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家宜拿著一紙文憑畢業。890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfPaDxWWzxv
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和很多其他年輕人一樣，她是有夢想的，並一直堅持著。她一直在心中盤算著，要找一份怎麼怎麼的工作，要怎麼怎麼實現她大計……但眼見一封封求職信杳無音訊，石沉大海時，她開始著急。890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtFBLodOWyW
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日復日，她心想：「機會在哪兒？」890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVAS8T3geZC
890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRn0KuMavVz
終於，有回音了。縱使只有一個面試機會，她仍興奮得很。890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2HSWiUTD3K
890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfPVLSdCpHs
面試當日，她穿著整齊，拿著沉甸甸的公事包，於烈日下到一幢舊式工廠大廈去。到達門口時，大汗淋漓的她，被玻璃門後的公司吸引著——是她夢寐以求的室內設計公司！還記得修讀室內設計文憑時，她常幻想著自己會受聘於一間大型室內設計公司，每天都從忙碌中獲得滿足感…890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUZAQ7DEG7o
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面試後數日，有回音了。「八千五？」她在心裡嚷著：「當日不是說月薪一萬嗎？」890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg9a3dP8AHa
890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAEKbKjguvO
「你是零經驗的畢業生…」電話另一頭的男聲解釋說。890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBOehBeodWy
890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSfo3fjxME4
「好。」家宜吁了一口氣，把心裡的標準降低了少許。890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIw8UMHsQ51
890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7jEpoBD8SM
「那麼，明天上班。」男聲的口吻近乎發號司令。890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTKdLHnsEGv
890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX8aw8lbpu0
掛線後，家宜把消息告知媽。890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn9xEvqmOgS
890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiFdfLZZlH7
「八千五…」媽想了想：「差不多…」890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbCeksFuILA
890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZDcIv1jxPO
家宜沉默了。890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcoitBZt2BX
890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzks5gMyycI
媽瞥了瞥她，續道：「『零經驗』、『Fresh Grad.』…八千五，已算是不錯！」890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqcFdnDVnTZ
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這一句話，又把家宜的標準拉低了。890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWzq9gZyBBm
890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH8qGxkFOZ8
原來，她自己只值八千五！
一年後，進步不少的家宜被擢升，成為初級設計師。890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrQ8iD7gDxK
890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡso8EWmHBNy
自此，仍然年輕的家宜，決定不會再穿著花花綠綠，只會穿黑白灰。890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZWkBwGPXZd
890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1iMRUui3Ex
有人說她成熟了，進步了。890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPk9A3P5szt
890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfqMRZqCYOD
「我可不這樣認為。」家宜很想要這麼答，但卻總把說話生吞回肚子作罷。890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqcecIHxqwI
890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ7q0aS9lla
似乎，大家都只看到她「正」的一面而已。890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj2ZaRVW4Nd
890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQjPXyfcyY9
這就是大家想要看見的家宜嗎？一個只會穿黑白灰、不苟言笑的女人。大家似乎忘記了——家宜只有二十歲，是屬於青春的年華。真正的她，可是一個愛笑愛玩的小女生；但這只會令她被標籤為「不思進取」、「幼稚」、「被寵壞」的新生代。890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHe7tDqMiWv
890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡknwgIxgiR1
還是向現實低頭好了。890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5XtDySOXMH
890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvA1adE2983
家宜又再穿上套裝，遮掩仍然年輕的身體；化濃妝、塗豔抹，好讓笑容沉重得消失了似的。890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT2cfK7Tuh0
890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHQMcp2lkJA
這就是，大家想要看見的家宜吧！
「我回來了。」家宜脫下高跟鞋，一屁股坐在沙發上。890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp7sFb3r9Jv
890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwzhLqjmaXB
「發薪了嗎？」媽聞聲而至。890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLpwTFaXmHd
890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9u39v73IeO
「發了。」家宜從手提包拿出支票和糧單。890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyX8bKZ66Ex
890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2WVv6h41QF
媽看了看，聲線幾近尖叫：「你不是已經升職了嗎？」890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhcphw703ID
890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWK4ZrAAlU9
家宜沒答話。890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr26l3ClTb3
890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLlC7A8cWY7
望著家宜，媽氣得火燒心。890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzdeaVQn9g6
890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKXaoHMAind
當初，是家宜承諾會賺到更多的錢。890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbDNuQrjp0R
890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaSDCN558B3
當初，是她講理想，擅自推掉一份待遇優厚的工作。890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNo4fWjNbnx
890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwJMvKiNapf
當初，她根本不應為興趣而揀選室內設計。890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4aZxpBCiOq
890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrwdOW6KVDI
當初…890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpy3lY5PS7L
890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMSqTMZGJW2
整個晚上，媽一言不發。890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf8AnDZwmhf
890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUrTm7vb1gX
家宜很難受，但卻選擇不多話。是的，她很後悔——為何她當初那麼有理想？原來，理想真的不可當飽飯吃！890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRkRbSSicdR
890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7iDNt7Tvcd
但現在，何如？
這是家宜首次到酒吧來。890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1QnHE2SlcL
890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVNqxxpH7zW
形形色色的男女，都不約而同地帶著一對黑眼圈；家宜也不例外——她昨晚失眠了。890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBy86Xcuj0Z
890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt9NwsxOUk7
從未試過被人當中那麼奚落，還要她道歉。但更難以置信的是——她道歉了。890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFE2DY50Ask
890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3pEHh1CKtB
根本不是她的錯！890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg5vpMzmRj4
890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp1PpjioC7F
但道歉可保住一椿生意…890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjXLWycZ5oT
890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfsrlAujDl8
卻扭曲了自己…890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbH76LrYyJ0
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值得嗎？890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7iCKcgZ77n
890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ56rsxQ9oGS
「你是家宜嗎？」有人從後拍了拍家宜的肩膊。890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfdL9Q5Zog4
890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSrtyA8hVNw
「學姐？」家宜不自覺的伸出手來，公式化地打招呼。890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlAt4xat2TB
890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmS4ovHDYCB
「近來好嗎？」學姐也成熟了不少：「還在那室內設計公司工作嗎？」890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDBCTvuuTvo
890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDc007T1uxT
「是的。」家宜雖然盡力隱藏，但仍掩不住眼裡的失意。890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ00vDtmpPXd
890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1nTEJVYmKZ
「我最近自己設立了一所室內設計公司…」學姐有意無意的說：「需要聘請設計師…」890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm7QRfluH8R
890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOHlR19bRhC
「設計師…」家宜頓時精神起來。890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmlgf3GiFiX
890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2AIpb1wkvp
「雖是自主度高，但薪金卻…」學姐小心翼翼的試探著：「你會來幫忙嗎？」
草擬了一整晚的辭職信，就在手心。890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5jYV4AM81S
890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡauX5WvPzp9
只要家宜有勇氣遞上，再加幾個模稜兩可的原因，理想便能確切的握在手心。890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRZV4yW7qu4
890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBfdpTwOcRa
「理想不能當飽飯吃！」這句話突然在家宜耳邊響起。890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUbdO2toJDT
890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeBUG82hZoR
曾講過這句話的人，有媽、朋友、同事、上司…甚至家宜自己。還記得，講這句話時，家宜自己的心情是絕望的。但大家的表情卻很輕鬆，活像只是講及一些與自己不相干的事。890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡET15CxQvHZ
890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn7C8o24owJ
理想，不相干嗎？很遙遠嗎？890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ90TExmnJki
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難道大家年輕時沒有理想嗎？890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNtV3STluDI
890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcvOQzFBUDH
還是大家根本知道現實裡沒有理想，乾脆直接放棄了？890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9LD2ZTKws6
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不管了，先遞信吧！890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR7J0VM7a5c
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「你…」老闆氣定神閒：「很缺錢吧！」890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuMC9BDord8
890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3eTmV0qtIO
家宜呆了。890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdWn49cY8GW
890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqY9VhgxSGO
「加薪能留住你嗎？」他豎起兩隻手指，示意加薪兩千元。890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHGy4kuPGsA
890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡATqTo06VGX
她沒即時否定——猶豫了。890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl2D0e4P9O8
890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFXFdQJErOX
「既然沒問題，你先去工作吧！」他以微笑作結。890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWGw46AqveO
890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnbA26bwAoK
這是…放棄了嗎？890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGus0TR3bFY
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家宜只知道自己剛才的確心動了，再沒追求理想的資格…
天，灰灰的。890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsTYp7BBPlf
890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfFVAqoKTz0
家宜傻傻的抬起頭來，心想：「我到底在做甚麼？」她的手在顫抖著，弄皺了手心的辭職信。從來不相信「為五斗米折腰」；但今天終於領略到。890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4jNnuEFfmW
890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2DXYsi1K6O
家宜垂頭喪氣地來到家門前，勉力地堆起笑容，按下門鈴。應門的是媽。890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVnmeLSFBwC
890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpD0HbEhWB3
昨晚，為了工作上的去留問題，她和媽吵起來了。當時大家都氣得面紅耳赤，卻未能分出勝負。家宜最記得媽那一句：「生活艱難！」890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx7AkvXCV9L
890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUxuIY9SCdb
當時聽畢，家宜禁不住吐了句：「錢不是萬能的！」但二十四小時後，她願意收回那一句話。890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5gwzWdAEU4
890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYQFUfhDpsN
「真的辭職了嗎？」媽的語氣，冷淡得令人難受。890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVcLrM6hxR2
890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS6omm6jYSX
「沒。」家宜感覺到自己的眼淚快要奪眶而出。890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡftzlP6OyoH
890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRpoSghZOf9
「真的？」媽的表情很複雜，既喜且悲。890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHlziKRbSAh
890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPXUfHPyaRn
是的，她很高興家宜沒有辭工；但她實在太熟悉家宜的脾性了——幾近頑固的堅持自己的想法。要是她的想法改變了，原因有二：想通了或是徹底被「擊潰」了。890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFATY4ZEljr
890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJwzXGqDqgf
媽選擇相信後者：「有話要講嗎？」890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhVoSKawo1H
890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzDcuCxTSKf
「沒。」家宜搖搖頭。890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkP2OHdOwd4
890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrDVgnqU38P
回到房間，家宜躺在床上，呆望著天花板。890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkwS6vwmZSd
890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbgj7VtJUZB
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