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根據居民的指示，我沿著竹林小徑走了一整天，終於到達目的地：一間全竹結構的寺廟。它比我預想中更為破落，冷冷清清的。我抬頭望向高高懸掛在山門的匾額，寫著「竹寺」。579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0MCmjsZUJO
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蠻有意思的名字。579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdJU7A6XmHN
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當我正要邁步內進時，一個打扮樸素的瘦削大叔剛好開門踏出。四目交投，雙方都愣住了幾秒。579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIyXmuR94b0
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「歡迎內進。」沒等我回答，大叔已轉身為我引路。579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHSJgAAXRD0
579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnhga0ypUrB
眼見天色漸暗，我不再磨蹭，看能否找到綫索，省卻逗留此地的時間：「不好意思喔，大叔！請問黃XX女士住在這裡嗎？」579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrzYE8a1HC8
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大叔的腳步突兀地戛然而止。579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡurqc9pJs7i
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是我的提問過於唐突嗎？579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuDBZQEZDEl
579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzqw36kDIEm
大叔回頭仔細打量我，神色疑惑，似乎在猜測我和黃女士的關係。579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwCqCDNRdaj
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「有人託我將信件親手轉交予黃女士。」579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuFTXtr4m9n
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「黃女士已離開這裡好一段時間，不知何時會回來……甚或是不知會否回來。」579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkPmGCkTpW2
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「她有透露去處嗎？」579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK6L3HtFI8v
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「沒有……我帶你去她昔日的房間試找綫索。」579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnqdZiMGQ6p
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大叔再次邁步，步履沒有之前的輕，重若銀鉛。579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1qAIoiUQAE
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陰冷的空氣，空洞的房間，慘白的牆身，最基本的傢俬和雜物。沒有生活的氣息。579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdkbPlpOswj
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「剛才在門外碰見你，也還真令我驚訝。」大叔沒有進入房間，逕自在門外呢呢喃喃。「竹寺曾香火鼎盛。後來毗鄰的兩個小鎮分別新建更大更金碧輝煌的寺廟，無意間將信眾分流開去，到來竹寺掛單的僧侶亦逐漸減少，住持最終徇眾要求到另一寺廟主持大局。他指派我長駐於此，打掃清潔，說要方便途經的旅客。我一直覺得他想多了，豈料今天就遇見你。」579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaySqaFsXIZ
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「可能佛祖不想我白走一趟。」我話中有話，提醒侍奉佛祖的大叔不要忘記佛祖的存在，萬萬不能撒謊。579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL7DVoVvToG
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「我可以明天帶你見住持。他有掛單紀錄，可能有黃女士的聯絡資料。」大叔也不是省油的燈，簡單幾句就將我逼至沒有退路的位置：「但我希望你能先對我坦白事情的前因後果。住持是個大忙人。我可不希望為他增添不必要的麻煩。」579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtxXksqPj5w
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我只得坦白交代。579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXZHDBIdurk
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我的妻子過身了。臨終前，她希望我能預留一年時間為她完成唯一的遺願：親手將遺書交予離家出走多年的生母——黃女士。事隔多年，黃女士曾在多個地方落腳。我每次根據綫索趕至時，她早已遷居。輾轉間，我追尋至竹寺……579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5E7Ot5ufOf
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「距離一年限期，還剩多少日子？」大叔生起關切之情。579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7bqtjoX6j4
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「三日。竹寺很可能是我的最後機會。」我加倍留意他的神色舉止。579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZMWH6WY21F
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「不考慮延長？」大叔表現出來的的關切絕對超過一個陌生人該有的限度。579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYczaKO2YoB
579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQRS2ufQ0uo
「妻子信緣份。她認為努力過後仍沒能找到，證明彼此有緣無份，毋須強求。她還叮囑我要燒毀遺書。」579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQOoWds28WN
579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6VnAzmn3Et
大叔若有所思後，講出驚人的一句：「若果一年期限屆滿時仍找不到黃女士，介意給我看看遺書嗎？」579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡreSq8LjL5Q
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「極度介意！」我心裡認定大叔有事隱瞞。579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8ZS0jJlnqb
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尷尬氣氛令大叔不再多話。579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiTlmcX9zq4
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晚餐後，大叔在其他地方忙著，我則留在房間對著愛妻的照片痛哭一場。哭過以後，壓力得以紓緩，但心頭卻未能添加半分澄明，混沌混濁。579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxpM6RLmLPc
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我離房在寺內溜達散心。逛著逛著，忽爾看見大叔彎腰對著花園中的小樹喁喁細語，臉上盡是蜜甜。579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYuFxIKOH2m
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我上前跟大叔打招呼。他微笑回應，和顏悅色，渾身散發著慈祥氣息，沒有白天時的隔膜。我嘗試放下戒心，開心見誠與他聊天。579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtZmuq2PB1o
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不知怎地，聊著聊著，話題竟牽到大叔的心事去。579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0OyDQwAivX
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「貪，使人執著於一切順情之境。嗔，使人執著於一切違情之境。痴，使人不明白真理，致使生起貪嗔。579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa4tgWpHwJP
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我痴愚半生，痛苦不已。到此地求法，希望住持指點迷津。但他認為我凡心未盡，要我留在這裡靜思。579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnLMnCIMb2Q
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我在竹寺侍奉多年，住持依然不為所動。我以為他在敷衍我。今天遇到你，我才明白住持所言非虛：任何無關的人事物都可輕易勾起我對逝去伴侶的思念。」579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8cXRjJoHoV
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我終於明白初時大叔何以對我不太友善。579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyPFyIYwTTV
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將心比心。喪妻之後，任何人事物均能勾起我和對太太的思念。我曾抱怨上天幸災樂禍，何解不讓我安靜避世。我已盡力放下身邊一切，辭掉工作，不聯絡親友，遷出愛巢，但偏偏愛妻的遺願就是要我去彌補她的畢生遺憾！我沒有一刻能放下她，因為我的分分秒秒就是為她而過。579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlayV4v9cfs
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那種痛苦實非筆墨所能形容。579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNQRVHqeHld
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「你的妻子真聰明，給你的痛苦設下一年期限。只要你在這一年裡拼命為她圓願，往後也就了無遺憾或悔疚。我可沒那麼幸運，不知要拖著這副臭皮囊乾等到哪年哪月哪日……」579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡljCrsBHnYe
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說罷，他跟我和小樹說晚安，然後揚長而去。579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYqWxvwqHVf
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翌日，我翻遍整間竹寺亦找不到大叔，只在他的房間找到他留給我的手繪地圖。我跟著地圖的指示走了大半天，來到住持現處的寺廟。579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBzXuAaESwJ
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住持聽罷我的經歷後，不禁黯然慨嘆：「黃女士始終凡心未盡……」579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHy0qF0zLpw
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黃女士當年拋夫棄女，與情夫私奔。豈料甜蜜日子不長久，情夫患急病逝世。黃女士大受打擊，認為是自己作孽甚深，連累情夫。她來到竹寺，望住持能指點迷津。住持認為她深陷激動情緒當中，容易作出錯誤選擇，逐要她在竹寺靜思己過。可惜她半夜逃離。當黃女士重臨竹寺時，她已花光積蓄在黑市做手術整容及變性，以情夫的外表現身……579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8zwQycH4Wd
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「大叔就是黃女士？」我不禁驚呼。579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgC5RpNfV3G
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震驚之情瞬間即逝，取而代之的是說不出的矛盾。579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxywZdQ5ofa
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這個人，我恨不來，亦原諒不了。579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrMrEpKfjB1
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翌日，我和住持往竹寺走一趟。579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnBJ4wGu3ZL
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寺前，我倆不約而同抬頭望向匾額。579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeMtMvriyY4
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「你知道『竹寺』何以得名嗎？」住持問。579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbHu66OeOkH
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「等？」我的猜想有如初來之時。579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFyWPrdtRvg
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「這名字只不過是客觀描述寺廟本身。」住持揚手指向全竹結構的寺廟：「大家實在想多了，對自己的想像投放情感，賦予它過多的意義，致使看不見眼前真象。」579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrXIRMAqUU0
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我驀地憶起大叔前夜的說話。579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlINHtDXDNd
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住持直接走往花園。不出他所料，小樹已被連根拔起，樹下土地被挖出一個大坑，足以容納一個成人。579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJjvk17EOvt
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我心頭一涼，頓時明白那是甚麼一回事：多年以來，情夫的屍首一直埋在這裡。579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIHMpbkOIt2
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我鼻頭一酸，淚如雨下。579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwJBDLztwG4
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「『強逼自己放下執著』也是一種執著。」579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8Gte9lP5dZ
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住持淡然望天，開始為一切生者亡者誦經。
