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一九九三年，他六歲。363Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBfaG6aS1uT
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夏夜有風。媽媽替他更換小背心當睡衣，撥扇哄他入睡。睡得香甜，不願醒來，懶理微微發癢的臉頰。363Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgfPrE1Chxe
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夏日惡毒，毒不過他臉頰上的無名腫毒。媽媽焦急收拾銀包和證件，說要帶他到醫院。爸爸睄他一眼，認為他近日吃過量煎炸食物，長暗瘡，純粹熱氣，無需花錢求醫。媽媽沒好氣，匆匆拖著神智不清的他前往醫院。363Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIFaCrl33Q0
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醫院離家不遠，不過二十分鐘腳程。相識的鄰里、熟悉的街景，既近且遠，扭曲模糊折疊……天旋地轉，手腳一軟，眼前一黑，倒下。363Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM4ERoPYgRk
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看不見，聽得到。363Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwICkFVSFLx
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尖叫，呼救。心跳，鼻息。人，車。363Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1HD0ITr3VB
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電車。363Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpKHnv3NMzH
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他曾取笑它慢吞吞。媽媽說電車再慢亦會比他快。363Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVrW6DjsS2l
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媽媽喜歡電車那叮叮聲，平凡而獨特，隱隱卻嘹亮。363Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgny8vUnVTD
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他仔細聽、認真聽。平凡而獨特，隱隱卻嘹亮。363Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsgh5eNHnAc
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刻骨銘心。363Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDMXLidDpIy
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叮叮——叮叮——363Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWan5dTvoy0
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（02）363Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxuZsWqQpe3
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看得見，聽不到。363Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpQdMkbiSQ5
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聽不到醫生說他內耳受感染，無法康復。363Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmjVFA6JoTA
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聽不到爸爸怪責媽媽疏忽照顧他。363Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbbY1KSdiwk
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聽不到媽媽自責飲泣。363Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6RyO74M5vD
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但他統統看見了——他看見聲音。363Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡicIbxgPzfe
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絕望聲音是揚沸的黑煙。363Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzbO2xWdzsc
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憤怒聲音是燃燒的血紅。363Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdrPQdpwKkD
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罪疚聲音是混濁的海藍。363Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZtS7xuGo5c
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世界五顏六色，暴烈狂亂。363Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5Idy852VR4
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他受驚瑟縮在家，直至媽媽的顏色徹底消失。363Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH0Gjzctn2m
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爸爸指向電車，比手畫腳，示意媽媽昨夜在電車自殺。363Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjGdLO8xe11
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叮叮——叮叮——363Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpmdyNnCrxG
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叮……363Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNq1CzOWw5J
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（03）363Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡigbPQ6Hu1p
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二零二三年，他三十六歲。363Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF8SkVoiQHi
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當年媽媽離世後，爸爸帶他遷離港島，遠離電車，遠離傷心地。363Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAdPqWAi92Q
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時日漸過，傷痛漸退，他漸漸看不見聲音的顏色。他明白那是幻覺，是自身心理防禦機制產生出來的，用以舒緩情緒和壓力。聲音的顏色日益淺薄，如煙如霧，再也妨礙不了他的人生路。363Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8sTp4k1EnB
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他決定要勇敢，走出陰霾，好好過活，不然會像爸爸一樣帶著哀傷終其此生——爸爸去年自殺，同樣在電車上。明明爸爸比他更抗拒港島和電車，為何偏偏在電車自殺？因為媽媽？沒能知道，沒能問個清楚明白。363Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoLtfyQs3IS
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二十七年來，他首次踏足港島。心情緊張，有如當年踏入新居。363Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE5i2XLeXVd
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熟悉傢俬配上陌生單位，有形無神，是家不是家。363Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLo0he8RxwB
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常見事物配上獨特氛圍，舊瓶新酒，突兀不協調。363Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN51duhLI5S
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周遭顏色頓變濃稠，阻擋視線，如屏成障。看不見前路，聽不到指引，忽爾忘記將來。人總沒法拋棄過去吧。過去構成現在，現在組構將來。過去如何，將來也必如何……363Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡarIwv8g68z
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一抹綠影突然冒出，撥開重重色彩，在他眼前掠過，緊隨而來是隱隱卻嘹亮的聲音。363Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKJ48JDA8Gk
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叮叮——叮叮——363Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhogTuvbOlj
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震驚。363Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpp22lwEzwt
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怎麼可以聽到聲音？363Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzIDgPj5Y90
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叮叮——叮叮——363Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIIPuvs21cp
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一股莫名衝動驅使他拼命追趕電車。363Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJCo85GkwAv
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累。電車再慢亦會比他快。他再快亦追不到那些經已遠去的。363Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzjXHAlNmYE
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他開始不明白自己為何要追趕。他沒有追趕的原因。他再努力亦無法追回那些人事物。363Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRDYDv3FqBW
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他不想再追。很累……363Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZHXEkdCa5l
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叮叮——叮叮——363Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdTg25vMBjf
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乘客陸續發現行為怪異的他，將手提電話伸出窗外拍攝。363Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzVx6QpUwz7
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電車似是擁有生命，生出無數觸手，向他招迎。當中有兩隻全綠的右手沒有手提電話。揮動姿勢與其他手臂不同，是多麼的熱情親切，充滿期盼，彷彿在講：「來！快來！」363Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWSjO0C7ua0
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他咬咬牙，跑得更快，想要看看綠手主人——會是他們嗎？363Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnHixwJW3aA
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他沒能看見綠手主人的臉，但他堅信那是父母的手！363Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHGjubsisrN
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這可能是他有生之年最後一次與父母團聚！363Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXwGPdO9Ajv
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父母都是自殺的，在他毫無心理準備之時離他而去。363Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgEom9Ub9hh
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他接受不了。363Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUhmbEoyMD5
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叮叮——叮叮——363Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBywMBCZP5p
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電車準備靠站，他快要追到。363Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOu74EAqqbF
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綠手開始氣化。363Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvqOdD3PXHk
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再努力亦枉然？一切努力只顯得他是那麼無能無力。他唯一做到的僅是無奈接受……363Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPMHWr4ic8s
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綠手在他眼前消散無痕。363Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD8ER8OvarC
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他力竭倒地，哭得像個孩子。363Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1U5VrUB9vm
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叮叮——叮叮——363Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnOVLgAsH7A
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電車靠站，乘客分道揚鑣，世界運轉如儀，沒有因為他的怪異行徑而改變本身命運。正如他沒有因為努力而及時握著兩隻注定要消散的綠手。363Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ4bxsXpgeN
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緣盡。363Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0xbkZJRTDS
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無謂執著。363Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv8QxsSVYhh
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忽爾澄明。363Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaCceeO7KUp
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汗止，氣平，淚盡。363Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCpDNwU5OZ9
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他重新站起來，拍拍褲管塵灰，抬頭挺胸走向電車站。363Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk0MKECU0Wx
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排隊，付款，上車。363Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSI6OhRSd86
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如同其他乘客。363Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlA68t4yu37
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如同其他同樣平凡而獨特的乘客。
