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「你真喺Alvin啊？」569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxsrFvdfh3P
那名女生仍然一臉難以置信地問著我。569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG2Wr9CJ8UX
其實此刻，在我心一樣徘徊著同樣的問題「你真喺Ivy啊」。569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxhUUMZIG3C
但是對於記性好的我來說，當然知道她就是Ivy了。569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA4XmC93DdX
雖然她把過往的長髮修剪為及肩短髮，並開始佩帶起眼鏡。569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKZnNqzvuyR
然而她那張熟悉的臉孔，仍然存在於腦海之中。569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSusN3FKdSF
最糟糕的就是……我在一瞬間也回憶起，她哭泣著的容貌。569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡopsm8Vno9c
亦都是多年前，我最後一次看見她的時候……569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3n9IpkdgVG
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「我哋好耐無見啦！有無……有無三年啦？」569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQKntKhvZzS
Ivy在一陣驚訝過後，便隨即臉帶笑容說道。569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvwcGh6iiPg
再見時是哭著，現在重遇卻是笑著，是多麼矛盾的事情……569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX1qpmCqoHj
569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXW5WdTgego
「正確嚟講應該喺四年啦。」我回應她。569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEt9BolCuu5
而她在聽到我的更正後，也立即數著手指：「一、二、三、四……喺喎！原來已經四年囉，嘻嘻！」569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKvfqRyEOPV
看著她傻笑起來的樣子，我的心中卻逐漸產生起一種感覺。569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxqfwu7LTyx
一種難以形容的內疚感。569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4hOtzK7NBx
569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY7o5YE0gLe
而在她的一陣傻笑過後，她似乎也察覺到了我並沒有多說話。569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzCsNrQ0Fg8
於是她便接著再說：「Alvin，你成個人成熟咗。」569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJDQ3tWC1Ng
「喺……喺咩。」我稍為避開了她的目光說道。569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAPMhtEcJMM
隨即視線也落在她的長袖衣上。569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEwoDz3MF0u
明明現在是夏天，外面三十多度，但她還是穿著長袖。569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5rq0lq81Xr
是用來遮掩著手臂嗎？569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEZONWurezg
是用來遮掩著手臂上的傷痕嗎？569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnm9T3vH0Xx
是用來遮掩著手臂上因為我而弄出來的傷痕嗎？569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPdnFmYrhJK
單是回想起昨晚Mandy所說的畫面，我便不禁倒抽了一口氣。569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqMoI7uXtNJ
569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRn3zvH9RGt
「Alvin，你介意緊以前嘅事啊？」569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaECyqM6wze
Ivy很快也發現了我的目光落在她的衣袖上，於是隨即便把衣袖卷起。569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtA4TV9UCdb
展露了手臂上的數條疤痕。569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZadrb8qwlt
這一瞬間，我的心涼了。569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpb3gGsWHQN
原來這就是我當時的決定，而導致的後果了嗎……569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQVEGdJIXjV
我沉默了數秒，接著也開口說：「對唔住。」569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBzDN6tnMGN
道歉，因為當時我傷害了她的心。569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKi2hKvi0tz
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「哎呀！做咩道歉啦你？」Ivy立即愕然地說道。569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzVsXt2Jlju
我沒有回應她，只是繼續沉默著。569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡydtaoedaM5
使得她隨即也皺眉頭起來，並思考了數秒後說：「睇嚟Alvin你真喺好介意以前嘅事……真喺好對唔住！」569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnBE7SF7Jzn
然而在她話後，她卻立即向我九十度鞠躬道歉起來。569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8UBjIB6mSh
這次輪到我感到錯愕起來並立即說：「做……做咩突然道歉啦？！」569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6XZBBJU8F5
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「因為當年我一時嘅衝動，搞到Alvin你原來一直都介懷於心！真喺好對唔住！」Ivy繼續面朝地板說著。569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJgBUlHdGA0
使得我都開始有點不知所措起來，只能不斷揮動手臂，示意她快抬起頭來。569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAbmxK9HYwo
569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN7XAioQKUY
於是Ivy也快速地把頭抬來，然後雙眼注視著我說：「如果喺一年前嘅我，我諗依家一定喊哂口。不過依家嘅我已經對一切都釋懷，所以希望Alvin都唔好因為當年嘅事而怪責自己！」569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9CxNXKlwAY
「我自責緊……？」我疑惑地重複她最後一句話。569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6Z75qkMZkv
而她只是隨即指向我並說：「我識少少心理學架！所以咪睇得出你自責緊！」569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwdIy5rXo2f
是嗎，原來我一直都在自責著……569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxACr3XK5cj
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「其實講真啊，我都估唔到我哋會咁樣相遇翻，突然之間覺得所有嘢都好似喺琴日發生咁。」569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEaohZQQwrS
「如果當時我唔拒……」當我打算開口說道的時候，Ivy卻再說：「唔可以。」569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs2x5MUzHtD
「吓？咩唔可以？」我瞬間愣住。569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVjFIYnFIs5
而她只是搖一搖頭，並說：「唔可以因為要迎合其他人，而強迫自己失去咗自我。」569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTzrl82yP7l
569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrpRATkBZtT
她的這句話如同子彈一樣，一下子打穿了我的大腦。569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCVFVmfcyQ0
她說得沒有錯，我一直以來都是在扮演著一個只會迎合其他人的角色。569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFFSJOB4S1g
569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeZKm51Vc8G
「以前我一直都會諗，如果Alvin你無拒絕我，究竟之後會點。」她說道。569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOi4Nfl6rtd
而我思考了一會後，便說：「我哋會一齊咗，跟住就唔會發生之後嘅事？」569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw9XslKxIcJ
「喺，我哋喺會一齊，但喺一切都只喺因為你唔想hurt我，而強迫自己同我一齊，咁樣嘅話，我哋根本就唔會過得開心！」569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6uaZqyFagC
她說著的時候，語氣明顯變得有點激動起來。569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsvJ969Xg7S
但她仍然繼續說道：「咁所以，唔好再因為我嘅事而怪責自己啦！我依家過得好好，識咗一班好室友，佢哋仲教識咗我好多唔會嘅正向觀念。」569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbItF5aGL9t
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而在她的一番言論後，我便合上嘴巴，並閉上雙眼，大腦開始思考起來。569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSf3l1b3znB
因為當初Ivy的事件，我變得開始只會迎合他人。569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe6xRS18KCZ
後來與Mandy交往後，我開始執著於承諾。569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWbgZeG8suo
結識依玲及Venus後，我仍然只是一直在配合著她們對我的心意而行。569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQPTCVaaPqx
一時是好朋友、一時是前度、一時是曖昧對象。569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡviCI53WXjz
到底我的真正想法是甚麼？569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjQcdQ7cnBM
而為什麼，我又會落得如此的地步呢……569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡydobMRTPHK
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想著想著，我便不自覺地冷笑了一下。569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe371wR6FCK
而Ivy也隨即說：「所以希望你唔好再自責啦。」569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoZ1m8xtcun
我慢慢地張開眼睛，然後看著她說：「多謝你，我諗我諗通咗啲嘢啦。」569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhptTABDtXX
其實一直迷失著的人，原來就是我自己。569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxBCcWi2TQm
569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfqgWolo6VD
「見翻你，可能喺種緣份，喺上天安排我哋再相遇翻，然後解開心結。」569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS4PuGVaxwt
「心結？你唔喺話你釋懷咗啦咩？」我好奇問道。569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbubqO9kHy7
但Ivy接著卻突然面紅耳赤起來，並說話變得有點口吃起來：「對你喺釋懷……但對另一個人唔喺……」569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQd5O70Cp4G
569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeOFqPTQppl
「喂！學生妹原來你喺到啊！」569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYtIEqNk8y4
此時，從我的後方傳來了一把男聲。569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡowDZ7a90L2
於是我便立刻扭頭過去查看，發現原來是剛剛那位受我邀請完成任務的Youtuber以及他的另外兩位朋友。569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdCKz4AcUNf
而從他剛才的對話推斷，他們應該是認識Ivy的……569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFFAhKNutrn
莫非Ivy所說的室友就是他們嗎？！569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDLTzwRycX4
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接下來，其中一名男生更走到我們的身旁時，並稍為打量了一下我。569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyOfuRchcLg
然後就一臉恍然地向Ivy說：「哦！原來就喺佢！」569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYwhHjM5AOg
「嗯？」我立刻擺出了一個疑惑樣子。569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhjKfGILguU
甚麼原來就是我？569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwbVOqYgOZX
569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9BtBqEyPMe
然而，那名男生並沒有理會我的反應，只是繼續與Ivy說：569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ7BtCSnXtQ
「你要講嘅嘢喺咪講哂啦？」569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGjqYjP2pPR
「講哂啦！」Ivy立即回應對方，並表情瞬間變得更害羞起來。569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc7vPkxfRur
而我對於他們的對話，仍然感到萬分不解。569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeaukuGb3kG
但是那名Youtuber也隨即向我說：「我哋幫你哋做完任務啦！記得subscribe同like多啲我啊！」569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjyCCNE1Ws6
接著，那三名男生便與Ivy一同向我作了一個簡易的道別。569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA8Gst1AYQB
然後就轉身從圖書館的另一個出口離開了。569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8uOU6kPz5G
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與此同時，也只留下了完全摸不清頭緒的我並自言自起來：569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3Nubei4WT8
「到底講緊咩啦……」569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWHf1HYQIpB
不過既然今天能重遇Ivy，並得知她至今還過得挺好的。569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5lX6YFjUZo
我想……應該是時候要放過一下自己了。569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFbDl1HZMJG
當年的內疚，應該都會逐漸消散了。569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv2EajgXRCA
這算是解決了我人生其中一個遺憾了吧？569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgIwYoY72ee
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但是，在解開了過往的困惑同時。569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxMCjUG3zqg
也提醒了我，在未來，我將再次需要作出選擇。569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmGfhfmiG9Z
而且還是三個那麼多……569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr2cFpwlEHB
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「只有釋懷，才能夠走更遠的路」569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzJ0attw79g
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作者閒聊：連動篇總算告一段落了。在不久將來，Ivy還是會再次出現喔，不過那已經是第二個故事了~569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2NMFeuoWh2
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