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天亮，上班。923Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsDvONi0Qnu
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擠進人山人海的車廂，心竟是難得的平靜。看著人們專注把玩手中的電子玩物，我心中更覺異常的安全。畢竟，好不容易才能擺脫熟人的注意。923Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiLKL4S5WPD
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車廂一如往常，平穩中帶輕微搖晃，教本已帶睡意的乘客更為昏昏欲睡。有些嘴饞的人不理會廣播的呼籲，繼續進食，令人側目。923Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡekDSYj9FdU
923Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3EyrJfLsmy
食物的細碎，像沙子一樣，在人們毫不注意的情況下，悄然掉在地上，再被無意地踏個粉碎。在接著的數個車站，人們再肆意加以踐踏，令碎粉再度粉碎。923Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2DGBPtRTHY
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到站了，我有意無意地繞過人羣，「不經意」踏中那些有數隻小蟻的食物碎粉，心中是一陣少有的快意。幕門關上，我回頭望進車廂，想要看看被我蹂躪過的碎粉，但列車經已開駛。923Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB4Fz3XNvw9
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看不見，罷。
天黑，下班。923Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtaOFpiC4by
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身心俱疲。好不容易才與同路的男同事擠進車廂，繼續講上司的壞話。923Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV2ExYBIRwK
923Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmfyHB9HeWp
「有蟻。」男同事突然指著快由我鞋面爬到小腿的一隻小螞蟻。923Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSXTx65eTOp
923Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqAoDcYGjOg
我呆了。腦海中一片空白。不！有一個很遙遠的身影。那是誰？我看不見……我不想看見……923Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFl4Vspr4s4
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「啪」的一聲，男同事一手拍在我的小腿上，那隻螞蟻——扁了。923Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj1Ur7X163J
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「沒事了！」他笑了笑，問我：「你很怕小昆蟲？」923Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxstP3nNkFy
923Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡme4jeBYPEO
「不，只是怕蟻。」我感覺到，我的唇還在顫抖，但卻仍勉力一笑。
公司，午飯時間。923Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrAYyZfI9p5
923Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBBZWHtSYgQ
甲小姐正在上網看劇；乙先生在打盹；丙小姐外出吃飯去；丁先生仍在享用他那巨型飯盒；戊小姐……923Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz4SfkNPbH4
923Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVf9UHgyECf
看著同事們的百態，我突然覺得自己和他們一樣，都是很渺小的生命體，小得……有點兒……像……螞蟻。這是我最不想要看到的事，尤其是發生在我自己身上。大家營役勞碌，不也是只為求兩餐溫飽嗎？那與盲目求存的螞蟻有何分別？923Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRm0fES9p5m
923Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfhrusc2UXp
驀地，我看見一隻螞蟻在我手背上路過，卻沒意識去按扁它。我把手輕輕放在枱面上，讓它自然而然的爬走。看著它在牆角消失，我感到自己也消失了似的。
其實，真正的我只是一隻螞蟻，不過會偶爾做白日夢，幻想自己變成人類，過著那荒唐無稽的生活。那種生活，是有目的的付出，有希望的付出。每天朝著那所謂的「希望」跑，多奢侈！無他，這就是意義。923Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFqk4RQtdjT
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還是……923Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRpUufCdjII
923Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrT9lBwIOYV
其實，真正的我只是一個渺小的人類。不過會偶爾做白日夢，幻想自己是一隻蟻，過著那種沒頭沒腦的生活。那種生活很乏味，只懂一味尋找食物。無他，這就是生存！
公司，工作。923Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtpFd2hiTKc
923Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx97mIdq2ZL
被上司罵個狗血淋頭。923Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOxtK3bfLn1
923Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyAaiHRyEyN
大家心知犯錯的不是我，奈何人是怕事的，只好把我推上斷頭台。事後，一句道歉或安慰也欠奉。923Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqW811jZZ1X
923Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBKvAoXKj0j
很難過。我只好躲進廁格稍作自我冷靜。923Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVjOMHrR1A1
923Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOiWK35Fh3D
剛巧，一隻螞蟻經過廁格。我毫不猶豫一腳踏扁它。923Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5IGHx352R4
923Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8KoWvkN7MX
快意，笑了。
酒吧，喝酒。923Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIirp18anyC
923Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV9BKtA479O
「你不是只怕螞蟻而已嗎？為何現在也怕酒起來？」男同事笑問。923Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo0Odk4G7CX
923Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiXk1hmVeVD
「其實，我不大好喝酒。」我怯怯的道。923Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEANILwymP6
923Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMT6OS09nk6
「還是……你根本不會喝酒？」他哈哈大笑。923Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC6DmuqmDdV
923Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJjTVQlpKVj
聽著他那豁然開朗開朗的笑聲，我突然變得不大抗拒，乾脆把小杯裡的酒一飲而盡。923Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9c7Xz7xqQT
923Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQYse12i4iQ
醉倒。923Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk0s7wCbUrl
923Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoyPuHSZiDc
迷糊間，我看見男同事以螞蟻姿態爬上我的身體，不停遊走於每吋肌膚。他似乎沒停下來的意欲，想要到它的洞穴去……923Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlUPf3wpGK6
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「上天取走你的一扇門，定會留給你一扇窗。」923Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0fFK0oqHCG
923Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcmtEF7vMGW
今趟，上天留給我一隻螞蟻。我給其取名為「男朋友」。
假期，醫院。923Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6K1r7Hy1Lk
923Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbLpRG1vCfx
媽就在這間醫院裡。她患了甚麼病，還未明確，因為報告要待下星期才會完成。923Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpJR2sHRtoz
923Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOZ3FpMeosT
看見媽的時候，家中各人都是淚眼漣漣，很憂心。這種氣氛令健壯的人也難免感到窒息。923Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLhcSOyJLBZ
923Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFShWI1eH53
「我覺得……」近幾天，媽的話都變得斷斷續續：「自己……」923Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCeu04yM4he
923Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhLCuX2EPry
大家都屏息靜氣，深怕這是她的最後一句話。923Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXNHwRPswLH
923Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWg8yGdYxXw
「自己是……一隻螞蟻……」她的聲音，輕如柔絲，但我知道大家都聽得很清楚。923Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjYyh36GdYY
923Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoVnvcIp7vP
死寂。923Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTeF8eQznzJ
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出乎我意料，這竟是她講得最清楚的一句話，不論是肉體還是心靈上。
回家，晚飯。923Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxREu0z9XG9
923Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYx0a8HzI7x
一枱六椅，異常的沉默。電視的聲浪，掩不住大家的咀嚼聲——大家口中的食物似乎比鋼鐵更硬。我裝作不以為意，繼續吃。923Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ71yWq7C3ts
923Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCYulBazdDL
「很難吃。」爸突然放下筷子：「不如外出吃飯。」923Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKOyq1aAPgg
923Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEVUZcKK3fo
妹放下筷子衝進房內，甩門；姨低下頭來，但她盯著枱上菜餚的怒目卻仍清晰可見；婆呆了，眼眶紅潤；我默默望著對面牆身上一隻偶然經過的螞蟻。923Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPTfvpdliFD
923Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7zkssw63lJ
我心想：世界末日來臨後，地球會否只剩下這隻螞蟻？
每次望著媽，心中都生起莫名的感覺。我的腦海裡浮現出一隻螞蟻的模樣，彷彿她根本就是一隻螞蟻。923Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvScEXTLcjs
923Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoWwnfvCHrs
一隻螞蟻在做菜煮飯、洗衣拖地、燙衫抹窗……多可笑！就是因為她是一隻螞蟻，所以我從沒有幫忙做家務的念頭，去減輕她的負擔。923Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXUE2I8AtLa
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久而久之，我每次一見到她，便會掉頭走。923Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡALtMRrPCve
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但我知道，我永沒能走遠。
男友家，床上。923Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhVj5wTGIkW
923Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR8tXFkrVzB
前奏後，男友進入極度興奮狀態，沒注意到我正在放空自己。在他還在我身上冒汗之時，我的思緒又飛往遙遠的他方去了——産房。923Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWjnsNoSIJC
923Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWYrafZeq5c
産房內有一張床，床上有一隻非常細小的蟻后。她痛得不得了，是産婦們口中的十級痛楚。那表示，她要生産了。不消一會，整張床上都是幼蟻，恐怖非常。但她的身體卻沒停止的意識。現在幼蟻已攻陷整個産房、整間醫院、整個世界。923Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXHbibI2f9H
923Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmE3JxDaPcn
我驚恐萬分之際，耳邊傳來蟻后的淒怨聲音：「他朝君體也相同！」923Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAj6115JF5A
923Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUlH8svHwQa
床上的我驚叫。男友以為我也感到興奮，於是更用力……
舊生聚會，內地某酒家。923Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU9jjlgoZoN
923Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT08X647wLs
說也奇怪，舊生聚會竟會選擇在內地舉行。聽聞是聚會發起人的主意，說會給我們驚喜。923Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiTX70YVhyW
923Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc0GQDaEHpD
「蟻宴？」我呆了，但逃不了。923Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuYFweQnWNn
923Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsZbikjQgib
「你有收看《天與地》嗎？」舊生甲吃一口紅蟻炒蛋。923Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXdmpD3zTP6
923Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYtTGi2OoD9
「有。人吃人那幕很震撼！」乙滿口黑蟻殘肢。923Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKvTghFrZkk
923Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoxB9gAPqQU
「結局何如？」丙一口氣喝下半碗白蟻湯。923Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeFvyE2s4qH
923Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpXlj3ku0l5
「沒好下場！」丁邊說邊給我一碗黃蟻糖水。923Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO6ZpaXLTrj
923Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY9g5X15lVt
「對！沒好下場！」我在心裡重覆著，衝到洗手間嘔吐大作。
男友有很多恐怖的寵物：蛇、蜥蝪、蜘蛛……每次做愛時，他都會放一些寵物在床邊，以增加他的性趣。923Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3JYWQwTY6g
923Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkA0O4NTSXl
今趟，床邊竟無任何寵物的蹤影。我暗喜。完事後，我不經意的問道：「你的寵物呢？」923Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYapeFjqdxK
923Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHQdjahItmu
「在你體內。」923Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡksLIJ0RGCi
923Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB9l2ziOGKq
「甚麼？」923Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8UKgqe71Hx
923Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZevxTzxIVS
「蟻。」
有一隻螞蟻住在我心內。923Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2bw1XZa1JK
923Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0pQvuwuQUp
它平常會做甚麼？做菜煮飯、洗衣拖地、燙衫抹窗……嗯，它會做的事真的很多，但從沒理會過我的感受。它憑甚麼闖進我的心、我的生活！它最好立刻消失！923Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEj9nx2yW7D
923Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8SnPzxOi2F
結果，我生命中其中一隻螞蟻真的消失了。我依稀記得它的名字是「媽」。
靈堂上，我一再向來賓欠身鞠躬。923Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVeO7277b8n
923Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBRcqPBWI43
「她真的死了嗎？」某君的聲音傳到我耳邊，但我心知那不是靈堂裡的人。923Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8tjm1KvXnR
923Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyJAU6qwmFf
「誰？」另一聲音反問。923Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6UHBOryX8w
923Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡruZ6fGQVFO
「二九三號表妹。」某君不耐煩的道：「她……」923Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmwGsxOiVTr
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靜。923Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnJp2wLErVE
923Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ95LXucofPA
我回過神來，低頭一看——我剛不經意踏扁兩隻小蟻。
我：「我的耳朵有毛病嗎？為何會聽到螞蟻講話？」923Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXtM16XkppR
923Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwmeBCOmxPv
醫：「不。是你的壓力過大，導致有幻聽。」923Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOwjhW0cyUM
923Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiXoEjCQ151
我：「我有精神病？」923Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTfNPpqjJFG
923Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjQ94IFyl4v
醫：「是情緒病。」923Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFqrMVlMd5L
923Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMUDVXwK2ey
我：「怎麼辦？」923Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpXfkkNRg9P
923Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoZtIFg4OgJ
醫：「我會處方一些藥物，你要按時服用；另外，你也要多休息……」923Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXEaraHPKDq
923Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4deOhvLxcn
我：「謝謝醫生。」923Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6JUWKwZDwk
923Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjwz1VhPMOq
醫：「不用謝。」923Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTSVAqqKYC9
923Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3BoK6nIRGb
離開診所時，我回頭望一望地上的廣告牌——「馬義專科」。923Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcT2xX9kkpv
923Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9fLvPFgqta
不，我走近細看，是「虫馬虫義」專科。
總覺得體內有東西在蠶食著我。是蟻？923Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDW9KfFZOHW
923Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGmgqgYn5OL
醫生替我作身體檢查，一切正常；923Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH8HoPMriU2
923Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvyX1dbglM0
男友向我解釋，螞蟻之說，純粹幽默；923Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLLinmDCf7O
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臨死前，我看見那東西了——不是蟻，是……
