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某一天，在午息時段，Ivy悶悶不樂地來到學校的庭園。514Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMUdGgk8rJN
找了一個寧靜的角落，獨自一人坐下，不禁嘆息起來。514Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1IrLoALzso
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原來在剛才午飯時間，Ivy又一次鼓起勇氣邀約Alvin一同吃午飯。514Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUl1YN0Ieot
可是早就習慣了與其他男生一同外出用膳的Alvin。514Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbbePeYDW96
並且升上中學後，根本就沒有被女生邀約吃飯。514Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXIDDnG3qX6
因此Ivy突如其來邀約，再加上當時朋友們的催促，Alvin也只好當下拒絕了她的邀請。514Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLz5h30sFgE
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被喜歡的人拒絕邀約，除了感到可惜及失望之外，就根本甚麼都做不到。514Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMAKbdV9dhu
Ivy曾經嘗試融入對方的生活圈子之中，卻永遠都只是停留在表面上的融入。514Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB7FVcj3XNr
至今，她與Alvin仍然是維持在每天上學見面時談上兩三句話的局面。514Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7jxjJpHJC3
即使放學後，她與Alvin透過WhatsApp聊天的次數，也少之又少。514Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAHalt02sTY
514Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9MwzjoVtZf
「Alvin都好似唔多理我咁……莫非真喺要好似Laura咁講，直接同佢講我鍾意佢……」514Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhaexVOI43q
這時，在Ivy的腦海中也閃現出前陣子Laura的一句說話。514Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi8Av9cgFpR
那句叫她向喜歡的人坦承的說話。514Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoNIqiyaD1B
可是對於性格偏向內向的Ivy來說，要與喜歡的人坦白，可是一件難若登天的事情。514Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg4J9K2cseS
單是起初鼓起勇氣向Alvin進一步搭訕，她其實也在心裡掙扎了好幾天。514Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8sl8caQHGf
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「你鍾意Alvin啊？」514Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhcYS16pDwZ
突然有一把男聲從Ivy的後方傳來。514Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0uTPpbmTFW
使得她馬上驚慌失色起來，並隨即轉過身來，查看聲音的主人。514Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvDh2ZKlbaH
「Dan……？點解你會嚟庭園嘅？」514Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAWRlIa7pXA
在確認是同班的同學後，Ivy也接著好奇地問道。514Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIuDzHw1CP1
畢竟，學校的庭園平常根本不會有人到訪。514Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvgrsR36dxO
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「食飽飯無嘢做，咪嚟行過圈囉……但竟然比我八卦到啲嘢啊，呵呵。」514Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ53vyONUQ3V
Dan在說著的同時，奸笑起來，然後就盯著Ivy，等待對方辯解。514Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxGft0ozJ2q
「你唔好講出啊！我求你！」Ivy當然是立即雙手合十，不斷向Dan請求著。514Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6bgylCm7jS
514Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRfrBoF0hvT
接著，Dan也抓一抓自己的頭髮，一臉沾沾自喜地說：514Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi8lmgRLNja
「乜我似啲會將人哋秘密亂咁爆出去嘅人咩？」514Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNsOEBtfwO8
Ivy思考了一會Dan的這句話，然後就搖頭說：「咁又唔似……」514Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmnNumOSDYN
514Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcEmdgArTyP
「鍾意咗人幾耐啊？」Dan隨即問道，看來是打算再八卦一下Ivy的事情。514Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvA1kzsI9N0
Ivy頓時也面紅耳赤起來，並不斷捏住自己的校裙。514Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQc8kJgT9XQ
而在一番內心掙扎後，她也小小聲地說：「大概三個月啦……」514Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzvyAarZ1p2
514Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw8kyLVJLMv
Dan馬上「哇」了一聲，但很快又一臉認真地摸著下巴說：514Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnPzjM3IVBT
「唔怪得近排見你同Alvin多咗嘢講啦……不過睇嚟你都好似有嘢煩惱緊？」514Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCShLNDseKB
在對方的引導下，Ivy也開始向Dan說起了一切的由來。514Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpQsGS9ToYo
由一開始對Alvin產生興趣，然後就是好感，最後就是喜歡了對方。514Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvdbhTwxCbv
不過卻一直未能向對方表達心意。514Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBwbPCDru5j
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Dan聆聽完Ivy一番經歷後，隨即也露出一個恍然大悟的樣子。514Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtOCMF9o0Ey
「哦，所以啱啱先見你唉聲嘆氣咁坐喺到。」514Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9BC22cKvU4
Ivy沒有說話，只是默默地點著頭。514Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5fd1Hleqq9
於是Dan見況也繼續說：「都明你點解咁沮喪嘅，明明鍾意人，但又無勇氣同對方講，想接近人，但喺又無從入手，令到自己卡咗喺個尷尬位。」514Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8hNAzN9NTj
聽到Dan「一針見血」的總結後，Ivy也馬上再次嘆息起來。514Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTbdbBsWCzX
然後一臉沒精打采地看著Dan，並用低沉的聲音說：「聽嚟我都喺無機架啦……」514Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA0GBJdLjAj
514Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR51uvFJqac
「唔好灰啦！不如我幫你探下Alvin口風啦！知佢點諗你都一件好事啊！」514Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡljTz9DDNUR
Dan見到Ivy一臉死氣沉沉地樣子，馬上轉用一個輕快的口吻說著，希望從而令Ivy振作一點。514Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2JcY3h7AFH
而Ivy聽到了Dan的建議後，馬上想起了先前Laura的一句：「唔試過又點知得唔得呢？」514Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtrMhw7QIj0
隨即也重燃心中的希望之火，一邊點頭一邊把一切都託付到Dan手上……514Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqmj5CoUvTP
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數天後，Dan看準了放學時Alvin獨自離開課室的時機。514Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnbXbGS9aqv
馬上裝作想與Alvin一同放學而上前與他搭訕。514Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjzKORNzrq1
「Alvin，不如今日一齊走啊！」514Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡptHCQ1vTEo
「少有喎，你今日唔喺同Francis一齊走。」514Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvomDwecrT6
「因為……Francis比人罰留堂啊！」514Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaVsNVkXjCB
但此刻Francis其實是在班房裡與其他男生共同挑戰著手機遊戲中的關卡……514Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqLyIfE6w8R
514Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm0n7LcuhWZ
接著，Dan與Alvin二人一邊聊著一邊下樓梯。514Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1AeretpIba
聊起兩三句後，Dan也開門見山問道：「Alvin，你喺2E有無鍾意嘅人啊？」514Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0HCYXCJTMn
隨即二人也站在了原地。514Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrGcSC70Rgr
而此時，Ivy也剛好走到了樓梯的轉角處，聆聽到了Alvin接下的回答。514Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKglONY21uJ
「無喎。」Alvin的這一個回答，簡單而直接。514Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgehOf1UAU4
不過卻同時使Dan愣住了，而偷聽著的Ivy更感到失望起來。514Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIWxUYJpXmQ
看來她的幻想，都確實只是幻想。514Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgUWqeGGaZU
並如同泡沫一樣，在一瞬間破掉化為無物。514Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh5NtQdbLne
514Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYlfHe2Ukvo
「真喺無鍾意嘅人？」Dan再問道，並語氣變得質疑起來。514Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8Jb0Me5h1S
不過Alvin仍然迅速而堅定地回答同樣的答案：「真喺無。」514Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxR8pZmwxni
514Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaENDT3GyE5
這使得Dan不禁倒抽了一口氣。514Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU0LcYZR3H3
不過機智的他，也很快就想到第二條問題：「咁班入面有無邊個女仔吸引到你啊？」514Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlKML94JmvR
Alvin思考了一會，然後答：「嗯……無喎……」514Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCkz3yKUHhe
雖然答案一樣，但是這一次Alvin的回答，卻從中感覺到一絲猶如。514Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOWIgVVCfSw
於是Dan也捉住了這份遲疑，再問：「真喺無？你諗真啲……例如Ivy呢？」514Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnuskQnTP6a
514Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0eVDBsplQm
在轉角處的Ivy聽到了自己的名字後，也意會到Dan終於把與Alvin的對話引導到自己身上。514Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpBWzTlqKTZ
她隨即地把雙手放到胸口上，希望能藉此壓抑住活蹦亂跳的心。514Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ33m4azqza8
因為對於接下來Alvin的回答，她確實感到額外的緊張起來。514Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2HOzzSBaHe
可是，她接著聽到答案是……514Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDH2H7uJoyD
「Ivy啊……無咩特別感覺喎，咪普通同學咁。」514Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2w64egiRxy
514Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmm3wglgWxQ
聽到Alvin的回答，Ivy頓時如同石化了一樣，目瞪口呆地站在原地。514Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtjFmKeKCjM
連此刻站在Alvin對面的Dan也瞬間感到愕然起來。514Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVKTcm8xdt8
或許他自己也猜想不到，這就是Alvin的答案。514Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm5Tgbp4APW
不過，感到有點不知所揩的Dan，也靈機一動，立即再問：514Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrpWPibWc40
「如果Ivy喺鍾意你呢？」514Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRkuNlMrrXw
他選擇不再轉彎抹角，而是斬釘截鐵地道出了Ivy的心意。514Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡENSvMyL5PZ
但其實他都猜想不到，原來Ivy一直偷聽著。514Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt9tPAKQ2rH
514Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7kw7RmAgJH
然而，Alvin隨即也皺起眉頭說：「就算佢鍾意我，都唔代表我要鍾意佢。感情呢啲嘢講feel架嘛，如果要迎合佢嘅心意，而勉強自己，我做唔到。」514Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlvuLMv4U1U
514Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtcjuqxA0SK
正當Alvin說完這句話後，他們的上方也突然傳來了一聲急促的腳步聲。514Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0ol4yMxDmq
於是Alvin好奇地探頭瞄了一眼上方，並發現沒有人。514Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgQPGFNrra6
接著也扭過頭來繼續與Dan談論剛剛的話題。514Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP4DM6ICKGN
然而，他並不知道，剛才腳步聲的主人，正是Ivy。514Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6XR3pfzcaa
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而與此同時，Ivy也已經淚流滿面，走到了學校的某處。514Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0As68PzFX0
孤單一人坐在角落，蜷縮著身體，雙臂抱住雙膝，痛哭起來。514Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIAqpf2rUKQ
她的哭聲，無比悲哀及淒慘，如同心被刀割一樣。514Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYZVnD6UopZ
看來這份傷痛，將永遠刻印在她的心中，成為一條永遠無法修補的疤痕。514Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM4EdMXNJeP
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「就算佢鍾意我，都唔代表我要鍾意佢」514Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMFCqRsKRjY
直至深夜時，Ivy再次因為回想起Alvin的這一句話，而驚醒過來。514Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgr5qIoD7D4
她隨即慢慢地離開了床，並坐在一旁的梳妝桌。514Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjthHYR6r3l
然後，打開了桌燈，看著鏡中雙眼通紅、神情疲倦的自己。514Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTtz0f9Vih3
514Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE0rsjrYhfx
接著再回想起Alvin的說話，以及這三個月來自己的所做一切。514Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkwRxVdv7Lz
她不禁冷笑起來，隨後打開桌上文具盒，拿出了一把美術刀。514Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwEAJAZebj2
伸出冰冷的刀鋒，對著自己的手臀……514Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb45tDcnEA3
「嚓—」514Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTOadUvbbdk
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「懷著多大的期望，就會迎來同等的失望，甚至最終帶來更深的絕望」514Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ928Ow2fJcG
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作者在此鄭重聲明：514Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEKGvTRAzIe
𠝹手只是劇情的一部份，並且是虛構情節。514Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhHO69iZSEE
讀者們請潔身自愛，切勿嘗試！！！514Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZyNVfITc0t
無論遇上多麼不如意的事情，都切勿做出任何試圖傷害身體的行為。514Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡujOQIwm6do
若發現事情未如理想，無法獨力承受，請向身邊的人如父母及師長尋求協助。514Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIfnUoWXZEC
切勿將傷害身體來發洩情緒一事合理化，請各位潔身自愛。514Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHRzdEllJri
愛人前先要懂得愛錫自己。514Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEE1urBAFiT
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作者閒聊：514Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnhUIatXAjA
過去阿侑的一句：「就算佢鍾意我，都唔代表我要鍾意佢。感情呢啲嘢講feel架嘛，如果要迎合佢嘅心意，而勉強自己，我做唔到。」514Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUS0Tz7P24r
完全是在打著現在自己的臉……514Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs0kLTnrlOO
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