第一二八章：畢業營(七)538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjnVlRCvI23
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一聲喊道下，我便把Mandy拉到懷中緊抱著。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyt4cQ3q8ck
已經不知道，這個舉動到底是理性控制，還是感性驅動了……538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlHXkOsxn4E
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不過在我懷中的Mandy，也在一陣錯愕過後。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5eydCNdHAn
便輕聲地說：「做咩咁突然攬住人……」538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCRcYjLOM4D
「唔知……我都唔知點解自己會突然咁做。」我仍然摟抱著她說道。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2mUBsxdlSZ
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而我們唯持了這個姿勢大約半分鐘後，她也再說：「一陣比其他人睇到啊……」538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8lLqAw6XJP
聽到她這這番說話，我才下意識過來，現在還是在營區內，隨時都會有同級的同學或老師出現。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSBO9OnRCLU
因此，我便很快把她推離懷中，並說：「對……對唔住。」538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡREODE3a7wJ
但她沒有責怪我突然的舉動，反而是臉頰泛起一點紅地盯著地板看。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ398S1CPzYB
我想，突然被人抱入懷中，有這個反應也不奇怪。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwEAEzK7kT9
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「不如我哋去個邊企？」538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ38dWJiFrut
發現氣氛變得有點尷尬起來的我，便指向了近河畔邊的平台。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmi4HBbzkPT
她抬頭看一看我指向的方向，沉默了一會。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbSzcv4xnHd
接著也少少聲地在嘴邊說：「好。」538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2Qrm1AAfzZ
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隨即我們便一同往平台的方向前去，不過路途上卻沒有任何傾談。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ311X0IUL90
畢竟，現在我腦中想著的，都只是她那一句「道別」。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgnHW5zD92k
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直到我們來到平台，並雙雙靠在欄杆上。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWmgCZFo5Ox
她也開口說：「聖誕之後，我就會翻番澳洲讀書。」538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZuuE0M6oAH
「喺啊……」我竟然比想像中表現得平淡。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSJxgoXncB3
而她對於的我反應，似乎都感到有點意外。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1DmDiwNBDe
於是好奇地望向我，隨即我都一同與她對視起來。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdfk5On2SEU
「阿侑你嘅反應比我想像中冷靜喎……啊，唔喺。你啱先都無啦啦攬住我。」538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡClDS62ziLY
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其實我的反應會如此鎮定，可能是因為我早就猜想到會有這一天的來臨。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAePMyBxNL4
始終，她已經不是第一次離開我了。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdj67zInWp8
三年前，她因為移民而前往了澳洲。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK7Wsgf5AiE
可是在一年後又回來了與我再次相遇。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZRWO73BO19
但是她的家人仍然在澳洲，這樣代表，終有一天，她還是要離開……538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSkXicH5In4
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「點解又突然翻去讀書？」538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ14cN8qIBOH
她沒有即時回答，而是扭過頭去看著前方一片漆黑的河畔。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmzzCcTJ5UO
「本來都諗住考埋DSE先，但屋企人都希望我唔好考，而喺返去讀多兩年high school，然後直接駁入U。」538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrDJPLoBY7o
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聽到她這樣說道，我都瞬間理解到為何她的家人會作出如此的抉擇。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmTid34nGeF
畢竟論教育，香港的教育實在太過落後，只專注在菁英培育上。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7d8qdCfP0E
然後又推行現在的「一試定生死」方式，來區分能力高與低的學生。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVfhO36bGXr
分分鐘考入大學還比在麻將桌上以海底撈月食糊更難呢。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeJ4Yn95YCV
換做是我的話，都會選擇在海外升學。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK9VJ8uffWh
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在她的話後，我也一同望向眼前漆黑的河畔。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHMP3MRBqrH
頓時覺得眼前的景色，就如同不久的未來一樣。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLkAJVxlRai
現在晚上看著，只會覺得一團漆黑，根本捉摸不清眼前的事物。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMXi8c1ilfV
換做早上看著的話，卻會清楚地看到河畔上所有的景物。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAlLSMrOWb0
人，會因為一時的迷茫，而失去向前的動力。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2nwEamqOxM
但又會因為熟悉而感到舒適，並最後失去了探索的動力。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOPZV6VAe9G
到底是選擇留在舒適圈，還是離開，都將會引致不同的未來。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMarWWTxqnm
而我們往往擔憂的，就只是那個未來到底適不適合自己。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAqR9bDdf3G
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Mandy發現我沒有回應，於是又再說起來：「所以今次真喺要再見啦。」538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMhHEtJix54
她又再一次提起了「再見」這一回事。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHp49vskf9X
但這次我並沒有像剛一樣立即把她拉到懷中，而是說出心中話：538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXsNcnEhOdZ
「老實講啊，其實我唔想你走。」538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwOLhFUMcgT
「我知啊，啱先你攬住我個陣，我聽到啊。」她在話後便微笑起來。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡowJGwAfPvP
感覺就像在回味剛才的一刻一樣。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEuQ2LLtR2L
但接著又再問：「點解咁唔想我走？」538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmNEnkycvKt
「因為我自私囉。」我直接說道。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH2ByeDoRGd
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然而，她又沒有立即回答，而是轉過身來背靠在欄杆上。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAqVfhp0c6f
「唔可以自私喺我到架。」538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaIxPqRW6F8
「點解啊？」我一臉好奇地反問道。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkHFB6SD5qh
「因為……我唔值得你自私囉！」538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIzyMx3Gmfe
她這樣一說，使我愣住了。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRIxPSZJb4E
但是正當我開口時，她又說：「仲有其他人值得你自私。」538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaqqOJZNaUa
「你嘅其他人喺指？」538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv65viyRP5G
「Venus啊，Elaine啊，甚至可能喺你畢業之後識嘅人。」538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUwOWG9QU7N
在她提起Venus的名字時，我的腦海卻聯想起一段畫面。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS0g01NUn6s
就是開學的那一天，她與Venus在6C班門前談天的時候。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe2fSderczf
因此我也不禁問：「愛瑩喺咪一早知架啦？」538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhmBZoyXFGa
她點頭，然後望向夜空：「班入面有幾個女仔都知。其實我都諗住差唔多時間同大家講架啦。」538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNYrVSJo5dn
即使與全班說，大家都知道後，都是改變不了她要離開的事實。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡME8PlJrlYO
而我此刻想對她就只是：「比我……」538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNrGrUJIBKF
「時間都唔早啦，不如我哋翻去啦。」538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7XkObteIze
她突然的一句打斷了我的說話。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoooqSR6Szn
是巧合？還是刻意呢？538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8dlSloaS3J
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並且她在提議後，只是雙眼默默地凝視著我。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBEQUYe9cdf
我隨即只能吞下還在口中的說話，點頭回應：538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF2NcZwfb5s
「都好。」538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhyGWlpgQzr
答應了的這一刻也代表著，我們的話題，將會在此結束……538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyMMvWHLKOk
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片刻後，我帶著複雜的心情返回了宿舍內。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKagubmBiaE
並在打開門的一刻，就見Harriet拿著毛巾及衣服在大廳的沙發上看著電視。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSWuea93Bjj
「散完步翻嚟啦？」Harriet看見我的出現，便立即問道。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGyjJaFh7Ej
而我只是坐到他的旁邊，並靠在沙發上嘆氣起來。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSagT5hNAUS
「唉，感情真喺好複雜呢。」538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQOEU7avLLD
他先是愣住了，但是也一同靠向後，並輕笑了一聲說：538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA0UuHNj6X0
「喺啊，感情真喺好複雜架。」538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqFgcv2EGDL
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「想放手，但又想捉緊，真複雜」538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2GdEXRCZkG
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