第一二七章:過去535Please respect copyright.PENANAcieZzszKaf
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我們分手的那一天……535Please respect copyright.PENANAtjP7iUXviz
「聽日你唔好嚟送機啦!我知你好想嚟見我!但不見比見更好散!」535Please respect copyright.PENANAmtxp868Jwo
那一晚,Mandy果斷地掛斷了電話。535Please respect copyright.PENANAEcyBgo1aYo
並在短時間內,把我從她的WhatsApp、Instagram等社交平台通通封鎖。535Please respect copyright.PENANAESC1r2wWFS
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我一時三刻說不出任何一句話,大慨大腦根本沒有回過神來。535Please respect copyright.PENANAnif0WB1iRB
而直到回過神來的時候,已經是我躺在床上看著她在WhatsApp上的資訊欄。535Please respect copyright.PENANAFlX9sBOF5M
空白的頭像、空白的Statues、不存在的最後上線時間。535Please respect copyright.PENANA0T5ZXjv6oB
嘗試向她傳送訊息,作最後的挽留。535Please respect copyright.PENANAaKkDkOqeFj
顯示的卻是單剔號。535Please respect copyright.PENANAzAnRB1iuo3
五分鐘、十分鐘、三十分鐘、甚至是一個小時後。535Please respect copyright.PENANAqXE0qBmlKb
仍然是那黯淡無光的單剔號。535Please respect copyright.PENANAnIGxb10Apx
彷彿就在諷刺著此刻的我,失去了她,失去了世界所有的色彩一樣。535Please respect copyright.PENANACwNyFaS2KW
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雙眼無神的我,把手機放到床的一角。535Please respect copyright.PENANABZqUG6jmL0
然後就轉身望向天花板,一直死盯著那空白的天花板。535Please respect copyright.PENANA64P5hzNUHi
直到手機突然傳來了「叮鈴」一聲,是接收到訊息的聲音。535Please respect copyright.PENANAxd9jzum2If
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「!」我瞬間彈起身來,拿起了床邊的電話。535Please respect copyright.PENANAC40XU58qYZ
心想一定是Mandy了,可是現實永遠都是殘酷無情的。535Please respect copyright.PENANAgE44PXisJS
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因為訊息的傳送者,只是同班的Haley。535Please respect copyright.PENANAT2vSXA51gF
「Alvin,聽日喺咪十二點喺東涌集合?」535Please respect copyright.PENANA8rtmiEQddW
他向我查詢了明天到機場歡送Mandy的詳情……曾經的詳情。535Please respect copyright.PENANASrukZZDmYo
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「我有啲唔舒服,聽日唔去」535Please respect copyright.PENANAvXJ5owYGPi
在按下訊息傳送的按鈕後,沒有等待Haley的回覆,我已經把手機摔到地上。535Please respect copyright.PENANA07TZA8tY51
不想看到、不想聽到、不想知道。535Please respect copyright.PENANAXbdQJ8hfQ0
就讓我獨自一個靜靜地渡過這一晚吧……535Please respect copyright.PENANAYvyg7csPS8
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「我叫Mandy,多多指教啊!」535Please respect copyright.PENANAEubzoXIL1m
這是回憶嗎?535Please respect copyright.PENANAFT9eZKuxb3
「有機我哋2E班要搞翻個羽毛球班會活動。」535Please respect copyright.PENANA9KGQqyJ1B6
又是回憶了。535Please respect copyright.PENANAuyVpEeY3cW
「我退咗燒啦,多謝你之前借件冷衫比我保暖。」535Please respect copyright.PENANA3BX9sdnyGg
怎樣都是回憶。535Please respect copyright.PENANAbCrNf2GdUX
「我都鍾意Alvin你。」535Please respect copyright.PENANADTM9hasFYd
不要再是回憶了。535Please respect copyright.PENANAIuZu4wapnC
「隻熊送比你啊,同你好襯!」535Please respect copyright.PENANACoQM52YsGb
不要、不要、不要!535Please respect copyright.PENANAgcNwowpOYB
「我唔想離開你!」535Please respect copyright.PENANA2snfamaUHa
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「夠啦!」535Please respect copyright.PENANANchwGlP1gb
在一聲喊道下,我睜開了雙眼。535Please respect copyright.PENANAlyI1BDuiEg
只見眼前是那昏暗的天花板。535Please respect copyright.PENANACfq7PXz7wE
原來剛才所看到的,都是夢。535Please respect copyright.PENANAMAHWvruan1
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好不容易才睡著,卻這麼快又醒過來。535Please respect copyright.PENANAcWUsqd5xhK
還是先看一看現在是甚麼時候……535Please respect copyright.PENANAqaWTrbW69W
「咦?」535Please respect copyright.PENANAYJxWMbi0AL
當我伸手到床的角落時,卻模不到任何手機狀的物體。535Please respect copyright.PENANAxoarAbMqVA
「啊,啱先比我扔咗落地……」535Please respect copyright.PENANApYOa1VUmZZ
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我轉過身,來到了床邊。535Please respect copyright.PENANAyPUbwJ0rhU
很快就看到了被我丟到地上的手機。535Please respect copyright.PENANAVqKq5EOk7G
於是便伸手按下了一下手機的主螢幕按鍵。535Please respect copyright.PENANAU7MV57o0Lf
而手機也瞬間亮起了螢幕。535Please respect copyright.PENANAsyhyI2madd
但裡頭卻是一張我與Mandy的合照。535Please respect copyright.PENANAbMxmsyAyZ7
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我首先愣住了,但是當看到Mandy的樣子時。535Please respect copyright.PENANAwBfxSY6cNk
淚水,卻從雙眼流出。535Please respect copyright.PENANAv4WqAayWJ9
所有的悲傷,都一下子湧現出來。535Please respect copyright.PENANAuRkvJe0c0m
我不禁抓住心口,無聲地痛哭起來。535Please respect copyright.PENANAOZ28mKO8pq
當晚伴隨我的,除了孤獨、無助,就只有絕望而已。535Please respect copyright.PENANAxuIWNNDt86
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直到第二天,我醒來的時候,感覺已經是下午了。535Please respect copyright.PENANAmg0Ks5gg7q
我已經忘記了昨晚到底斷斷續續地睡著又驚醒多少次了。535Please respect copyright.PENANAbkni5dcNcG
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不過醒來後,我仍然躺在床上,一動也不動。535Please respect copyright.PENANADSssosguM1
即使在醒後來,地上的手機已經響起了多次訊息傳來的鈴聲。535Please respect copyright.PENANABOPGbCCblw
但是我完全沒有再次撿起的意欲。535Please respect copyright.PENANA9GWjCJSnMa
反正那些訊息,大多都是他們與Mandy送行時所拍下的照片了。535Please respect copyright.PENANAiqFcFvn29F
而我,卻沒有那個勇氣去看見那些照片。535Please respect copyright.PENANAzHeNI21iPa
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在接下來的時間,我都是躺在床上,沒有睡覺、沒有做其他的東西。535Please respect copyright.PENANAJ24Jv1SnMc
只是躺在上面,呆呆地看著天花板。535Please respect copyright.PENANA1I1cIAS5Gf
當肚子餓的時候,就走出房間,吃點零食,上個洗手間。535Please respect copyright.PENANA31WcFXj2tg
然後就再次回到房間並躺到床上。535Please respect copyright.PENANAlL3k5ehlvs
過程中,手機都仍然被我放置在地上,碰也沒有碰過。535Please respect copyright.PENANACHYg0GBpNf
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但隨著時間逐漸逝去,卻不時都有一剎那突然變得很想拿起手機來看。535Please respect copyright.PENANAoYPG99SRjH
不過心裡也會萌生另一個念頭去阻止自己這樣做。535Please respect copyright.PENANATIVsK0S1g1
其實,我一直不去看手機,不去點開WhatsApp。535Please respect copyright.PENANAoUUE2BDhGi
一切都只是想營造一種我失去了蹤影的錯覺。535Please respect copyright.PENANAKXMAJmjfGt
好讓其他人來主動慰問我的狀況,不,是好讓「她」來主動慰問。535Please respect copyright.PENANAaofEAFunSh
正確來說,「失蹤」只是打算做給她看而已。535Please respect copyright.PENANA95yIIrCbse
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然而,我又再一次把事情想得太美好了。535Please respect copyright.PENANAqmuMYRS4V2
最終,我還是忍不住了點開了螢幕,但沒有點進WhatsApp裡。535Please respect copyright.PENANAtnJeCCophC
這麼就能繼續營造「失蹤」的錯覺了。535Please respect copyright.PENANAHI2sUuXIKM
換言之,我是把手機的通知欄拉下,查看傳送訊息的人中,有沒有Mandy。535Please respect copyright.PENANASL2iuQtXQk
不過,當然是沒有了。535Please respect copyright.PENANATlUK8H47Qs
當刻心裡除了失望,就已經再沒有任何的情感了。535Please respect copyright.PENANABXjHEEDvfT
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或許今天沒有,明天會有呢?535Please respect copyright.PENANA5aANXPdgFV
相信世界總會尚存一絲的希望。535Please respect copyright.PENANAZiXWUKYywE
那怕只是個自私的期待,我相信仍然會實現的。535Please respect copyright.PENANAQVNG21TrFX
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如是者,直到第二天,我都沒有點開過WhatsApp等社交平台。535Please respect copyright.PENANAzmvVrCLnjg
手機的用途只餘下用來玩手機遊戲而已。535Please respect copyright.PENANAlNlLE9nSVE
接著正如我所想,通知欄中開始出現一些訊息是慰問我的狀況。535Please respect copyright.PENANArDDSZUw3BG
可是大多數都是「做咩咁耐都唔上線」、「好翻未?」、「今晚打唔打機」等。535Please respect copyright.PENANAwPs1TYQPZ6
但是,Mandy的名字,卻仍然沒有出現。535Please respect copyright.PENANAPu4N9fMn9f
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持續這樣渡過第三天、第四天、第五天……一個星期、一個月。535Please respect copyright.PENANAIgBvLDTMGX
當我再躺在床上時,已經在與朋友在WhatsApp上互發訊息聊著天。535Please respect copyright.PENANAGzkLcdG6wN
手機的鎖屏螢幕,也換做了風景圖。535Please respect copyright.PENANA9MNYDPgla3
聯絡通訊錄中,Mandy的名字,早已換回「Mandy」。535Please respect copyright.PENANAOXeQWfYmNu
相簿裡的合照,已經全數隱藏起來。535Please respect copyright.PENANAQ6dPZ2FRRN
但唯獨不變的就是,晚上間中睡覺時,都會夢見她。535Please respect copyright.PENANAUrz0Gou5tR
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最常夢到的,就是在海旁得知她將要離開的那一晚。535Please respect copyright.PENANAdhtU8J2hOq
我沒有上前擁抱著她,而是捉住她的手說:535Please respect copyright.PENANAWqDWyNx8Lp
「如果我哋再一齊,我絕對唔會再比你離開。」535Please respect copyright.PENANAfEsX62cITM
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「阿侑,今次真喺要講再見啦,聖誕之後我會翻番……嗯?!」535Please respect copyright.PENANArZDiir2C4E
就在Mandy把話說到一半的同時。535Please respect copyright.PENANAu2z8BYuntp
我卻走到了她的面前,並把她拉到懷中,以雙手緊抱。535Please respect copyright.PENANAaPzBktPwe0
「我絕對唔會再比你離開。」535Please respect copyright.PENANAlyNp4GC424
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「尷尬一時,還是後悔一世呢」535Please respect copyright.PENANAwC8WVkinxO