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某一天，在午息時段，Ivy悶悶不樂地來到學校的庭園。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS99C8AZwiy
找了一個寧靜的角落，獨自一人坐下，不禁嘆息起來。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2y0dZTECoD
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原來在剛才午飯時間，Ivy又一次鼓起勇氣邀約Alvin一同吃午飯。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVVd8lEIrmS
可是早就習慣了與其他男生一同外出用膳的Alvin。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXlZoEHTWuG
並且升上中學後，根本就沒有被女生邀約吃飯。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3BlhgVVpBt
因此Ivy突如其來邀約，再加上當時朋友們的催促，Alvin也只好當下拒絕了她的邀請。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡALII0zHNvf
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被喜歡的人拒絕邀約，除了感到可惜及失望之外，就根本甚麼都做不到。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkoE9VhyV0f
Ivy曾經嘗試融入對方的生活圈子之中，卻永遠都只是停留在表面上的融入。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXEIjaVNCks
至今，她與Alvin仍然是維持在每天上學見面時談上兩三句話的局面。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVw7qIPZPrh
即使放學後，她與Alvin透過WhatsApp聊天的次數，也少之又少。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtvUP8mWZyY
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「Alvin都好似唔多理我咁……莫非真喺要好似Laura咁講，直接同佢講我鍾意佢……」530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNBjg1YZyA5
這時，在Ivy的腦海中也閃現出前陣子Laura的一句說話。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWYmIF6Awk0
那句叫她向喜歡的人坦承的說話。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdbVeNFYyP7
可是對於性格偏向內向的Ivy來說，要與喜歡的人坦白，可是一件難若登天的事情。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQsZcF78BWL
單是起初鼓起勇氣向Alvin進一步搭訕，她其實也在心裡掙扎了好幾天。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqGMfoBJOc9
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「你鍾意Alvin啊？」530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqdD7PG2aPj
突然有一把男聲從Ivy的後方傳來。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoWEJQsaQxI
使得她馬上驚慌失色起來，並隨即轉過身來，查看聲音的主人。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbrVM443Qnu
「Dan……？點解你會嚟庭園嘅？」530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDilUSwXlyn
在確認是同班的同學後，Ivy也接著好奇地問道。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbkJS7cxhis
畢竟，學校的庭園平常根本不會有人到訪。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkzGmzGFNks
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「食飽飯無嘢做，咪嚟行過圈囉……但竟然比我八卦到啲嘢啊，呵呵。」530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ83gA08hjbe
Dan在說著的同時，奸笑起來，然後就盯著Ivy，等待對方辯解。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRmAbzrvcPc
「你唔好講出啊！我求你！」Ivy當然是立即雙手合十，不斷向Dan請求著。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1Vi8yWHmwi
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接著，Dan也抓一抓自己的頭髮，一臉沾沾自喜地說：530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVogN0k3Pev
「乜我似啲會將人哋秘密亂咁爆出去嘅人咩？」530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZxbyACN03y
Ivy思考了一會Dan的這句話，然後就搖頭說：「咁又唔似……」530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiKU25Riw9c
530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvshDvZfYI5
「鍾意咗人幾耐啊？」Dan隨即問道，看來是打算再八卦一下Ivy的事情。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxdlMFo1ki6
Ivy頓時也面紅耳赤起來，並不斷捏住自己的校裙。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo8DZ4iVYw8
而在一番內心掙扎後，她也小小聲地說：「大概三個月啦……」530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXxRKYS7tE4
530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6kXQmovvNd
Dan馬上「哇」了一聲，但很快又一臉認真地摸著下巴說：530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDrqGv02Teq
「唔怪得近排見你同Alvin多咗嘢講啦……不過睇嚟你都好似有嘢煩惱緊？」530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcPtVUGLJS3
在對方的引導下，Ivy也開始向Dan說起了一切的由來。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡApNCpZi5ZW
由一開始對Alvin產生興趣，然後就是好感，最後就是喜歡了對方。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoJHuFivvKc
不過卻一直未能向對方表達心意。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ33izU9DZoN
530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEyHD65PVSg
Dan聆聽完Ivy一番經歷後，隨即也露出一個恍然大悟的樣子。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkh88gGNBQb
「哦，所以啱啱先見你唉聲嘆氣咁坐喺到。」530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡopNXWgdL9h
Ivy沒有說話，只是默默地點著頭。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA9xaaqdenL
於是Dan見況也繼續說：「都明你點解咁沮喪嘅，明明鍾意人，但又無勇氣同對方講，想接近人，但喺又無從入手，令到自己卡咗喺個尷尬位。」530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkFapeYmW2h
聽到Dan「一針見血」的總結後，Ivy也馬上再次嘆息起來。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIRDAudd0r8
然後一臉沒精打采地看著Dan，並用低沉的聲音說：「聽嚟我都喺無機架啦……」530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLbnpNoNbPB
530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhP0fx2yQjG
「唔好灰啦！不如我幫你探下Alvin口風啦！知佢點諗你都一件好事啊！」530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq1YtXfN0Xv
Dan見到Ivy一臉死氣沉沉地樣子，馬上轉用一個輕快的口吻說著，希望從而令Ivy振作一點。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnlbKjJdWzM
而Ivy聽到了Dan的建議後，馬上想起了先前Laura的一句：「唔試過又點知得唔得呢？」530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoQvE3UUs0p
隨即也重燃心中的希望之火，一邊點頭一邊把一切都託付到Dan手上……530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTnWcKD5At1
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數天後，Dan看準了放學時Alvin獨自離開課室的時機。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVQ2ipsvykv
馬上裝作想與Alvin一同放學而上前與他搭訕。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBq8jUyxC8D
「Alvin，不如今日一齊走啊！」530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwZcBmBLOWo
「少有喎，你今日唔喺同Francis一齊走。」530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFjV0VBbSuK
「因為……Francis比人罰留堂啊！」530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvEkN8hhGjR
但此刻Francis其實是在班房裡與其他男生共同挑戰著手機遊戲中的關卡……530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL8UjHkw8FB
530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY011JxLrqp
接著，Dan與Alvin二人一邊聊著一邊下樓梯。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvrOJNr4586
聊起兩三句後，Dan也開門見山問道：「Alvin，你喺2E有無鍾意嘅人啊？」530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBqpTu79K1S
隨即二人也站在了原地。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbK5QqABukg
而此時，Ivy也剛好走到了樓梯的轉角處，聆聽到了Alvin接下的回答。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLuxuoJI7VR
「無喎。」Alvin的這一個回答，簡單而直接。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvialhzNnPd
不過卻同時使Dan愣住了，而偷聽著的Ivy更感到失望起來。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCVN9gSoqAk
看來她的幻想，都確實只是幻想。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgLWjyAuEK5
並如同泡沫一樣，在一瞬間破掉化為無物。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEkiwi9V9DC
530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJGPFcSYnpf
「真喺無鍾意嘅人？」Dan再問道，並語氣變得質疑起來。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjgX2ChqkSF
不過Alvin仍然迅速而堅定地回答同樣的答案：「真喺無。」530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvavRikwmtc
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這使得Dan不禁倒抽了一口氣。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuaTw8WWK63
不過機智的他，也很快就想到第二條問題：「咁班入面有無邊個女仔吸引到你啊？」530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaWkJuAPvM1
Alvin思考了一會，然後答：「嗯……無喎……」530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3VV7RQgdh4
雖然答案一樣，但是這一次Alvin的回答，卻從中感覺到一絲猶如。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ21iCLDnqY6
於是Dan也捉住了這份遲疑，再問：「真喺無？你諗真啲……例如Ivy呢？」530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEINKXOS8gU
530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoJkrjdFsBx
在轉角處的Ivy聽到了自己的名字後，也意會到Dan終於把與Alvin的對話引導到自己身上。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeCvU192sGT
她隨即地把雙手放到胸口上，希望能藉此壓抑住活蹦亂跳的心。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxFk5La0R6W
因為對於接下來Alvin的回答，她確實感到額外的緊張起來。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhztYNSbm4r
可是，她接著聽到答案是……530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmkmiT9h6gO
「Ivy啊……無咩特別感覺喎，咪普通同學咁。」530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeKDq1lETu6
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聽到Alvin的回答，Ivy頓時如同石化了一樣，目瞪口呆地站在原地。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3Kk1oXsLio
連此刻站在Alvin對面的Dan也瞬間感到愕然起來。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRTTGV3lRJS
或許他自己也猜想不到，這就是Alvin的答案。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAR1VYczusq
不過，感到有點不知所揩的Dan，也靈機一動，立即再問：530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEhI11H1Ecp
「如果Ivy喺鍾意你呢？」530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFUvhgrBpnE
他選擇不再轉彎抹角，而是斬釘截鐵地道出了Ivy的心意。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9obEfJUJrw
但其實他都猜想不到，原來Ivy一直偷聽著。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiRKlXbCe0c
530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5GjXc2DZNC
然而，Alvin隨即也皺起眉頭說：「就算佢鍾意我，都唔代表我要鍾意佢。感情呢啲嘢講feel架嘛，如果要迎合佢嘅心意，而勉強自己，我做唔到。」530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2x6un2hAt1
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正當Alvin說完這句話後，他們的上方也突然傳來了一聲急促的腳步聲。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9zCus9ov8V
於是Alvin好奇地探頭瞄了一眼上方，並發現沒有人。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSAkW6RoBy1
接著也扭過頭來繼續與Dan談論剛剛的話題。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL7LTKuOnmR
然而，他並不知道，剛才腳步聲的主人，正是Ivy。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ51doZwne7L
530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaodXP0s3Nr
而與此同時，Ivy也已經淚流滿面，走到了學校的某處。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTxXggM2WSg
孤單一人坐在角落，蜷縮著身體，雙臂抱住雙膝，痛哭起來。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo9z0FzKnwu
她的哭聲，無比悲哀及淒慘，如同心被刀割一樣。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWlKiDtSeaZ
看來這份傷痛，將永遠刻印在她的心中，成為一條永遠無法修補的疤痕。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9j8DqZ2MVM
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「就算佢鍾意我，都唔代表我要鍾意佢」530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8WPPxWPA6g
直至深夜時，Ivy再次因為回想起Alvin的這一句話，而驚醒過來。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVpbfRHWagw
她隨即慢慢地離開了床，並坐在一旁的梳妝桌。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ6CoVfcOrW
然後，打開了桌燈，看著鏡中雙眼通紅、神情疲倦的自己。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4y60Z0dh9K
530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxIeth3glAV
接著再回想起Alvin的說話，以及這三個月來自己的所做一切。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtfGymEkVtY
她不禁冷笑起來，隨後打開桌上文具盒，拿出了一把美術刀。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3F8ZglXFql
伸出冰冷的刀鋒，對著自己的手臀……530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPvRTj1ZPft
「嚓—」530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡteIB1Go4aT
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「懷著多大的期望，就會迎來同等的失望，甚至最終帶來更深的絕望」530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdXP3EbYJiQ
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作者在此鄭重聲明：530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTqIXN3nREQ
𠝹手只是劇情的一部份，並且是虛構情節。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdTfUaHe8Pz
讀者們請潔身自愛，切勿嘗試！！！530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEREDgQdgcD
無論遇上多麼不如意的事情，都切勿做出任何試圖傷害身體的行為。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeyb98IcAzU
若發現事情未如理想，無法獨力承受，請向身邊的人如父母及師長尋求協助。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMpzief73yz
切勿將傷害身體來發洩情緒一事合理化，請各位潔身自愛。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrdN8kWmzb1
愛人前先要懂得愛錫自己。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPhaYsGEfc2
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作者閒聊：530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4AJMlztotA
過去阿侑的一句：「就算佢鍾意我，都唔代表我要鍾意佢。感情呢啲嘢講feel架嘛，如果要迎合佢嘅心意，而勉強自己，我做唔到。」530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdolx9PEU0Y
完全是在打著現在自己的臉……530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeaLjoQcrAc
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