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「你真喺Alvin啊？」569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSSG1CMve59
那名女生仍然一臉難以置信地問著我。569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIpAyYsTz5o
其實此刻，在我心一樣徘徊著同樣的問題「你真喺Ivy啊」。569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk2KU3F0gzI
但是對於記性好的我來說，當然知道她就是Ivy了。569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLXxhGlhh2C
雖然她把過往的長髮修剪為及肩短髮，並開始佩帶起眼鏡。569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz9DKSQt6o7
然而她那張熟悉的臉孔，仍然存在於腦海之中。569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDRbYK7TK4D
最糟糕的就是……我在一瞬間也回憶起，她哭泣著的容貌。569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ34VaOQglCL
亦都是多年前，我最後一次看見她的時候……569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT714GoTZpq
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「我哋好耐無見啦！有無……有無三年啦？」569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYrNzKSfkAj
Ivy在一陣驚訝過後，便隨即臉帶笑容說道。569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyNlZQbxF4I
再見時是哭著，現在重遇卻是笑著，是多麼矛盾的事情……569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdlzhC20qUN
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「正確嚟講應該喺四年啦。」我回應她。569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPEtIPARAnN
而她在聽到我的更正後，也立即數著手指：「一、二、三、四……喺喎！原來已經四年囉，嘻嘻！」569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNMjRVjnwA6
看著她傻笑起來的樣子，我的心中卻逐漸產生起一種感覺。569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVHNoZcym82
一種難以形容的內疚感。569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkgv7xcAs3e
569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjSl72w8lS5
而在她的一陣傻笑過後，她似乎也察覺到了我並沒有多說話。569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpqBH3seFZT
於是她便接著再說：「Alvin，你成個人成熟咗。」569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZrJ9H7woMq
「喺……喺咩。」我稍為避開了她的目光說道。569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxCJXRS0Y7S
隨即視線也落在她的長袖衣上。569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK6l3JUguzs
明明現在是夏天，外面三十多度，但她還是穿著長袖。569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYJDfUBX7mC
是用來遮掩著手臂嗎？569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSkkMPH1Yd1
是用來遮掩著手臂上的傷痕嗎？569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq5tLko6cQR
是用來遮掩著手臂上因為我而弄出來的傷痕嗎？569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3RnlCks9YC
單是回想起昨晚Mandy所說的畫面，我便不禁倒抽了一口氣。569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNK5oFYjzyL
569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8oWoV5O5e3
「Alvin，你介意緊以前嘅事啊？」569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFH51I8holg
Ivy很快也發現了我的目光落在她的衣袖上，於是隨即便把衣袖卷起。569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIVxELP4OgK
展露了手臂上的數條疤痕。569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkCuaNio8Yn
這一瞬間，我的心涼了。569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF9OuK2dZMK
原來這就是我當時的決定，而導致的後果了嗎……569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrIO4tc9hgT
我沉默了數秒，接著也開口說：「對唔住。」569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKGnEO1t3mi
道歉，因為當時我傷害了她的心。569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCCaAi9yh7v
569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuNxmVyfxlh
「哎呀！做咩道歉啦你？」Ivy立即愕然地說道。569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo9RaXUg8JI
我沒有回應她，只是繼續沉默著。569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx9gAFOkY53
使得她隨即也皺眉頭起來，並思考了數秒後說：「睇嚟Alvin你真喺好介意以前嘅事……真喺好對唔住！」569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSKVmCrnJnZ
然而在她話後，她卻立即向我九十度鞠躬道歉起來。569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoWM4ha89Hn
這次輪到我感到錯愕起來並立即說：「做……做咩突然道歉啦？！」569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxmFmh5PVtA
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「因為當年我一時嘅衝動，搞到Alvin你原來一直都介懷於心！真喺好對唔住！」Ivy繼續面朝地板說著。569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGmwSdAHxJd
使得我都開始有點不知所措起來，只能不斷揮動手臂，示意她快抬起頭來。569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFaGxNxJ9dt
569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPGuphsMkPB
於是Ivy也快速地把頭抬來，然後雙眼注視著我說：「如果喺一年前嘅我，我諗依家一定喊哂口。不過依家嘅我已經對一切都釋懷，所以希望Alvin都唔好因為當年嘅事而怪責自己！」569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeoOOGpduPg
「我自責緊……？」我疑惑地重複她最後一句話。569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsuFI5oIQy5
而她只是隨即指向我並說：「我識少少心理學架！所以咪睇得出你自責緊！」569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡddkaXQOAww
是嗎，原來我一直都在自責著……569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtefOiAHWyX
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「其實講真啊，我都估唔到我哋會咁樣相遇翻，突然之間覺得所有嘢都好似喺琴日發生咁。」569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIk9uyI92iC
「如果當時我唔拒……」當我打算開口說道的時候，Ivy卻再說：「唔可以。」569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIlZ1IqKYQc
「吓？咩唔可以？」我瞬間愣住。569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV79ZLk2wNK
而她只是搖一搖頭，並說：「唔可以因為要迎合其他人，而強迫自己失去咗自我。」569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTMe0ojuAHf
569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6TSPK9fXGI
她的這句話如同子彈一樣，一下子打穿了我的大腦。569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtBbD868r4b
她說得沒有錯，我一直以來都是在扮演著一個只會迎合其他人的角色。569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6a0PAY6YxO
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「以前我一直都會諗，如果Alvin你無拒絕我，究竟之後會點。」她說道。569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMZ3N9Qi1GE
而我思考了一會後，便說：「我哋會一齊咗，跟住就唔會發生之後嘅事？」569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGvNb7eet5n
「喺，我哋喺會一齊，但喺一切都只喺因為你唔想hurt我，而強迫自己同我一齊，咁樣嘅話，我哋根本就唔會過得開心！」569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeH1bkHs6nk
她說著的時候，語氣明顯變得有點激動起來。569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKTWgsxsDjb
但她仍然繼續說道：「咁所以，唔好再因為我嘅事而怪責自己啦！我依家過得好好，識咗一班好室友，佢哋仲教識咗我好多唔會嘅正向觀念。」569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4fTcLmL2Vu
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而在她的一番言論後，我便合上嘴巴，並閉上雙眼，大腦開始思考起來。569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJYKjlJSun3
因為當初Ivy的事件，我變得開始只會迎合他人。569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdwmfK6E3IW
後來與Mandy交往後，我開始執著於承諾。569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7KI9CriBex
結識依玲及Venus後，我仍然只是一直在配合著她們對我的心意而行。569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡevYJbmoN3A
一時是好朋友、一時是前度、一時是曖昧對象。569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy8mJz648fz
到底我的真正想法是甚麼？569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4yPhMsROL9
而為什麼，我又會落得如此的地步呢……569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrpTjzDJI5i
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想著想著，我便不自覺地冷笑了一下。569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVIWhFXtQeJ
而Ivy也隨即說：「所以希望你唔好再自責啦。」569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz95pgz01o9
我慢慢地張開眼睛，然後看著她說：「多謝你，我諗我諗通咗啲嘢啦。」569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP3ZZ7ph6q3
其實一直迷失著的人，原來就是我自己。569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZGRbXuaO8K
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「見翻你，可能喺種緣份，喺上天安排我哋再相遇翻，然後解開心結。」569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ8iqiP8zlf
「心結？你唔喺話你釋懷咗啦咩？」我好奇問道。569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB9tCCBKS3T
但Ivy接著卻突然面紅耳赤起來，並說話變得有點口吃起來：「對你喺釋懷……但對另一個人唔喺……」569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTTHP6duvoL
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「喂！學生妹原來你喺到啊！」569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGF49zaauIP
此時，從我的後方傳來了一把男聲。569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRhBsD1M7IE
於是我便立刻扭頭過去查看，發現原來是剛剛那位受我邀請完成任務的Youtuber以及他的另外兩位朋友。569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ78IZt7hhmX
而從他剛才的對話推斷，他們應該是認識Ivy的……569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwZsyOTEPur
莫非Ivy所說的室友就是他們嗎？！569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBPufHocT6P
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接下來，其中一名男生更走到我們的身旁時，並稍為打量了一下我。569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrZI4fZLb5a
然後就一臉恍然地向Ivy說：「哦！原來就喺佢！」569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡntE9cYQ4lg
「嗯？」我立刻擺出了一個疑惑樣子。569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsJ1b0ivfyr
甚麼原來就是我？569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhS66S5IHpg
569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVWAOqcpPcv
然而，那名男生並沒有理會我的反應，只是繼續與Ivy說：569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjDaxoBHgz6
「你要講嘅嘢喺咪講哂啦？」569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo1lG9SsNqf
「講哂啦！」Ivy立即回應對方，並表情瞬間變得更害羞起來。569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM1TD0N0OJD
而我對於他們的對話，仍然感到萬分不解。569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4IS63skmVO
但是那名Youtuber也隨即向我說：「我哋幫你哋做完任務啦！記得subscribe同like多啲我啊！」569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiWa2lBxCMA
接著，那三名男生便與Ivy一同向我作了一個簡易的道別。569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiWJ0J4ooNo
然後就轉身從圖書館的另一個出口離開了。569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQOwPr45sU0
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與此同時，也只留下了完全摸不清頭緒的我並自言自起來：569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE0ZsAny5R9
「到底講緊咩啦……」569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpj7buDq8IN
不過既然今天能重遇Ivy，並得知她至今還過得挺好的。569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5JH0Pr0Eom
我想……應該是時候要放過一下自己了。569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQc8zMHUAje
當年的內疚，應該都會逐漸消散了。569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM3nMKTaKjw
這算是解決了我人生其中一個遺憾了吧？569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡki1pKi4Ejn
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但是，在解開了過往的困惑同時。569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPSVYwlzPN4
也提醒了我，在未來，我將再次需要作出選擇。569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk64kPRlJpI
而且還是三個那麼多……569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFGKx2p4H8d
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「只有釋懷，才能夠走更遠的路」569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡftTsNpO1WG
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作者閒聊：連動篇總算告一段落了。在不久將來，Ivy還是會再次出現喔，不過那已經是第二個故事了~569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAPctr1vVN3
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