過去篇(四)538Please respect copyright.PENANA3TSS80zhJ2
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某一天,在午息時段,Ivy悶悶不樂地來到學校的庭園。538Please respect copyright.PENANAq82dGpdDUH
找了一個寧靜的角落,獨自一人坐下,不禁嘆息起來。538Please respect copyright.PENANARLXW4V3mfw
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原來在剛才午飯時間,Ivy又一次鼓起勇氣邀約Alvin一同吃午飯。538Please respect copyright.PENANAYd8TlC5EKc
可是早就習慣了與其他男生一同外出用膳的Alvin。538Please respect copyright.PENANAvCRKbkqNnt
並且升上中學後,根本就沒有被女生邀約吃飯。538Please respect copyright.PENANADYDRTe8Hiz
因此Ivy突如其來邀約,再加上當時朋友們的催促,Alvin也只好當下拒絕了她的邀請。538Please respect copyright.PENANATV98oN2D1j
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被喜歡的人拒絕邀約,除了感到可惜及失望之外,就根本甚麼都做不到。538Please respect copyright.PENANAIOO2OmVuK2
Ivy曾經嘗試融入對方的生活圈子之中,卻永遠都只是停留在表面上的融入。538Please respect copyright.PENANAvWEMGHZJWL
至今,她與Alvin仍然是維持在每天上學見面時談上兩三句話的局面。538Please respect copyright.PENANAOQmMNMkwQP
即使放學後,她與Alvin透過WhatsApp聊天的次數,也少之又少。538Please respect copyright.PENANA4xPsx8pOnM
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「Alvin都好似唔多理我咁……莫非真喺要好似Laura咁講,直接同佢講我鍾意佢……」538Please respect copyright.PENANA63rVh18Mok
這時,在Ivy的腦海中也閃現出前陣子Laura的一句說話。538Please respect copyright.PENANALE5UjkReg7
那句叫她向喜歡的人坦承的說話。538Please respect copyright.PENANAxOOGDHmbrF
可是對於性格偏向內向的Ivy來說,要與喜歡的人坦白,可是一件難若登天的事情。538Please respect copyright.PENANAzjgvnleBaj
單是起初鼓起勇氣向Alvin進一步搭訕,她其實也在心裡掙扎了好幾天。538Please respect copyright.PENANAF52ecbr1sC
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「你鍾意Alvin啊?」538Please respect copyright.PENANAdQcIu8gwFP
突然有一把男聲從Ivy的後方傳來。538Please respect copyright.PENANAeqjqSOcYPS
使得她馬上驚慌失色起來,並隨即轉過身來,查看聲音的主人。538Please respect copyright.PENANA4UPnJNawfa
「Dan……?點解你會嚟庭園嘅?」538Please respect copyright.PENANA8VmOI5issn
在確認是同班的同學後,Ivy也接著好奇地問道。538Please respect copyright.PENANA8HFR7FSlSp
畢竟,學校的庭園平常根本不會有人到訪。538Please respect copyright.PENANA0K8NgeM406
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「食飽飯無嘢做,咪嚟行過圈囉……但竟然比我八卦到啲嘢啊,呵呵。」538Please respect copyright.PENANAdwa37MY9h0
Dan在說著的同時,奸笑起來,然後就盯著Ivy,等待對方辯解。538Please respect copyright.PENANARS8bV92gv5
「你唔好講出啊!我求你!」Ivy當然是立即雙手合十,不斷向Dan請求著。538Please respect copyright.PENANAQMQwPATJbM
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接著,Dan也抓一抓自己的頭髮,一臉沾沾自喜地說:538Please respect copyright.PENANAHmesQ5SaWl
「乜我似啲會將人哋秘密亂咁爆出去嘅人咩?」538Please respect copyright.PENANAygleiOFm6Z
Ivy思考了一會Dan的這句話,然後就搖頭說:「咁又唔似……」538Please respect copyright.PENANAKUdlWNtvdj
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「鍾意咗人幾耐啊?」Dan隨即問道,看來是打算再八卦一下Ivy的事情。538Please respect copyright.PENANASLXGDZ9jGW
Ivy頓時也面紅耳赤起來,並不斷捏住自己的校裙。538Please respect copyright.PENANA0VnKNGvCfI
而在一番內心掙扎後,她也小小聲地說:「大概三個月啦……」538Please respect copyright.PENANAHj1NULuiWu
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Dan馬上「哇」了一聲,但很快又一臉認真地摸著下巴說:538Please respect copyright.PENANA7SxAjQdqgZ
「唔怪得近排見你同Alvin多咗嘢講啦……不過睇嚟你都好似有嘢煩惱緊?」538Please respect copyright.PENANAcHW5zHKKGm
在對方的引導下,Ivy也開始向Dan說起了一切的由來。538Please respect copyright.PENANANo2gEXH8O9
由一開始對Alvin產生興趣,然後就是好感,最後就是喜歡了對方。538Please respect copyright.PENANALi5LoCF4W8
不過卻一直未能向對方表達心意。538Please respect copyright.PENANAnXmK6545ZF
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Dan聆聽完Ivy一番經歷後,隨即也露出一個恍然大悟的樣子。538Please respect copyright.PENANAXS747NJcP9
「哦,所以啱啱先見你唉聲嘆氣咁坐喺到。」538Please respect copyright.PENANAsWVWwAj9cq
Ivy沒有說話,只是默默地點著頭。538Please respect copyright.PENANAmTc10ErGDp
於是Dan見況也繼續說:「都明你點解咁沮喪嘅,明明鍾意人,但又無勇氣同對方講,想接近人,但喺又無從入手,令到自己卡咗喺個尷尬位。」538Please respect copyright.PENANAfufb5CyCwd
聽到Dan「一針見血」的總結後,Ivy也馬上再次嘆息起來。538Please respect copyright.PENANAMnQPcwcg7y
然後一臉沒精打采地看著Dan,並用低沉的聲音說:「聽嚟我都喺無機架啦……」538Please respect copyright.PENANAD9K9QAcuD1
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「唔好灰啦!不如我幫你探下Alvin口風啦!知佢點諗你都一件好事啊!」538Please respect copyright.PENANA8H65p6yNZD
Dan見到Ivy一臉死氣沉沉地樣子,馬上轉用一個輕快的口吻說著,希望從而令Ivy振作一點。538Please respect copyright.PENANAsEXFhnFO1i
而Ivy聽到了Dan的建議後,馬上想起了先前Laura的一句:「唔試過又點知得唔得呢?」538Please respect copyright.PENANAXnEagLJd9k
隨即也重燃心中的希望之火,一邊點頭一邊把一切都託付到Dan手上……538Please respect copyright.PENANAQnFRHyuwRB
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數天後,Dan看準了放學時Alvin獨自離開課室的時機。538Please respect copyright.PENANAXZFVpQIdE2
馬上裝作想與Alvin一同放學而上前與他搭訕。538Please respect copyright.PENANALzN1Aashzy
「Alvin,不如今日一齊走啊!」538Please respect copyright.PENANAEWmf7aySk5
「少有喎,你今日唔喺同Francis一齊走。」538Please respect copyright.PENANA39A0R2GQQB
「因為……Francis比人罰留堂啊!」538Please respect copyright.PENANAzxuuebKkpQ
但此刻Francis其實是在班房裡與其他男生共同挑戰著手機遊戲中的關卡……538Please respect copyright.PENANAbKI7hmffm8
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接著,Dan與Alvin二人一邊聊著一邊下樓梯。538Please respect copyright.PENANAmqYxRTjCtD
聊起兩三句後,Dan也開門見山問道:「Alvin,你喺2E有無鍾意嘅人啊?」538Please respect copyright.PENANAhtrj73JPbK
隨即二人也站在了原地。538Please respect copyright.PENANA73UvwVdRNQ
而此時,Ivy也剛好走到了樓梯的轉角處,聆聽到了Alvin接下的回答。538Please respect copyright.PENANAifSBWRrWop
「無喎。」Alvin的這一個回答,簡單而直接。538Please respect copyright.PENANAKJvxeQzGFz
不過卻同時使Dan愣住了,而偷聽著的Ivy更感到失望起來。538Please respect copyright.PENANAWg1MyRet1H
看來她的幻想,都確實只是幻想。538Please respect copyright.PENANA6qSF4wGSJP
並如同泡沫一樣,在一瞬間破掉化為無物。538Please respect copyright.PENANAdfPSOr3UAd
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「真喺無鍾意嘅人?」Dan再問道,並語氣變得質疑起來。538Please respect copyright.PENANABqEO4KdmJi
不過Alvin仍然迅速而堅定地回答同樣的答案:「真喺無。」538Please respect copyright.PENANArHxk9S0Bl6
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這使得Dan不禁倒抽了一口氣。538Please respect copyright.PENANANSb301fEd1
不過機智的他,也很快就想到第二條問題:「咁班入面有無邊個女仔吸引到你啊?」538Please respect copyright.PENANA47Y0cE9i21
Alvin思考了一會,然後答:「嗯……無喎……」538Please respect copyright.PENANAJWo0U75ofP
雖然答案一樣,但是這一次Alvin的回答,卻從中感覺到一絲猶如。538Please respect copyright.PENANAed5ZD50JUJ
於是Dan也捉住了這份遲疑,再問:「真喺無?你諗真啲……例如Ivy呢?」538Please respect copyright.PENANAV6UXis93rj
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在轉角處的Ivy聽到了自己的名字後,也意會到Dan終於把與Alvin的對話引導到自己身上。538Please respect copyright.PENANAMFUAqiaW2c
她隨即地把雙手放到胸口上,希望能藉此壓抑住活蹦亂跳的心。538Please respect copyright.PENANAiE4rsbbwgL
因為對於接下來Alvin的回答,她確實感到額外的緊張起來。538Please respect copyright.PENANAp7FUARZ8Jz
可是,她接著聽到答案是……538Please respect copyright.PENANAFBoSiPsnD5
「Ivy啊……無咩特別感覺喎,咪普通同學咁。」538Please respect copyright.PENANALh5u3sRRme
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聽到Alvin的回答,Ivy頓時如同石化了一樣,目瞪口呆地站在原地。538Please respect copyright.PENANAQuqANcaKKY
連此刻站在Alvin對面的Dan也瞬間感到愕然起來。538Please respect copyright.PENANAMxwWmHJ4qD
或許他自己也猜想不到,這就是Alvin的答案。538Please respect copyright.PENANAT1WkT46L7u
不過,感到有點不知所揩的Dan,也靈機一動,立即再問:538Please respect copyright.PENANAdz8fmp1Dat
「如果Ivy喺鍾意你呢?」538Please respect copyright.PENANAJimuUmQoWl
他選擇不再轉彎抹角,而是斬釘截鐵地道出了Ivy的心意。538Please respect copyright.PENANAVKakpcp4vk
但其實他都猜想不到,原來Ivy一直偷聽著。538Please respect copyright.PENANAirzgrJZkT7
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然而,Alvin隨即也皺起眉頭說:「就算佢鍾意我,都唔代表我要鍾意佢。感情呢啲嘢講feel架嘛,如果要迎合佢嘅心意,而勉強自己,我做唔到。」538Please respect copyright.PENANAc8OuVuKOxv
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正當Alvin說完這句話後,他們的上方也突然傳來了一聲急促的腳步聲。538Please respect copyright.PENANASwNg6SMaqS
於是Alvin好奇地探頭瞄了一眼上方,並發現沒有人。538Please respect copyright.PENANACfgZMo2HIJ
接著也扭過頭來繼續與Dan談論剛剛的話題。538Please respect copyright.PENANAfLzFWLjInm
然而,他並不知道,剛才腳步聲的主人,正是Ivy。538Please respect copyright.PENANAzWJgH6ptnO
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而與此同時,Ivy也已經淚流滿面,走到了學校的某處。538Please respect copyright.PENANA66s9P9ON4c
孤單一人坐在角落,蜷縮著身體,雙臂抱住雙膝,痛哭起來。538Please respect copyright.PENANA6FFvJw2d78
她的哭聲,無比悲哀及淒慘,如同心被刀割一樣。538Please respect copyright.PENANAjdgN5gt52W
看來這份傷痛,將永遠刻印在她的心中,成為一條永遠無法修補的疤痕。538Please respect copyright.PENANAiFUFxJ44jX
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「就算佢鍾意我,都唔代表我要鍾意佢」538Please respect copyright.PENANAZVQBUSxDrL
直至深夜時,Ivy再次因為回想起Alvin的這一句話,而驚醒過來。538Please respect copyright.PENANAyrZ2Hfbxrx
她隨即慢慢地離開了床,並坐在一旁的梳妝桌。538Please respect copyright.PENANA1fKY7WBewy
然後,打開了桌燈,看著鏡中雙眼通紅、神情疲倦的自己。538Please respect copyright.PENANAiUncXDJ1FK
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接著再回想起Alvin的說話,以及這三個月來自己的所做一切。538Please respect copyright.PENANAn54TWf8H7Z
她不禁冷笑起來,隨後打開桌上文具盒,拿出了一把美術刀。538Please respect copyright.PENANAsqH7F8PpAa
伸出冰冷的刀鋒,對著自己的手臀……538Please respect copyright.PENANAQYTFprTgfg
「嚓—」538Please respect copyright.PENANAIiajbQSLlH
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「懷著多大的期望,就會迎來同等的失望,甚至最終帶來更深的絕望」538Please respect copyright.PENANArDvo4QuzzD
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作者在此鄭重聲明:538Please respect copyright.PENANAxop2BdWSwc
𠝹手只是劇情的一部份,並且是虛構情節。538Please respect copyright.PENANAKMKWUwvvfq
讀者們請潔身自愛,切勿嘗試!!!538Please respect copyright.PENANAq2vuJrafiJ
無論遇上多麼不如意的事情,都切勿做出任何試圖傷害身體的行為。538Please respect copyright.PENANAuAWUdVQMBb
若發現事情未如理想,無法獨力承受,請向身邊的人如父母及師長尋求協助。538Please respect copyright.PENANA0TYZPylQks
切勿將傷害身體來發洩情緒一事合理化,請各位潔身自愛。538Please respect copyright.PENANA9r2CE4Gkrk
愛人前先要懂得愛錫自己。538Please respect copyright.PENANAzoogAisuOX
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作者閒聊:538Please respect copyright.PENANANh32vLLxhZ
過去阿侑的一句:「就算佢鍾意我,都唔代表我要鍾意佢。感情呢啲嘢講feel架嘛,如果要迎合佢嘅心意,而勉強自己,我做唔到。」538Please respect copyright.PENANAKs7INbVW42
完全是在打著現在自己的臉……538Please respect copyright.PENANAqxnxRqjnyK