
我在書枱前呆了大半日。熱茶已涼,但我未嚐半口,心思都在眼前電腦屏幕上——剛輸入的文字不停被刪。字越少,心越亂,人越躁。480Please respect copyright.PENANApOJX1HpqMv
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不了。受不了。我離座往廚房換茶去。480Please respect copyright.PENANAwLfatc2WFR
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廳中老妻瞄我半眼,大概知道發生甚麼事,沒有作聲,繼續看電視。我對她的不表態不勝感激——她以最聰明的方法維護我的尊嚴。480Please respect copyright.PENANAGP5bsRp7PC
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滾水撞上茶葉,水仙香氣隨著冉升白煙溢散開去。480Please respect copyright.PENANAc08rRRqRs2
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壓力似乎一併消散。480Please respect copyright.PENANA1ZVgrbX5vE
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茶盡。我再續杯。480Please respect copyright.PENANAHtGQV5roWS
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添茶不是長遠之計——屏幕白頁上始終沒有片言隻字。480Please respect copyright.PENANAnUdShoiiFo
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嘆一口氣,慨嘆自己太天真可愛。怎麼會相信自己有寫作天分,而且一信就是幾十年。幾十年來,不停寫,不停發表,不停被無視。我只得不停安慰自己說旁人不識貨。480Please respect copyright.PENANAZBqP629lVi
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口不對心。心裡其實清楚自己料子如何。但我還是堅持寫下去。480Please respect copyright.PENANAYQqD8twaVE
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是習慣、面子、尊嚴緣故,更是不想承認自己做了一個長達幾十年的白日夢。480Please respect copyright.PENANAq2eFMpD7sk
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夢醒一場空。480Please respect copyright.PENANAMZg8IUWF4o
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我本平庸,無甚專長,唯獨寫作能力相對身邊友儕略高丁點。丁點而已,卻足以讓我樂透幾十年。480Please respect copyright.PENANAFqFyCtP07J
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工作不順利時,我會告訴自己——我的專長不在工作上,所以被罵亦是無可厚非;人際關係不如意時,我會告訴自己——如果世人只能用文字溝通,我該是表達能力最好的人;走倒運時,我會告訴自己——我正在為快要誕生的偉大作品累積靈感……480Please respect copyright.PENANABYziFCQYN6
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一切都是有意義的。如果我真有寫作天分的話。480Please respect copyright.PENANA4aclUjgMEi
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捧著熱茶回到座位。身在心在能力不在。480Please respect copyright.PENANAU9DWt2iuOd
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在刺眼的屏幕白頁前,我又嘆一口氣。480Please respect copyright.PENANAMsyBCuTHFo
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我不曾長大,仍是幾十年前那個我,沉浸在中文老師讚賞的我。同學們紛表羨慕我的寫作天份,請教我如何想出精彩故事、練出動人文筆。480Please respect copyright.PENANATqXY03yqWr
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我沾沾自喜。480Please respect copyright.PENANAoUOAqRQOVE
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細心回想,我當時已覺竅門不在天分,而是努力。努力鑽研文字的運用,努力細味名著佳作當中的韻味,努力思考故事情節起伏,努力觀察分析人世百態……名副其實的將勤補拙。480Please respect copyright.PENANAeS0ZjEO5sb
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但我沒有向同學們坦白。480Please respect copyright.PENANAePqiSIGaPu
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因為我喜歡被讚賞的感覺。480Please respect copyright.PENANAcyW1bjiGWk
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努力,努力,努力。480Please respect copyright.PENANA8XFAXAUko3
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我的寫作技巧與日俱增,亦在多個學屆寫作比賽中獲獎。480Please respect copyright.PENANAYepygOqLW8
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我以為自己將來鐵定能夠成為作家。480Please respect copyright.PENANANO1fCgOScm
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以為。480Please respect copyright.PENANAzwNzfgnNXn
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告別校園後,我成為一個普通文職。普通收入,普通打扮,普通生活。480Please respect copyright.PENANAvXVsVSLxzW
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普通得輕易被取代。普通得難以承受。480Please respect copyright.PENANAhjlitsauRo
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我不得不告訴自己我是多麼的有寫作天份!我是多麼的獨特!480Please respect copyright.PENANAa9ezbNtIgN
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某夜下班回家,我泡了一壺水仙,乘著茶香全情投入寫作世界。沒有外物打擾,我的世界只有我。一切如願。那麼順心,那麼安寧,那麼快樂。480Please respect copyright.PENANABfi9hcUoHv
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我的作品感動了我。480Please respect copyright.PENANAMyzkK9QCL7
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我希望藉此找到更多懂我的人。480Please respect copyright.PENANAY8AtAy5nku
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幾十年來,不停寫,不停發表,不停被無視。我的世界與真實世界不斷相互碰撞。面對無止境的打擊,我不曾問自己為何堅持。因為一旦心生此等疑問,變相在內心種下「自我質疑」的根苗,一發不可收拾。480Please respect copyright.PENANAOJoF5XMZmr
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無法接受自己幾十年堅持建基於一個沒可能實現的夢想。480Please respect copyright.PENANAJQnS9dw6Fl
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無法承受自己生來就是如此普通、平凡、平庸……480Please respect copyright.PENANAw06Ys6cgnz
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熱茶又涼了。480Please respect copyright.PENANAkkxe9g7Wwp
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屏幕白頁上始終沒有片言隻字。480Please respect copyright.PENANAye8GPTeCVC
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老妻繼續以不表態維護我的尊嚴。480Please respect copyright.PENANATUNCYKKgqz
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我的作品只感動了我。480Please respect copyright.PENANAL5WREkkgpB
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因為我的感受只有我讀得懂。480Please respect copyright.PENANAAqfcAaIsKZ