第五十九章:重新開始691Please respect copyright.PENANAw5AkZiPrYX
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在回憶中,中三那年的五月。691Please respect copyright.PENANASWAFfhjO90
我與Mandy在晚上剛看完一套電影後,便在前往車站的道路上走著。691Please respect copyright.PENANAXjg1P1ryyX
還記得當時我手上還拿著看電影時吃不完的爆米花桶。691Please respect copyright.PENANAUwg9pYPreA
而Mandy則在我身邊與我討論著剛剛電影的劇情。691Please respect copyright.PENANA6M1km1cIsk
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「Alvin啊,如果有一日我哋真喺咁唔彩分咗手……你估我哋會唔會好似套戲嘅男女主角咁,十年後先再相遇翻?」691Please respect copyright.PENANAWSCxt349yh
她突然在我身旁問道。691Please respect copyright.PENANASBXZs61my0
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但當時的我,並沒有想太多。691Please respect copyright.PENANA6Io7jRwaWG
只是從爆米花桶裡拿了數顆爆米花並放到嘴裡邊吃邊說:691Please respect copyright.PENANArpHQzIG6F8
「我哋又點會無啦啦分手啊。」691Please respect copyright.PENANAa6MyYnjicL
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當時的我,這樣想著是正確的。691Please respect copyright.PENANAvi4JEShzGX
那會有情侶在交往著的時候,就已經會在想著分手之後的事情。691Please respect copyright.PENANAT4k4qMjefA
中學生談戀愛,雖然不會把這段關係想得太過遙遠,不會過份考慮到將來的事。691Please respect copyright.PENANAWbe7mYGWTZ
但起碼此刻都會想與對方在每一分每一秒都留下最珍貴的回憶。691Please respect copyright.PENANAfQja2Wpw5p
對方或許不是自己將來的另一半,但總會是自己人生甜蜜回憶的一部份。691Please respect copyright.PENANA5vHA46Q7ag
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「傻,我比喻架咋……唔喺真喺諗分手啊!」她連忙為自己剛剛的說話解釋起來。691Please respect copyright.PENANAjbrjFpiI7L
看來是害怕我想多了。691Please respect copyright.PENANAKgun1HwMCo
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「咁就睇下我哋喺咩理由分手啦。以啱先套戲為例,男主角因為要去打仗,而佢都知道自己可能會一去不返,佢又唔想女主角浪費時間去等佢呢個將來唔知會喺生定死嘅人,所以先決定同女主角分手。」691Please respect copyright.PENANA47y794MdPw
我開始在分析著剛剛我們才一起看完的電影內容。691Please respect copyright.PENANAhSQa0I7n9j
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「但其實女主角都一廂情願,即使要等十年都願意等佢……我覺得喺個男主角太一意孤行,自動幫女主角決定埋佢嘅諗法。」691Please respect copyright.PENANALDx8bGywCy
她開始批評著剛剛戲中的男主角的行為。691Please respect copyright.PENANATeTGQG8ofP
「咁都喺因為佢哋唔坐低認真溝通一下,先會搞到要悲劇收場分手……雖然十年後又比佢兩個相遇翻,但真喺拍戲先會有咁嘅再遇情節。」691Please respect copyright.PENANArwraMb4rqg
我說著的同時,又從爆米花桶裡拿了數顆爆米花吃著。691Please respect copyright.PENANAmrcQoP8B91
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「所以呢,如果我哋遇到啲咩問題煩惱,都一定要好好同對方商量溝通!唔喺我哋就真喺要等十年後先再見翻對方架啦,哈哈。」691Please respect copyright.PENANA5ZobJrt1n8
她笑著說,然後同時摟住我拿著爆米花桶的手。691Please respect copyright.PENANAtYWyvGOek9
「哇,差啲倒瀉啦……可能我相遇翻之後,又會好似套戲咁一齊翻呢。」我都一同笑著說。691Please respect copyright.PENANA39tfZgIpxK
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接著,我們二人又繼續有說有笑地向車站的方向走去。691Please respect copyright.PENANAgkUoT5mlh8
當時我們所說的內容,我一直都把它們當做是情侶之間的玩笑。691Please respect copyright.PENANAzCMIpG0GfP
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但沒有想到,我們在兩個月後真的分手了。691Please respect copyright.PENANA8NQcWRdibc
分手的過程都與那一齣電影挺相似的,不過我們是男女角色對調。691Please respect copyright.PENANAxMNKkP7PjX
Mandy因為要到澳洲留學,而沒有信心與我維持關係。691Please respect copyright.PENANAiSQ5eEggs4
我就一廂情願希望大家可以先嘗試一下維持這遠距離的關係。691Please respect copyright.PENANAjzGfUwz233
但最終,我都沒能把這個想法告訴她。691Please respect copyright.PENANACFE6yD1pqU
而她就從此在我的世界裡消失了。691Please respect copyright.PENANAlB6HBRuHzT
直到現在,我與她再一次相遇……691Please respect copyright.PENANAsA2HC3FhpD
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「何鵬侑,其實你對我仲有無感覺?」691Please respect copyright.PENANAgNtOE6a5bd
在路燈的照射下,Mandy看著我問道。691Please respect copyright.PENANAzNLYynczKe
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這一個問題,在中四時,都有不少知情的人問過我。691Please respect copyright.PENANAua7oqlf28h
而我一直的答案都是模稜兩可似的。691Please respect copyright.PENANAi0rYjoYest
或許我心裡其實一直都有一個同樣的答案,但我只是不想被其他人知道我真正的答案到底是甚麼。691Please respect copyright.PENANAvur2uy9qsZ
直到這一刻,由她本人親自問道……691Please respect copyright.PENANAYXVCVpkoji
我應該不能再隱藏這個真正的答案了。691Please respect copyright.PENANAnVawrrIKeZ
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「你要我老實答嘅話,喺仲有感覺。」我說出口了。691Please respect copyright.PENANALxJftDAn68
而在我面前的Mandy都彷彿一早就知道了我這一個答案一樣。691Please respect copyright.PENANAaUqCW6IvKz
接著,她就深呼吸了一下後說:「都過咗成年啦……點會仲有感覺架……」691Please respect copyright.PENANA0d6va3UFqG
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「原先都無乜架啦,但同你相遇翻之後,個感覺即刻出翻哂嚟。」691Please respect copyright.PENANAnlmcFcZUik
我其實都不知道自己在說著些甚麼。691Please respect copyright.PENANAmz3h6iOwlp
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「問題就喺呢到啦!」她突然說道。691Please respect copyright.PENANAZfLkKke4iv
「問題?」我問道她。691Please respect copyright.PENANAAzbcgyr1OA
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「我哋依家嘅身份仲喺前男女朋友,所以一見翻臉就自然會咩感覺都出翻哂嚟……明明大家都已經分咗手成年,但你仲喺好似move on唔到咁。」691Please respect copyright.PENANAnvYaI812yY
她說完後,就轉身背向著我。691Please respect copyright.PENANAKV6xA8NgR0
但聽完她所說的話,我反而感到有點疑惑起來。691Please respect copyright.PENANAvT18lh5MDy
於是我都再問道:「你咁樣講,好似講到自己已經放低咗咁。」691Please respect copyright.PENANA4J06DJrChd
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她繼續背向著我,使我都看不到她任何的表情。691Please respect copyright.PENANApKvgGIK9Ci
「我……放低咗架啦!」她說道。691Please respect copyright.PENANAiWThZrbhgh
她的這一個答案使我突然有一點失望的感覺。691Please respect copyright.PENANAA3C5ICUKtx
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「喺啊……你放低到咪好囉……唔似我咁。」691Please respect copyright.PENANAyOAYLyVkY9
雖然失望,但對她來說或許是一件好事。691Please respect copyright.PENANAX5vu8AqmIy
畢竟我們的關係都只是過去的回憶而且。691Please respect copyright.PENANAegvaWksiCo
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「所以我覺得點解有時我哋喺班房到會有啲尷尬就喺因為我哋身份嘅問題。」691Please respect copyright.PENANAxRM1ocPjop
她終於轉過身來,但同時旁邊的路燈也因為時限而熄滅了。691Please respect copyright.PENANAWkbG97kFxj
我只能夠看到她面部的輪廓,而不能清楚地看見她此刻的表情。691Please respect copyright.PENANApXVq8NobZi
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「身份嘅問題?」我又問道她。691Please respect copyright.PENANA2jUbgreUAq
感覺上現在我完全是被她牽引著一問一答似的。691Please respect copyright.PENANAxOb6EePjoI
「你仲覺得我喺你前女朋友,所以有時喺交流上先會有啲尷尬……你應該好似我咁放低哂,然後就以一個新嘅身份去面對你!」691Please respect copyright.PENANAzMRPWemFjN
她又回答著我,貌似是在引導著我進入一個話題。691Please respect copyright.PENANAk8hKfDkgfh
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但這一次我選擇不回應、不問道她。691Please respect copyright.PENANAycZ4L5pldT
而她知道我沒有打算再問道時,就自己開口繼續說:691Please respect copyright.PENANApKZmRm75iY
「不如我哋重新嚟過,唔喺曾經嘅戀人,唔喺前男女朋友,而喺重新由朋友呢個關係再開始過。」691Please respect copyright.PENANAgWq5f3r4eM
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「你嘅意思即喺我哋做翻朋友,好似啲典型嘅分手對白咁。」我忍不住說出來。691Please respect copyright.PENANARVzUi3CfMz
因為我經常都會在一些討論區看見一些人分享分手的金句,就是「做回朋友」。691Please respect copyright.PENANARSDzGb6qOq
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「咁唔好咩?你又可以放低我,而我哋又可以繼續正正常常咁交流……」691Please respect copyright.PENANAffj58po50p
她語氣變得有一點低沉起來。691Please respect copyright.PENANARPLG3EM1zn
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問著我的心,其實這一刻我都不知道自己如何是好。691Please respect copyright.PENANApiVV7g91Ia
一方面,我知道我與Mandy的關係已經完結了,是時候應該要繼續向前行。691Please respect copyright.PENANAEEOaiRyXfs
但另一方面,知道她已經把對我的感情都放下,我反而有一點難受起來。691Please respect copyright.PENANAu3a5zdJFg5
我發現,原來一直以來只有我一個在過去的回憶中折磨著自己。691Please respect copyright.PENANAec3Vh9OAhT
在我還掛念她的時候,原來她已經一早把我放下了並開始著全新的路程。691Please respect copyright.PENANAppOCIQBEly
看來,我與她身為「戀人」的故事真的要在這一刻終結。691Please respect copyright.PENANAgU2FRwqPk6
而接下來,將會開始的……只是我與她身為「朋友」的故事。691Please respect copyright.PENANA4dsmAmYZNE
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「好啦,我哋做翻朋友啦咁!由今日起,我哋就只喺朋友。」我向她說道。691Please respect copyright.PENANA2EUJm6wqJn
雖然在說的時候,內心還是有一點難受。691Please respect copyright.PENANAFD8JlbnCzK
但或許,這對我來說,對她來說,甚至是對還等待著我的Venus來說……691Please respect copyright.PENANAnmG2TdhvFL
是最好的結局及開始。691Please respect copyright.PENANAh2qVN4qFH1
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接著,在我說完後,Mandy就很快又轉過身來背著我,然後開始說:691Please respect copyright.PENANAyq70ymyjIF
「好啦……時間唔早啦,你……快啲翻去買飯比家姐啦,我都要上翻去煮自己份晚餐啦!」691Please respect copyright.PENANAsrNYT9zSup
然後她就向我揮了一下手作道別,就往前方的屋苑方向跑去。691Please respect copyright.PENANAPCOzSuOpT9
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這時候,路燈又因為感應到她的動作而再次亮起來。691Please respect copyright.PENANARMPD0ZgfMM
但我都只能看著她的背影慢慢遠離我。691Please respect copyright.PENANAeUBZHOApcl
「今日真喺坐過山車咁呢……」我自言自語地說著。691Please respect copyright.PENANA5DqAvMdnKj
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「有多少人會真的願意選擇,由零再從頭來一次」691Please respect copyright.PENANA2cGFbuCF6f
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作者閒聊:為慶祝紙言點擊過萬,緊貼將會是59.5章。691Please respect copyright.PENANAOCRPuDZZ5J