x
家宜拿著一紙文憑畢業。774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHQsV6RtCcf
774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ87vAeevBvZ
和很多其他年輕人一樣，她是有夢想的，並一直堅持著。她一直在心中盤算著，要找一份怎麼怎麼的工作，要怎麼怎麼實現她大計……但眼見一封封求職信杳無音訊，石沉大海時，她開始著急。774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡieAnOFP0nU
774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmthPxZoMIS
日復日，她心想：「機會在哪兒？」774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXIWNAjS2V2
774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZFqn6yw6tP
終於，有回音了。縱使只有一個面試機會，她仍興奮得很。774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3yqBWvEdDz
774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3zUWPC8z2D
面試當日，她穿著整齊，拿著沉甸甸的公事包，於烈日下到一幢舊式工廠大廈去。到達門口時，大汗淋漓的她，被玻璃門後的公司吸引著——是她夢寐以求的室內設計公司！還記得修讀室內設計文憑時，她常幻想著自己會受聘於一間大型室內設計公司，每天都從忙碌中獲得滿足感…774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1mVecUR6xI
774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYYrXuyJBAA
面試後數日，有回音了。「八千五？」她在心裡嚷著：「當日不是說月薪一萬嗎？」774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkKW4jTusS7
774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeKdZ9LRbFf
「你是零經驗的畢業生…」電話另一頭的男聲解釋說。774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡygsyncupVy
774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFLcqqNlvwA
「好。」家宜吁了一口氣，把心裡的標準降低了少許。774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡopOjcfpWWH
774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCdHsOaFq9D
「那麼，明天上班。」男聲的口吻近乎發號司令。774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj192LxNXV2
774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzYSWIFOhrN
掛線後，家宜把消息告知媽。774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz4jwCu5YEX
774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOb6gUNPCxP
「八千五…」媽想了想：「差不多…」774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIjflqkkkVR
774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNMR4T34nPs
家宜沉默了。774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoLbkKo6DAz
774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQnU5ZkqQCk
媽瞥了瞥她，續道：「『零經驗』、『Fresh Grad.』…八千五，已算是不錯！」774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMKcRNZwFtY
774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0bkKU2E5MZ
這一句話，又把家宜的標準拉低了。774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVi9DUVexUS
774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWpGigLkDRi
原來，她自己只值八千五！
一年後，進步不少的家宜被擢升，成為初級設計師。774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡljq7UQ2VbL
774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOGP0VvowuF
自此，仍然年輕的家宜，決定不會再穿著花花綠綠，只會穿黑白灰。774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS05VPxDIj3
774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpy8fIQbNDy
有人說她成熟了，進步了。774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDV46BfItQO
774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc06W5XdxkX
「我可不這樣認為。」家宜很想要這麼答，但卻總把說話生吞回肚子作罷。774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvViz4yEsAP
774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡllwMEBmNvn
似乎，大家都只看到她「正」的一面而已。774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAEYhmWmeUS
774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPra6du8Rzm
這就是大家想要看見的家宜嗎？一個只會穿黑白灰、不苟言笑的女人。大家似乎忘記了——家宜只有二十歲，是屬於青春的年華。真正的她，可是一個愛笑愛玩的小女生；但這只會令她被標籤為「不思進取」、「幼稚」、「被寵壞」的新生代。774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0CmauZqtp2
774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIzPLPGw7YN
還是向現實低頭好了。774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEylVjLVDDq
774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6S17zRYu8O
家宜又再穿上套裝，遮掩仍然年輕的身體；化濃妝、塗豔抹，好讓笑容沉重得消失了似的。774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSkFTAlRbYR
774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ44GUahD0qu
這就是，大家想要看見的家宜吧！
「我回來了。」家宜脫下高跟鞋，一屁股坐在沙發上。774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCAew99Sc18
774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI9w4WsknBt
「發薪了嗎？」媽聞聲而至。774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡENFfat9fFM
774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeHn8v60hwX
「發了。」家宜從手提包拿出支票和糧單。774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTDjWtQI2Jd
774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoVHomVZjKw
媽看了看，聲線幾近尖叫：「你不是已經升職了嗎？」774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaGBpZOfvZF
774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhOA4KhVeps
家宜沒答話。774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEtOLWiWcp7
774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpzsh4uYub5
望著家宜，媽氣得火燒心。774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRx7qx1za8L
774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVIVHXBGdC0
當初，是家宜承諾會賺到更多的錢。774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFFyUHTGRKg
774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡreGIn6dOc6
當初，是她講理想，擅自推掉一份待遇優厚的工作。774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPixqhaj4c9
774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmPxtiMC42m
當初，她根本不應為興趣而揀選室內設計。774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqgngOywnQo
774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFrDXPwe4hM
當初…774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTG08BHoLgd
774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxSkq3NZowZ
整個晚上，媽一言不發。774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLl5p1oNhXr
774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeCFNHyBRsH
家宜很難受，但卻選擇不多話。是的，她很後悔——為何她當初那麼有理想？原來，理想真的不可當飽飯吃！774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd1IdeFWJpQ
774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxEAVL6K844
但現在，何如？
這是家宜首次到酒吧來。774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡee8QmJoCFs
774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMEQHFZKT4u
形形色色的男女，都不約而同地帶著一對黑眼圈；家宜也不例外——她昨晚失眠了。774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡThAjdOdpLr
774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs7lLZ2kyY1
從未試過被人當中那麼奚落，還要她道歉。但更難以置信的是——她道歉了。774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX123DRNe1g
774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSJELyg9OrY
根本不是她的錯！774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiBbNsB7xnr
774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOw8VWsOl5B
但道歉可保住一椿生意…774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJEakKvf1U7
774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRBgpO1OWLX
卻扭曲了自己…774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcMO6GSKcqI
774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1bV5q7muLI
值得嗎？774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9C9Tms8GSG
774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKvaS3Ab8uo
「你是家宜嗎？」有人從後拍了拍家宜的肩膊。774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRimRgT8Oct
774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkhGA6TguN5
「學姐？」家宜不自覺的伸出手來，公式化地打招呼。774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnijlbKbjaN
774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWZZHnFV2lW
「近來好嗎？」學姐也成熟了不少：「還在那室內設計公司工作嗎？」774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcHDLK0XB35
774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZpAZWWDGBQ
「是的。」家宜雖然盡力隱藏，但仍掩不住眼裡的失意。774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIxQikTLsXO
774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4gnlsfrA2o
「我最近自己設立了一所室內設計公司…」學姐有意無意的說：「需要聘請設計師…」774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkK8SsiMHlD
774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUEJm5WvH6l
「設計師…」家宜頓時精神起來。774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjzBOlYB4i8
774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf8ZkBBmjiw
「雖是自主度高，但薪金卻…」學姐小心翼翼的試探著：「你會來幫忙嗎？」
草擬了一整晚的辭職信，就在手心。774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhPdOaaRxc2
774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhzlhB2bcQ9
只要家宜有勇氣遞上，再加幾個模稜兩可的原因，理想便能確切的握在手心。774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ13TyO6hSIY
774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5d7oQnK1kt
「理想不能當飽飯吃！」這句話突然在家宜耳邊響起。774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBRu3Asjq6B
774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuqRtgDMhjs
曾講過這句話的人，有媽、朋友、同事、上司…甚至家宜自己。還記得，講這句話時，家宜自己的心情是絕望的。但大家的表情卻很輕鬆，活像只是講及一些與自己不相干的事。774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPgBYm5lgtn
774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2nMx7XxJcO
理想，不相干嗎？很遙遠嗎？774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXrGaJsgbvV
774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLCnSfvkE3x
難道大家年輕時沒有理想嗎？774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVde7od4lcv
774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡquEGe5nWvY
還是大家根本知道現實裡沒有理想，乾脆直接放棄了？774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG3tsxduGcH
774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡww7WCAKeKI
不管了，先遞信吧！774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6ZI5Q4RhCb
774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡspCUxoCa24
「你…」老闆氣定神閒：「很缺錢吧！」774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOBadNYZAYk
774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7rw8SUO3T8
家宜呆了。774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC2RRWW8k7h
774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8bhuv4jBjf
「加薪能留住你嗎？」他豎起兩隻手指，示意加薪兩千元。774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvXbvvDxWzr
774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ04fPGPExjh
她沒即時否定——猶豫了。774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV4muJKurPI
774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoscu8BQBDg
「既然沒問題，你先去工作吧！」他以微笑作結。774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDRFEwYBYm8
774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKGJNpr4SvS
這是…放棄了嗎？774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYiVWDjeIuN
774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaIoOlodo9W
家宜只知道自己剛才的確心動了，再沒追求理想的資格…
天，灰灰的。774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbhHymMyJoE
774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtVHTe2ckDv
家宜傻傻的抬起頭來，心想：「我到底在做甚麼？」她的手在顫抖著，弄皺了手心的辭職信。從來不相信「為五斗米折腰」；但今天終於領略到。774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlIZIlBaQbB
774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzktzUnHYod
家宜垂頭喪氣地來到家門前，勉力地堆起笑容，按下門鈴。應門的是媽。774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZhSOfbTWiG
774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm67unRaSfc
昨晚，為了工作上的去留問題，她和媽吵起來了。當時大家都氣得面紅耳赤，卻未能分出勝負。家宜最記得媽那一句：「生活艱難！」774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGscrqNr8xS
774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSX7Ds9ewoE
當時聽畢，家宜禁不住吐了句：「錢不是萬能的！」但二十四小時後，她願意收回那一句話。774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbgTK8Nq4MZ
774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFMIAsNDs1Z
「真的辭職了嗎？」媽的語氣，冷淡得令人難受。774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhjE6Tz0OTj
774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDGE09t81kb
「沒。」家宜感覺到自己的眼淚快要奪眶而出。774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbRx2ZbEVjb
774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgYrKJAIDQ2
「真的？」媽的表情很複雜，既喜且悲。774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6muuMsvaye
774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqSsGjvbWam
是的，她很高興家宜沒有辭工；但她實在太熟悉家宜的脾性了——幾近頑固的堅持自己的想法。要是她的想法改變了，原因有二：想通了或是徹底被「擊潰」了。774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrvR947eZoJ
774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEZ9dLVC4q9
媽選擇相信後者：「有話要講嗎？」774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3s84kwnc8j
774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ66rtvACaLM
「沒。」家宜搖搖頭。774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlO25MEnHBG
774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTIusuSG4uz
回到房間，家宜躺在床上，呆望著天花板。774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPlA2vPVN7H
774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU9EW6PjPha
欲哭無淚。
