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天亮，上班。928Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNzl6frFyEv
928Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡayOg07QKjU
擠進人山人海的車廂，心竟是難得的平靜。看著人們專注把玩手中的電子玩物，我心中更覺異常的安全。畢竟，好不容易才能擺脫熟人的注意。928Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCKngWT0P2r
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車廂一如往常，平穩中帶輕微搖晃，教本已帶睡意的乘客更為昏昏欲睡。有些嘴饞的人不理會廣播的呼籲，繼續進食，令人側目。928Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlBOskLhbSx
928Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8PT60M4dQ1
食物的細碎，像沙子一樣，在人們毫不注意的情況下，悄然掉在地上，再被無意地踏個粉碎。在接著的數個車站，人們再肆意加以踐踏，令碎粉再度粉碎。928Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeSFAU0Yi13
928Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu1GIafvLWe
到站了，我有意無意地繞過人羣，「不經意」踏中那些有數隻小蟻的食物碎粉，心中是一陣少有的快意。幕門關上，我回頭望進車廂，想要看看被我蹂躪過的碎粉，但列車經已開駛。928Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDa4wm9RzCz
928Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZeBvARiR8w
看不見，罷。
天黑，下班。928Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBTTO4txSUw
928Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTcApZkBg8K
身心俱疲。好不容易才與同路的男同事擠進車廂，繼續講上司的壞話。928Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6bUJQkcwIK
928Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS6wZE7Qsev
「有蟻。」男同事突然指著快由我鞋面爬到小腿的一隻小螞蟻。928Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2ndO83OHwz
928Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3BHcgY0Z49
我呆了。腦海中一片空白。不！有一個很遙遠的身影。那是誰？我看不見……我不想看見……928Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlBcllbqIom
928Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyPsZZIGIYb
「啪」的一聲，男同事一手拍在我的小腿上，那隻螞蟻——扁了。928Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqrehqCLmOZ
928Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPxOYeJTWZj
「沒事了！」他笑了笑，問我：「你很怕小昆蟲？」928Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡolR8EiBzO7
928Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT4cAXbaelC
「不，只是怕蟻。」我感覺到，我的唇還在顫抖，但卻仍勉力一笑。
公司，午飯時間。928Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUBMblUNcsg
928Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLxtuhgUtDi
甲小姐正在上網看劇；乙先生在打盹；丙小姐外出吃飯去；丁先生仍在享用他那巨型飯盒；戊小姐……928Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2OwJiQVGDQ
928Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd0c3gOV6Av
看著同事們的百態，我突然覺得自己和他們一樣，都是很渺小的生命體，小得……有點兒……像……螞蟻。這是我最不想要看到的事，尤其是發生在我自己身上。大家營役勞碌，不也是只為求兩餐溫飽嗎？那與盲目求存的螞蟻有何分別？928Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYHTNjC09YV
928Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWKRHSMBvoj
驀地，我看見一隻螞蟻在我手背上路過，卻沒意識去按扁它。我把手輕輕放在枱面上，讓它自然而然的爬走。看著它在牆角消失，我感到自己也消失了似的。
其實，真正的我只是一隻螞蟻，不過會偶爾做白日夢，幻想自己變成人類，過著那荒唐無稽的生活。那種生活，是有目的的付出，有希望的付出。每天朝著那所謂的「希望」跑，多奢侈！無他，這就是意義。928Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1zzhUsaSyB
928Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuwsBFuQumX
還是……928Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoUOAIIGIj9
928Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQnFx8RBvoO
其實，真正的我只是一個渺小的人類。不過會偶爾做白日夢，幻想自己是一隻蟻，過著那種沒頭沒腦的生活。那種生活很乏味，只懂一味尋找食物。無他，這就是生存！
公司，工作。928Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡClzRtlni6a
928Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKC1bz18gYd
被上司罵個狗血淋頭。928Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCC92m8wx73
928Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6sWqU0G03P
大家心知犯錯的不是我，奈何人是怕事的，只好把我推上斷頭台。事後，一句道歉或安慰也欠奉。928Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡifsyolfiiP
928Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQBMGYvRn9m
很難過。我只好躲進廁格稍作自我冷靜。928Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhNR3pJZxdt
928Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFfp6yToZel
剛巧，一隻螞蟻經過廁格。我毫不猶豫一腳踏扁它。928Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2JXqkZpVG8
928Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp89A69Fhew
快意，笑了。
酒吧，喝酒。928Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMbRdN4GT3Z
928Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz3rOsnaF55
「你不是只怕螞蟻而已嗎？為何現在也怕酒起來？」男同事笑問。928Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBvhCgEUhOT
928Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAemTmjRwE2
「其實，我不大好喝酒。」我怯怯的道。928Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiD9TaElRdU
928Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOq9wYzLRZR
「還是……你根本不會喝酒？」他哈哈大笑。928Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa8oiQQEQud
928Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtzovGo0usZ
聽著他那豁然開朗開朗的笑聲，我突然變得不大抗拒，乾脆把小杯裡的酒一飲而盡。928Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAh5b7uvbu8
928Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkf8CzIMzHu
醉倒。928Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOXppeUL2h7
928Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvv2sD92Zwj
迷糊間，我看見男同事以螞蟻姿態爬上我的身體，不停遊走於每吋肌膚。他似乎沒停下來的意欲，想要到它的洞穴去……928Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB5eLpZVHnF
928Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBfA67SLt9a
「上天取走你的一扇門，定會留給你一扇窗。」928Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOrwanhNY7V
928Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHwMkSjsWZW
今趟，上天留給我一隻螞蟻。我給其取名為「男朋友」。
假期，醫院。928Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl0Tt1ee19O
928Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfM6TGrXwib
媽就在這間醫院裡。她患了甚麼病，還未明確，因為報告要待下星期才會完成。928Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNSpbzqsKRK
928Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZjbLzRMto4
看見媽的時候，家中各人都是淚眼漣漣，很憂心。這種氣氛令健壯的人也難免感到窒息。928Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlFMcqFDTZJ
928Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmXMWKzmfmG
「我覺得……」近幾天，媽的話都變得斷斷續續：「自己……」928Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWBuTm7Nnjn
928Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk5QstvnHnc
大家都屏息靜氣，深怕這是她的最後一句話。928Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1gG6qVRzZM
928Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOZgJW75i2u
「自己是……一隻螞蟻……」她的聲音，輕如柔絲，但我知道大家都聽得很清楚。928Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU8K2caTJNw
928Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPXBbhyjWJZ
死寂。928Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaYD9oPdepD
928Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1BcOk6fe25
出乎我意料，這竟是她講得最清楚的一句話，不論是肉體還是心靈上。
回家，晚飯。928Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyEg52OhGhl
928Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDJ4mwaj0U3
一枱六椅，異常的沉默。電視的聲浪，掩不住大家的咀嚼聲——大家口中的食物似乎比鋼鐵更硬。我裝作不以為意，繼續吃。928Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOMGSeco8Y4
928Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSU3dLhuHek
「很難吃。」爸突然放下筷子：「不如外出吃飯。」928Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡifJe1cXEVP
928Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFJP9QZoKpn
妹放下筷子衝進房內，甩門；姨低下頭來，但她盯著枱上菜餚的怒目卻仍清晰可見；婆呆了，眼眶紅潤；我默默望著對面牆身上一隻偶然經過的螞蟻。928Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5shUL0sdMI
928Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKy1XpYOJzp
我心想：世界末日來臨後，地球會否只剩下這隻螞蟻？
每次望著媽，心中都生起莫名的感覺。我的腦海裡浮現出一隻螞蟻的模樣，彷彿她根本就是一隻螞蟻。928Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcKSf6CgXtX
928Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡquDoydaU5U
一隻螞蟻在做菜煮飯、洗衣拖地、燙衫抹窗……多可笑！就是因為她是一隻螞蟻，所以我從沒有幫忙做家務的念頭，去減輕她的負擔。928Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnaQzzzwzfD
928Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ587gkAzvEp
久而久之，我每次一見到她，便會掉頭走。928Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5B6Iw36Hdh
928Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWXs0Ib9cPC
但我知道，我永沒能走遠。
男友家，床上。928Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3VJCawzGSq
928Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC4lXuk1NDA
前奏後，男友進入極度興奮狀態，沒注意到我正在放空自己。在他還在我身上冒汗之時，我的思緒又飛往遙遠的他方去了——産房。928Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP2LgnnO18h
928Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDD4Ty038hO
産房內有一張床，床上有一隻非常細小的蟻后。她痛得不得了，是産婦們口中的十級痛楚。那表示，她要生産了。不消一會，整張床上都是幼蟻，恐怖非常。但她的身體卻沒停止的意識。現在幼蟻已攻陷整個産房、整間醫院、整個世界。928Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEa4eVvHTIf
928Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKcvxYdsrpJ
我驚恐萬分之際，耳邊傳來蟻后的淒怨聲音：「他朝君體也相同！」928Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd4ekm7uIGK
928Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxXhtPcd97E
床上的我驚叫。男友以為我也感到興奮，於是更用力……
舊生聚會，內地某酒家。928Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzfi2ehhX9Y
928Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4NYjeUUnYo
說也奇怪，舊生聚會竟會選擇在內地舉行。聽聞是聚會發起人的主意，說會給我們驚喜。928Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8oIN1ztjol
928Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGfiON14SOH
「蟻宴？」我呆了，但逃不了。928Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡft9I5qrc0x
928Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1iZod29nEQ
「你有收看《天與地》嗎？」舊生甲吃一口紅蟻炒蛋。928Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7Mcp9Hdtru
928Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjIi4AoVEpG
「有。人吃人那幕很震撼！」乙滿口黑蟻殘肢。928Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYokOAUaLES
928Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLOKbF4bhWE
「結局何如？」丙一口氣喝下半碗白蟻湯。928Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡufMrQahI0P
928Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcizZOa3Grn
「沒好下場！」丁邊說邊給我一碗黃蟻糖水。928Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMmLuU0R7oj
928Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaNGelOknIK
「對！沒好下場！」我在心裡重覆著，衝到洗手間嘔吐大作。
男友有很多恐怖的寵物：蛇、蜥蝪、蜘蛛……每次做愛時，他都會放一些寵物在床邊，以增加他的性趣。928Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCe0oP18gWa
928Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8LNzj2BdKW
今趟，床邊竟無任何寵物的蹤影。我暗喜。完事後，我不經意的問道：「你的寵物呢？」928Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsXHEZRxZEm
928Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXgkfYtsIeO
「在你體內。」928Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa334sBFa9T
928Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI6yV5Ap8pJ
「甚麼？」928Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfKBFlm8WEm
928Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBle30f0vcq
「蟻。」
有一隻螞蟻住在我心內。928Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQoz6cttvSm
928Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEtGCWSpST4
它平常會做甚麼？做菜煮飯、洗衣拖地、燙衫抹窗……嗯，它會做的事真的很多，但從沒理會過我的感受。它憑甚麼闖進我的心、我的生活！它最好立刻消失！928Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2nO2CQODLy
928Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV8CAbqrKss
結果，我生命中其中一隻螞蟻真的消失了。我依稀記得它的名字是「媽」。
靈堂上，我一再向來賓欠身鞠躬。928Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzt2cMknDxn
928Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2zVM3NfePj
「她真的死了嗎？」某君的聲音傳到我耳邊，但我心知那不是靈堂裡的人。928Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNtMwTqaBPl
928Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBXKQPxXY9P
「誰？」另一聲音反問。928Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhsuo6RitZt
928Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcxHx9v6hv3
「二九三號表妹。」某君不耐煩的道：「她……」928Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoc0J4j7QoZ
928Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3U7cDCN7DW
靜。928Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNxlBW6nRwz
928Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkwIVlOMpO1
我回過神來，低頭一看——我剛不經意踏扁兩隻小蟻。
我：「我的耳朵有毛病嗎？為何會聽到螞蟻講話？」928Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡehteq2AWu0
928Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡznIoF0VjdV
醫：「不。是你的壓力過大，導致有幻聽。」928Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0g52aOYUeX
928Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt3hB4NXHYv
我：「我有精神病？」928Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtcKFyqUh9m
928Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHGrSQj2i6Y
醫：「是情緒病。」928Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs39z5rkU9s
928Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL5KvhMOAG7
我：「怎麼辦？」928Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8lg5I1SvqN
928Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCWGy0MzQWd
醫：「我會處方一些藥物，你要按時服用；另外，你也要多休息……」928Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu8A6Ee8NAM
928Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyKO389wJxG
我：「謝謝醫生。」928Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHaM2SQZqc9
928Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4RREgFe4ru
醫：「不用謝。」928Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz1PuzoW3eM
928Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe6dhv24aOM
離開診所時，我回頭望一望地上的廣告牌——「馬義專科」。928Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhezkq6JTFp
928Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3Nx3RBKFzA
不，我走近細看，是「虫馬虫義」專科。
總覺得體內有東西在蠶食著我。是蟻？928Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHVbDMsy4tN
928Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNPVoOqbtUY
醫生替我作身體檢查，一切正常；928Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFCJFZvBGmO
928Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPg9RQ1Eey0
男友向我解釋，螞蟻之說，純粹幽默；928Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmM6LqviYsI
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