第一二八章:畢業營(七)541Please respect copyright.PENANAlu4q2eoRGx
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一聲喊道下,我便把Mandy拉到懷中緊抱著。541Please respect copyright.PENANAMKWeD5FaNu
已經不知道,這個舉動到底是理性控制,還是感性驅動了……541Please respect copyright.PENANA16Sz8dfEPa
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不過在我懷中的Mandy,也在一陣錯愕過後。541Please respect copyright.PENANAlcMd3X6GHe
便輕聲地說:「做咩咁突然攬住人……」541Please respect copyright.PENANARb4Ji4yR2R
「唔知……我都唔知點解自己會突然咁做。」我仍然摟抱著她說道。541Please respect copyright.PENANAxeWPRhKQsu
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而我們唯持了這個姿勢大約半分鐘後,她也再說:「一陣比其他人睇到啊……」541Please respect copyright.PENANAVOLSMH0cKc
聽到她這這番說話,我才下意識過來,現在還是在營區內,隨時都會有同級的同學或老師出現。541Please respect copyright.PENANA9UzfByDefz
因此,我便很快把她推離懷中,並說:「對……對唔住。」541Please respect copyright.PENANAQpQTqVV25S
但她沒有責怪我突然的舉動,反而是臉頰泛起一點紅地盯著地板看。541Please respect copyright.PENANAc9qhPyUJj8
我想,突然被人抱入懷中,有這個反應也不奇怪。541Please respect copyright.PENANAKx4Eji0M4O
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「不如我哋去個邊企?」541Please respect copyright.PENANAxaXyKZKIcd
發現氣氛變得有點尷尬起來的我,便指向了近河畔邊的平台。541Please respect copyright.PENANAizu7dNj5wA
她抬頭看一看我指向的方向,沉默了一會。541Please respect copyright.PENANAkqXUJbn9cB
接著也少少聲地在嘴邊說:「好。」541Please respect copyright.PENANAwckbGglkRR
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隨即我們便一同往平台的方向前去,不過路途上卻沒有任何傾談。541Please respect copyright.PENANAj56VvQBQF4
畢竟,現在我腦中想著的,都只是她那一句「道別」。541Please respect copyright.PENANAMFl1Ynaoa5
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直到我們來到平台,並雙雙靠在欄杆上。541Please respect copyright.PENANAD8iEDAVmUx
她也開口說:「聖誕之後,我就會翻番澳洲讀書。」541Please respect copyright.PENANA7c2xQT4QDF
「喺啊……」我竟然比想像中表現得平淡。541Please respect copyright.PENANAseVJtvNzzc
而她對於的我反應,似乎都感到有點意外。541Please respect copyright.PENANAY8OqRK1drM
於是好奇地望向我,隨即我都一同與她對視起來。541Please respect copyright.PENANAVqa5h03Zq4
「阿侑你嘅反應比我想像中冷靜喎……啊,唔喺。你啱先都無啦啦攬住我。」541Please respect copyright.PENANAEDihs8Wraj
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其實我的反應會如此鎮定,可能是因為我早就猜想到會有這一天的來臨。541Please respect copyright.PENANAHM6jSq32oO
始終,她已經不是第一次離開我了。541Please respect copyright.PENANADe3tslGL6X
三年前,她因為移民而前往了澳洲。541Please respect copyright.PENANATwjWOWAIUr
可是在一年後又回來了與我再次相遇。541Please respect copyright.PENANAiu8Td5BY3j
但是她的家人仍然在澳洲,這樣代表,終有一天,她還是要離開……541Please respect copyright.PENANAO8cA1Un6QS
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「點解又突然翻去讀書?」541Please respect copyright.PENANANRHHGQWNtK
她沒有即時回答,而是扭過頭去看著前方一片漆黑的河畔。541Please respect copyright.PENANAhdE3GOdEb5
「本來都諗住考埋DSE先,但屋企人都希望我唔好考,而喺返去讀多兩年high school,然後直接駁入U。」541Please respect copyright.PENANApGMuwfgQ9H
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聽到她這樣說道,我都瞬間理解到為何她的家人會作出如此的抉擇。541Please respect copyright.PENANAntbKHIoIr2
畢竟論教育,香港的教育實在太過落後,只專注在菁英培育上。541Please respect copyright.PENANATTBHk8UbzI
然後又推行現在的「一試定生死」方式,來區分能力高與低的學生。541Please respect copyright.PENANAVQhauKUBrX
分分鐘考入大學還比在麻將桌上以海底撈月食糊更難呢。541Please respect copyright.PENANAjkrmWzLo5x
換做是我的話,都會選擇在海外升學。541Please respect copyright.PENANAPJpcsxpyiZ
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在她的話後,我也一同望向眼前漆黑的河畔。541Please respect copyright.PENANABPVQPvq2bC
頓時覺得眼前的景色,就如同不久的未來一樣。541Please respect copyright.PENANA0cLLQq8CyI
現在晚上看著,只會覺得一團漆黑,根本捉摸不清眼前的事物。541Please respect copyright.PENANAFp2t9fULvM
換做早上看著的話,卻會清楚地看到河畔上所有的景物。541Please respect copyright.PENANAtybQ1iw0ts
人,會因為一時的迷茫,而失去向前的動力。541Please respect copyright.PENANAcOhbfLgFXO
但又會因為熟悉而感到舒適,並最後失去了探索的動力。541Please respect copyright.PENANACsgRUaPaD3
到底是選擇留在舒適圈,還是離開,都將會引致不同的未來。541Please respect copyright.PENANAESdqChO35W
而我們往往擔憂的,就只是那個未來到底適不適合自己。541Please respect copyright.PENANA7JQRifUWoG
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Mandy發現我沒有回應,於是又再說起來:「所以今次真喺要再見啦。」541Please respect copyright.PENANAfDn9ZeaX9v
她又再一次提起了「再見」這一回事。541Please respect copyright.PENANAbVy1h8v3qB
但這次我並沒有像剛一樣立即把她拉到懷中,而是說出心中話:541Please respect copyright.PENANAUwYyAWVmpV
「老實講啊,其實我唔想你走。」541Please respect copyright.PENANAorkxyShK5r
「我知啊,啱先你攬住我個陣,我聽到啊。」她在話後便微笑起來。541Please respect copyright.PENANA9m1tXVfQO3
感覺就像在回味剛才的一刻一樣。541Please respect copyright.PENANAOuutSEThMK
但接著又再問:「點解咁唔想我走?」541Please respect copyright.PENANAQc5Y9Qkk1z
「因為我自私囉。」我直接說道。541Please respect copyright.PENANAJZ7wqAY63z
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然而,她又沒有立即回答,而是轉過身來背靠在欄杆上。541Please respect copyright.PENANAxlTABOQKFX
「唔可以自私喺我到架。」541Please respect copyright.PENANAKCvSmOP6A5
「點解啊?」我一臉好奇地反問道。541Please respect copyright.PENANANM9UCG9CWb
「因為……我唔值得你自私囉!」541Please respect copyright.PENANAgPtTuAJcR8
她這樣一說,使我愣住了。541Please respect copyright.PENANArC0HqJVsJJ
但是正當我開口時,她又說:「仲有其他人值得你自私。」541Please respect copyright.PENANAQ5Lbv5G5ow
「你嘅其他人喺指?」541Please respect copyright.PENANAcOHHjpaVtx
「Venus啊,Elaine啊,甚至可能喺你畢業之後識嘅人。」541Please respect copyright.PENANAsv1OIQYSVk
在她提起Venus的名字時,我的腦海卻聯想起一段畫面。541Please respect copyright.PENANAHoSrcJsqAz
就是開學的那一天,她與Venus在6C班門前談天的時候。541Please respect copyright.PENANAaNzGBM1mP6
因此我也不禁問:「愛瑩喺咪一早知架啦?」541Please respect copyright.PENANAEmxKV0vdqF
她點頭,然後望向夜空:「班入面有幾個女仔都知。其實我都諗住差唔多時間同大家講架啦。」541Please respect copyright.PENANA940QHbq2aG
即使與全班說,大家都知道後,都是改變不了她要離開的事實。541Please respect copyright.PENANA7ej6sTkdpv
而我此刻想對她就只是:「比我……」541Please respect copyright.PENANAuANqIuEvO3
「時間都唔早啦,不如我哋翻去啦。」541Please respect copyright.PENANAkFzEJipFUq
她突然的一句打斷了我的說話。541Please respect copyright.PENANAy625CchQvI
是巧合?還是刻意呢?541Please respect copyright.PENANApNnjR56tAr
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並且她在提議後,只是雙眼默默地凝視著我。541Please respect copyright.PENANA1TQYsf3myN
我隨即只能吞下還在口中的說話,點頭回應:541Please respect copyright.PENANAaBlkYH249D
「都好。」541Please respect copyright.PENANAaqUWBPHjzG
答應了的這一刻也代表著,我們的話題,將會在此結束……541Please respect copyright.PENANAbqaEGTKnpV
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片刻後,我帶著複雜的心情返回了宿舍內。541Please respect copyright.PENANAlbOrgFgsxE
並在打開門的一刻,就見Harriet拿著毛巾及衣服在大廳的沙發上看著電視。541Please respect copyright.PENANAfXFmYCv4uy
「散完步翻嚟啦?」Harriet看見我的出現,便立即問道。541Please respect copyright.PENANAqZ6KwOfJZl
而我只是坐到他的旁邊,並靠在沙發上嘆氣起來。541Please respect copyright.PENANAJ60FP2NFQb
「唉,感情真喺好複雜呢。」541Please respect copyright.PENANAT2kQI7bsql
他先是愣住了,但是也一同靠向後,並輕笑了一聲說:541Please respect copyright.PENANAuXd6V3QOTv
「喺啊,感情真喺好複雜架。」541Please respect copyright.PENANAuky6RoLSvt
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「想放手,但又想捉緊,真複雜」541Please respect copyright.PENANAQ9reDtAzG2