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「你知唔知?我……」1015Please respect copyright.PENANANoxFej5m9n
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阿朗喃喃,之後沉默;手沒有停止,繼續為遺體上粉。1015Please respect copyright.PENANALkdj1PRMI5
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千言萬語,在心中譜寫。當阿朗對一份工作足夠熟悉時,常常做着做着,就想找一些話說,差在是否講出聲。他之所以不再言語,是因為,他怕真的有人回應他,如此則過分滲人;無論如何,這個空間都太靜了。1015Please respect copyright.PENANAMm4BLzQrVJ
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不,又或者,倘若真有人回應他,說到底也是一個伴——哈,眾生平等。1015Please respect copyright.PENANAiPT8zYgP9m
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自轉工後,阿朗和思思皆工作了三年。1015Please respect copyright.PENANAl2l7AcLl6J
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一開始,二人還有許多話說的,因為工作予其的新鮮感支撐着二人無眠時興起的話題。1015Please respect copyright.PENANAnSZFiMutfR
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可是,後來,開始無話可講。1015Please respect copyright.PENANAnmW9EGGGNn
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阿朗已見過很多不同種類的遺體:自殺、交通意外、久病而逝、急性病逝……見得多,自然不再感到新奇,他只越來越專業的做化妝手勢,表情放鬆,可是因為習慣了,所以再無新奇事可分享。1015Please respect copyright.PENANASnbs8Fm94N
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或者,有時他很想分享,二人卻了無心思,沒有一個合適的興致配合話語;只好等到假日才說,但常常忘了起初想說什麼。1015Please respect copyright.PENANAMLnmdm1Cn1
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思思呢,好一點,可是也較以往沉默。1015Please respect copyright.PENANAQgEGhd2WiS
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她對學校更熟悉了,開始上手;和學生也越來越熟絡,他們都喜歡思思。午飯時間,甚至組成一個個小團體,內進狹小的社工室吃飯,和思思說「阿sir啱啱火車未到站」、「又要默書,勁長」、「放學就要補習啦」、「我都要去學琴啊,今晚又唔知幾點先可以瞓」,云云。1015Please respect copyright.PENANA5PZ1wA6z5J
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慢慢,生活只是一個循環,再沒有新的事好講。1015Please respect copyright.PENANAOSJQChl9Yd
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但二人還可以圍繞棉花糖,看看她的功課、興趣班、測驗卷、温度進度,偶然一同幫她做難度甚高的視藝科勞作。1015Please respect copyright.PENANA2xCvkjV7ph
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對。1015Please respect copyright.PENANADxRecgu0wf
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如此,如此地環迴往復。久而久之,又覺得平淡。1015Please respect copyright.PENANAcqm5pD7KTA
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就是,大家都會關心對方,今天工作怎樣呢?辛勞嗎?繁忙嗎?可是,話語來來去去都是那些,第一次說,倒叫做體貼;但說到第一百次時,卻像極了例行公事,即使語氣充滿抑揚,聽起來卻只是一句不帶感情的慰問,淡淡的,內心總已經有個預期對方會說的答案:1015Please respect copyright.PENANACISAToLln7
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「幾好吖。」或者,「有啲攰。」不出這些了。1015Please respect copyright.PENANA76bnMXzMbx
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接下來,就幫對方按摩,手的力度卻悄悄放軟。1015Please respect copyright.PENANAntLhkyKkSF
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平淡……平淡就對了,婚姻和感情不就如此嗎?總不可能一生都充滿激情吧,當新鮮感褪去,生活又回歸了整齊有序的狀態——1015Please respect copyright.PENANAXMJBpC3O81
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是應該的吧?1015Please respect copyright.PENANAOC3hv1klFH
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臨睡前,阿朗想起,他們已經二十八歲:1015Please respect copyright.PENANANUOVmfikCG
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「老婆,」他側身摸思思的頭髮分界線:「十年啦,我哋今年係咪去泰國玩?」1015Please respect copyright.PENANAOeMcR1lcs5
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他想回到那個夏天去,雖然熱,但至少和他結伴的思思,是有温度的。1015Please respect copyright.PENANAoDtURzhxzg
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外出散心,大家都會輕鬆點,不要再留在那個重覆工作的氛圍當中。一成不變,總使人麻木。1015Please respect copyright.PENANAMB2HHdt0gW
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但是,思思似是想起了什麼,皺眉:1015Please respect copyright.PENANAkTyDw9fnle
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「但係,我暑假有project搞……」1015Please respect copyright.PENANAx7ovf4XETS
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「咩project?要做幾耐㗎?」1015Please respect copyright.PENANAArnOzPGP24
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「我都唔太清楚,係講中一、二嘅學生點樣適應新學年嘅,環境唔同以前少學,壓力太大。」1015Please respect copyright.PENANAQiRNCFi5pL
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「咁,仲去唔去?」1015Please respect copyright.PENANAtnQCct3pQ6
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「遲啲先?等我忙完呢牌先。我都想去㗎,對唔住。」1015Please respect copyright.PENANAeX5MIKnMRi
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「唔緊要啦,咁我哋遲啲再plan過。宜家瞓啦,聽日我哋都要番早,good night。」1015Please respect copyright.PENANAD022UqYAi6
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如果去的話,一定要再試布吉島上的某間餐廳的泰式炒河,太好吃;還有要和那個老闆打聲招呼,看看餐牌上的中文字還是不是翻譯有誤;不過,不用再去騎大象了,太有墜落的危機感,上次還因而跌了弄跌了耳機,最後,得靠大象用鼻從草木中取回來。1015Please respect copyright.PENANAXPFlYjjINC
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如果去的話,世界又剩下他們兩個了。1015Please respect copyright.PENANA1ZggCIvTHY
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那麼,他們還可以有當年的開心和甜蜜嗎?反正,現在沒有答案。1015Please respect copyright.PENANARJUpORw5Pl
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不知道從何時開始,他們的共處時刻都靠棉花糖,才能有多一些話。如果到泰國去,他倆怎麼辦?1015Please respect copyright.PENANA56nNDSy3p5
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不,只要空閑,都可以聊很多很多。1015Please respect copyright.PENANALc1bRse3DD
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思思閉眼。1015Please respect copyright.PENANA43uGKC39dy
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她覺得好累;開始明白阿朗以前回家的頹喪狀,絕對不是佯裝出來的。1015Please respect copyright.PENANAJ5JnAJS6Fz
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別人以為她的工作只是奉上一雙耳朵,然後隨便說些心靈雞湯就可以;但不是的,她不想做這種人,所以,她認真聆聽和回應。1015Please respect copyright.PENANAgSP7MvJ0Vs
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不只學生,老師也偶然向她打探學生的心事,斷言拒絕又顯得不禮貌,總要大戰幾個回合,你推我讓。1015Please respect copyright.PENANAtzri8FIGUg
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還有家長。有些家長天天致電學校,老師處理不到,就交給她接聽——1015Please respect copyright.PENANAq83FOriOeu
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「嗰個講座講嘅方法都冇用嘅?佢都係唔聽我話喎。」1015Please respect copyright.PENANADsMrk4ksKG
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「點解我個仔日日都冇精神聽書?」1015Please respect copyright.PENANArIbJrGfAei
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「佢做咩苦瓜乾咁樣番屋企?你哋冇睇好佢?」1015Please respect copyright.PENANAUuYU71f0M8
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「姑娘呀,我想問吓呢,有冇咩方法可以令佢乖乖哋去補習?」1015Please respect copyright.PENANApUF4kBTJVy
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「阿仔放學成日都唔即刻番嚟,係咪群埋啲壞同學?」1015Please respect copyright.PENANApwMcmD6AD8
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然後,她不斷挨罵。1015Please respect copyright.PENANA3fhOFS7udY
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其他日子,就是跟case和寫報告。1015Please respect copyright.PENANAOtWE31p6aO
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她的生活確實充實,求仁得仁;只是有一點點累。有時,她只想快快吃完飯,然後攤睡床上,不需再說一句話,任由起伏有致的呼吸聲替她道一聲晚安。1015Please respect copyright.PENANAMBVNmojd6N
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她失去了傾訴的心思。1015Please respect copyright.PENANA7pBwYYIPqc
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即使,她多麼想時常說一些瑣碎,像以前一樣。1015Please respect copyright.PENANA7TT9vaGA0a
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如今,她努力等閒暇周末。1015Please respect copyright.PENANAr2KOk96f1J
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