過去篇(四)531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHNDyTfYcZP
531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZbmY7uLKzv
某一天，在午息時段，Ivy悶悶不樂地來到學校的庭園。531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWbcHPKW63E
找了一個寧靜的角落，獨自一人坐下，不禁嘆息起來。531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXHGbzhpFid
531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXoZR3Bk0ZA
原來在剛才午飯時間，Ivy又一次鼓起勇氣邀約Alvin一同吃午飯。531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs45TKlanxZ
可是早就習慣了與其他男生一同外出用膳的Alvin。531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAfzC7a3n8Q
並且升上中學後，根本就沒有被女生邀約吃飯。531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxd6wTSrJuI
因此Ivy突如其來邀約，再加上當時朋友們的催促，Alvin也只好當下拒絕了她的邀請。531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvyfGVtK38g
531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSgndHm2oBT
被喜歡的人拒絕邀約，除了感到可惜及失望之外，就根本甚麼都做不到。531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8xGIxDldU7
Ivy曾經嘗試融入對方的生活圈子之中，卻永遠都只是停留在表面上的融入。531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡODpj08WdwC
至今，她與Alvin仍然是維持在每天上學見面時談上兩三句話的局面。531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy42zdbwxB3
即使放學後，她與Alvin透過WhatsApp聊天的次數，也少之又少。531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGngA3oemkN
531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2mGH6HIrFf
「Alvin都好似唔多理我咁……莫非真喺要好似Laura咁講，直接同佢講我鍾意佢……」531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUjOmUooquo
這時，在Ivy的腦海中也閃現出前陣子Laura的一句說話。531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOghWSLQGaX
那句叫她向喜歡的人坦承的說話。531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSIP0qCxfOm
可是對於性格偏向內向的Ivy來說，要與喜歡的人坦白，可是一件難若登天的事情。531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhOnZw73nkC
單是起初鼓起勇氣向Alvin進一步搭訕，她其實也在心裡掙扎了好幾天。531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZco7Gh7WW7
531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKiAENeeRgo
「你鍾意Alvin啊？」531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCd0c7zMW13
突然有一把男聲從Ivy的後方傳來。531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXb3nzE5YHE
使得她馬上驚慌失色起來，並隨即轉過身來，查看聲音的主人。531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrVaf1VpSLr
「Dan……？點解你會嚟庭園嘅？」531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzq96EuyNt0
在確認是同班的同學後，Ivy也接著好奇地問道。531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2iHAzHGt4o
畢竟，學校的庭園平常根本不會有人到訪。531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJt7QALL7xO
531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0Z6XTic0Io
「食飽飯無嘢做，咪嚟行過圈囉……但竟然比我八卦到啲嘢啊，呵呵。」531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcnzYNpiMwP
Dan在說著的同時，奸笑起來，然後就盯著Ivy，等待對方辯解。531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsDgo1qXnV7
「你唔好講出啊！我求你！」Ivy當然是立即雙手合十，不斷向Dan請求著。531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHDzGusOgG1
531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡysVAX5U5bE
接著，Dan也抓一抓自己的頭髮，一臉沾沾自喜地說：531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdVUiSVMKjN
「乜我似啲會將人哋秘密亂咁爆出去嘅人咩？」531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQmBeYnw4yF
Ivy思考了一會Dan的這句話，然後就搖頭說：「咁又唔似……」531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6U3MDG5jjt
531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ831CSBg97l
「鍾意咗人幾耐啊？」Dan隨即問道，看來是打算再八卦一下Ivy的事情。531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYikFYaM74G
Ivy頓時也面紅耳赤起來，並不斷捏住自己的校裙。531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYpw5ogTMWg
而在一番內心掙扎後，她也小小聲地說：「大概三個月啦……」531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTrrplMAVMr
531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡePk5GrMISA
Dan馬上「哇」了一聲，但很快又一臉認真地摸著下巴說：531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsWFblY1Kve
「唔怪得近排見你同Alvin多咗嘢講啦……不過睇嚟你都好似有嘢煩惱緊？」531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW0arJO2Uu7
在對方的引導下，Ivy也開始向Dan說起了一切的由來。531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzMnrZgKGMZ
由一開始對Alvin產生興趣，然後就是好感，最後就是喜歡了對方。531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBBboLkiEa4
不過卻一直未能向對方表達心意。531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd7vAU5k3Rw
531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpWmpBtw2z3
Dan聆聽完Ivy一番經歷後，隨即也露出一個恍然大悟的樣子。531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWNMbqHkzr6
「哦，所以啱啱先見你唉聲嘆氣咁坐喺到。」531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFwJFIMQi7j
Ivy沒有說話，只是默默地點著頭。531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqKoJGOggkR
於是Dan見況也繼續說：「都明你點解咁沮喪嘅，明明鍾意人，但又無勇氣同對方講，想接近人，但喺又無從入手，令到自己卡咗喺個尷尬位。」531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIFBTWXKK8K
聽到Dan「一針見血」的總結後，Ivy也馬上再次嘆息起來。531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlsTiCxKz0M
然後一臉沒精打采地看著Dan，並用低沉的聲音說：「聽嚟我都喺無機架啦……」531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTFwudT2r6p
531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXFBGPQtIAA
「唔好灰啦！不如我幫你探下Alvin口風啦！知佢點諗你都一件好事啊！」531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ48bKmNOZWj
Dan見到Ivy一臉死氣沉沉地樣子，馬上轉用一個輕快的口吻說著，希望從而令Ivy振作一點。531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2atzgei094
而Ivy聽到了Dan的建議後，馬上想起了先前Laura的一句：「唔試過又點知得唔得呢？」531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZzw7D5lTqo
隨即也重燃心中的希望之火，一邊點頭一邊把一切都託付到Dan手上……531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjs4H7lmAXt
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531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9Twvj6MIWr
數天後，Dan看準了放學時Alvin獨自離開課室的時機。531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSdQbVMyM2h
馬上裝作想與Alvin一同放學而上前與他搭訕。531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡobcrHGP1N9
「Alvin，不如今日一齊走啊！」531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiMPsTvadsY
「少有喎，你今日唔喺同Francis一齊走。」531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcuWss04rck
「因為……Francis比人罰留堂啊！」531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡONJz0HDiOX
但此刻Francis其實是在班房裡與其他男生共同挑戰著手機遊戲中的關卡……531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF8KuE2Czti
531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡILBal5OXQW
接著，Dan與Alvin二人一邊聊著一邊下樓梯。531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA1XPNvKRfE
聊起兩三句後，Dan也開門見山問道：「Alvin，你喺2E有無鍾意嘅人啊？」531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ62nPRFMZKN
隨即二人也站在了原地。531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4WaNnGEcpP
而此時，Ivy也剛好走到了樓梯的轉角處，聆聽到了Alvin接下的回答。531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDTVqkUS7FN
「無喎。」Alvin的這一個回答，簡單而直接。531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFmU3wcB19E
不過卻同時使Dan愣住了，而偷聽著的Ivy更感到失望起來。531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZnnQkYsr1o
看來她的幻想，都確實只是幻想。531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNAYf8OyVvv
並如同泡沫一樣，在一瞬間破掉化為無物。531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFJhiPVhh7b
531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4UO2NP2OUr
「真喺無鍾意嘅人？」Dan再問道，並語氣變得質疑起來。531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfj3NgT2Sqo
不過Alvin仍然迅速而堅定地回答同樣的答案：「真喺無。」531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVEXifMbxQi
531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡueGCVHs8vV
這使得Dan不禁倒抽了一口氣。531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfSdHRR6uoR
不過機智的他，也很快就想到第二條問題：「咁班入面有無邊個女仔吸引到你啊？」531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKsRxy6Gcis
Alvin思考了一會，然後答：「嗯……無喎……」531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvpuexNvBDJ
雖然答案一樣，但是這一次Alvin的回答，卻從中感覺到一絲猶如。531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNJJ9NEvJdI
於是Dan也捉住了這份遲疑，再問：「真喺無？你諗真啲……例如Ivy呢？」531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6QovWFNySc
531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmfghDHOWuU
在轉角處的Ivy聽到了自己的名字後，也意會到Dan終於把與Alvin的對話引導到自己身上。531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf4ge7k9oSo
她隨即地把雙手放到胸口上，希望能藉此壓抑住活蹦亂跳的心。531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3oSTHg1Z6l
因為對於接下來Alvin的回答，她確實感到額外的緊張起來。531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMFTp0dwrWt
可是，她接著聽到答案是……531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqHSvZF2GPs
「Ivy啊……無咩特別感覺喎，咪普通同學咁。」531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0O3RYWUt56
531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEc5owUd7og
聽到Alvin的回答，Ivy頓時如同石化了一樣，目瞪口呆地站在原地。531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ768qcJiDBc
連此刻站在Alvin對面的Dan也瞬間感到愕然起來。531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLJMQPKKK17
或許他自己也猜想不到，這就是Alvin的答案。531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTPepNptLTX
不過，感到有點不知所揩的Dan，也靈機一動，立即再問：531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy870bcfg9l
「如果Ivy喺鍾意你呢？」531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS7Q6Acj2TV
他選擇不再轉彎抹角，而是斬釘截鐵地道出了Ivy的心意。531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡewexkF3mgc
但其實他都猜想不到，原來Ivy一直偷聽著。531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNMkKq6fgVy
531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9TpJY2MHhj
然而，Alvin隨即也皺起眉頭說：「就算佢鍾意我，都唔代表我要鍾意佢。感情呢啲嘢講feel架嘛，如果要迎合佢嘅心意，而勉強自己，我做唔到。」531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡigdjgLpMFV
531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0uhV1gUef0
正當Alvin說完這句話後，他們的上方也突然傳來了一聲急促的腳步聲。531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxmYh8fXVVU
於是Alvin好奇地探頭瞄了一眼上方，並發現沒有人。531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkU7TiKwLls
接著也扭過頭來繼續與Dan談論剛剛的話題。531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpUBjJ4mymR
然而，他並不知道，剛才腳步聲的主人，正是Ivy。531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUhwHajBNd0
531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8smeGvLSKr
而與此同時，Ivy也已經淚流滿面，走到了學校的某處。531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFtvp5hKvOi
孤單一人坐在角落，蜷縮著身體，雙臂抱住雙膝，痛哭起來。531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8qhwGPjefQ
她的哭聲，無比悲哀及淒慘，如同心被刀割一樣。531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaJJQQXPEeY
看來這份傷痛，將永遠刻印在她的心中，成為一條永遠無法修補的疤痕。531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1XOQ5aTjfz
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「就算佢鍾意我，都唔代表我要鍾意佢」531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZx2fxGlqoe
直至深夜時，Ivy再次因為回想起Alvin的這一句話，而驚醒過來。531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTjbzlKNnHO
她隨即慢慢地離開了床，並坐在一旁的梳妝桌。531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXs0HrHI0dx
然後，打開了桌燈，看著鏡中雙眼通紅、神情疲倦的自己。531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6mNihsYcbz
531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSi6XIOFGOz
接著再回想起Alvin的說話，以及這三個月來自己的所做一切。531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk4vy6czJ0J
她不禁冷笑起來，隨後打開桌上文具盒，拿出了一把美術刀。531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxJMS1GUnLm
伸出冰冷的刀鋒，對著自己的手臀……531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqJI8XdsX3v
「嚓—」531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBT9GpRP8bi
531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1jUkeC1w44
531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4MCd1fWBDb
「懷著多大的期望，就會迎來同等的失望，甚至最終帶來更深的絕望」531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8XI9uh5dz7
531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYgmONlWdZy
531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjABgMKjA2J
作者在此鄭重聲明：531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWlrIhPijlR
𠝹手只是劇情的一部份，並且是虛構情節。531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUZ8N3iv01Z
讀者們請潔身自愛，切勿嘗試！！！531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSM1bBOvCtH
無論遇上多麼不如意的事情，都切勿做出任何試圖傷害身體的行為。531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXNrrrLYzzd
若發現事情未如理想，無法獨力承受，請向身邊的人如父母及師長尋求協助。531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPDHwQglrU1
切勿將傷害身體來發洩情緒一事合理化，請各位潔身自愛。531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd7sk3shxpr
愛人前先要懂得愛錫自己。531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC7tt9l0YRl
531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaKAvjpWQpF
作者閒聊：531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzxs2aqzqoo
過去阿侑的一句：「就算佢鍾意我，都唔代表我要鍾意佢。感情呢啲嘢講feel架嘛，如果要迎合佢嘅心意，而勉強自己，我做唔到。」531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1T2hF1Eogu
完全是在打著現在自己的臉……531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjrbMrptSMj
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