第一二八章:畢業營(七)540Please respect copyright.PENANAI4VIJStXwM
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一聲喊道下,我便把Mandy拉到懷中緊抱著。540Please respect copyright.PENANAQ9speOPEW7
已經不知道,這個舉動到底是理性控制,還是感性驅動了……540Please respect copyright.PENANAZYy5B5y2Gh
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不過在我懷中的Mandy,也在一陣錯愕過後。540Please respect copyright.PENANASs8vZWt6zs
便輕聲地說:「做咩咁突然攬住人……」540Please respect copyright.PENANAKukLRZ6rB5
「唔知……我都唔知點解自己會突然咁做。」我仍然摟抱著她說道。540Please respect copyright.PENANAxVSa9Ow7rT
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而我們唯持了這個姿勢大約半分鐘後,她也再說:「一陣比其他人睇到啊……」540Please respect copyright.PENANA8bJx7fe6Me
聽到她這這番說話,我才下意識過來,現在還是在營區內,隨時都會有同級的同學或老師出現。540Please respect copyright.PENANAaoe13I2fLt
因此,我便很快把她推離懷中,並說:「對……對唔住。」540Please respect copyright.PENANADUdsfp3LkX
但她沒有責怪我突然的舉動,反而是臉頰泛起一點紅地盯著地板看。540Please respect copyright.PENANAumlniiO3bQ
我想,突然被人抱入懷中,有這個反應也不奇怪。540Please respect copyright.PENANAHGDb2fR40k
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「不如我哋去個邊企?」540Please respect copyright.PENANAbqrb8QLKWL
發現氣氛變得有點尷尬起來的我,便指向了近河畔邊的平台。540Please respect copyright.PENANALEh4aa781I
她抬頭看一看我指向的方向,沉默了一會。540Please respect copyright.PENANAkKqBY75oo7
接著也少少聲地在嘴邊說:「好。」540Please respect copyright.PENANA7rWzi1A6wZ
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隨即我們便一同往平台的方向前去,不過路途上卻沒有任何傾談。540Please respect copyright.PENANATrdmBSp1JO
畢竟,現在我腦中想著的,都只是她那一句「道別」。540Please respect copyright.PENANAiYim06BsLu
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直到我們來到平台,並雙雙靠在欄杆上。540Please respect copyright.PENANARnpw0OJo5O
她也開口說:「聖誕之後,我就會翻番澳洲讀書。」540Please respect copyright.PENANAh5G9VNbmL8
「喺啊……」我竟然比想像中表現得平淡。540Please respect copyright.PENANAFNAZUwJsLW
而她對於的我反應,似乎都感到有點意外。540Please respect copyright.PENANARcxEkZyF16
於是好奇地望向我,隨即我都一同與她對視起來。540Please respect copyright.PENANAlqBQC4H2De
「阿侑你嘅反應比我想像中冷靜喎……啊,唔喺。你啱先都無啦啦攬住我。」540Please respect copyright.PENANAqwy24LcfHL
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其實我的反應會如此鎮定,可能是因為我早就猜想到會有這一天的來臨。540Please respect copyright.PENANAiQTWfu9sZa
始終,她已經不是第一次離開我了。540Please respect copyright.PENANADaSJayV6Y6
三年前,她因為移民而前往了澳洲。540Please respect copyright.PENANAfTDz0IVnoa
可是在一年後又回來了與我再次相遇。540Please respect copyright.PENANAX5fxyCyoPB
但是她的家人仍然在澳洲,這樣代表,終有一天,她還是要離開……540Please respect copyright.PENANACTRE7m55h2
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「點解又突然翻去讀書?」540Please respect copyright.PENANAhz9HqfBbwO
她沒有即時回答,而是扭過頭去看著前方一片漆黑的河畔。540Please respect copyright.PENANAb2QmouzcTq
「本來都諗住考埋DSE先,但屋企人都希望我唔好考,而喺返去讀多兩年high school,然後直接駁入U。」540Please respect copyright.PENANAyMJAYLM86O
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聽到她這樣說道,我都瞬間理解到為何她的家人會作出如此的抉擇。540Please respect copyright.PENANA9Qdkj16ejk
畢竟論教育,香港的教育實在太過落後,只專注在菁英培育上。540Please respect copyright.PENANAnDkZkIerXX
然後又推行現在的「一試定生死」方式,來區分能力高與低的學生。540Please respect copyright.PENANAM8G4iEWAJc
分分鐘考入大學還比在麻將桌上以海底撈月食糊更難呢。540Please respect copyright.PENANAD4LQ6vzJ2u
換做是我的話,都會選擇在海外升學。540Please respect copyright.PENANAPJUq8CqbMw
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在她的話後,我也一同望向眼前漆黑的河畔。540Please respect copyright.PENANAILQxBetP6l
頓時覺得眼前的景色,就如同不久的未來一樣。540Please respect copyright.PENANA91JY94LAbV
現在晚上看著,只會覺得一團漆黑,根本捉摸不清眼前的事物。540Please respect copyright.PENANAr8XhvOk75T
換做早上看著的話,卻會清楚地看到河畔上所有的景物。540Please respect copyright.PENANAm5DLGJ6z78
人,會因為一時的迷茫,而失去向前的動力。540Please respect copyright.PENANA6pFwDXn6ua
但又會因為熟悉而感到舒適,並最後失去了探索的動力。540Please respect copyright.PENANA2piDEfgz55
到底是選擇留在舒適圈,還是離開,都將會引致不同的未來。540Please respect copyright.PENANAHrnkz3hcMS
而我們往往擔憂的,就只是那個未來到底適不適合自己。540Please respect copyright.PENANAUkETiNVeQB
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Mandy發現我沒有回應,於是又再說起來:「所以今次真喺要再見啦。」540Please respect copyright.PENANAjEB2kYACHb
她又再一次提起了「再見」這一回事。540Please respect copyright.PENANAWKhSDuTcnD
但這次我並沒有像剛一樣立即把她拉到懷中,而是說出心中話:540Please respect copyright.PENANAU66wo2iPwT
「老實講啊,其實我唔想你走。」540Please respect copyright.PENANAo55einJKBS
「我知啊,啱先你攬住我個陣,我聽到啊。」她在話後便微笑起來。540Please respect copyright.PENANA8Zljjh7iJC
感覺就像在回味剛才的一刻一樣。540Please respect copyright.PENANAJOz3ZVipRy
但接著又再問:「點解咁唔想我走?」540Please respect copyright.PENANA2dBxILX2gI
「因為我自私囉。」我直接說道。540Please respect copyright.PENANAaNeHsLXviF
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然而,她又沒有立即回答,而是轉過身來背靠在欄杆上。540Please respect copyright.PENANA01i5fiMyPV
「唔可以自私喺我到架。」540Please respect copyright.PENANAYz3ssPgqrK
「點解啊?」我一臉好奇地反問道。540Please respect copyright.PENANA0Q3l40OGPi
「因為……我唔值得你自私囉!」540Please respect copyright.PENANASmHASu3ybB
她這樣一說,使我愣住了。540Please respect copyright.PENANAKNlh2oxtp1
但是正當我開口時,她又說:「仲有其他人值得你自私。」540Please respect copyright.PENANAmFbWSeVO3S
「你嘅其他人喺指?」540Please respect copyright.PENANA3qkX4DrD6N
「Venus啊,Elaine啊,甚至可能喺你畢業之後識嘅人。」540Please respect copyright.PENANAVRUeCWzBdE
在她提起Venus的名字時,我的腦海卻聯想起一段畫面。540Please respect copyright.PENANAeAeL5ZLJWw
就是開學的那一天,她與Venus在6C班門前談天的時候。540Please respect copyright.PENANAUvziAlNqWn
因此我也不禁問:「愛瑩喺咪一早知架啦?」540Please respect copyright.PENANAKyGLmrpzhc
她點頭,然後望向夜空:「班入面有幾個女仔都知。其實我都諗住差唔多時間同大家講架啦。」540Please respect copyright.PENANAElN7OHsMqu
即使與全班說,大家都知道後,都是改變不了她要離開的事實。540Please respect copyright.PENANAlIBz4RNYLF
而我此刻想對她就只是:「比我……」540Please respect copyright.PENANAOhugFYaaVf
「時間都唔早啦,不如我哋翻去啦。」540Please respect copyright.PENANAfv368Wgpks
她突然的一句打斷了我的說話。540Please respect copyright.PENANAMmpzV0KbJX
是巧合?還是刻意呢?540Please respect copyright.PENANAIlFrnmmVXW
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並且她在提議後,只是雙眼默默地凝視著我。540Please respect copyright.PENANAMwYpwbOGAa
我隨即只能吞下還在口中的說話,點頭回應:540Please respect copyright.PENANAyWWPMdu6md
「都好。」540Please respect copyright.PENANAA4VO7jaKOp
答應了的這一刻也代表著,我們的話題,將會在此結束……540Please respect copyright.PENANAXRUOtFFndA
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片刻後,我帶著複雜的心情返回了宿舍內。540Please respect copyright.PENANAn94oV2wvwD
並在打開門的一刻,就見Harriet拿著毛巾及衣服在大廳的沙發上看著電視。540Please respect copyright.PENANA3eKA6ZatJp
「散完步翻嚟啦?」Harriet看見我的出現,便立即問道。540Please respect copyright.PENANAbg6T2ILafL
而我只是坐到他的旁邊,並靠在沙發上嘆氣起來。540Please respect copyright.PENANAwy3WvxQmFI
「唉,感情真喺好複雜呢。」540Please respect copyright.PENANA3pLBepxSAH
他先是愣住了,但是也一同靠向後,並輕笑了一聲說:540Please respect copyright.PENANAenf6qGzMiu
「喺啊,感情真喺好複雜架。」540Please respect copyright.PENANAkvzKrGIWIg
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「想放手,但又想捉緊,真複雜」540Please respect copyright.PENANA2n8hFsDJy6