如我哋翻去啦。」448Please respect copyright.PENANA3r5faelvh4
她突然的一句打斷了我的說話。448Please respect copyright.PENANA53YP7tzoVc
是巧合?還是刻意呢?448Please respect copyright.PENANA96K6z6IyjA
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並且她在提議後,只是雙眼默默地凝視著我。448Please respect copyright.PENANAXaJMU3dHhl
我隨即只能吞下還在口中的說話,點頭回應:448Please respect copyright.PENANAJcPxmQgdCP
「都好。」448Please respect copyright.PENANAcK0L6d5ecl
答應了的這一刻也代表著,我們的話題,將會在此結束……448Please respect copyright.PENANA9u0tK1ifx1
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片刻後,我帶著複雜的心情返回了宿舍內。448Please respect copyright.PENANAMzo39FM1v5
並在打開門的一刻,就見Harriet拿著毛巾及衣服在大廳的沙發上看著電視。448Please respect copyright.PENANAFI53IFj7Au
「散完步翻嚟啦?」Harriet看見我的出現,便立即問道。448Please respect copyright.PENANAKn2iDf1Dxq
而我只是坐到他的旁邊,並靠在沙發上嘆氣起來。448Please respect copyright.PENANAMISIgHXRcj
「唉,感情真喺好複雜呢。」448Please respect copyright.PENANAOfctkCjbcU
他先是愣住了,但是也一同靠向後,並輕笑了一聲說:448Please respect copyright.PENANAN8R1Ja20tP
「喺啊,感情真喺好複雜架。」448Please respect copyright.PENANAl0VHtrGKf0
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「想放手,但又想捉緊,真複雜」448Please respect copyright.PENANAfEvODM60FB