過去篇(四)554Please respect copyright.PENANAEHhWNhcmtP
554Please respect copyright.PENANA0DMtx1bRfK
某一天,在午息時段,Ivy悶悶不樂地來到學校的庭園。554Please respect copyright.PENANA5Am6CyX605
找了一個寧靜的角落,獨自一人坐下,不禁嘆息起來。554Please respect copyright.PENANARkdT0owJEh
554Please respect copyright.PENANAnrMm898ole
原來在剛才午飯時間,Ivy又一次鼓起勇氣邀約Alvin一同吃午飯。554Please respect copyright.PENANAJ0kWO8GQXF
可是早就習慣了與其他男生一同外出用膳的Alvin。554Please respect copyright.PENANAsk1zKXE4WZ
並且升上中學後,根本就沒有被女生邀約吃飯。554Please respect copyright.PENANAzyiO68obwM
因此Ivy突如其來邀約,再加上當時朋友們的催促,Alvin也只好當下拒絕了她的邀請。554Please respect copyright.PENANATIyJVaVTlm
554Please respect copyright.PENANAMfj8GSwNgF
被喜歡的人拒絕邀約,除了感到可惜及失望之外,就根本甚麼都做不到。554Please respect copyright.PENANAZQYsHXsbPU
Ivy曾經嘗試融入對方的生活圈子之中,卻永遠都只是停留在表面上的融入。554Please respect copyright.PENANANl7TPDLNOB
至今,她與Alvin仍然是維持在每天上學見面時談上兩三句話的局面。554Please respect copyright.PENANAq1HJU7dbRl
即使放學後,她與Alvin透過WhatsApp聊天的次數,也少之又少。554Please respect copyright.PENANAXdNH1ReHyJ
554Please respect copyright.PENANAIKMUgxpMKd
「Alvin都好似唔多理我咁……莫非真喺要好似Laura咁講,直接同佢講我鍾意佢……」554Please respect copyright.PENANAV7H96HIZ6d
這時,在Ivy的腦海中也閃現出前陣子Laura的一句說話。554Please respect copyright.PENANAoaVl3v1pUv
那句叫她向喜歡的人坦承的說話。554Please respect copyright.PENANAAaImvYfCpO
可是對於性格偏向內向的Ivy來說,要與喜歡的人坦白,可是一件難若登天的事情。554Please respect copyright.PENANAGjjbtb0FZF
單是起初鼓起勇氣向Alvin進一步搭訕,她其實也在心裡掙扎了好幾天。554Please respect copyright.PENANAY2b8w3H0n9
554Please respect copyright.PENANA75pvIRFr6X
「你鍾意Alvin啊?」554Please respect copyright.PENANAY5VbI2BNPp
突然有一把男聲從Ivy的後方傳來。554Please respect copyright.PENANAXiouezr0hr
使得她馬上驚慌失色起來,並隨即轉過身來,查看聲音的主人。554Please respect copyright.PENANA9SIMsiujsL
「Dan……?點解你會嚟庭園嘅?」554Please respect copyright.PENANABi9unPeBBe
在確認是同班的同學後,Ivy也接著好奇地問道。554Please respect copyright.PENANAOEhsGhWqWf
畢竟,學校的庭園平常根本不會有人到訪。554Please respect copyright.PENANAGNkVvyhYH2
554Please respect copyright.PENANA0ZVNp45zlj
「食飽飯無嘢做,咪嚟行過圈囉……但竟然比我八卦到啲嘢啊,呵呵。」554Please respect copyright.PENANABoLbQtam6w
Dan在說著的同時,奸笑起來,然後就盯著Ivy,等待對方辯解。554Please respect copyright.PENANAfqukNaBslJ
「你唔好講出啊!我求你!」Ivy當然是立即雙手合十,不斷向Dan請求著。554Please respect copyright.PENANAtaZOlccdEx
554Please respect copyright.PENANADoqCE8tpPC
接著,Dan也抓一抓自己的頭髮,一臉沾沾自喜地說:554Please respect copyright.PENANAGIxg6NYTmX
「乜我似啲會將人哋秘密亂咁爆出去嘅人咩?」554Please respect copyright.PENANADlC7ihZxVy
Ivy思考了一會Dan的這句話,然後就搖頭說:「咁又唔似……」554Please respect copyright.PENANAXsLN40vTq3
554Please respect copyright.PENANA5giYR5gi8H
「鍾意咗人幾耐啊?」Dan隨即問道,看來是打算再八卦一下Ivy的事情。554Please respect copyright.PENANAX4cyaI8581
Ivy頓時也面紅耳赤起來,並不斷捏住自己的校裙。554Please respect copyright.PENANAG5n1c4XhyK
而在一番內心掙扎後,她也小小聲地說:「大概三個月啦……」554Please respect copyright.PENANAr5w3okZSyG
554Please respect copyright.PENANAz47XMknmOH
Dan馬上「哇」了一聲,但很快又一臉認真地摸著下巴說:554Please respect copyright.PENANAS2mR4rd0RC
「唔怪得近排見你同Alvin多咗嘢講啦……不過睇嚟你都好似有嘢煩惱緊?」554Please respect copyright.PENANAlVVWmdoVMK
在對方的引導下,Ivy也開始向Dan說起了一切的由來。554Please respect copyright.PENANAsx6nKQCR3u
由一開始對Alvin產生興趣,然後就是好感,最後就是喜歡了對方。554Please respect copyright.PENANAnFuYnGO74C
不過卻一直未能向對方表達心意。554Please respect copyright.PENANAQ0gTm6UdBC
554Please respect copyright.PENANAuukvoVbOyf
Dan聆聽完Ivy一番經歷後,隨即也露出一個恍然大悟的樣子。554Please respect copyright.PENANAbFPfXIbviu
「哦,所以啱啱先見你唉聲嘆氣咁坐喺到。」554Please respect copyright.PENANAQChBtRGwCP
Ivy沒有說話,只是默默地點著頭。554Please respect copyright.PENANAdCQtytYpGy
於是Dan見況也繼續說:「都明你點解咁沮喪嘅,明明鍾意人,但又無勇氣同對方講,想接近人,但喺又無從入手,令到自己卡咗喺個尷尬位。」554Please respect copyright.PENANAV6ou20WSq7
聽到Dan「一針見血」的總結後,Ivy也馬上再次嘆息起來。554Please respect copyright.PENANAfFGAwysfzc
然後一臉沒精打采地看著Dan,並用低沉的聲音說:「聽嚟我都喺無機架啦……」554Please respect copyright.PENANAHwGg0XDli1
554Please respect copyright.PENANADqYDA5S2ff
「唔好灰啦!不如我幫你探下Alvin口風啦!知佢點諗你都一件好事啊!」554Please respect copyright.PENANAlGkjt673HJ
Dan見到Ivy一臉死氣沉沉地樣子,馬上轉用一個輕快的口吻說著,希望從而令Ivy振作一點。554Please respect copyright.PENANAGHAststAJ9
而Ivy聽到了Dan的建議後,馬上想起了先前Laura的一句:「唔試過又點知得唔得呢?」554Please respect copyright.PENANA2aMAJTVX82
隨即也重燃心中的希望之火,一邊點頭一邊把一切都託付到Dan手上……554Please respect copyright.PENANAY4wAAwP31G
---------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------554Please respect copyright.PENANAWIpA4SS9RZ
554Please respect copyright.PENANAh7Spc7qo0j
數天後,Dan看準了放學時Alvin獨自離開課室的時機。554Please respect copyright.PENANAS6yDjFt0CF
馬上裝作想與Alvin一同放學而上前與他搭訕。554Please respect copyright.PENANADL8jg0wHGk
「Alvin,不如今日一齊走啊!」554Please respect copyright.PENANARNxDYjLX4G
「少有喎,你今日唔喺同Francis一齊走。」554Please respect copyright.PENANAd6QAuLhHah
「因為……Francis比人罰留堂啊!」554Please respect copyright.PENANAAxapU82xQI
但此刻Francis其實是在班房裡與其他男生共同挑戰著手機遊戲中的關卡……554Please respect copyright.PENANAIYeEwl4NxJ
554Please respect copyright.PENANAcCLnWUzKOr
接著,Dan與Alvin二人一邊聊著一邊下樓梯。554Please respect copyright.PENANA6e0UVGYbB8
聊起兩三句後,Dan也開門見山問道:「Alvin,你喺2E有無鍾意嘅人啊?」554Please respect copyright.PENANACgM1UBJhiB
隨即二人也站在了原地。554Please respect copyright.PENANAgtNjNRBwIA
而此時,Ivy也剛好走到了樓梯的轉角處,聆聽到了Alvin接下的回答。554Please respect copyright.PENANApNofYRATuJ
「無喎。」Alvin的這一個回答,簡單而直接。554Please respect copyright.PENANAXbqHDY7bNK
不過卻同時使Dan愣住了,而偷聽著的Ivy更感到失望起來。554Please respect copyright.PENANA7E5RVtsupC
看來她的幻想,都確實只是幻想。554Please respect copyright.PENANA1GbZ7wJNlU
並如同泡沫一樣,在一瞬間破掉化為無物。554Please respect copyright.PENANA7KO6RgmbYb
554Please respect copyright.PENANAhc4QUnEFbZ
「真喺無鍾意嘅人?」Dan再問道,並語氣變得質疑起來。554Please respect copyright.PENANAJneoQHeCnm
不過Alvin仍然迅速而堅定地回答同樣的答案:「真喺無。」554Please respect copyright.PENANAxgxqqe1bCC
554Please respect copyright.PENANAeKj8vS4eXA
這使得Dan不禁倒抽了一口氣。554Please respect copyright.PENANAZlNG7vCtn8
不過機智的他,也很快就想到第二條問題:「咁班入面有無邊個女仔吸引到你啊?」554Please respect copyright.PENANAoHTU1gfL0L
Alvin思考了一會,然後答:「嗯……無喎……」554Please respect copyright.PENANAlIb9O9z2LL
雖然答案一樣,但是這一次Alvin的回答,卻從中感覺到一絲猶如。554Please respect copyright.PENANABugthAV8U4
於是Dan也捉住了這份遲疑,再問:「真喺無?你諗真啲……例如Ivy呢?」554Please respect copyright.PENANAQqTXIbYFYT
554Please respect copyright.PENANAnnz41aFwfD
在轉角處的Ivy聽到了自己的名字後,也意會到Dan終於把與Alvin的對話引導到自己身上。554Please respect copyright.PENANAWs5nZiOSzB
她隨即地把雙手放到胸口上,希望能藉此壓抑住活蹦亂跳的心。554Please respect copyright.PENANAesonPAUo5U
因為對於接下來Alvin的回答,她確實感到額外的緊張起來。554Please respect copyright.PENANAwihgTuf9m6
可是,她接著聽到答案是……554Please respect copyright.PENANASapPjQMd7J
「Ivy啊……無咩特別感覺喎,咪普通同學咁。」554Please respect copyright.PENANANoTSG2RbNs
554Please respect copyright.PENANATITIMCgnoc
聽到Alvin的回答,Ivy頓時如同石化了一樣,目瞪口呆地站在原地。554Please respect copyright.PENANA2OPZFyRDpy
連此刻站在Alvin對面的Dan也瞬間感到愕然起來。554Please respect copyright.PENANAwQHkeIQWKn
或許他自己也猜想不到,這就是Alvin的答案。554Please respect copyright.PENANAwzY4NAT60i
不過,感到有點不知所揩的Dan,也靈機一動,立即再問:554Please respect copyright.PENANAPySfhOaBOM
「如果Ivy喺鍾意你呢?」554Please respect copyright.PENANAgl3Ht9OsAI
他選擇不再轉彎抹角,而是斬釘截鐵地道出了Ivy的心意。554Please respect copyright.PENANA3xiNuTxraa
但其實他都猜想不到,原來Ivy一直偷聽著。554Please respect copyright.PENANAEKaiOMQ9GK
554Please respect copyright.PENANAbG1rQDQQZD
然而,Alvin隨即也皺起眉頭說:「就算佢鍾意我,都唔代表我要鍾意佢。感情呢啲嘢講feel架嘛,如果要迎合佢嘅心意,而勉強自己,我做唔到。」554Please respect copyright.PENANABeZl7FAuRp
554Please respect copyright.PENANA8LxoMOlMPr
正當Alvin說完這句話後,他們的上方也突然傳來了一聲急促的腳步聲。554Please respect copyright.PENANAEHQrVMGuEK
於是Alvin好奇地探頭瞄了一眼上方,並發現沒有人。554Please respect copyright.PENANAxs6Vt5zhS4
接著也扭過頭來繼續與Dan談論剛剛的話題。554Please respect copyright.PENANAGIzQsItCSZ
然而,他並不知道,剛才腳步聲的主人,正是Ivy。554Please respect copyright.PENANAnp4TD30tqG
554Please respect copyright.PENANAWAG5KzvwBT
而與此同時,Ivy也已經淚流滿面,走到了學校的某處。554Please respect copyright.PENANAuk75Le7MTS
孤單一人坐在角落,蜷縮著身體,雙臂抱住雙膝,痛哭起來。554Please respect copyright.PENANA9smD5yt0JW
她的哭聲,無比悲哀及淒慘,如同心被刀割一樣。554Please respect copyright.PENANAzzqMvVAOyR
看來這份傷痛,將永遠刻印在她的心中,成為一條永遠無法修補的疤痕。554Please respect copyright.PENANAks2SaO5RWy
---------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------554Please respect copyright.PENANABulSjv0jiY
554Please respect copyright.PENANAwEtGSfsVnq
「就算佢鍾意我,都唔代表我要鍾意佢」554Please respect copyright.PENANAeJx6CN9sb3
直至深夜時,Ivy再次因為回想起Alvin的這一句話,而驚醒過來。554Please respect copyright.PENANAp2iE187OF0
她隨即慢慢地離開了床,並坐在一旁的梳妝桌。554Please respect copyright.PENANAPKPo6w26VW
然後,打開了桌燈,看著鏡中雙眼通紅、神情疲倦的自己。554Please respect copyright.PENANAt09WwtpKbD
554Please respect copyright.PENANAr3t3FlsDDX
接著再回想起Alvin的說話,以及這三個月來自己的所做一切。554Please respect copyright.PENANAf6NsgCBEHu
她不禁冷笑起來,隨後打開桌上文具盒,拿出了一把美術刀。554Please respect copyright.PENANAFCKBBfmjCZ
伸出冰冷的刀鋒,對著自己的手臀……554Please respect copyright.PENANA469TP8SwlE
「嚓—」554Please respect copyright.PENANA2iStmOP6v8
554Please respect copyright.PENANAWye19A6ubq
554Please respect copyright.PENANAo9rPXwBgrt
「懷著多大的期望,就會迎來同等的失望,甚至最終帶來更深的絕望」554Please respect copyright.PENANA44XoNAEbtz
554Please respect copyright.PENANASn2JOCa5lH
554Please respect copyright.PENANAOYUgqPSuoO
作者在此鄭重聲明:554Please respect copyright.PENANAdmDrBESgUx
𠝹手只是劇情的一部份,並且是虛構情節。554Please respect copyright.PENANA6g8zHToT9x
讀者們請潔身自愛,切勿嘗試!!!554Please respect copyright.PENANAbkoqHUDdBh
無論遇上多麼不如意的事情,都切勿做出任何試圖傷害身體的行為。554Please respect copyright.PENANAPmeziBPpht
若發現事情未如理想,無法獨力承受,請向身邊的人如父母及師長尋求協助。554Please respect copyright.PENANAifSMBDkmj9
切勿將傷害身體來發洩情緒一事合理化,請各位潔身自愛。554Please respect copyright.PENANALktj6Kp0TX
愛人前先要懂得愛錫自己。554Please respect copyright.PENANASN7bBoCmIz
554Please respect copyright.PENANAHSs6pjjfzy
作者閒聊:554Please respect copyright.PENANAaG0FUSOwdD
過去阿侑的一句:「就算佢鍾意我,都唔代表我要鍾意佢。感情呢啲嘢講feel架嘛,如果要迎合佢嘅心意,而勉強自己,我做唔到。」554Please respect copyright.PENANAEbPZ3zhJz4
完全是在打著現在自己的臉……554Please respect copyright.PENANAHb2CFeyFzb