過去篇(四)539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWO7d1N2Isf
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKCVLbUWgaF
某一天，在午息時段，Ivy悶悶不樂地來到學校的庭園。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlGa9j2vKLX
找了一個寧靜的角落，獨自一人坐下，不禁嘆息起來。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa82Dq5RqlY
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVrvLMvCGBF
原來在剛才午飯時間，Ivy又一次鼓起勇氣邀約Alvin一同吃午飯。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtVFI9sru5X
可是早就習慣了與其他男生一同外出用膳的Alvin。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBJQvqhuPIB
並且升上中學後，根本就沒有被女生邀約吃飯。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3gqQLgUKHN
因此Ivy突如其來邀約，再加上當時朋友們的催促，Alvin也只好當下拒絕了她的邀請。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXR0aP2ycuH
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvvWxgc9pHU
被喜歡的人拒絕邀約，除了感到可惜及失望之外，就根本甚麼都做不到。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU4vh4JvaYk
Ivy曾經嘗試融入對方的生活圈子之中，卻永遠都只是停留在表面上的融入。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWYuXBBZszJ
至今，她與Alvin仍然是維持在每天上學見面時談上兩三句話的局面。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlk2J0oinyC
即使放學後，她與Alvin透過WhatsApp聊天的次數，也少之又少。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg0smq4qbCK
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqNYGTJZozA
「Alvin都好似唔多理我咁……莫非真喺要好似Laura咁講，直接同佢講我鍾意佢……」539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM9G6kLXZYX
這時，在Ivy的腦海中也閃現出前陣子Laura的一句說話。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUWlfJYBXnG
那句叫她向喜歡的人坦承的說話。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7wukYkZ5Ey
可是對於性格偏向內向的Ivy來說，要與喜歡的人坦白，可是一件難若登天的事情。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNvjBQNz41A
單是起初鼓起勇氣向Alvin進一步搭訕，她其實也在心裡掙扎了好幾天。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWz1RuDmC3a
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGqkriO35bP
「你鍾意Alvin啊？」539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8hbWtbRQBw
突然有一把男聲從Ivy的後方傳來。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHnOXApn9d0
使得她馬上驚慌失色起來，並隨即轉過身來，查看聲音的主人。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtfQn3bYZ2S
「Dan……？點解你會嚟庭園嘅？」539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡegGHldmnUD
在確認是同班的同學後，Ivy也接著好奇地問道。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7dtZeOupbq
畢竟，學校的庭園平常根本不會有人到訪。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4xnRo51NHF
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNeV9fOvUxZ
「食飽飯無嘢做，咪嚟行過圈囉……但竟然比我八卦到啲嘢啊，呵呵。」539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3cv2n5iY8t
Dan在說著的同時，奸笑起來，然後就盯著Ivy，等待對方辯解。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL6tXJ9v5qE
「你唔好講出啊！我求你！」Ivy當然是立即雙手合十，不斷向Dan請求著。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBTfypL0HWk
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwlvEz1QyoW
接著，Dan也抓一抓自己的頭髮，一臉沾沾自喜地說：539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzXm1cBm1T1
「乜我似啲會將人哋秘密亂咁爆出去嘅人咩？」539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlJxbWLIzbg
Ivy思考了一會Dan的這句話，然後就搖頭說：「咁又唔似……」539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhDELvojTxC
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0T07dsvRW6
「鍾意咗人幾耐啊？」Dan隨即問道，看來是打算再八卦一下Ivy的事情。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhzCMy0dnGw
Ivy頓時也面紅耳赤起來，並不斷捏住自己的校裙。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgz6xBoeN9J
而在一番內心掙扎後，她也小小聲地說：「大概三個月啦……」539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1sO8NbYCsg
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2wi2o0WE7E
Dan馬上「哇」了一聲，但很快又一臉認真地摸著下巴說：539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRUyjjydP7E
「唔怪得近排見你同Alvin多咗嘢講啦……不過睇嚟你都好似有嘢煩惱緊？」539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfXvfhPdpDl
在對方的引導下，Ivy也開始向Dan說起了一切的由來。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCUrjUnZluR
由一開始對Alvin產生興趣，然後就是好感，最後就是喜歡了對方。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwkxbIV9QDM
不過卻一直未能向對方表達心意。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwkEGgFmLgm
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQnRoTTKW62
Dan聆聽完Ivy一番經歷後，隨即也露出一個恍然大悟的樣子。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD4mV9lIDC6
「哦，所以啱啱先見你唉聲嘆氣咁坐喺到。」539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxpRvIByC4z
Ivy沒有說話，只是默默地點著頭。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCAc36kmNby
於是Dan見況也繼續說：「都明你點解咁沮喪嘅，明明鍾意人，但又無勇氣同對方講，想接近人，但喺又無從入手，令到自己卡咗喺個尷尬位。」539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTHfqmCl4pK
聽到Dan「一針見血」的總結後，Ivy也馬上再次嘆息起來。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfv09zEMoMx
然後一臉沒精打采地看著Dan，並用低沉的聲音說：「聽嚟我都喺無機架啦……」539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOIgLOTBdki
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbYpKDMpDG7
「唔好灰啦！不如我幫你探下Alvin口風啦！知佢點諗你都一件好事啊！」539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfP8nZ0JLCY
Dan見到Ivy一臉死氣沉沉地樣子，馬上轉用一個輕快的口吻說著，希望從而令Ivy振作一點。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVVoxRbh4tq
而Ivy聽到了Dan的建議後，馬上想起了先前Laura的一句：「唔試過又點知得唔得呢？」539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYlJ9VUhnsW
隨即也重燃心中的希望之火，一邊點頭一邊把一切都託付到Dan手上……539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhgn0TkHsMN
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539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyMeMhzHAXF
數天後，Dan看準了放學時Alvin獨自離開課室的時機。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVDjVo5NSpM
馬上裝作想與Alvin一同放學而上前與他搭訕。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBDU3gv6h8A
「Alvin，不如今日一齊走啊！」539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCdmTE4hMtU
「少有喎，你今日唔喺同Francis一齊走。」539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsF5T7y16Bm
「因為……Francis比人罰留堂啊！」539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1N2xEGyLJl
但此刻Francis其實是在班房裡與其他男生共同挑戰著手機遊戲中的關卡……539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPxQxzHS0Zl
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5mrA864AJ9
接著，Dan與Alvin二人一邊聊著一邊下樓梯。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy80HwQOW9t
聊起兩三句後，Dan也開門見山問道：「Alvin，你喺2E有無鍾意嘅人啊？」539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx7JBgLI72o
隨即二人也站在了原地。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVuWvH84Q0x
而此時，Ivy也剛好走到了樓梯的轉角處，聆聽到了Alvin接下的回答。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW2w953NTYt
「無喎。」Alvin的這一個回答，簡單而直接。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ58xpuv0Mtm
不過卻同時使Dan愣住了，而偷聽著的Ivy更感到失望起來。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfXuKQ9siJX
看來她的幻想，都確實只是幻想。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOnQzaxpgAH
並如同泡沫一樣，在一瞬間破掉化為無物。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmDVAFpJynr
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡksJ5E6jT7a
「真喺無鍾意嘅人？」Dan再問道，並語氣變得質疑起來。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEapJQfxl6n
不過Alvin仍然迅速而堅定地回答同樣的答案：「真喺無。」539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ74jD4lMbhH
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ35rtnTQybO
這使得Dan不禁倒抽了一口氣。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdKIUgzIgxx
不過機智的他，也很快就想到第二條問題：「咁班入面有無邊個女仔吸引到你啊？」539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoGlywoU02q
Alvin思考了一會，然後答：「嗯……無喎……」539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡelf38jvdoc
雖然答案一樣，但是這一次Alvin的回答，卻從中感覺到一絲猶如。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcNirm6Ee0y
於是Dan也捉住了這份遲疑，再問：「真喺無？你諗真啲……例如Ivy呢？」539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhRLgiPd6EZ
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCColAmJNfY
在轉角處的Ivy聽到了自己的名字後，也意會到Dan終於把與Alvin的對話引導到自己身上。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR7r6076rkK
她隨即地把雙手放到胸口上，希望能藉此壓抑住活蹦亂跳的心。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpzxxTEYGeE
因為對於接下來Alvin的回答，她確實感到額外的緊張起來。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPF3Eb4EdGT
可是，她接著聽到答案是……539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡixeudKR9Og
「Ivy啊……無咩特別感覺喎，咪普通同學咁。」539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSe82CZAY8p
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ5Qsnnk4vd
聽到Alvin的回答，Ivy頓時如同石化了一樣，目瞪口呆地站在原地。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzNdRik1HQr
連此刻站在Alvin對面的Dan也瞬間感到愕然起來。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkY4es2tjVL
或許他自己也猜想不到，這就是Alvin的答案。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNaEZsbOzSr
不過，感到有點不知所揩的Dan，也靈機一動，立即再問：539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWbMHiYmWVa
「如果Ivy喺鍾意你呢？」539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhn07nTou9U
他選擇不再轉彎抹角，而是斬釘截鐵地道出了Ivy的心意。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkqU7UNPuY7
但其實他都猜想不到，原來Ivy一直偷聽著。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdKzVnWPJUj
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFoR32rJ09b
然而，Alvin隨即也皺起眉頭說：「就算佢鍾意我，都唔代表我要鍾意佢。感情呢啲嘢講feel架嘛，如果要迎合佢嘅心意，而勉強自己，我做唔到。」539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzmdf1FmhIp
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbLrXSO1SCO
正當Alvin說完這句話後，他們的上方也突然傳來了一聲急促的腳步聲。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRF4FbihkIF
於是Alvin好奇地探頭瞄了一眼上方，並發現沒有人。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa51kX2PUil
接著也扭過頭來繼續與Dan談論剛剛的話題。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe7QFzymeOy
然而，他並不知道，剛才腳步聲的主人，正是Ivy。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPH5IhwQtZv
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJDR2VHJN5S
而與此同時，Ivy也已經淚流滿面，走到了學校的某處。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaiFNH2UWim
孤單一人坐在角落，蜷縮著身體，雙臂抱住雙膝，痛哭起來。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡidWNGw4Dob
她的哭聲，無比悲哀及淒慘，如同心被刀割一樣。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVC3Amo74En
看來這份傷痛，將永遠刻印在她的心中，成為一條永遠無法修補的疤痕。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6nNe8rFwqe
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「就算佢鍾意我，都唔代表我要鍾意佢」539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCNFPpIjW4j
直至深夜時，Ivy再次因為回想起Alvin的這一句話，而驚醒過來。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGjm2Qoi8ev
她隨即慢慢地離開了床，並坐在一旁的梳妝桌。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQFg04AWjo7
然後，打開了桌燈，看著鏡中雙眼通紅、神情疲倦的自己。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjGpmjCrgjw
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKTR22IWpLp
接著再回想起Alvin的說話，以及這三個月來自己的所做一切。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDtwKKmo81b
她不禁冷笑起來，隨後打開桌上文具盒，拿出了一把美術刀。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ57dLSJWdgD
伸出冰冷的刀鋒，對著自己的手臀……539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcCup16MlDX
「嚓—」539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOlM7IYLbTP
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH77Qlsy6id
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwQt53SVlld
「懷著多大的期望，就會迎來同等的失望，甚至最終帶來更深的絕望」539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpi8OgS2kgb
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnd33uTMKKl
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCeVrg2aUMo
作者在此鄭重聲明：539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJmJeNp8lgV
𠝹手只是劇情的一部份，並且是虛構情節。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFzLfTcUi7W
讀者們請潔身自愛，切勿嘗試！！！539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLhLyrsv9cP
無論遇上多麼不如意的事情，都切勿做出任何試圖傷害身體的行為。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjXlewasZSQ
若發現事情未如理想，無法獨力承受，請向身邊的人如父母及師長尋求協助。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzOZbNmlnkk
切勿將傷害身體來發洩情緒一事合理化，請各位潔身自愛。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhTFLPKNejo
愛人前先要懂得愛錫自己。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO0TwPE1gSs
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW6BpG7VVbg
作者閒聊：539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk1MlIjYzbu
過去阿侑的一句：「就算佢鍾意我，都唔代表我要鍾意佢。感情呢啲嘢講feel架嘛，如果要迎合佢嘅心意，而勉強自己，我做唔到。」539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqLoViLApps
完全是在打著現在自己的臉……539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiTtyk77O6B
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