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512Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAfhCpSONnG
某一天，在午息時段，Ivy悶悶不樂地來到學校的庭園。512Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi5j8ljQcUj
找了一個寧靜的角落，獨自一人坐下，不禁嘆息起來。512Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡveYOD6h8II
512Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVsmprZ7vKj
原來在剛才午飯時間，Ivy又一次鼓起勇氣邀約Alvin一同吃午飯。512Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg78H7akElI
可是早就習慣了與其他男生一同外出用膳的Alvin。512Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYE8K1OzbVW
並且升上中學後，根本就沒有被女生邀約吃飯。512Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLmo6vibVBu
因此Ivy突如其來邀約，再加上當時朋友們的催促，Alvin也只好當下拒絕了她的邀請。512Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrW0C3VHEhY
512Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbmhzbXWrNn
被喜歡的人拒絕邀約，除了感到可惜及失望之外，就根本甚麼都做不到。512Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHI10HnENKS
Ivy曾經嘗試融入對方的生活圈子之中，卻永遠都只是停留在表面上的融入。512Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡePUHZHMnZt
至今，她與Alvin仍然是維持在每天上學見面時談上兩三句話的局面。512Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlMovdSWgy0
即使放學後，她與Alvin透過WhatsApp聊天的次數，也少之又少。512Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSWD6bSazo2
512Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2Ci57yhIc4
「Alvin都好似唔多理我咁……莫非真喺要好似Laura咁講，直接同佢講我鍾意佢……」512Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVL8BPB8e0E
這時，在Ivy的腦海中也閃現出前陣子Laura的一句說話。512Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfJ6rfLMdT8
那句叫她向喜歡的人坦承的說話。512Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfw1bwTUtLy
可是對於性格偏向內向的Ivy來說，要與喜歡的人坦白，可是一件難若登天的事情。512Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRR4ONbFV2w
單是起初鼓起勇氣向Alvin進一步搭訕，她其實也在心裡掙扎了好幾天。512Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS7E2U78Aex
512Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpC3pNX7qxZ
「你鍾意Alvin啊？」512Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx9HQ8NHyzK
突然有一把男聲從Ivy的後方傳來。512Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAsmL9axPqt
使得她馬上驚慌失色起來，並隨即轉過身來，查看聲音的主人。512Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡki4nRu0diW
「Dan……？點解你會嚟庭園嘅？」512Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaMD4O4EcBh
在確認是同班的同學後，Ivy也接著好奇地問道。512Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXLG7rjJVNV
畢竟，學校的庭園平常根本不會有人到訪。512Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9jVd72RZ8c
512Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF83AuQPgls
「食飽飯無嘢做，咪嚟行過圈囉……但竟然比我八卦到啲嘢啊，呵呵。」512Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ98VJDvhLYc
Dan在說著的同時，奸笑起來，然後就盯著Ivy，等待對方辯解。512Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡntaEF3GaWZ
「你唔好講出啊！我求你！」Ivy當然是立即雙手合十，不斷向Dan請求著。512Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ35KIB1Rowv
512Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMLQZGtSyt3
接著，Dan也抓一抓自己的頭髮，一臉沾沾自喜地說：512Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdwwICZM20s
「乜我似啲會將人哋秘密亂咁爆出去嘅人咩？」512Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXnisrFwFvP
Ivy思考了一會Dan的這句話，然後就搖頭說：「咁又唔似……」512Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA6j2Gsvtia
512Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoQEj7FuGlr
「鍾意咗人幾耐啊？」Dan隨即問道，看來是打算再八卦一下Ivy的事情。512Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZGCCTL7ZUS
Ivy頓時也面紅耳赤起來，並不斷捏住自己的校裙。512Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg2zp1wxX93
而在一番內心掙扎後，她也小小聲地說：「大概三個月啦……」512Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRONUEYA03E
512Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMJOAZwgAbi
Dan馬上「哇」了一聲，但很快又一臉認真地摸著下巴說：512Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH4FXazLCYz
「唔怪得近排見你同Alvin多咗嘢講啦……不過睇嚟你都好似有嘢煩惱緊？」512Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSGEo0yxa5c
在對方的引導下，Ivy也開始向Dan說起了一切的由來。512Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2byT3xl3y1
由一開始對Alvin產生興趣，然後就是好感，最後就是喜歡了對方。512Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEofSESmbIF
不過卻一直未能向對方表達心意。512Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFm0eIGKs0C
512Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡghXOF6zl0F
Dan聆聽完Ivy一番經歷後，隨即也露出一個恍然大悟的樣子。512Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyDKCNkG1jf
「哦，所以啱啱先見你唉聲嘆氣咁坐喺到。」512Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBej1UELHCc
Ivy沒有說話，只是默默地點著頭。512Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0vnpKo0xgG
於是Dan見況也繼續說：「都明你點解咁沮喪嘅，明明鍾意人，但又無勇氣同對方講，想接近人，但喺又無從入手，令到自己卡咗喺個尷尬位。」512Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVTHNIqpdJO
聽到Dan「一針見血」的總結後，Ivy也馬上再次嘆息起來。512Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhTxoneEs0q
然後一臉沒精打采地看著Dan，並用低沉的聲音說：「聽嚟我都喺無機架啦……」512Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡycLmyHTncC
512Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlSTzT8iBBH
「唔好灰啦！不如我幫你探下Alvin口風啦！知佢點諗你都一件好事啊！」512Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6Pf7Cxizbv
Dan見到Ivy一臉死氣沉沉地樣子，馬上轉用一個輕快的口吻說著，希望從而令Ivy振作一點。512Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGXX9o3Ruir
而Ivy聽到了Dan的建議後，馬上想起了先前Laura的一句：「唔試過又點知得唔得呢？」512Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsn5XwITewC
隨即也重燃心中的希望之火，一邊點頭一邊把一切都託付到Dan手上……512Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvDfm0RgH5g
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512Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8EBbAQaL4E
數天後，Dan看準了放學時Alvin獨自離開課室的時機。512Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMGPo78fCgv
馬上裝作想與Alvin一同放學而上前與他搭訕。512Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnE76uBdxyX
「Alvin，不如今日一齊走啊！」512Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK0SIy3KBt5
「少有喎，你今日唔喺同Francis一齊走。」512Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjqSbsm4MId
「因為……Francis比人罰留堂啊！」512Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHTPHho0INu
但此刻Francis其實是在班房裡與其他男生共同挑戰著手機遊戲中的關卡……512Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3t2aB6ONT3
512Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyRHTEKQb0G
接著，Dan與Alvin二人一邊聊著一邊下樓梯。512Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNVoWaHR0RW
聊起兩三句後，Dan也開門見山問道：「Alvin，你喺2E有無鍾意嘅人啊？」512Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFWyYAvtfuM
隨即二人也站在了原地。512Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwXnXxu3rxh
而此時，Ivy也剛好走到了樓梯的轉角處，聆聽到了Alvin接下的回答。512Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAth4ZhvkEV
「無喎。」Alvin的這一個回答，簡單而直接。512Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq0pku1MTS1
不過卻同時使Dan愣住了，而偷聽著的Ivy更感到失望起來。512Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHPMxMxVtU4
看來她的幻想，都確實只是幻想。512Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvY3cl2j4DD
並如同泡沫一樣，在一瞬間破掉化為無物。512Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDEZH03hfDC
512Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXMPwlrqpWK
「真喺無鍾意嘅人？」Dan再問道，並語氣變得質疑起來。512Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhRQoP3TULB
不過Alvin仍然迅速而堅定地回答同樣的答案：「真喺無。」512Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcmg0pI1pwB
512Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9bnBGfdFsm
這使得Dan不禁倒抽了一口氣。512Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0BE7dwUXVR
不過機智的他，也很快就想到第二條問題：「咁班入面有無邊個女仔吸引到你啊？」512Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2jVIExG0Mt
Alvin思考了一會，然後答：「嗯……無喎……」512Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0erXPPFy8R
雖然答案一樣，但是這一次Alvin的回答，卻從中感覺到一絲猶如。512Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK2Vm6oz2zy
於是Dan也捉住了這份遲疑，再問：「真喺無？你諗真啲……例如Ivy呢？」512Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq3q2Aq1hLL
512Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuXwKbH3ufx
在轉角處的Ivy聽到了自己的名字後，也意會到Dan終於把與Alvin的對話引導到自己身上。512Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQUwcoFyYAc
她隨即地把雙手放到胸口上，希望能藉此壓抑住活蹦亂跳的心。512Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuSGg9JF6WJ
因為對於接下來Alvin的回答，她確實感到額外的緊張起來。512Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCru2x0H1iu
可是，她接著聽到答案是……512Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcpJ4XMxfLt
「Ivy啊……無咩特別感覺喎，咪普通同學咁。」512Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXdmVel3tLf
512Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsAjzpdqPgD
聽到Alvin的回答，Ivy頓時如同石化了一樣，目瞪口呆地站在原地。512Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQfCCHtIHdz
連此刻站在Alvin對面的Dan也瞬間感到愕然起來。512Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd9ip2qceRY
或許他自己也猜想不到，這就是Alvin的答案。512Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI10kV9i5on
不過，感到有點不知所揩的Dan，也靈機一動，立即再問：512Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW3MO2HM5h1
「如果Ivy喺鍾意你呢？」512Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyyfOIcjXPD
他選擇不再轉彎抹角，而是斬釘截鐵地道出了Ivy的心意。512Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGzoOQgpePn
但其實他都猜想不到，原來Ivy一直偷聽著。512Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYHsjPubv8k
512Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5J79R1yUdg
然而，Alvin隨即也皺起眉頭說：「就算佢鍾意我，都唔代表我要鍾意佢。感情呢啲嘢講feel架嘛，如果要迎合佢嘅心意，而勉強自己，我做唔到。」512Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtwG8plmPIz
512Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCfd9le2VXs
正當Alvin說完這句話後，他們的上方也突然傳來了一聲急促的腳步聲。512Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv9uhZ2MoA8
於是Alvin好奇地探頭瞄了一眼上方，並發現沒有人。512Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9MYJojZbKX
接著也扭過頭來繼續與Dan談論剛剛的話題。512Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCqK1HnntOB
然而，他並不知道，剛才腳步聲的主人，正是Ivy。512Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo2WoVhZFnF
512Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyD09OM8Jw5
而與此同時，Ivy也已經淚流滿面，走到了學校的某處。512Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNgpStx6vk7
孤單一人坐在角落，蜷縮著身體，雙臂抱住雙膝，痛哭起來。512Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSHSoQWS93C
她的哭聲，無比悲哀及淒慘，如同心被刀割一樣。512Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0ntYlWOLlr
看來這份傷痛，將永遠刻印在她的心中，成為一條永遠無法修補的疤痕。512Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkgNObvsgCU
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「就算佢鍾意我，都唔代表我要鍾意佢」512Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXk7n7QA2xR
直至深夜時，Ivy再次因為回想起Alvin的這一句話，而驚醒過來。512Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfB3xyGdk0E
她隨即慢慢地離開了床，並坐在一旁的梳妝桌。512Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKt0wPLHklb
然後，打開了桌燈，看著鏡中雙眼通紅、神情疲倦的自己。512Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqGrcypI10u
512Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyCYG6TnBfs
接著再回想起Alvin的說話，以及這三個月來自己的所做一切。512Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxBxsAN5Ky4
她不禁冷笑起來，隨後打開桌上文具盒，拿出了一把美術刀。512Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKwZ9q5kN5l
伸出冰冷的刀鋒，對著自己的手臀……512Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO3DMnQdGUw
「嚓—」512Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLCRLVwDmiz
512Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxF7n4MhyZj
512Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡevU0qvCtWj
「懷著多大的期望，就會迎來同等的失望，甚至最終帶來更深的絕望」512Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQV0z8BGkE3
512Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTZ2o5HRPz6
512Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSRel8dfDgl
作者在此鄭重聲明：512Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEij5dIoShP
𠝹手只是劇情的一部份，並且是虛構情節。512Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZNb0uebX0o
讀者們請潔身自愛，切勿嘗試！！！512Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgvqwAQ6Jse
無論遇上多麼不如意的事情，都切勿做出任何試圖傷害身體的行為。512Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3vHBUupFC7
若發現事情未如理想，無法獨力承受，請向身邊的人如父母及師長尋求協助。512Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5oai4KL2HG
切勿將傷害身體來發洩情緒一事合理化，請各位潔身自愛。512Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI9gLV5Gj23
愛人前先要懂得愛錫自己。512Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2GkzSNLlsA
512Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJrQSZklLCV
作者閒聊：512Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7aryNzWKA8
過去阿侑的一句：「就算佢鍾意我，都唔代表我要鍾意佢。感情呢啲嘢講feel架嘛，如果要迎合佢嘅心意，而勉強自己，我做唔到。」512Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpGQ445vtWW
完全是在打著現在自己的臉……512Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLzOVbk8KBU
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