我和日朗在一起。811Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy4xva9jQGn
811Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2uwWspNfO8
他對我很好，好得我要向他學習怎樣愛人；在他之前，原來我只愛過父母親，只有他們能帶給我痛楚，也只有痛苦也能實切地證明這份感情的重量，只有快樂的話，不過是一種娛樂，那並沒有厚度。811Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOOqRxrfFz2
811Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5DNxrrHQU3
我與別人交往的時候，只有開心，只有自我關照；但講到尾，其實我並不關心別人怎麼活。811Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMxSXfDOyI0
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他們開不開心、好不好，我不在乎。811Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmtRNq71BEY
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為什麼我要管他們呢？他們只是提供愛給我的一種工具。811Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkBUBqpDbTQ
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但日朗不同。我喜歡他。811Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ7wabxVTSB
811Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgbadaGF3v3
感覺是完全不一樣的，我想知道他怎樣看待我——811Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtZUTIHelTK
811Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqZmNIvR2lG
我想知道，佢會鍾意我幾耐？佢覺得我點？同其他人比呢？811Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1plYJ8gX2e
811Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQC5psHEVhv
但是有些事，我是絕對不會讓他知道的，譬如我收很多觀音兵。如果他發現，我想，我會說：811Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbm72PiOfF9
811Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3EDQ0Lq9Fw
「我唔係有心㗎，咁人哋鍾意我吖嘛？係咪？811Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKvQafpvx9u
811Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtpr8SBEjq9
你原本都係其中之一嚟㗎咋，只係，我鍾意你咋嘛。」811Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKdLqpqGYxi
811Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6Qzq696lFk
這種說法是不是值得欣賞呢？我不知道，但如果是我，聽時會很開心呢，畢竟對方肯定了我啊，是不是？811Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxyuaF0P2ig
811Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡay4klea52d
我喜歡他，明明我喜歡他——我看到他的時候會心動，別人靠近他時我會吃醋，也會在他沒空陪我時感到委屈。如果這都不叫愛，那怎樣才是呢？811Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQvkwd490HT
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可是，我受不了。811Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT7B85EXXi5
811Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqdK62QqMgs
慢慢，他要求我：811Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoWZHxzijgu
811Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ87VRTPRXxv
「你可唔可以唔好遲咁耐到？」811Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9A4mpGeerD
811Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ1b4N3K96e
「下個月先買俾你好冇？我做緊part-time㗎啦，但宜家未有咁多錢……」811Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBZItUNL6Wp
811Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsEe5lbiwYa
「喂，你唔好嬲啦，明明係你錯，點解你可以嬲番我轉頭嘅？」811Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNPGk4CxPp0
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我開始失落。811Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3TV8lvfhRv
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我覺得，他不夠喜歡我，如果真是足夠喜歡，為什麼會對我有那麼多不滿？為什麼不能更多的包容和忍讓？別人都只唯唯諾諾，為什麼他就不可以呢？從來沒人這樣說過我啊。811Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKwjeku4jRj
811Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuQq8HFpSBI
難得我已努力向你證明：我愛你。811Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3UWf79yPRy
811Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8HlorUgwkQ
我賣力地和你口交、公開和你戀愛、不再接受他人的美意——很明顯了吧？811Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlqIucosnE8
811Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡygzcStd08J
為什麼你這樣貪心呢？這種美意還不夠嗎？811Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6GgcLqMAHb
811Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbuwNkRuo3z
「我明嘅……你可能唔太識得點愛人，咁不如我哋一齊學，好冇？」811Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNM0AtBf1bp
811Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4jYoDBcQ2t
日朗温柔地牽着我，但口中所說的，對我而言卻是嚴厲的苛責。811Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡByhgacQUUv
811Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS66JwMMUfA
我不懂愛人？811Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG17dYv28sK
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我不懂愛人——是的，那是因為，一直都是別人愛我嘛，我看別人付出已足夠了。去到自己愛的時候，好像也因而不那麼的得心應手呢？811Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3iQcM8Esii
811Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWPl54SVBDA
日朗說我懶，懶得不願向他多走幾步；我跟他生氣：喂，我已經努力咗㗎啦，咁多人裏面，你已經得到咗最高待遇，點解你唔滿意呢？811Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRGuWBcc16w
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係咪因為——811Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcv7Duk0PCY
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你唔夠愛我呢？811Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGofgiw1pGI
811Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGDq4zJGqVr
這個念頭成了一顆種子埋在我心間。日朗對我很好，但慢慢，我就沒有安全感了，我覺得他不夠別人那麼無條件愛我。811Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbA5NSNqVZO
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對，就是這樣。811Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmXwDmO9mOL
811Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGohCklXPQg
我的心再一次與他疏離。811Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLxmHRBp4uJ
811Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw1vqusvUpk
我突然看不起他。明明並沒有那麼愛我，卻裝出一副委曲求全的樣子。811Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKMg7CbtcvM
811Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHt8QUUFLUk
但是，我還繼續和他在一起，因為他太好了，如果別人知道他喜歡我，也會在心裏高看我幾分。人性如此；而他本身，也算是頗盡心盡力地對我好的，如果我提出要求，他也會努力做到。811Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkw8OSiHXMI
811Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVwusPPwhIi
只是，不似別人舉重若輕。811Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPM7yD4bfxW
811Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWVQfkljpRs
而像我這樣的女神並不會滿足於此的，我要得到很多很多，才能區分我自己和別人的差距。811Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbH7b7ZOKBy
811Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiozkxu1HGK
所以我出軌——811Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW512Eqhf9j
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其實這也是一種貼心吧？我想要的在日朗身上得不到，方才另覓他人，提供我所需，填補我和他的空隙；又不需勉強他勞苦自己，他既可以繼續愛我，我的私心又可繼續被滿足，一舉兩得。811Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6s89ANc0cD
811Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLOVXfpHlz4
本來，日子很好，我也因為得到別人的疼愛而變得更柔和一點，沒有再對日朗提過分的要求、沒有再輕易地發脾氣，總覺得自己要有觀音的氣量。811Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCy2ey9VOSw
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直到，日朗發現我出軌。811Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBLzKfrN4ZT
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他很激動。他不明白為什麼我要這樣做，他覺得他已對我至好，為我獻出全部；我只說，我要更多，他給我的還不夠。811Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsopoTEFIKO
811Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXFB0Hd4arI
那一刻，平常冷靜沉穩的他突然捨棄了自尊，雖然，他指出我的不對：811Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡryOHBayXln
811Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLxonwTaEIw
「你唔滿意點解唔同我講？如果唔鍾意，應該係分手而唔係出軌？」811Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuFYTCKHY46
811Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlJI61wDQIZ
但是，很快，他又自責地和我說他會改，即使他也不一定知道自己錯在何處。811Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrzh0i785aY
811Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQbPKTMLIMG
結果，他不斷付出。811Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLAH52l27nN
811Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe8fAxaij7A
而我看見他這樣，又覺得他的魅力不比往昔了，我比他高級，心慢慢地飛走；或者，不在他那處。811Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcsHIgs60rA
811Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVopvMYFLcm
他說：「你唔好同其他人一齊，我哋重新開始好冇？」811Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjsnOk78zEs
811Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnkHPsy0qd6
他說他愛我，想和我共偕連理。811Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR1frB2ESoM
811Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLBsEvveJOk
「咁……算啦，對唔住。」811Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvpYI8iHQ08
811Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQgmFFCFPFE
我開始覺得心煩，突然，我不需要他的愛了，我喜歡的是光芒萬丈的程日朗，不是這個垂頭喪氣的男人。811Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyJay0H4zHJ
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唉，真令人無奈。811Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpc99YdO07P
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我有別人給我的愛了。811Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLPtaJWOY8z
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而且，他不能接受我有別人，不能包容我的廣交——811Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwIS7TRfy2C
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唯有再見。811Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGE2DpvWiqa
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再見。811Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnkcA9OXj7Q
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只是，後來，我又念記他。811Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1ziYZ415IN
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