第一二七章：過去515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdAuGbDQ92I
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我們分手的那一天……515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXpURpH4YuZ
「聽日你唔好嚟送機啦！我知你好想嚟見我！但不見比見更好散！」515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVfjLDGFNKv
那一晚，Mandy果斷地掛斷了電話。515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5apkcBYOpm
並在短時間內，把我從她的WhatsApp、Instagram等社交平台通通封鎖。515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqNgHH482va
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我一時三刻說不出任何一句話，大慨大腦根本沒有回過神來。515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3XsHsbZVNQ
而直到回過神來的時候，已經是我躺在床上看著她在WhatsApp上的資訊欄。515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAM7NLGVGrJ
空白的頭像、空白的Statues、不存在的最後上線時間。515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUoBLiXF1xW
嘗試向她傳送訊息，作最後的挽留。515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA70Swec3aI
顯示的卻是單剔號。515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡso4lJKh0mc
五分鐘、十分鐘、三十分鐘、甚至是一個小時後。515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZHep0vPuBB
仍然是那黯淡無光的單剔號。515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdfI2TaFf7A
彷彿就在諷刺著此刻的我，失去了她，失去了世界所有的色彩一樣。515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvhj0X7egCO
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雙眼無神的我，把手機放到床的一角。515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU0f1lMR6iO
然後就轉身望向天花板，一直死盯著那空白的天花板。515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQzzyXlUyCr
直到手機突然傳來了「叮鈴」一聲，是接收到訊息的聲音。515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZKvRgw5Hr8
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「！」我瞬間彈起身來，拿起了床邊的電話。515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpnVBtXd8uo
心想一定是Mandy了，可是現實永遠都是殘酷無情的。515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBdbqz5cW8p
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因為訊息的傳送者，只是同班的Haley。515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdiLUQ8Ari8
「Alvin，聽日喺咪十二點喺東涌集合？」515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmmLs4B2qj0
他向我查詢了明天到機場歡送Mandy的詳情……曾經的詳情。515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4BUEihUfLb
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「我有啲唔舒服，聽日唔去」515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqPju8f2dwQ
在按下訊息傳送的按鈕後，沒有等待Haley的回覆，我已經把手機摔到地上。515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQJeLl9ccqT
不想看到、不想聽到、不想知道。515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpQPykqLNOm
就讓我獨自一個靜靜地渡過這一晚吧……515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG6NLWXBPDj
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「我叫Mandy，多多指教啊！」515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl8ubSlQ575
這是回憶嗎？515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKK2tALKbSt
「有機我哋2E班要搞翻個羽毛球班會活動。」515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOVjBqU8UZ6
又是回憶了。515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjmNOf75o4n
「我退咗燒啦，多謝你之前借件冷衫比我保暖。」515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwqUINBNePW
怎樣都是回憶。515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjHUIwQUryF
「我都鍾意Alvin你。」515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ6bMQRGBb1
不要再是回憶了。515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTjhUtQZ6OZ
「隻熊送比你啊，同你好襯！」515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa4eUSS65z2
不要、不要、不要！515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi9uuHqTusS
「我唔想離開你！」515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9ocrLb7xd5
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「夠啦！」515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrK8E6NXiJA
在一聲喊道下，我睜開了雙眼。515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHYzKF5YE7I
只見眼前是那昏暗的天花板。515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5hFddYtfZZ
原來剛才所看到的，都是夢。515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRggxNGQPpt
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好不容易才睡著，卻這麼快又醒過來。515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYe90rm6bPC
還是先看一看現在是甚麼時候……515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZX3rrG1VF0
「咦？」515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQOiFtRYWIY
當我伸手到床的角落時，卻模不到任何手機狀的物體。515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe2wBHewlTP
「啊，啱先比我扔咗落地……」515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡplRcSQtwiA
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我轉過身，來到了床邊。515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjK7Sj7vGh5
很快就看到了被我丟到地上的手機。515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZbzCsa8kZ4
於是便伸手按下了一下手機的主螢幕按鍵。515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnInvCppoOp
而手機也瞬間亮起了螢幕。515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo1UBfdG7VI
但裡頭卻是一張我與Mandy的合照。515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEW04JQOcA7
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我首先愣住了，但是當看到Mandy的樣子時。515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZoHaBkkBi1
淚水，卻從雙眼流出。515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRHZOH19ehs
所有的悲傷，都一下子湧現出來。515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡof5P8lE0uL
我不禁抓住心口，無聲地痛哭起來。515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFQir6P6KUJ
當晚伴隨我的，除了孤獨、無助，就只有絕望而已。515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4EBkinc3rW
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直到第二天，我醒來的時候，感覺已經是下午了。515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkGSiv35PXi
我已經忘記了昨晚到底斷斷續續地睡著又驚醒多少次了。515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9MxWBplApE
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不過醒來後，我仍然躺在床上，一動也不動。515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqAM6203OrH
即使在醒後來，地上的手機已經響起了多次訊息傳來的鈴聲。515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrVUoVGrs9f
但是我完全沒有再次撿起的意欲。515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡglN4oAY6NO
反正那些訊息，大多都是他們與Mandy送行時所拍下的照片了。515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc8MJ0bR7KO
而我，卻沒有那個勇氣去看見那些照片。515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiBtbejarlG
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在接下來的時間，我都是躺在床上，沒有睡覺、沒有做其他的東西。515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8ow0uTcvCj
只是躺在上面，呆呆地看著天花板。515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxjz1kFKSEP
當肚子餓的時候，就走出房間，吃點零食，上個洗手間。515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6WD746XeGG
然後就再次回到房間並躺到床上。515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3v7K4qlcDw
過程中，手機都仍然被我放置在地上，碰也沒有碰過。515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAQumeMV2G1
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但隨著時間逐漸逝去，卻不時都有一剎那突然變得很想拿起手機來看。515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiPGvmV07W4
不過心裡也會萌生另一個念頭去阻止自己這樣做。515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMjNhvu6veU
其實，我一直不去看手機，不去點開WhatsApp。515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtd0nDNM0CZ
一切都只是想營造一種我失去了蹤影的錯覺。515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEbu6eOpzh7
好讓其他人來主動慰問我的狀況，不，是好讓「她」來主動慰問。515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1vJiFT9V5D
正確來說，「失蹤」只是打算做給她看而已。515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH7o4FrzSyQ
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然而，我又再一次把事情想得太美好了。515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZTclqGGiQ0
最終，我還是忍不住了點開了螢幕，但沒有點進WhatsApp裡。515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyPBjFkLnLv
這麼就能繼續營造「失蹤」的錯覺了。515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMtOC89ugf8
換言之，我是把手機的通知欄拉下，查看傳送訊息的人中，有沒有Mandy。515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCKfyrp0hLz
不過，當然是沒有了。515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTOse1o9nSl
當刻心裡除了失望，就已經再沒有任何的情感了。515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnvqCuoMHGh
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或許今天沒有，明天會有呢？515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPoGIjbgGZy
相信世界總會尚存一絲的希望。515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9wqPrjvjmA
那怕只是個自私的期待，我相信仍然會實現的。515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDOjL4cyMlr
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如是者，直到第二天，我都沒有點開過WhatsApp等社交平台。515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdpqWCrNGYH
手機的用途只餘下用來玩手機遊戲而已。515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqIQ40oNIms
接著正如我所想，通知欄中開始出現一些訊息是慰問我的狀況。515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPP0cz78YSF
可是大多數都是「做咩咁耐都唔上線」、「好翻未？」、「今晚打唔打機」等。515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtYTls2sVni
但是，Mandy的名字，卻仍然沒有出現。515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIVi70jsoQU
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持續這樣渡過第三天、第四天、第五天……一個星期、一個月。515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJA8oD2NjnH
當我再躺在床上時，已經在與朋友在WhatsApp上互發訊息聊著天。515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp2tOz0UvrM
手機的鎖屏螢幕，也換做了風景圖。515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdaGN8EoBP1
聯絡通訊錄中，Mandy的名字，早已換回「Mandy」。515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZAvvD50OE0
相簿裡的合照，已經全數隱藏起來。515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4GHtHF8ik5
但唯獨不變的就是，晚上間中睡覺時，都會夢見她。515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvMRNo91OIe
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最常夢到的，就是在海旁得知她將要離開的那一晚。515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz3tM50Hg3U
我沒有上前擁抱著她，而是捉住她的手說：515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkgvuQWIP2Y
「如果我哋再一齊，我絕對唔會再比你離開。」515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS1eNPLiVSb
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「阿侑，今次真喺要講再見啦，聖誕之後我會翻番……嗯？！」515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzCbr80HPzX
就在Mandy把話說到一半的同時。515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHGrcu3XYFI
我卻走到了她的面前，並把她拉到懷中，以雙手緊抱。515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡemae8j3pxw
「我絕對唔會再比你離開。」515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcCW6qWlx22
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「尷尬一時，還是後悔一世呢」515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxA4QobidkG
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