過去篇(四)488Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLulsbomeE7
488Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW1DoTvf11x
某一天，在午息時段，Ivy悶悶不樂地來到學校的庭園。488Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7eTvi6YtK2
找了一個寧靜的角落，獨自一人坐下，不禁嘆息起來。488Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrOIrg3Ccf0
488Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzVghqvxNyx
原來在剛才午飯時間，Ivy又一次鼓起勇氣邀約Alvin一同吃午飯。488Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9dMPSf8b2v
可是早就習慣了與其他男生一同外出用膳的Alvin。488Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGaNsSQjau1
並且升上中學後，根本就沒有被女生邀約吃飯。488Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrrUQAfJAMJ
因此Ivy突如其來邀約，再加上當時朋友們的催促，Alvin也只好當下拒絕了她的邀請。488Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ10p0cvKgpi
488Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9wM6i54dkK
被喜歡的人拒絕邀約，除了感到可惜及失望之外，就根本甚麼都做不到。488Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6qsMH7XFdL
Ivy曾經嘗試融入對方的生活圈子之中，卻永遠都只是停留在表面上的融入。488Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ86GDxmMJd5
至今，她與Alvin仍然是維持在每天上學見面時談上兩三句話的局面。488Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQRVJmVYdcQ
即使放學後，她與Alvin透過WhatsApp聊天的次數，也少之又少。488Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP2V6HVhRNX
488Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCQTeGpIxh3
「Alvin都好似唔多理我咁……莫非真喺要好似Laura咁講，直接同佢講我鍾意佢……」488Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcUOC4PIqOy
這時，在Ivy的腦海中也閃現出前陣子Laura的一句說話。488Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMztPHRM8fG
那句叫她向喜歡的人坦承的說話。488Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0DcHb0jJGg
可是對於性格偏向內向的Ivy來說，要與喜歡的人坦白，可是一件難若登天的事情。488Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfjdmpO9TST
單是起初鼓起勇氣向Alvin進一步搭訕，她其實也在心裡掙扎了好幾天。488Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUNySsaFrPM
488Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1V2fhWABw6
「你鍾意Alvin啊？」488Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡglWcQaOEFw
突然有一把男聲從Ivy的後方傳來。488Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTQzCLXpnEB
使得她馬上驚慌失色起來，並隨即轉過身來，查看聲音的主人。488Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6Av5GfnFyG
「Dan……？點解你會嚟庭園嘅？」488Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4vWpmcJogb
在確認是同班的同學後，Ivy也接著好奇地問道。488Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA6wcyBmPb7
畢竟，學校的庭園平常根本不會有人到訪。488Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrTpLLiQxJo
488Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyG6FHceErp
「食飽飯無嘢做，咪嚟行過圈囉……但竟然比我八卦到啲嘢啊，呵呵。」488Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiVIZVp7ki4
Dan在說著的同時，奸笑起來，然後就盯著Ivy，等待對方辯解。488Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK9mveq96yL
「你唔好講出啊！我求你！」Ivy當然是立即雙手合十，不斷向Dan請求著。488Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzub7tBsseA
488Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfHZqzBFuVR
接著，Dan也抓一抓自己的頭髮，一臉沾沾自喜地說：488Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBCPP5Soipr
「乜我似啲會將人哋秘密亂咁爆出去嘅人咩？」488Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOcmK0esHQU
Ivy思考了一會Dan的這句話，然後就搖頭說：「咁又唔似……」488Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6xKct8pMc9
488Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkedy1WD8sU
「鍾意咗人幾耐啊？」Dan隨即問道，看來是打算再八卦一下Ivy的事情。488Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlNwfgtjo0I
Ivy頓時也面紅耳赤起來，並不斷捏住自己的校裙。488Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu7y66EtpdJ
而在一番內心掙扎後，她也小小聲地說：「大概三個月啦……」488Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKSrmcLcV5P
488Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeWKoa0vIQr
Dan馬上「哇」了一聲，但很快又一臉認真地摸著下巴說：488Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXkt3YRiKzl
「唔怪得近排見你同Alvin多咗嘢講啦……不過睇嚟你都好似有嘢煩惱緊？」488Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWPltQ2cKUI
在對方的引導下，Ivy也開始向Dan說起了一切的由來。488Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ87pGeq1tz3
由一開始對Alvin產生興趣，然後就是好感，最後就是喜歡了對方。488Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjmjuBbqCLf
不過卻一直未能向對方表達心意。488Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyXBe0lzVPC
488Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡobEfhFT7DR
Dan聆聽完Ivy一番經歷後，隨即也露出一個恍然大悟的樣子。488Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCgXOt8eyoL
「哦，所以啱啱先見你唉聲嘆氣咁坐喺到。」488Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5PQMoypVk2
Ivy沒有說話，只是默默地點著頭。488Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQhDIHMJ6Qj
於是Dan見況也繼續說：「都明你點解咁沮喪嘅，明明鍾意人，但又無勇氣同對方講，想接近人，但喺又無從入手，令到自己卡咗喺個尷尬位。」488Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFtIdcDpofB
聽到Dan「一針見血」的總結後，Ivy也馬上再次嘆息起來。488Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyp7IDPPpLI
然後一臉沒精打采地看著Dan，並用低沉的聲音說：「聽嚟我都喺無機架啦……」488Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSF4oZ2KBRF
488Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4Ix3nK8tUD
「唔好灰啦！不如我幫你探下Alvin口風啦！知佢點諗你都一件好事啊！」488Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe3iDx1AR7G
Dan見到Ivy一臉死氣沉沉地樣子，馬上轉用一個輕快的口吻說著，希望從而令Ivy振作一點。488Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAEXNXTkxyS
而Ivy聽到了Dan的建議後，馬上想起了先前Laura的一句：「唔試過又點知得唔得呢？」488Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7DGUGNcSV3
隨即也重燃心中的希望之火，一邊點頭一邊把一切都託付到Dan手上……488Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDenKiCYb7y
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488Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7b5dqVi6uz
數天後，Dan看準了放學時Alvin獨自離開課室的時機。488Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY4pgxued6U
馬上裝作想與Alvin一同放學而上前與他搭訕。488Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk3EPZ1ggKf
「Alvin，不如今日一齊走啊！」488Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSfJYhWE28m
「少有喎，你今日唔喺同Francis一齊走。」488Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM9nYLI9ETf
「因為……Francis比人罰留堂啊！」488Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYXZTjkObu8
但此刻Francis其實是在班房裡與其他男生共同挑戰著手機遊戲中的關卡……488Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQRTdtIv4fI
488Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeR7UOFe1uM
接著，Dan與Alvin二人一邊聊著一邊下樓梯。488Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiGWsi36Y93
聊起兩三句後，Dan也開門見山問道：「Alvin，你喺2E有無鍾意嘅人啊？」488Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4Yib8Wy43y
隨即二人也站在了原地。488Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmnPGusR7zG
而此時，Ivy也剛好走到了樓梯的轉角處，聆聽到了Alvin接下的回答。488Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNhRFVVREyP
「無喎。」Alvin的這一個回答，簡單而直接。488Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ4RNdcrqHI
不過卻同時使Dan愣住了，而偷聽著的Ivy更感到失望起來。488Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa38aFoJVMI
看來她的幻想，都確實只是幻想。488Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqedSqJnFUc
並如同泡沫一樣，在一瞬間破掉化為無物。488Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡitOOtnuNJc
488Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡofZ22X0ESf
「真喺無鍾意嘅人？」Dan再問道，並語氣變得質疑起來。488Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6G7rNfsrhG
不過Alvin仍然迅速而堅定地回答同樣的答案：「真喺無。」488Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwySkzTijsI
488Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIHjAFaZzw6
這使得Dan不禁倒抽了一口氣。488Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1GLosBvhdz
不過機智的他，也很快就想到第二條問題：「咁班入面有無邊個女仔吸引到你啊？」488Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMOQu8oQ5xm
Alvin思考了一會，然後答：「嗯……無喎……」488Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9HxIOVt6pU
雖然答案一樣，但是這一次Alvin的回答，卻從中感覺到一絲猶如。488Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ13R0JBzJVK
於是Dan也捉住了這份遲疑，再問：「真喺無？你諗真啲……例如Ivy呢？」488Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVFPYV8PFwg
488Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNOQanVyNLx
在轉角處的Ivy聽到了自己的名字後，也意會到Dan終於把與Alvin的對話引導到自己身上。488Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEIYtdPoCzs
她隨即地把雙手放到胸口上，希望能藉此壓抑住活蹦亂跳的心。488Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTWokREXHkW
因為對於接下來Alvin的回答，她確實感到額外的緊張起來。488Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmnCYYzpUWs
可是，她接著聽到答案是……488Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2LxhQseVmN
「Ivy啊……無咩特別感覺喎，咪普通同學咁。」488Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2C3snY6vse
488Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVqszpzUyZT
聽到Alvin的回答，Ivy頓時如同石化了一樣，目瞪口呆地站在原地。488Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzcTTb1JfmI
連此刻站在Alvin對面的Dan也瞬間感到愕然起來。488Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjKpov3FnhC
或許他自己也猜想不到，這就是Alvin的答案。488Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP6yDrW7Dz3
不過，感到有點不知所揩的Dan，也靈機一動，立即再問：488Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWzcaYDrOq4
「如果Ivy喺鍾意你呢？」488Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7ESJzorsG7
他選擇不再轉彎抹角，而是斬釘截鐵地道出了Ivy的心意。488Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLw59glxgSA
但其實他都猜想不到，原來Ivy一直偷聽著。488Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡosC57tNzHD
488Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKTDqBvI0PQ
然而，Alvin隨即也皺起眉頭說：「就算佢鍾意我，都唔代表我要鍾意佢。感情呢啲嘢講feel架嘛，如果要迎合佢嘅心意，而勉強自己，我做唔到。」488Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6XzSpEo5k1
488Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqaRSkPl8UX
正當Alvin說完這句話後，他們的上方也突然傳來了一聲急促的腳步聲。488Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLDbGv2plU7
於是Alvin好奇地探頭瞄了一眼上方，並發現沒有人。488Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4sYiu3VJZe
接著也扭過頭來繼續與Dan談論剛剛的話題。488Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2xPjqMYKei
然而，他並不知道，剛才腳步聲的主人，正是Ivy。488Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFuBDE4lg3V
488Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWipOUchJhO
而與此同時，Ivy也已經淚流滿面，走到了學校的某處。488Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrgfPxgu2sh
孤單一人坐在角落，蜷縮著身體，雙臂抱住雙膝，痛哭起來。488Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHHhwi1jyix
她的哭聲，無比悲哀及淒慘，如同心被刀割一樣。488Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ40FPwagv4F
看來這份傷痛，將永遠刻印在她的心中，成為一條永遠無法修補的疤痕。488Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRijbOcxkCJ
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488Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2LU4AJN94a
「就算佢鍾意我，都唔代表我要鍾意佢」488Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYbebeqwegV
直至深夜時，Ivy再次因為回想起Alvin的這一句話，而驚醒過來。488Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiyexBdDJci
她隨即慢慢地離開了床，並坐在一旁的梳妝桌。488Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBAw9qYxPPc
然後，打開了桌燈，看著鏡中雙眼通紅、神情疲倦的自己。488Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1KAGpqk2Hv
488Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGdJj0WQcgG
接著再回想起Alvin的說話，以及這三個月來自己的所做一切。488Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuolppxNSB5
她不禁冷笑起來，隨後打開桌上文具盒，拿出了一把美術刀。488Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuMlMZil5d0
伸出冰冷的刀鋒，對著自己的手臀……488Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2Hv5jQ43gD
「嚓—」488Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe1kY5RRhfk
488Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2LyT0K68jT
488Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfDEIcRhADm
「懷著多大的期望，就會迎來同等的失望，甚至最終帶來更深的絕望」488Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjG2tsDUaxZ
488Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVuMCFLv9qG
488Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlcPPP3R0RH
作者在此鄭重聲明：488Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdYuLSn23mx
𠝹手只是劇情的一部份，並且是虛構情節。488Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5sG1vjcoTi
讀者們請潔身自愛，切勿嘗試！！！488Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqFprvwWPkW
無論遇上多麼不如意的事情，都切勿做出任何試圖傷害身體的行為。488Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU9vA5z52he
若發現事情未如理想，無法獨力承受，請向身邊的人如父母及師長尋求協助。488Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEmvTwJBxjL
切勿將傷害身體來發洩情緒一事合理化，請各位潔身自愛。488Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaoNiOahM6Q
愛人前先要懂得愛錫自己。488Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4L0wnHxYt4
488Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqxzdWsY0hE
作者閒聊：488Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBIGMVkriJz
過去阿侑的一句：「就算佢鍾意我，都唔代表我要鍾意佢。感情呢啲嘢講feel架嘛，如果要迎合佢嘅心意，而勉強自己，我做唔到。」488Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqZEM0F4CSp
完全是在打著現在自己的臉……488Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxsG6IapHvq
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