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某一天，在午息時段，Ivy悶悶不樂地來到學校的庭園。535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9Juzvqir2C
找了一個寧靜的角落，獨自一人坐下，不禁嘆息起來。535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPLTrwJn0So
535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhAP2adGRUO
原來在剛才午飯時間，Ivy又一次鼓起勇氣邀約Alvin一同吃午飯。535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3eVYIvuXEO
可是早就習慣了與其他男生一同外出用膳的Alvin。535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVWaV2s2bkS
並且升上中學後，根本就沒有被女生邀約吃飯。535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcLXvmep6vp
因此Ivy突如其來邀約，再加上當時朋友們的催促，Alvin也只好當下拒絕了她的邀請。535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA8pGOTugSn
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被喜歡的人拒絕邀約，除了感到可惜及失望之外，就根本甚麼都做不到。535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwHSwRaJCsr
Ivy曾經嘗試融入對方的生活圈子之中，卻永遠都只是停留在表面上的融入。535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1czmNFzBRe
至今，她與Alvin仍然是維持在每天上學見面時談上兩三句話的局面。535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxBU9HjK48c
即使放學後，她與Alvin透過WhatsApp聊天的次數，也少之又少。535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡItbK5usG4x
535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuVhsY8G1Fx
「Alvin都好似唔多理我咁……莫非真喺要好似Laura咁講，直接同佢講我鍾意佢……」535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpIParX6DIc
這時，在Ivy的腦海中也閃現出前陣子Laura的一句說話。535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOLKqrAmrdH
那句叫她向喜歡的人坦承的說話。535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv5RWm65Rit
可是對於性格偏向內向的Ivy來說，要與喜歡的人坦白，可是一件難若登天的事情。535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQS4cIVdQpR
單是起初鼓起勇氣向Alvin進一步搭訕，她其實也在心裡掙扎了好幾天。535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoiwZZlnXEW
535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLKj2t7yVK5
「你鍾意Alvin啊？」535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrL5PauoV1M
突然有一把男聲從Ivy的後方傳來。535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ66EXYuc6g5
使得她馬上驚慌失色起來，並隨即轉過身來，查看聲音的主人。535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVUNoE1bIN1
「Dan……？點解你會嚟庭園嘅？」535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKz4EL0037G
在確認是同班的同學後，Ivy也接著好奇地問道。535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡirLy5Iv8L1
畢竟，學校的庭園平常根本不會有人到訪。535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWRFE7uoHI7
535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs504CWGXxS
「食飽飯無嘢做，咪嚟行過圈囉……但竟然比我八卦到啲嘢啊，呵呵。」535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXxYy7gknoK
Dan在說著的同時，奸笑起來，然後就盯著Ivy，等待對方辯解。535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGiRcwuttcj
「你唔好講出啊！我求你！」Ivy當然是立即雙手合十，不斷向Dan請求著。535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG52r8X8Sbu
535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdwyVu3jAST
接著，Dan也抓一抓自己的頭髮，一臉沾沾自喜地說：535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsziKCJ8bH7
「乜我似啲會將人哋秘密亂咁爆出去嘅人咩？」535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1y6oXfiXWa
Ivy思考了一會Dan的這句話，然後就搖頭說：「咁又唔似……」535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBYq52LDq69
535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEGezZEFTgn
「鍾意咗人幾耐啊？」Dan隨即問道，看來是打算再八卦一下Ivy的事情。535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3jX33zHQvg
Ivy頓時也面紅耳赤起來，並不斷捏住自己的校裙。535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiRlcQuZNic
而在一番內心掙扎後，她也小小聲地說：「大概三個月啦……」535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7JL2U6268w
535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTXLn2ahEzb
Dan馬上「哇」了一聲，但很快又一臉認真地摸著下巴說：535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRZFJGAuYNv
「唔怪得近排見你同Alvin多咗嘢講啦……不過睇嚟你都好似有嘢煩惱緊？」535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhH4vtMH93j
在對方的引導下，Ivy也開始向Dan說起了一切的由來。535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRBNKYKD4cO
由一開始對Alvin產生興趣，然後就是好感，最後就是喜歡了對方。535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiRYjtPUD30
不過卻一直未能向對方表達心意。535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0wZCOD3Tfv
535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQs7aRj9tyE
Dan聆聽完Ivy一番經歷後，隨即也露出一個恍然大悟的樣子。535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaBRFJr6NxJ
「哦，所以啱啱先見你唉聲嘆氣咁坐喺到。」535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEOHQfRlhtg
Ivy沒有說話，只是默默地點著頭。535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡti79un2BHd
於是Dan見況也繼續說：「都明你點解咁沮喪嘅，明明鍾意人，但又無勇氣同對方講，想接近人，但喺又無從入手，令到自己卡咗喺個尷尬位。」535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQxa9eblOMS
聽到Dan「一針見血」的總結後，Ivy也馬上再次嘆息起來。535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKfcDoqnrtz
然後一臉沒精打采地看著Dan，並用低沉的聲音說：「聽嚟我都喺無機架啦……」535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6EUhFj5wdY
535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXLSqAi8rLp
「唔好灰啦！不如我幫你探下Alvin口風啦！知佢點諗你都一件好事啊！」535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFDMBZMRvdo
Dan見到Ivy一臉死氣沉沉地樣子，馬上轉用一個輕快的口吻說著，希望從而令Ivy振作一點。535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbb8frgLKhG
而Ivy聽到了Dan的建議後，馬上想起了先前Laura的一句：「唔試過又點知得唔得呢？」535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq8mWue3dVj
隨即也重燃心中的希望之火，一邊點頭一邊把一切都託付到Dan手上……535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡItVOjtzkbg
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數天後，Dan看準了放學時Alvin獨自離開課室的時機。535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMfze4i9YJe
馬上裝作想與Alvin一同放學而上前與他搭訕。535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAjEuNXoWyS
「Alvin，不如今日一齊走啊！」535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfdkbK1qW45
「少有喎，你今日唔喺同Francis一齊走。」535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXoyJh8XNA7
「因為……Francis比人罰留堂啊！」535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrsJoQH3zgo
但此刻Francis其實是在班房裡與其他男生共同挑戰著手機遊戲中的關卡……535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhwvUevDLl4
535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiWhKDHfSuM
接著，Dan與Alvin二人一邊聊著一邊下樓梯。535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkaXnRcLsKh
聊起兩三句後，Dan也開門見山問道：「Alvin，你喺2E有無鍾意嘅人啊？」535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjrMbNGAvDQ
隨即二人也站在了原地。535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQybIarWSTl
而此時，Ivy也剛好走到了樓梯的轉角處，聆聽到了Alvin接下的回答。535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf2NdGB3jM0
「無喎。」Alvin的這一個回答，簡單而直接。535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt8DhzmwCO3
不過卻同時使Dan愣住了，而偷聽著的Ivy更感到失望起來。535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUcL7Y8KEcp
看來她的幻想，都確實只是幻想。535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4nEXMNxvfj
並如同泡沫一樣，在一瞬間破掉化為無物。535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBhtZzjMKUE
535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYdBz6S920k
「真喺無鍾意嘅人？」Dan再問道，並語氣變得質疑起來。535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7K5spaTP9E
不過Alvin仍然迅速而堅定地回答同樣的答案：「真喺無。」535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpLfDi8TNqR
535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRkuxAw5qP9
這使得Dan不禁倒抽了一口氣。535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnfWPsMXTIK
不過機智的他，也很快就想到第二條問題：「咁班入面有無邊個女仔吸引到你啊？」535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJFucYVjMHp
Alvin思考了一會，然後答：「嗯……無喎……」535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvSDiOjlDQv
雖然答案一樣，但是這一次Alvin的回答，卻從中感覺到一絲猶如。535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPuKjOqIWhK
於是Dan也捉住了這份遲疑，再問：「真喺無？你諗真啲……例如Ivy呢？」535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvt90QSwMur
535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2AHfmzmJNC
在轉角處的Ivy聽到了自己的名字後，也意會到Dan終於把與Alvin的對話引導到自己身上。535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqQeC7IRvrJ
她隨即地把雙手放到胸口上，希望能藉此壓抑住活蹦亂跳的心。535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUID9zi08kW
因為對於接下來Alvin的回答，她確實感到額外的緊張起來。535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSmCIUzJhil
可是，她接著聽到答案是……535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTks22DvUOh
「Ivy啊……無咩特別感覺喎，咪普通同學咁。」535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTqzcVjJngq
535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6KCt19mylz
聽到Alvin的回答，Ivy頓時如同石化了一樣，目瞪口呆地站在原地。535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdS7DgBkPlg
連此刻站在Alvin對面的Dan也瞬間感到愕然起來。535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpat5Hm5zIA
或許他自己也猜想不到，這就是Alvin的答案。535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqzJHymJjPj
不過，感到有點不知所揩的Dan，也靈機一動，立即再問：535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡikCHv4xs1P
「如果Ivy喺鍾意你呢？」535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5XDM1ZRVLX
他選擇不再轉彎抹角，而是斬釘截鐵地道出了Ivy的心意。535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ5XMiwy34C
但其實他都猜想不到，原來Ivy一直偷聽著。535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWg5eIKitvc
535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4yKExxLRC0
然而，Alvin隨即也皺起眉頭說：「就算佢鍾意我，都唔代表我要鍾意佢。感情呢啲嘢講feel架嘛，如果要迎合佢嘅心意，而勉強自己，我做唔到。」535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtqP8ORu7nO
535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSt40RpZHUL
正當Alvin說完這句話後，他們的上方也突然傳來了一聲急促的腳步聲。535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRmu34K00Yu
於是Alvin好奇地探頭瞄了一眼上方，並發現沒有人。535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhIUASRBAdj
接著也扭過頭來繼續與Dan談論剛剛的話題。535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJakJjw9kZT
然而，他並不知道，剛才腳步聲的主人，正是Ivy。535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvQgjSDL0ee
535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV1sqSqnkqs
而與此同時，Ivy也已經淚流滿面，走到了學校的某處。535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEXDHs4OLCj
孤單一人坐在角落，蜷縮著身體，雙臂抱住雙膝，痛哭起來。535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvt4dTZfuyl
她的哭聲，無比悲哀及淒慘，如同心被刀割一樣。535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr4lPDRTqXa
看來這份傷痛，將永遠刻印在她的心中，成為一條永遠無法修補的疤痕。535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsUda8vUTiv
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「就算佢鍾意我，都唔代表我要鍾意佢」535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYky6lOTl30
直至深夜時，Ivy再次因為回想起Alvin的這一句話，而驚醒過來。535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0Z0raHHWOm
她隨即慢慢地離開了床，並坐在一旁的梳妝桌。535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnIrYnF9IkK
然後，打開了桌燈，看著鏡中雙眼通紅、神情疲倦的自己。535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEGUTFYnnML
535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl4zWRdrCYO
接著再回想起Alvin的說話，以及這三個月來自己的所做一切。535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxll2deTitN
她不禁冷笑起來，隨後打開桌上文具盒，拿出了一把美術刀。535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡegDIpmjl6l
伸出冰冷的刀鋒，對著自己的手臀……535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1sofmUWVAl
「嚓—」535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsHDvTtMTbp
535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDM2sMOMQUj
535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCJcKjEZBQC
「懷著多大的期望，就會迎來同等的失望，甚至最終帶來更深的絕望」535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlVXS5ECXvu
535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMQJhwabgVc
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作者在此鄭重聲明：535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡATUGwShUhZ
𠝹手只是劇情的一部份，並且是虛構情節。535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeL92Mlzblc
讀者們請潔身自愛，切勿嘗試！！！535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ13brtRk3XD
無論遇上多麼不如意的事情，都切勿做出任何試圖傷害身體的行為。535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrrZid2kiaV
若發現事情未如理想，無法獨力承受，請向身邊的人如父母及師長尋求協助。535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOkDv7x57V1
切勿將傷害身體來發洩情緒一事合理化，請各位潔身自愛。535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdrHDr2Q5Bw
愛人前先要懂得愛錫自己。535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡru8n7biySR
535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡacruiIRZjN
作者閒聊：535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1RLKaMQZjZ
過去阿侑的一句：「就算佢鍾意我，都唔代表我要鍾意佢。感情呢啲嘢講feel架嘛，如果要迎合佢嘅心意，而勉強自己，我做唔到。」535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSlokhPEfDM
完全是在打著現在自己的臉……535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFHluZWwI9m
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