過去篇(四)437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMpMVVd8uWF
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某一天，在午息時段，Ivy悶悶不樂地來到學校的庭園。437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUjaFmX4KFH
找了一個寧靜的角落，獨自一人坐下，不禁嘆息起來。437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwQ7quLPFlp
437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ19ubCAT1L7
原來在剛才午飯時間，Ivy又一次鼓起勇氣邀約Alvin一同吃午飯。437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPKfnl585xZ
可是早就習慣了與其他男生一同外出用膳的Alvin。437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXRSbO7AIMS
並且升上中學後，根本就沒有被女生邀約吃飯。437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTLMeoLPgU9
因此Ivy突如其來邀約，再加上當時朋友們的催促，Alvin也只好當下拒絕了她的邀請。437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ21EQCP4zGF
437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8FK42OxsL6
被喜歡的人拒絕邀約，除了感到可惜及失望之外，就根本甚麼都做不到。437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZqeco1Ve2g
Ivy曾經嘗試融入對方的生活圈子之中，卻永遠都只是停留在表面上的融入。437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI4ZlayVnHO
至今，她與Alvin仍然是維持在每天上學見面時談上兩三句話的局面。437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCMvF43P63Z
即使放學後，她與Alvin透過WhatsApp聊天的次數，也少之又少。437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2RS3ydjDAC
437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0XvwHPHbup
「Alvin都好似唔多理我咁……莫非真喺要好似Laura咁講，直接同佢講我鍾意佢……」437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFIPPMx4w7x
這時，在Ivy的腦海中也閃現出前陣子Laura的一句說話。437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvtkuM1L0X4
那句叫她向喜歡的人坦承的說話。437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlz5YtHTgus
可是對於性格偏向內向的Ivy來說，要與喜歡的人坦白，可是一件難若登天的事情。437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnqHGFYnmQd
單是起初鼓起勇氣向Alvin進一步搭訕，她其實也在心裡掙扎了好幾天。437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ79aRRfhMQ2
437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdRzAHw3ShU
「你鍾意Alvin啊？」437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmQ9CJVJHgG
突然有一把男聲從Ivy的後方傳來。437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH5GOPVqpdH
使得她馬上驚慌失色起來，並隨即轉過身來，查看聲音的主人。437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ62c0y1blWr
「Dan……？點解你會嚟庭園嘅？」437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOsRwjh6EgE
在確認是同班的同學後，Ivy也接著好奇地問道。437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡESbOqZRzJm
畢竟，學校的庭園平常根本不會有人到訪。437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQdNR6isPb8
437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ9qyJozhct
「食飽飯無嘢做，咪嚟行過圈囉……但竟然比我八卦到啲嘢啊，呵呵。」437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnJoOffoZns
Dan在說著的同時，奸笑起來，然後就盯著Ivy，等待對方辯解。437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqIAkWK03ZO
「你唔好講出啊！我求你！」Ivy當然是立即雙手合十，不斷向Dan請求著。437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3Ik5QcZrHp
437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfPr3gTo7VD
接著，Dan也抓一抓自己的頭髮，一臉沾沾自喜地說：437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRVK73wY6Aj
「乜我似啲會將人哋秘密亂咁爆出去嘅人咩？」437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaUnt2ZdGAw
Ivy思考了一會Dan的這句話，然後就搖頭說：「咁又唔似……」437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhWJL4XAZuA
437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYgECP9Sng4
「鍾意咗人幾耐啊？」Dan隨即問道，看來是打算再八卦一下Ivy的事情。437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyNwfgxcDNW
Ivy頓時也面紅耳赤起來，並不斷捏住自己的校裙。437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnjZeEmTh0A
而在一番內心掙扎後，她也小小聲地說：「大概三個月啦……」437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN8KdOo7otx
437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmDPXKyuUMr
Dan馬上「哇」了一聲，但很快又一臉認真地摸著下巴說：437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN4IPre8dE0
「唔怪得近排見你同Alvin多咗嘢講啦……不過睇嚟你都好似有嘢煩惱緊？」437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4JH3rsG2qd
在對方的引導下，Ivy也開始向Dan說起了一切的由來。437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU2N3MZcEp4
由一開始對Alvin產生興趣，然後就是好感，最後就是喜歡了對方。437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLcvfDmvrMg
不過卻一直未能向對方表達心意。437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6AXi8MxlwQ
437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrRIr4hLBJn
Dan聆聽完Ivy一番經歷後，隨即也露出一個恍然大悟的樣子。437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzQMf9HD4pF
「哦，所以啱啱先見你唉聲嘆氣咁坐喺到。」437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡayfeF0g8vN
Ivy沒有說話，只是默默地點著頭。437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNIWs5M9Z6Y
於是Dan見況也繼續說：「都明你點解咁沮喪嘅，明明鍾意人，但又無勇氣同對方講，想接近人，但喺又無從入手，令到自己卡咗喺個尷尬位。」437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNvQcpFtcm5
聽到Dan「一針見血」的總結後，Ivy也馬上再次嘆息起來。437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzyMvgqaK1F
然後一臉沒精打采地看著Dan，並用低沉的聲音說：「聽嚟我都喺無機架啦……」437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIfNBucvebo
437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7yAARKTiow
「唔好灰啦！不如我幫你探下Alvin口風啦！知佢點諗你都一件好事啊！」437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvyiFpEhuP2
Dan見到Ivy一臉死氣沉沉地樣子，馬上轉用一個輕快的口吻說著，希望從而令Ivy振作一點。437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCUJXkcCvDD
而Ivy聽到了Dan的建議後，馬上想起了先前Laura的一句：「唔試過又點知得唔得呢？」437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiLb57uenOW
隨即也重燃心中的希望之火，一邊點頭一邊把一切都託付到Dan手上……437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTd20usmVj3
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數天後，Dan看準了放學時Alvin獨自離開課室的時機。437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSZ2VHfnYqA
馬上裝作想與Alvin一同放學而上前與他搭訕。437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5ua2uZfidm
「Alvin，不如今日一齊走啊！」437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSjgIhI6Ay4
「少有喎，你今日唔喺同Francis一齊走。」437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9Jke4qb1su
「因為……Francis比人罰留堂啊！」437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡazXkd8iVlz
但此刻Francis其實是在班房裡與其他男生共同挑戰著手機遊戲中的關卡……437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWFg85ouLoD
437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQvUtr58mQ6
接著，Dan與Alvin二人一邊聊著一邊下樓梯。437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrBOsfAc6TU
聊起兩三句後，Dan也開門見山問道：「Alvin，你喺2E有無鍾意嘅人啊？」437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeCa3OfOJj4
隨即二人也站在了原地。437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡstoFgG309Y
而此時，Ivy也剛好走到了樓梯的轉角處，聆聽到了Alvin接下的回答。437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK6EgJJS4zx
「無喎。」Alvin的這一個回答，簡單而直接。437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc7ZN0EaYpb
不過卻同時使Dan愣住了，而偷聽著的Ivy更感到失望起來。437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb0yOqY9ZDE
看來她的幻想，都確實只是幻想。437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC24wXWeKsd
並如同泡沫一樣，在一瞬間破掉化為無物。437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNNMjp9TXih
437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8Ts4D2IcHP
「真喺無鍾意嘅人？」Dan再問道，並語氣變得質疑起來。437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjIxP9rh1jf
不過Alvin仍然迅速而堅定地回答同樣的答案：「真喺無。」437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrLFpxET7h2
437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEiK5nE5N7Z
這使得Dan不禁倒抽了一口氣。437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0wYu7KCnlI
不過機智的他，也很快就想到第二條問題：「咁班入面有無邊個女仔吸引到你啊？」437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ1ReOQJXfk
Alvin思考了一會，然後答：「嗯……無喎……」437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrIZX7z20PU
雖然答案一樣，但是這一次Alvin的回答，卻從中感覺到一絲猶如。437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt7stzZkIJ8
於是Dan也捉住了這份遲疑，再問：「真喺無？你諗真啲……例如Ivy呢？」437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsWNpvnaNpl
437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFei88IjUgC
在轉角處的Ivy聽到了自己的名字後，也意會到Dan終於把與Alvin的對話引導到自己身上。437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcHmKtQSeri
她隨即地把雙手放到胸口上，希望能藉此壓抑住活蹦亂跳的心。437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPWAqPEDQB4
因為對於接下來Alvin的回答，她確實感到額外的緊張起來。437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8L3nr2Od46
可是，她接著聽到答案是……437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡikPO79iLXk
「Ivy啊……無咩特別感覺喎，咪普通同學咁。」437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡncV2qVP4HA
437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXRdEenzXu4
聽到Alvin的回答，Ivy頓時如同石化了一樣，目瞪口呆地站在原地。437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvJztk1Zg6M
連此刻站在Alvin對面的Dan也瞬間感到愕然起來。437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu7JeKO6ETZ
或許他自己也猜想不到，這就是Alvin的答案。437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1h1wB7aQuD
不過，感到有點不知所揩的Dan，也靈機一動，立即再問：437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdASzUgNpJK
「如果Ivy喺鍾意你呢？」437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpLJ1UKIURX
他選擇不再轉彎抹角，而是斬釘截鐵地道出了Ivy的心意。437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd8tyQBqzXs
但其實他都猜想不到，原來Ivy一直偷聽著。437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXIqy3yyg3a
437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaNFlUErmpH
然而，Alvin隨即也皺起眉頭說：「就算佢鍾意我，都唔代表我要鍾意佢。感情呢啲嘢講feel架嘛，如果要迎合佢嘅心意，而勉強自己，我做唔到。」437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzMD1brgUS2
437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf6dicR5a2i
正當Alvin說完這句話後，他們的上方也突然傳來了一聲急促的腳步聲。437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4yqiytVNw8
於是Alvin好奇地探頭瞄了一眼上方，並發現沒有人。437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNYoivwsF4k
接著也扭過頭來繼續與Dan談論剛剛的話題。437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp0CJXthD0o
然而，他並不知道，剛才腳步聲的主人，正是Ivy。437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQuDkccfVGu
437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYfh36K0kPl
而與此同時，Ivy也已經淚流滿面，走到了學校的某處。437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiEHNpPJFbl
孤單一人坐在角落，蜷縮著身體，雙臂抱住雙膝，痛哭起來。437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXLgAjO7Sa1
她的哭聲，無比悲哀及淒慘，如同心被刀割一樣。437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6qY6u1lgcx
看來這份傷痛，將永遠刻印在她的心中，成為一條永遠無法修補的疤痕。437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT2ZqLXgae5
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「就算佢鍾意我，都唔代表我要鍾意佢」437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2qWViXC8QA
直至深夜時，Ivy再次因為回想起Alvin的這一句話，而驚醒過來。437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqBwanzLB91
她隨即慢慢地離開了床，並坐在一旁的梳妝桌。437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCa3k3MR5SP
然後，打開了桌燈，看著鏡中雙眼通紅、神情疲倦的自己。437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjrs263DeJ4
437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAFqcSDV16v
接著再回想起Alvin的說話，以及這三個月來自己的所做一切。437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoHl1mog12B
她不禁冷笑起來，隨後打開桌上文具盒，拿出了一把美術刀。437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡniSZEYRfzT
伸出冰冷的刀鋒，對著自己的手臀……437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcPfCUaN3WR
「嚓—」437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPrCpe4JUAU
437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt9VaxI4ZTm
437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ91e1rj4n5U
「懷著多大的期望，就會迎來同等的失望，甚至最終帶來更深的絕望」437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7LlFyTLo4O
437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfU0EAN2jRd
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作者在此鄭重聲明：437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF9At6pVDL2
𠝹手只是劇情的一部份，並且是虛構情節。437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLRVYUxmFon
讀者們請潔身自愛，切勿嘗試！！！437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMKrjVWKD8v
無論遇上多麼不如意的事情，都切勿做出任何試圖傷害身體的行為。437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC7tDZbaP3B
若發現事情未如理想，無法獨力承受，請向身邊的人如父母及師長尋求協助。437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLaikFlQ1u7
切勿將傷害身體來發洩情緒一事合理化，請各位潔身自愛。437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzXQcZnGqeC
愛人前先要懂得愛錫自己。437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCgrYyRHuvB
437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcjZ6IpCDF7
作者閒聊：437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwT3oZGxAO8
過去阿侑的一句：「就算佢鍾意我，都唔代表我要鍾意佢。感情呢啲嘢講feel架嘛，如果要迎合佢嘅心意，而勉強自己，我做唔到。」437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtAfAYO2R0J
完全是在打著現在自己的臉……437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIUFu9xS3X8
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