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家宜拿著一紙文憑畢業。785Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi5YgTIBMbK
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和很多其他年輕人一樣，她是有夢想的，並一直堅持著。她一直在心中盤算著，要找一份怎麼怎麼的工作，要怎麼怎麼實現她大計……但眼見一封封求職信杳無音訊，石沉大海時，她開始著急。785Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcRwsjCTlA9
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日復日，她心想：「機會在哪兒？」785Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkkr6YzN0CN
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終於，有回音了。縱使只有一個面試機會，她仍興奮得很。785Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ894cZViWlr
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面試當日，她穿著整齊，拿著沉甸甸的公事包，於烈日下到一幢舊式工廠大廈去。到達門口時，大汗淋漓的她，被玻璃門後的公司吸引著——是她夢寐以求的室內設計公司！還記得修讀室內設計文憑時，她常幻想著自己會受聘於一間大型室內設計公司，每天都從忙碌中獲得滿足感…785Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSMKpZUBcfn
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面試後數日，有回音了。「八千五？」她在心裡嚷著：「當日不是說月薪一萬嗎？」785Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGWekaTTiLd
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「你是零經驗的畢業生…」電話另一頭的男聲解釋說。785Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyOKANM9rHz
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「好。」家宜吁了一口氣，把心裡的標準降低了少許。785Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnyNatI7ehe
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「那麼，明天上班。」男聲的口吻近乎發號司令。785Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBXqSMji2Tt
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掛線後，家宜把消息告知媽。785Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo0mF2Gzcxh
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「八千五…」媽想了想：「差不多…」785Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGSMs2vC5dv
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家宜沉默了。785Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvwYBcMyC5K
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媽瞥了瞥她，續道：「『零經驗』、『Fresh Grad.』…八千五，已算是不錯！」785Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ55w1IIF3mT
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這一句話，又把家宜的標準拉低了。785Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvcyn68gbmj
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原來，她自己只值八千五！
一年後，進步不少的家宜被擢升，成為初級設計師。785Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSdes7E2bYG
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自此，仍然年輕的家宜，決定不會再穿著花花綠綠，只會穿黑白灰。785Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvVGryZiDdO
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有人說她成熟了，進步了。785Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq4oNQtpLba
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「我可不這樣認為。」家宜很想要這麼答，但卻總把說話生吞回肚子作罷。785Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyn2eJbs8mz
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似乎，大家都只看到她「正」的一面而已。785Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzhr3n4xqL8
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這就是大家想要看見的家宜嗎？一個只會穿黑白灰、不苟言笑的女人。大家似乎忘記了——家宜只有二十歲，是屬於青春的年華。真正的她，可是一個愛笑愛玩的小女生；但這只會令她被標籤為「不思進取」、「幼稚」、「被寵壞」的新生代。785Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMLxpKIgso1
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還是向現實低頭好了。785Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcZGmi9laTj
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家宜又再穿上套裝，遮掩仍然年輕的身體；化濃妝、塗豔抹，好讓笑容沉重得消失了似的。785Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp59T3Ya9TT
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這就是，大家想要看見的家宜吧！
「我回來了。」家宜脫下高跟鞋，一屁股坐在沙發上。785Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlv2bNUGzOJ
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「發薪了嗎？」媽聞聲而至。785Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfoy5O9YZj0
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「發了。」家宜從手提包拿出支票和糧單。785Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1dT6aIlP0E
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媽看了看，聲線幾近尖叫：「你不是已經升職了嗎？」785Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6cXQ4zOIjn
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家宜沒答話。785Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrdxSkbjSYo
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望著家宜，媽氣得火燒心。785Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNfOhfArBmv
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當初，是家宜承諾會賺到更多的錢。785Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKgenrLWiXq
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當初，是她講理想，擅自推掉一份待遇優厚的工作。785Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmLga1flCa8
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當初，她根本不應為興趣而揀選室內設計。785Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXbIxIbudAu
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當初…785Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHR5IPlKQi6
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整個晚上，媽一言不發。785Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkxHCFUfw3L
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家宜很難受，但卻選擇不多話。是的，她很後悔——為何她當初那麼有理想？原來，理想真的不可當飽飯吃！785Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKEy6uBUWzY
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但現在，何如？
這是家宜首次到酒吧來。785Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ41Q21pjEbD
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形形色色的男女，都不約而同地帶著一對黑眼圈；家宜也不例外——她昨晚失眠了。785Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5dCM46ptoP
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從未試過被人當中那麼奚落，還要她道歉。但更難以置信的是——她道歉了。785Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3P0mK3PolE
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根本不是她的錯！785Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvpokMMBefU
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但道歉可保住一椿生意…785Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡao1dZ4rMWv
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卻扭曲了自己…785Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd67dgwTJVD
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值得嗎？785Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU5pYp7HRiP
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「你是家宜嗎？」有人從後拍了拍家宜的肩膊。785Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8JSCmrxRoC
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「學姐？」家宜不自覺的伸出手來，公式化地打招呼。785Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB4RyN3Z2hR
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「近來好嗎？」學姐也成熟了不少：「還在那室內設計公司工作嗎？」785Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4nHGzi0nB3
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「是的。」家宜雖然盡力隱藏，但仍掩不住眼裡的失意。785Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡizvgOi3QSY
785Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa3N80q3VGH
「我最近自己設立了一所室內設計公司…」學姐有意無意的說：「需要聘請設計師…」785Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW5zmbGrcFR
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「設計師…」家宜頓時精神起來。785Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxGXtp3adSS
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「雖是自主度高，但薪金卻…」學姐小心翼翼的試探著：「你會來幫忙嗎？」
草擬了一整晚的辭職信，就在手心。785Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVAYZSJYdQl
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只要家宜有勇氣遞上，再加幾個模稜兩可的原因，理想便能確切的握在手心。785Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq9ps8k7zoY
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「理想不能當飽飯吃！」這句話突然在家宜耳邊響起。785Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqDXI7x9VB9
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曾講過這句話的人，有媽、朋友、同事、上司…甚至家宜自己。還記得，講這句話時，家宜自己的心情是絕望的。但大家的表情卻很輕鬆，活像只是講及一些與自己不相干的事。785Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9oDz00cRgg
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理想，不相干嗎？很遙遠嗎？785Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY4J53yqw38
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難道大家年輕時沒有理想嗎？785Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUWTdo0mM9B
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還是大家根本知道現實裡沒有理想，乾脆直接放棄了？785Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPYMlKqqdO5
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不管了，先遞信吧！785Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkp2sVPPpSR
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「你…」老闆氣定神閒：「很缺錢吧！」785Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZbgrsDyL5I
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家宜呆了。785Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnDQnqPo6wR
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「加薪能留住你嗎？」他豎起兩隻手指，示意加薪兩千元。785Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuqBemQuBpP
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她沒即時否定——猶豫了。785Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6Kth9kRN1f
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「既然沒問題，你先去工作吧！」他以微笑作結。785Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkKk3ECvSxp
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這是…放棄了嗎？785Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ7kzBDUK6N
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家宜只知道自己剛才的確心動了，再沒追求理想的資格…
天，灰灰的。785Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNverMfMF5Q
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家宜傻傻的抬起頭來，心想：「我到底在做甚麼？」她的手在顫抖著，弄皺了手心的辭職信。從來不相信「為五斗米折腰」；但今天終於領略到。785Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrbVxGQer3G
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家宜垂頭喪氣地來到家門前，勉力地堆起笑容，按下門鈴。應門的是媽。785Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpH64kEiEll
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昨晚，為了工作上的去留問題，她和媽吵起來了。當時大家都氣得面紅耳赤，卻未能分出勝負。家宜最記得媽那一句：「生活艱難！」785Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC3BmLyCJbR
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當時聽畢，家宜禁不住吐了句：「錢不是萬能的！」但二十四小時後，她願意收回那一句話。785Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjWT3fCZBMi
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「真的辭職了嗎？」媽的語氣，冷淡得令人難受。785Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC624M9n0Jj
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「沒。」家宜感覺到自己的眼淚快要奪眶而出。785Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNl3gyIhR74
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「真的？」媽的表情很複雜，既喜且悲。785Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbZoo1ijxMY
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是的，她很高興家宜沒有辭工；但她實在太熟悉家宜的脾性了——幾近頑固的堅持自己的想法。要是她的想法改變了，原因有二：想通了或是徹底被「擊潰」了。785Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNJ5e7vISkc
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媽選擇相信後者：「有話要講嗎？」785Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEZ3KOGKFlg
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「沒。」家宜搖搖頭。785Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN68WI7dKNb
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回到房間，家宜躺在床上，呆望著天花板。785Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgdPn3iAmD9
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