第一二八章：畢業營(七)540Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI4VIJStXwM
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一聲喊道下，我便把Mandy拉到懷中緊抱著。540Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ9speOPEW7
已經不知道，這個舉動到底是理性控制，還是感性驅動了……540Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZYy5B5y2Gh
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不過在我懷中的Mandy，也在一陣錯愕過後。540Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSs8vZWt6zs
便輕聲地說：「做咩咁突然攬住人……」540Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKukLRZ6rB5
「唔知……我都唔知點解自己會突然咁做。」我仍然摟抱著她說道。540Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxVSa9Ow7rT
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而我們唯持了這個姿勢大約半分鐘後，她也再說：「一陣比其他人睇到啊……」540Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8bJx7fe6Me
聽到她這這番說話，我才下意識過來，現在還是在營區內，隨時都會有同級的同學或老師出現。540Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaoe13I2fLt
因此，我便很快把她推離懷中，並說：「對……對唔住。」540Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDUdsfp3LkX
但她沒有責怪我突然的舉動，反而是臉頰泛起一點紅地盯著地板看。540Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡumlniiO3bQ
我想，突然被人抱入懷中，有這個反應也不奇怪。540Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHGDb2fR40k
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「不如我哋去個邊企？」540Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbqrb8QLKWL
發現氣氛變得有點尷尬起來的我，便指向了近河畔邊的平台。540Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLEh4aa781I
她抬頭看一看我指向的方向，沉默了一會。540Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkKqBY75oo7
接著也少少聲地在嘴邊說：「好。」540Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7rWzi1A6wZ
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隨即我們便一同往平台的方向前去，不過路途上卻沒有任何傾談。540Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTrdmBSp1JO
畢竟，現在我腦中想著的，都只是她那一句「道別」。540Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiYim06BsLu
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直到我們來到平台，並雙雙靠在欄杆上。540Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRnpw0OJo5O
她也開口說：「聖誕之後，我就會翻番澳洲讀書。」540Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh5G9VNbmL8
「喺啊……」我竟然比想像中表現得平淡。540Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFNAZUwJsLW
而她對於的我反應，似乎都感到有點意外。540Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRcxEkZyF16
於是好奇地望向我，隨即我都一同與她對視起來。540Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlqBQC4H2De
「阿侑你嘅反應比我想像中冷靜喎……啊，唔喺。你啱先都無啦啦攬住我。」540Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqwy24LcfHL
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其實我的反應會如此鎮定，可能是因為我早就猜想到會有這一天的來臨。540Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiQTWfu9sZa
始終，她已經不是第一次離開我了。540Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDaSJayV6Y6
三年前，她因為移民而前往了澳洲。540Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfTDz0IVnoa
可是在一年後又回來了與我再次相遇。540Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX5fxyCyoPB
但是她的家人仍然在澳洲，這樣代表，終有一天，她還是要離開……540Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCTRE7m55h2
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「點解又突然翻去讀書？」540Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhz9HqfBbwO
她沒有即時回答，而是扭過頭去看著前方一片漆黑的河畔。540Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb2QmouzcTq
「本來都諗住考埋DSE先，但屋企人都希望我唔好考，而喺返去讀多兩年high school，然後直接駁入U。」540Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyMJAYLM86O
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聽到她這樣說道，我都瞬間理解到為何她的家人會作出如此的抉擇。540Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9Qdkj16ejk
畢竟論教育，香港的教育實在太過落後，只專注在菁英培育上。540Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnDkZkIerXX
然後又推行現在的「一試定生死」方式，來區分能力高與低的學生。540Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM8G4iEWAJc
分分鐘考入大學還比在麻將桌上以海底撈月食糊更難呢。540Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD4LQ6vzJ2u
換做是我的話，都會選擇在海外升學。540Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPJUq8CqbMw
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在她的話後，我也一同望向眼前漆黑的河畔。540Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡILQxBetP6l
頓時覺得眼前的景色，就如同不久的未來一樣。540Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ91JY94LAbV
現在晚上看著，只會覺得一團漆黑，根本捉摸不清眼前的事物。540Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr8XhvOk75T
換做早上看著的話，卻會清楚地看到河畔上所有的景物。540Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm5DLGJ6z78
人，會因為一時的迷茫，而失去向前的動力。540Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6pFwDXn6ua
但又會因為熟悉而感到舒適，並最後失去了探索的動力。540Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2piDEfgz55
到底是選擇留在舒適圈，還是離開，都將會引致不同的未來。540Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHrnkz3hcMS
而我們往往擔憂的，就只是那個未來到底適不適合自己。540Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUkETiNVeQB
540Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF7z2xXGGhj
Mandy發現我沒有回應，於是又再說起來：「所以今次真喺要再見啦。」540Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjEB2kYACHb
她又再一次提起了「再見」這一回事。540Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWKhSDuTcnD
但這次我並沒有像剛一樣立即把她拉到懷中，而是說出心中話：540Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU66wo2iPwT
「老實講啊，其實我唔想你走。」540Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo55einJKBS
「我知啊，啱先你攬住我個陣，我聽到啊。」她在話後便微笑起來。540Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8Zljjh7iJC
感覺就像在回味剛才的一刻一樣。540Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJOz3ZVipRy
但接著又再問：「點解咁唔想我走？」540Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2dBxILX2gI
「因為我自私囉。」我直接說道。540Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaNeHsLXviF
540Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjJJ89zlYz6
然而，她又沒有立即回答，而是轉過身來背靠在欄杆上。540Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ01i5fiMyPV
「唔可以自私喺我到架。」540Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYz3ssPgqrK
「點解啊？」我一臉好奇地反問道。540Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0Q3l40OGPi
「因為……我唔值得你自私囉！」540Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSmHASu3ybB
她這樣一說，使我愣住了。540Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKNlh2oxtp1
但是正當我開口時，她又說：「仲有其他人值得你自私。」540Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmFbWSeVO3S
「你嘅其他人喺指？」540Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3qkX4DrD6N
「Venus啊，Elaine啊，甚至可能喺你畢業之後識嘅人。」540Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVRUeCWzBdE
在她提起Venus的名字時，我的腦海卻聯想起一段畫面。540Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeAeL5ZLJWw
就是開學的那一天，她與Venus在6C班門前談天的時候。540Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUvziAlNqWn
因此我也不禁問：「愛瑩喺咪一早知架啦？」540Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKyGLmrpzhc
她點頭，然後望向夜空：「班入面有幾個女仔都知。其實我都諗住差唔多時間同大家講架啦。」540Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡElN7OHsMqu
即使與全班說，大家都知道後，都是改變不了她要離開的事實。540Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlIBz4RNYLF
而我此刻想對她就只是：「比我……」540Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOhugFYaaVf
「時間都唔早啦，不如我哋翻去啦。」540Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfv368Wgpks
她突然的一句打斷了我的說話。540Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMmpzV0KbJX
是巧合？還是刻意呢？540Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIlFrnmmVXW
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並且她在提議後，只是雙眼默默地凝視著我。540Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMwYpwbOGAa
我隨即只能吞下還在口中的說話，點頭回應：540Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyWWPMdu6md
「都好。」540Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA4VO7jaKOp
答應了的這一刻也代表著，我們的話題，將會在此結束……540Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXRUOtFFndA
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片刻後，我帶著複雜的心情返回了宿舍內。540Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn94oV2wvwD
並在打開門的一刻，就見Harriet拿著毛巾及衣服在大廳的沙發上看著電視。540Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3eKA6ZatJp
「散完步翻嚟啦？」Harriet看見我的出現，便立即問道。540Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbg6T2ILafL
而我只是坐到他的旁邊，並靠在沙發上嘆氣起來。540Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwy3WvxQmFI
「唉，感情真喺好複雜呢。」540Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3pLBepxSAH
他先是愣住了，但是也一同靠向後，並輕笑了一聲說：540Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡenf6qGzMiu
「喺啊，感情真喺好複雜架。」540Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkvzKrGIWIg
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「想放手，但又想捉緊，真複雜」540Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2n8hFsDJy6
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