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某一天，在午息時段，Ivy悶悶不樂地來到學校的庭園。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq82dGpdDUH
找了一個寧靜的角落，獨自一人坐下，不禁嘆息起來。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRLXW4V3mfw
538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqDiwE4l0md
原來在剛才午飯時間，Ivy又一次鼓起勇氣邀約Alvin一同吃午飯。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYd8TlC5EKc
可是早就習慣了與其他男生一同外出用膳的Alvin。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvCRKbkqNnt
並且升上中學後，根本就沒有被女生邀約吃飯。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDYDRTe8Hiz
因此Ivy突如其來邀約，再加上當時朋友們的催促，Alvin也只好當下拒絕了她的邀請。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTV98oN2D1j
538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2Zvc7bhfog
被喜歡的人拒絕邀約，除了感到可惜及失望之外，就根本甚麼都做不到。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIOO2OmVuK2
Ivy曾經嘗試融入對方的生活圈子之中，卻永遠都只是停留在表面上的融入。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvWEMGHZJWL
至今，她與Alvin仍然是維持在每天上學見面時談上兩三句話的局面。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOQmMNMkwQP
即使放學後，她與Alvin透過WhatsApp聊天的次數，也少之又少。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4xPsx8pOnM
538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHOAnjX2Vz7
「Alvin都好似唔多理我咁……莫非真喺要好似Laura咁講，直接同佢講我鍾意佢……」538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ63rVh18Mok
這時，在Ivy的腦海中也閃現出前陣子Laura的一句說話。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLE5UjkReg7
那句叫她向喜歡的人坦承的說話。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxOOGDHmbrF
可是對於性格偏向內向的Ivy來說，要與喜歡的人坦白，可是一件難若登天的事情。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzjgvnleBaj
單是起初鼓起勇氣向Alvin進一步搭訕，她其實也在心裡掙扎了好幾天。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF52ecbr1sC
538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ62EhmEY5iZ
「你鍾意Alvin啊？」538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdQcIu8gwFP
突然有一把男聲從Ivy的後方傳來。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeqjqSOcYPS
使得她馬上驚慌失色起來，並隨即轉過身來，查看聲音的主人。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4UPnJNawfa
「Dan……？點解你會嚟庭園嘅？」538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8VmOI5issn
在確認是同班的同學後，Ivy也接著好奇地問道。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8HFR7FSlSp
畢竟，學校的庭園平常根本不會有人到訪。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0K8NgeM406
538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOck0xk1dKT
「食飽飯無嘢做，咪嚟行過圈囉……但竟然比我八卦到啲嘢啊，呵呵。」538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdwa37MY9h0
Dan在說著的同時，奸笑起來，然後就盯著Ivy，等待對方辯解。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRS8bV92gv5
「你唔好講出啊！我求你！」Ivy當然是立即雙手合十，不斷向Dan請求著。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQMQwPATJbM
538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNtDyWQl0SI
接著，Dan也抓一抓自己的頭髮，一臉沾沾自喜地說：538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHmesQ5SaWl
「乜我似啲會將人哋秘密亂咁爆出去嘅人咩？」538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡygleiOFm6Z
Ivy思考了一會Dan的這句話，然後就搖頭說：「咁又唔似……」538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKUdlWNtvdj
538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAoMXXrmktk
「鍾意咗人幾耐啊？」Dan隨即問道，看來是打算再八卦一下Ivy的事情。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSLXGDZ9jGW
Ivy頓時也面紅耳赤起來，並不斷捏住自己的校裙。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0VnKNGvCfI
而在一番內心掙扎後，她也小小聲地說：「大概三個月啦……」538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHj1NULuiWu
538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXb6Lxh8v62
Dan馬上「哇」了一聲，但很快又一臉認真地摸著下巴說：538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7SxAjQdqgZ
「唔怪得近排見你同Alvin多咗嘢講啦……不過睇嚟你都好似有嘢煩惱緊？」538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcHW5zHKKGm
在對方的引導下，Ivy也開始向Dan說起了一切的由來。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNo2gEXH8O9
由一開始對Alvin產生興趣，然後就是好感，最後就是喜歡了對方。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLi5LoCF4W8
不過卻一直未能向對方表達心意。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnXmK6545ZF
538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoRR4RA2i3p
Dan聆聽完Ivy一番經歷後，隨即也露出一個恍然大悟的樣子。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXS747NJcP9
「哦，所以啱啱先見你唉聲嘆氣咁坐喺到。」538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsWVWwAj9cq
Ivy沒有說話，只是默默地點著頭。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmTc10ErGDp
於是Dan見況也繼續說：「都明你點解咁沮喪嘅，明明鍾意人，但又無勇氣同對方講，想接近人，但喺又無從入手，令到自己卡咗喺個尷尬位。」538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfufb5CyCwd
聽到Dan「一針見血」的總結後，Ivy也馬上再次嘆息起來。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMnQPcwcg7y
然後一臉沒精打采地看著Dan，並用低沉的聲音說：「聽嚟我都喺無機架啦……」538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD9K9QAcuD1
538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAHzdgwXzLn
「唔好灰啦！不如我幫你探下Alvin口風啦！知佢點諗你都一件好事啊！」538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8H65p6yNZD
Dan見到Ivy一臉死氣沉沉地樣子，馬上轉用一個輕快的口吻說著，希望從而令Ivy振作一點。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsEXFhnFO1i
而Ivy聽到了Dan的建議後，馬上想起了先前Laura的一句：「唔試過又點知得唔得呢？」538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXnEagLJd9k
隨即也重燃心中的希望之火，一邊點頭一邊把一切都託付到Dan手上……538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQnFRHyuwRB
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數天後，Dan看準了放學時Alvin獨自離開課室的時機。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXZFVpQIdE2
馬上裝作想與Alvin一同放學而上前與他搭訕。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLzN1Aashzy
「Alvin，不如今日一齊走啊！」538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEWmf7aySk5
「少有喎，你今日唔喺同Francis一齊走。」538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ39A0R2GQQB
「因為……Francis比人罰留堂啊！」538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzxuuebKkpQ
但此刻Francis其實是在班房裡與其他男生共同挑戰著手機遊戲中的關卡……538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbKI7hmffm8
538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyA8NgOOtu8
接著，Dan與Alvin二人一邊聊著一邊下樓梯。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmqYxRTjCtD
聊起兩三句後，Dan也開門見山問道：「Alvin，你喺2E有無鍾意嘅人啊？」538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhtrj73JPbK
隨即二人也站在了原地。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ73UvwVdRNQ
而此時，Ivy也剛好走到了樓梯的轉角處，聆聽到了Alvin接下的回答。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡifSBWRrWop
「無喎。」Alvin的這一個回答，簡單而直接。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKJvxeQzGFz
不過卻同時使Dan愣住了，而偷聽著的Ivy更感到失望起來。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWg1MyRet1H
看來她的幻想，都確實只是幻想。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6qSF4wGSJP
並如同泡沫一樣，在一瞬間破掉化為無物。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdfPSOr3UAd
538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtlSYeHAnG8
「真喺無鍾意嘅人？」Dan再問道，並語氣變得質疑起來。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBqEO4KdmJi
不過Alvin仍然迅速而堅定地回答同樣的答案：「真喺無。」538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrHxk9S0Bl6
538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡecDuSoQUvE
這使得Dan不禁倒抽了一口氣。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNSb301fEd1
不過機智的他，也很快就想到第二條問題：「咁班入面有無邊個女仔吸引到你啊？」538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ47Y0cE9i21
Alvin思考了一會，然後答：「嗯……無喎……」538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJWo0U75ofP
雖然答案一樣，但是這一次Alvin的回答，卻從中感覺到一絲猶如。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡed5ZD50JUJ
於是Dan也捉住了這份遲疑，再問：「真喺無？你諗真啲……例如Ivy呢？」538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV6UXis93rj
538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5QnnXF58yf
在轉角處的Ivy聽到了自己的名字後，也意會到Dan終於把與Alvin的對話引導到自己身上。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMFUAqiaW2c
她隨即地把雙手放到胸口上，希望能藉此壓抑住活蹦亂跳的心。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiE4rsbbwgL
因為對於接下來Alvin的回答，她確實感到額外的緊張起來。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp7FUARZ8Jz
可是，她接著聽到答案是……538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFBoSiPsnD5
「Ivy啊……無咩特別感覺喎，咪普通同學咁。」538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLh5u3sRRme
538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRKrim4OuXB
聽到Alvin的回答，Ivy頓時如同石化了一樣，目瞪口呆地站在原地。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQuqANcaKKY
連此刻站在Alvin對面的Dan也瞬間感到愕然起來。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMxwWmHJ4qD
或許他自己也猜想不到，這就是Alvin的答案。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT1WkT46L7u
不過，感到有點不知所揩的Dan，也靈機一動，立即再問：538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdz8fmp1Dat
「如果Ivy喺鍾意你呢？」538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJimuUmQoWl
他選擇不再轉彎抹角，而是斬釘截鐵地道出了Ivy的心意。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVKakpcp4vk
但其實他都猜想不到，原來Ivy一直偷聽著。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡirzgrJZkT7
538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡECOV0oMtKN
然而，Alvin隨即也皺起眉頭說：「就算佢鍾意我，都唔代表我要鍾意佢。感情呢啲嘢講feel架嘛，如果要迎合佢嘅心意，而勉強自己，我做唔到。」538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc8OuVuKOxv
538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoM8UEAaQDz
正當Alvin說完這句話後，他們的上方也突然傳來了一聲急促的腳步聲。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSwNg6SMaqS
於是Alvin好奇地探頭瞄了一眼上方，並發現沒有人。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCfgZMo2HIJ
接著也扭過頭來繼續與Dan談論剛剛的話題。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfLzFWLjInm
然而，他並不知道，剛才腳步聲的主人，正是Ivy。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzWJgH6ptnO
538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPMWA4j869e
而與此同時，Ivy也已經淚流滿面，走到了學校的某處。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ66s9P9ON4c
孤單一人坐在角落，蜷縮著身體，雙臂抱住雙膝，痛哭起來。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6FFvJw2d78
她的哭聲，無比悲哀及淒慘，如同心被刀割一樣。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjdgN5gt52W
看來這份傷痛，將永遠刻印在她的心中，成為一條永遠無法修補的疤痕。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiFUFxJ44jX
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「就算佢鍾意我，都唔代表我要鍾意佢」538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZVQBUSxDrL
直至深夜時，Ivy再次因為回想起Alvin的這一句話，而驚醒過來。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyrZ2Hfbxrx
她隨即慢慢地離開了床，並坐在一旁的梳妝桌。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1fKY7WBewy
然後，打開了桌燈，看著鏡中雙眼通紅、神情疲倦的自己。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiUncXDJ1FK
538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZlqEawq07n
接著再回想起Alvin的說話，以及這三個月來自己的所做一切。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn54TWf8H7Z
她不禁冷笑起來，隨後打開桌上文具盒，拿出了一把美術刀。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsqH7F8PpAa
伸出冰冷的刀鋒，對著自己的手臀……538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQYTFprTgfg
「嚓—」538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIiajbQSLlH
538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ45mlYJDWiJ
538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbiqPRlZBtY
「懷著多大的期望，就會迎來同等的失望，甚至最終帶來更深的絕望」538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrDvo4QuzzD
538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4nSfLgdNSN
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作者在此鄭重聲明：538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxop2BdWSwc
𠝹手只是劇情的一部份，並且是虛構情節。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKMKWUwvvfq
讀者們請潔身自愛，切勿嘗試！！！538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq2vuJrafiJ
無論遇上多麼不如意的事情，都切勿做出任何試圖傷害身體的行為。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuAWUdVQMBb
若發現事情未如理想，無法獨力承受，請向身邊的人如父母及師長尋求協助。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0TYZPylQks
切勿將傷害身體來發洩情緒一事合理化，請各位潔身自愛。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9r2CE4Gkrk
愛人前先要懂得愛錫自己。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzoogAisuOX
538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaTAMxI6GvI
作者閒聊：538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNh32vLLxhZ
過去阿侑的一句：「就算佢鍾意我，都唔代表我要鍾意佢。感情呢啲嘢講feel架嘛，如果要迎合佢嘅心意，而勉強自己，我做唔到。」538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKs7INbVW42
完全是在打著現在自己的臉……538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqxnxRqjnyK
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