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534Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhkFqZIIN5T
某一天，在午息時段，Ivy悶悶不樂地來到學校的庭園。534Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkk0cmmbEHy
找了一個寧靜的角落，獨自一人坐下，不禁嘆息起來。534Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡupoUD7PFVY
534Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ51UnUU8NVF
原來在剛才午飯時間，Ivy又一次鼓起勇氣邀約Alvin一同吃午飯。534Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYXZgZLkEgV
可是早就習慣了與其他男生一同外出用膳的Alvin。534Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA2RKVR1NeF
並且升上中學後，根本就沒有被女生邀約吃飯。534Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJT9JD4TL9e
因此Ivy突如其來邀約，再加上當時朋友們的催促，Alvin也只好當下拒絕了她的邀請。534Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1rIAHKnkq6
534Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA2syHxiHP5
被喜歡的人拒絕邀約，除了感到可惜及失望之外，就根本甚麼都做不到。534Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnJSRZ1Qeqz
Ivy曾經嘗試融入對方的生活圈子之中，卻永遠都只是停留在表面上的融入。534Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdavK2P7b7H
至今，她與Alvin仍然是維持在每天上學見面時談上兩三句話的局面。534Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcUT8H5msS0
即使放學後，她與Alvin透過WhatsApp聊天的次數，也少之又少。534Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡunFlhU1FKd
534Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTBjunJPIaY
「Alvin都好似唔多理我咁……莫非真喺要好似Laura咁講，直接同佢講我鍾意佢……」534Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3QUYdAkzrl
這時，在Ivy的腦海中也閃現出前陣子Laura的一句說話。534Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ152HPk8Kn4
那句叫她向喜歡的人坦承的說話。534Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOAvsMAx7Q1
可是對於性格偏向內向的Ivy來說，要與喜歡的人坦白，可是一件難若登天的事情。534Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuVEKBKc6cY
單是起初鼓起勇氣向Alvin進一步搭訕，她其實也在心裡掙扎了好幾天。534Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX8p9DMXQER
534Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRMSyQMmVbY
「你鍾意Alvin啊？」534Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwcPPYAINIo
突然有一把男聲從Ivy的後方傳來。534Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLtWYwB1Ky6
使得她馬上驚慌失色起來，並隨即轉過身來，查看聲音的主人。534Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2WNhhDBsyl
「Dan……？點解你會嚟庭園嘅？」534Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgsSWH5rLnS
在確認是同班的同學後，Ivy也接著好奇地問道。534Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ22WbcStp9i
畢竟，學校的庭園平常根本不會有人到訪。534Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaQxEs8DiXl
534Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7IACKMqrmY
「食飽飯無嘢做，咪嚟行過圈囉……但竟然比我八卦到啲嘢啊，呵呵。」534Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRwoIU9ZIm2
Dan在說著的同時，奸笑起來，然後就盯著Ivy，等待對方辯解。534Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEikoFqPdjm
「你唔好講出啊！我求你！」Ivy當然是立即雙手合十，不斷向Dan請求著。534Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkJSP5RTyLG
534Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpK3jsnOlTG
接著，Dan也抓一抓自己的頭髮，一臉沾沾自喜地說：534Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsBSpyn1r8V
「乜我似啲會將人哋秘密亂咁爆出去嘅人咩？」534Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJjftmDtIK9
Ivy思考了一會Dan的這句話，然後就搖頭說：「咁又唔似……」534Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ24SxVepNs
534Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFk2J8k4cRX
「鍾意咗人幾耐啊？」Dan隨即問道，看來是打算再八卦一下Ivy的事情。534Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8SS6TooZgP
Ivy頓時也面紅耳赤起來，並不斷捏住自己的校裙。534Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6FgBUPfhPM
而在一番內心掙扎後，她也小小聲地說：「大概三個月啦……」534Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyBDgw5HxiA
534Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAsiPg5qGoA
Dan馬上「哇」了一聲，但很快又一臉認真地摸著下巴說：534Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHCtOOdttEf
「唔怪得近排見你同Alvin多咗嘢講啦……不過睇嚟你都好似有嘢煩惱緊？」534Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQNRygvbnEn
在對方的引導下，Ivy也開始向Dan說起了一切的由來。534Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7SqxO8Z5Si
由一開始對Alvin產生興趣，然後就是好感，最後就是喜歡了對方。534Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlyHguLLBDZ
不過卻一直未能向對方表達心意。534Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPyHhcHzkx7
534Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqNMwx5mZtH
Dan聆聽完Ivy一番經歷後，隨即也露出一個恍然大悟的樣子。534Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgBEBsAtj0p
「哦，所以啱啱先見你唉聲嘆氣咁坐喺到。」534Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJBA2Nscevz
Ivy沒有說話，只是默默地點著頭。534Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpggBCFOliX
於是Dan見況也繼續說：「都明你點解咁沮喪嘅，明明鍾意人，但又無勇氣同對方講，想接近人，但喺又無從入手，令到自己卡咗喺個尷尬位。」534Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLY7hSozFpY
聽到Dan「一針見血」的總結後，Ivy也馬上再次嘆息起來。534Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTVBEAZCkTv
然後一臉沒精打采地看著Dan，並用低沉的聲音說：「聽嚟我都喺無機架啦……」534Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTZtypYHSAj
534Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjCLFZ7mC29
「唔好灰啦！不如我幫你探下Alvin口風啦！知佢點諗你都一件好事啊！」534Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrmx4wlrnxR
Dan見到Ivy一臉死氣沉沉地樣子，馬上轉用一個輕快的口吻說著，希望從而令Ivy振作一點。534Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7kNdk4jfqH
而Ivy聽到了Dan的建議後，馬上想起了先前Laura的一句：「唔試過又點知得唔得呢？」534Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡti3LcrZZNo
隨即也重燃心中的希望之火，一邊點頭一邊把一切都託付到Dan手上……534Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxjQqDIhBO0
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534Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwmrYnH3CZ2
數天後，Dan看準了放學時Alvin獨自離開課室的時機。534Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKb9v8LlW1e
馬上裝作想與Alvin一同放學而上前與他搭訕。534Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡamoqrz9gxC
「Alvin，不如今日一齊走啊！」534Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeXhTCNEisj
「少有喎，你今日唔喺同Francis一齊走。」534Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ2pnn7rZ6H
「因為……Francis比人罰留堂啊！」534Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmH67RoFP30
但此刻Francis其實是在班房裡與其他男生共同挑戰著手機遊戲中的關卡……534Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXhwUzizgOm
534Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvrnklHU7ci
接著，Dan與Alvin二人一邊聊著一邊下樓梯。534Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlsT4y1AXbU
聊起兩三句後，Dan也開門見山問道：「Alvin，你喺2E有無鍾意嘅人啊？」534Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPCpeCjjm6k
隨即二人也站在了原地。534Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ22Ge02XBmr
而此時，Ivy也剛好走到了樓梯的轉角處，聆聽到了Alvin接下的回答。534Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIStwJXIAuy
「無喎。」Alvin的這一個回答，簡單而直接。534Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLbuPyL0uMu
不過卻同時使Dan愣住了，而偷聽著的Ivy更感到失望起來。534Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLosoGMEqB8
看來她的幻想，都確實只是幻想。534Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ2xHtCQQbP
並如同泡沫一樣，在一瞬間破掉化為無物。534Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCmnK1Sx3Rz
534Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuHM3Q5g62e
「真喺無鍾意嘅人？」Dan再問道，並語氣變得質疑起來。534Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2Jf0jMRKLh
不過Alvin仍然迅速而堅定地回答同樣的答案：「真喺無。」534Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡseTQdBgoH6
534Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWX3D7aeCEo
這使得Dan不禁倒抽了一口氣。534Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKuzlk4D4fz
不過機智的他，也很快就想到第二條問題：「咁班入面有無邊個女仔吸引到你啊？」534Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiMEXSrJsxR
Alvin思考了一會，然後答：「嗯……無喎……」534Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ28mx2Znog
雖然答案一樣，但是這一次Alvin的回答，卻從中感覺到一絲猶如。534Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsf9Z8JISmm
於是Dan也捉住了這份遲疑，再問：「真喺無？你諗真啲……例如Ivy呢？」534Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcQuZwUbejp
534Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnrfc5rA72t
在轉角處的Ivy聽到了自己的名字後，也意會到Dan終於把與Alvin的對話引導到自己身上。534Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdycI9puDFE
她隨即地把雙手放到胸口上，希望能藉此壓抑住活蹦亂跳的心。534Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzMRCS4ax4Z
因為對於接下來Alvin的回答，她確實感到額外的緊張起來。534Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9IIco61oRz
可是，她接著聽到答案是……534Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3PG1d5yICg
「Ivy啊……無咩特別感覺喎，咪普通同學咁。」534Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN5Wog2Kp4h
534Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxbeB1qM9Xf
聽到Alvin的回答，Ivy頓時如同石化了一樣，目瞪口呆地站在原地。534Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv7zZjGVk9E
連此刻站在Alvin對面的Dan也瞬間感到愕然起來。534Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡooRcLUayeM
或許他自己也猜想不到，這就是Alvin的答案。534Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPdXqqsQrDs
不過，感到有點不知所揩的Dan，也靈機一動，立即再問：534Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFiF2S5Z2x9
「如果Ivy喺鍾意你呢？」534Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV0PB3R0qRe
他選擇不再轉彎抹角，而是斬釘截鐵地道出了Ivy的心意。534Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRs8Czf7V3r
但其實他都猜想不到，原來Ivy一直偷聽著。534Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDFHuIHv1g0
534Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDPyHCuTdqM
然而，Alvin隨即也皺起眉頭說：「就算佢鍾意我，都唔代表我要鍾意佢。感情呢啲嘢講feel架嘛，如果要迎合佢嘅心意，而勉強自己，我做唔到。」534Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF2CG4Hmotm
534Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbpL8Td9stU
正當Alvin說完這句話後，他們的上方也突然傳來了一聲急促的腳步聲。534Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw4LNG5tgCt
於是Alvin好奇地探頭瞄了一眼上方，並發現沒有人。534Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu0NSYJjMlp
接著也扭過頭來繼續與Dan談論剛剛的話題。534Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxi6a4JYyqT
然而，他並不知道，剛才腳步聲的主人，正是Ivy。534Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9cfBk5pR6T
534Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡer9I8md9tF
而與此同時，Ivy也已經淚流滿面，走到了學校的某處。534Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWIoFsAuUfk
孤單一人坐在角落，蜷縮著身體，雙臂抱住雙膝，痛哭起來。534Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtQ9aVcIirf
她的哭聲，無比悲哀及淒慘，如同心被刀割一樣。534Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSM6MbvOQ04
看來這份傷痛，將永遠刻印在她的心中，成為一條永遠無法修補的疤痕。534Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxbj3PLo6vP
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「就算佢鍾意我，都唔代表我要鍾意佢」534Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKZLZSA5Szs
直至深夜時，Ivy再次因為回想起Alvin的這一句話，而驚醒過來。534Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6Ov66GVJCT
她隨即慢慢地離開了床，並坐在一旁的梳妝桌。534Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGiX0B0EyFG
然後，打開了桌燈，看著鏡中雙眼通紅、神情疲倦的自己。534Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmVz05Tuqp7
534Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYP9cvfcRB0
接著再回想起Alvin的說話，以及這三個月來自己的所做一切。534Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE87HdobBFL
她不禁冷笑起來，隨後打開桌上文具盒，拿出了一把美術刀。534Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡooNma3aLWi
伸出冰冷的刀鋒，對著自己的手臀……534Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIkb0TK3JxO
「嚓—」534Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVbKNc79iqd
534Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoOjmRtj6pZ
534Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡObraIxN3Bh
「懷著多大的期望，就會迎來同等的失望，甚至最終帶來更深的絕望」534Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB1vKnsThCA
534Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW77K5m1aZD
534Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu5kUQlTgUD
作者在此鄭重聲明：534Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3LAA56vIWS
𠝹手只是劇情的一部份，並且是虛構情節。534Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj7mRO4IAxc
讀者們請潔身自愛，切勿嘗試！！！534Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ24gFXdXoF5
無論遇上多麼不如意的事情，都切勿做出任何試圖傷害身體的行為。534Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSR9jHYTuJZ
若發現事情未如理想，無法獨力承受，請向身邊的人如父母及師長尋求協助。534Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2GOlxAGcmG
切勿將傷害身體來發洩情緒一事合理化，請各位潔身自愛。534Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzsQFG0oDsv
愛人前先要懂得愛錫自己。534Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcjbt9Yk6N7
534Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFEelIJuEYC
作者閒聊：534Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKbR1grhJh9
過去阿侑的一句：「就算佢鍾意我，都唔代表我要鍾意佢。感情呢啲嘢講feel架嘛，如果要迎合佢嘅心意，而勉強自己，我做唔到。」534Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDpVOzTL5MS
完全是在打著現在自己的臉……534Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGxipJjLI7Y
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