「好。」801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY3z7GuwXql
801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwcX5O5uCRe
他們行街市，他們行超市，買了幾舊姜，買了一盒無核青提。801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLgTXuWOhcC
801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJiWoZaCdoq
阿朗捧着它們，思思挽着他的手，一路走回家。801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV9iRA2mRUN
801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEtBg0d5Tj2
她和他說東西又加價了，好像貴了一點點；他點頭，和她一起歎物價高企，即使他不清楚原先的價錢。801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmDIbFQmmi8
801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIgQ0hdY1TJ
她煮飯，他們吃飯，他洗碗，全程很和諧。801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW9qbo9li6B
801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡavTTBoUwWp
和對方生活，說到底是舒適的。他們知道對方的吃什麼不吃什麼，進門出門前的小動作，糞便聞起來是什麼味道，長久的習慣締造出舉止自如的輕快。801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW1OL6DXXBN
801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV53eUn0K3p
「落街行吓好冇？」阿朗問。801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiPWSN6uvUW
801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDvHkqYiaPH
思思明白：「好。」801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8t3oyybv6p
801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh7ktJIWKTL
於是，他們像拍拖一樣，下樓到處逛逛，二人都沒有說話。801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiv9f3ZrGGT
801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvg2Sx8tg8k
是因為享受閒適嗎？恐怕不是。他們在心裏打了一份草稿，正默默練習，演講的時候要配合眼神、表情、動作，不可以有任何差池——即使，他們都感覺到對方的態度軟化，仍怕一旦有細節處理不好，就會前功盡廢。801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlWDcOytogm
801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjqgXy9RciZ
行一行，又返回樓下公園，坐在那張長椅上，微風正好。801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdRuSmmH0M9
801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1nfWYkQiP2
阿朗首先開口：801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuk2Jx8fucS
801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeCteoCOnHF
「係呢……我有啲嘢想講。」801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbihHaSGCoj
801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgVKEwaynuc
「嗯？」801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5sccECrTVB
801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL8ZYFT0cZS
「你覺唔覺得我哋怪怪哋，好似同以前好唔同咁。」801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQehGW7JBwC
801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEbf5mOiXcU
「覺。」她看着他，坦白承認。801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyGUDqelufh
801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡARr6yhExeL
「其實，我覺得，我哋好似淡咗……或者唔係淡咗，但好似冇以前咁開心。」801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8U4Y4kiPWA
801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQRcOaOtU4E
「嗯。」801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSYeEEAHxea
801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEF5Wqt9ktP
「啫係，我哋都……我哋都少講咗嘢，少傾咗偈，係呢一兩日先多啲。平時，都好似只係傾棉花糖咁……」801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHAku6cf4Sz
801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzoLgGAjHw2
他回想，除了功課、興趣班、測考、冬季校服，只得訕訕地問好。801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKURX9iWzik
801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡACiC58cttw
「好似係，連佢都覺得我哋唔太熟添。」801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyyc0t8CnNC
801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡazg23EXiJa
她自嘲於被女兒發現端倪；阿朗也笑：801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4H5jDMxv7N
801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqVfg5gP1u7
「但係，我哋當然熟。」801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡllBCeiWFE1
801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi6tyY3SCyH
「用熟唔熟嚟講我哋，好似有啲怪。」801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVLkjEcL6yF
801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNL9snKXzeB
他們已經很親，說不說話也有親厚情義，但確實不安於此，熟悉感正在剝落。801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgASn48ofVA
801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsIakkd4bSw
「都係。」801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOZN19J6qK9
801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT0PNa8Un2o
她深呼吸：801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj86ncj1mDj
801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4DlR0aqpT6
「我明你意思，我都係咁覺得——」801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVTE5DPmQvY
801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡArXW9MW8pr
「嗯？」801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNwM38lyZhv
801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0Qo5WGiPvS
她直直地看着他，像背誦課文一樣：801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQuFoZGybLx
801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFJpzcwWX1w
「我好唔開心——真㗎，因為我哋變成咁。但我唔想再咁落去啦，但係，我都唔知個問題出喺邊——你話，如果係喺以前，我會覺得都幾合理？但宜家，明明我哋都好好㗎……」801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbH4fAV00Xc
801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRgPNZe3pXa
他見她已說不下去的樣子，順着手肘牽起她的手，替她補充：801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVWjGNVRXLx
801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3Jir8oXTq4
「嗯，我哋係好好，過得幾好，個女又咁生性，又夠錢洗。係咪因為咁，所以覺得啲嘢永遠都只會繼續行落去……我意思係，冇太多進步空間，甚至有啲太習慣、太安穩？801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHLcwTMXKAT
801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuPwHnTqXrV
變咗，好似好悶咁？」801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgpIUUGLxmu
801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzQgDuJ7fOC
他們達成共識。801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQf9g6onl3V
801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK9akYbFAvo
她表達意願：801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkjwm9JueCU
801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1YcouqV3Gp
「嗯……但係呢，我真係唔想再咁。」801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpvTG5KZxza
801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYgr2QDXOl2
「我都唔想。」801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7oDOwVreLQ
801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9uMR590S6J
「其實，我之前就想同你講，但係每次去到口唇邊，就講唔出咁……801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoPO5e9mcId
801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg08HFWLMrx
我認我係有少少細膽，但係嗰陣時，我唔知你係點諗。我驚我同你講咗我唔開心，甚至同你講我覺得我哋……淡咗，就會番唔到轉頭，啫係——」801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTQlA3NCro5
801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ816I2TOYqI
「係咪驚我唔係咁諗？或者，我都係咁諗，但係講咗，就番唔到轉頭？」801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhoWrUGKKOo
801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfOnyhL7LTL
他忽然心寬，因為，他也有過這樣的思慮過程。801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡApIYlvhwA3
801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlA0L2hIyBd
「係。」801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3NAzKoc8TM
801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvL7qD7415Q
「明。」801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGHqaVHJbQc
801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6CTftWanDC
「嗯，唔係所有嘢講出嚟，就可以趨向解決㗎嘛，可能一講，連原本咁樣都冇埋呢？咁到時點？」801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlTeF1ho257
801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqPleWYjdhk
「我都係咁覺得。」801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1PTXQXI4vv
801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRCTbJMPkRf
她有些不好意思地捽捽手指：801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz03Kp3jsag
801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxmS49HFjZ7
「我哋，好似、好似都幾廢。」801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0QN7IiCigA
801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpEuqza4LWE
「係，垃圾。但係垃圾宜家識開口，係可回收㗎啦喎。」801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfUcgIlrTST
801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGdV6TSGNJA
他指着不遠處的三色回收箱；而她沒好氣地笑一笑：801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlZ3TjMPcaU
801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOlbq97Ulqq
「都擺咗成三十幾年啦——唔係嘅，個問題啱啱先有啫。」801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiR7V9XYAai
801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJXsuZNEcI1
「嗯。咁宜家我哋肯傾，你係想……？我係因為想解決，所以先想同你講出口，我唔想再係咁啦，我諗，我哋都好辛苦。真㗎。」801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0xWmCcodOQ
801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7vzYZ6xHgt
二人的語調平緩，聲線都是輕輕的。801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzMXg76QeU1
801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxCgzllWmxf
她點頭：「嗯。801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMrV28sNCkt
801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZg34xLjusX
我啱啱咪話，之前想同你講嘅……但係最後冇講到嗰次。就係嗰日，嗯，我話嗰個學生同我表白嗰次。」801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuwq3ac7zgM
801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZAT1ZYxxq9
「係，我記得。」801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU2HrM7IN7j
801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu17Ds8xQGf
他想起，那天她比往常熱情，笑容燦爛，像一次晴天娃娃顯靈的天朗氣清。801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb8rC9nf4JW
801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡktTlqVaOvK
「嗰次呢，就係因為佢同我講完，我就覺得，其實，我好愛你。801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3Uia40xPcn
801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm7MFK54LgU
或者係，你真係好愛我——哈哈，有啲肉麻添。」801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqdE5igT1tb
801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzy7x1Cjqih
這個太清晰的她，阿朗清楚知道，並且予以認識、擁抱、接納，未曾離開。801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhUzFr7p1W0
801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQfiCMWl9Ic
「係，少骨痹。」801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU9qVeHme8y
801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDHWtCIOqUT
「就係咁啦——我聽完之後，唔覺得會有人可以取代到你嘅地位。始終呢，我都太多謝你啦。」801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX1l1cp6Z47
801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2dNkf4k4Zh
她越說越小聲，很久沒有告白愛意，突然覺得有些難以啟齒；將目光投射到前面在玩「紅綠燈」的小朋友上，微笑。801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkTvumwSGFW
801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOAEf7uoxBJ
「噢，對唔住。」801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWRTDPjhQOu
801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjviYZs123U
他摸摸她的頭。801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4H5OE6iYG0
801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ49SQVLGcI8
他記起，當時他打斷了她，因為他生氣於他們陌生，而她卻與別人熟絡到被鍾情。801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjpF5D8A8ca
801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5Qph4vBacl
「唔緊要。所以嗰陣時冇講到。」801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5vT2VDzzyT
801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrcgvohFtzI
她的決心竟然在融化。801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJGI7tq2kvX
801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrKiW47kulb
她補充：「我當時聽緊佢講，但係就只係得一種好攰嘅感覺，我只係諗起你，諗起你對我有幾好。」801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT7UEiezuVC
801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMwX96xxtCi
「你都對我好好啊。」801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡihz9McUoUc
801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxCFBbER50l
「係唔錯㗎。」801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuy82gWX7U0
801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGXpD9gVFBR
「嗯……我嗰日唔應該發你脾氣，我諗多咗。」801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp5bDhFRWg7
801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPu671dEucn
「係囉，嚇到我唔敢講。」801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi2znMOnuD2
801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoGTAz4QeOF
「Well……雖然我就冇你咁正俾人媾，」只見思思笑着反了一個白眼，他說：「但係，我都有作出反思，都想改善……801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLEF9wfEZIZ
801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFXjFKQ2PnY
我諗，我哋都有同一個感受，譬如我都會覺得我哋有嘢唔同、好掛住以前、記低對方嘅好，只係有啲無力。801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4EaIxHNtwz
801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡinnpMG6JIG
咁耐以嚟，我番殯儀呢，成日接觸啲唔喺度嘅人，其實都幾令我珍惜生活，始終我都唔想瞓喺度等其他人化妝……咁但係，我好似——因為太有安全感？覺得呢一種平淡係唔會更改，有好過冇，好過大家連平淡都唔得。801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVMwwEsD9N8
801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj5MXBrckuK
所以，雖然珍惜生活，但係，就唔太珍惜……我哋。」801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0js786MVQJ
801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKUmIin3Y7r
明明說珍惜生活、好好活着，第一個主觀感受是「好煩」，珍惜生活，卻沒有珍惜生活中身邊人的舉動，只在內心默唸、憂愁、後退。801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDbFGFH9A0j
801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJE5kSLMjNv
「嗯，明白你意思。」801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2dFzu4uWyu
801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlGnuBlWTuQ
「但我想珍惜。宜家——或者係之前咁樣，我都唔太舒服。你呢？」801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeLQgemMehP
801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBlito92lU7
一切醞釀已久，終於不止困於無力腦袋中。801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfUDMiC5qpI
801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8kzaAChTWu
「我都係。」801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaGJNK3u85u
801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9JfycSwjAR
「咁……就好啦。」801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAow1iLOwOA
801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr2De56Blyv
小朋友玩耍的歡快和老人家下棋的爭論忽然沒有了聲，他們只聽見自己的心跳，像已歷盡高山爬上了珠穆朗馬蜂，但無以為繼，只看着眼前美景卻不知是否應該原路往返——801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzP6Z9SFs1J
801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrYP3beY294
說完了，之後呢？801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG80iHSp1Jn
801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV4HjeQBpCU
「我想盪鞦韆，推我吖。」801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv225rxZmVm
801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNSjbTrBClV
思思站起，向阿朗笑笑。801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6GYvryf0xj
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