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天藍，樹青，人閒。559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4WuftvMLyF
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衣來張手，飯來張口。559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ2da7DJ4g8
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無煩無憂，無欲無求。559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZgPFzqh7u4
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輕飄飄，輕如無物。559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOXWiYK98Xq
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我說：「若有所失。」559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUnzXEuC0vv
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祂問：「有何缺失？」559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8XSTARUDnu
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愣，無法言明。559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIEmy5m1Ad6
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橫行世間，萬物向我膜拜，因為我是人類，是祂最愛的造物。我說鹿角形態優雅，鹿脫角奉上。我說喜歡蘋果清甜，荒地倏忽長苗，苗成樹，樹開花，花結果，果落地。是蘋果。咬，清甜，如我所願。說不出的滿足，說不出的失落。559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrSmywWnI5o
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夜，與伴繾綣星光下。奔放，放空，空洞。躺卧大地，仰望繁星。559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGcF0iB3IOY
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他問：「哪顆星星最美麗？」559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡArHyT97Zug
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我答：「差不多。」559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUD2ioXn37K
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他問：「如果某顆星星消失了，我們該不會察覺到吧。」559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIVdNny2YLZ
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我答：「是的。」559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfPuEUR6lFS
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他苦笑，睡，再也沒有醒來。559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD4Ib80q2Eb
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問祂因由，祂亦感奇怪——人類享有無盡生命，內無疾病，外無創傷，怎會無端暴斃？559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI7zYl7PJ4Z
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「別憂傷。」祂是慈愛的：「我可以給你再造一個新伴侶。」559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjvlZWnh3Is
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我說只想要回原本的伴。559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaPplbpVXhh
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祂創造出一個一模一樣的他。559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKhYSEGyGyY
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一樣的身體，一樣的性格，一樣的記憶。559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqwN4235jrD
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但我清楚知道這並不是與我相處百年的那個他。559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGWPTATgS1A
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我沒多話，向祂跪叩道謝。559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjCKMmAqniI
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與新伴離開宮殿、往山下走去時，有人帶著伴侶遺體上山向祂求助。559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjHRXdLdWMs
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似乎人類暴斃並非單一事件……559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq2iMBsUbp3
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森林裡、星空下、營火旁，我和新伴與萬歲老者促膝長談。559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU9UharfRHE
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「當感受不到自己存在，就會死去。」老者伸手入火堆：「痛楚令我感受到自身存在……」559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy9iIZ7OitR
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「順心日子令我開始思考自己是否存在。甚或是……」老者縮手，幽幽莞爾：「我的存在是否有意義？」559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlW8mZT9kfA
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一直沉默的新伴突然開口接話：「那夜，我發現耀眼星星可有可無，我立時明白自己更是不過爾爾。」說罷，新伴倒地死去。559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡww5zKaMtUQ
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我不感悲傷，因為這是他的選擇——他以自己想要的方式去處理自己。559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1sYIbiZEoc
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「你找到答案沒？」我問老者。559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGai4cGX5YS
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「沒。」老者坦言：「『未有答案』也許是最佳答案——我有不停思考的原因。然後『不停思考』成為我繼續活著的原因。」559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqb8zCoRQSP
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「這豈不是自尋煩惱？」我難以想像如何在煩惱狀態下活上萬年：「如此活下去有何意義？」559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsmG67193jt
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「我只知死亡以後，一切意義於我變得沒意義。」老者沒有正面回應我的提問，避重就輕指出更壞情況，巧妙突顯現狀的好。老者答案偏頗，皆因不欲承認真相。人類沒能承認意識不到的事物。換言之，老者早知答案。559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1SBVaPBNLy
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他聰明，知我聰明，亦知道我知道他知道甚麼。559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSNo3gtq5PY
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無法繼續逃避，老者倒地斷氣。559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwmGqcGC0GJ
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我不驚不訝，伴屍凝望柴火沉思。559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM50y4tLJBA
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我沒有死去，因為我並非思考意義何在，而是思考如何創造意義。559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC6wXGvM3eN
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天明。我動手創造意義去。559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaWhxQs8NoE
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撥弄柴枝，焚燒遺體，燎亮森林。559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtZL4Ng8uNZ
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有人運水，有人撲火，有人救人。各施其職，各盡其義。559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJDiI9giM27
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我氣定神閒，穿過人群，前往山上宮殿找祂。居高臨下，俯視地面眾生奔波頻撲，頓時百感交集。559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEgwTY306G0
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「你不怪責我？」我直接問。559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh3OQ6fV8Y9
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「我明白你用意。」祂無所不知。559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJQsgYAI4sG
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「你早知大家暴斃原因？」我所知有限，因為我只是一個普通人類。559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmepoJs55JY
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「我知道原因，但我無法理解，所以沒能解決。」祂愛人類，卻非人類，無法徹底代入人類角度：「我不明白為何人類需要『充滿缺憾的世界』。完美的和平世界不好嗎？」559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNOPLOAZSPI
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「有我的世界完美和平，無我的世界完美和平，換言之，我就是可有可無的、沒意義的。」我指著忙碌救火的人們說：「看！一場火災令大家由百無聊賴的遊民立時變為救人救火的大英雄。」559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡazE8ehhtnP
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「為了證明自己，寧願離開幸福，不斷遭遇不幸？」完美的祂不明缺憾的美麗。559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC4leIliMkP
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我堅決點頭。559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzvhu1LuU8N
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祂悲傷流淚。淚水觸地一刻，我被強大力量彈飛，飛離宮殿，安然著地——祂還是愛著每個人類，包括我。559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxnaaHTZjey
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我回頭遙望，宮殿消失了。559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu32QtO006V
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感動，感恩，感慨。559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx22cmqOE0k
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祂竟默許我的行動！559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAXNT7VGzDA
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我浪跡天涯，到處作惡。559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnlcAivDGMf
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有人追殺我，說我破壞和平，為禍人間。559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgU7TDLRb0Y
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有人認同我，協助我，保護我，膜拜我。559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRVcaVsvcCO
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時日漸過，當追殺者和追隨者各佔世界人口一半，我選擇隱退。559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHfQo1t9NuC
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億年過去。我某天在街頭偶遇祂。祂說剛在新開張的咖啡室買了咖啡和蛋糕，邀我一起到宮殿品嚐。我說好的，不過要先到便利店支付電費。祂笑問為何不繼續拖欠。我說經已拖欠幾季，快要被斷電。祂笑我假壞蛋，我笑祂假正經。559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6LTPYXYnnL
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宮殿依舊宏偉，祂依舊和藹，我依舊迷惘。559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDpxfBWjgrj
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「覺得現今人類怎麼樣？」我嚐一口咖啡，暗讚苦酸澀比例得宜。559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxA1vHB3e2T
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「怪。」祂眉頭輕皺。「你呢？喜歡現在的人間嗎？」559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe2ka31d2H0
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「我不敢細想這問題……我擔心自己會後悔……」我望出窗外，俯視雲下人世眾生，雙手不自控微顫：「人類壽命日益縮短，我估計無人可以活過一百二十歲……」559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVwn4A6Q8wy
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「你認為是自己一手造成？」祂倒是比之前更淡然，放下咖啡杯，轉而品嚐蛋糕。沒待我回答，祂又繼續說：「無論你有沒有插手，人類終究會滅亡，分別在於滅亡時間和方式。」559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyjhH47Gxgp
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「我不明白。人類本有永恆壽命，若非我自作聰明，大家該可以……」我的內疚感硬生生被祂的說話壓下——因為祂不會說謊——取而代之的是大量疑問。559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCQAitaEqML
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「我在造人時加入了『分別心』，令每個人類都有獨特性格和思考模式，希望集思廣益有助促進新一波人類文明快速發展。豈料分別心令人類十分在意自身和周遭人事物的區別，部份偏激人類甚至完全否定自身，因而暴斃。」祂碟上蛋糕不知不覺間缺了大半，當然，也可以說是祂吃掉大半。若有所失同時若有所得：「打算召喚大洪水給大家來個痛快了斷，減輕痛苦，誰料你提出一個奇特方法！我姑且放手讓你一試，效果很不錯。」559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMEk6u8mBgj
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「不過大家的壽命縮……」我聽不出我的煩惱與祂的解說有何關係。559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqNSi8TaRmB
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「活膩了，自然不想活。無論世界和平或混亂，無論本身壽命長或短，無論生活順心或困苦……」見我思路走入死胡同，祂直斷了當道出當中因由罷：「無論旁人如何對待，最終決定權還是在當事人手上。」559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjfoQ3miyfq
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繃緊多年的情緒得到解放，活上億年的我倒在祂懷裡，哭得像個孩子。559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqK27eEYwL9
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「我哭累了……」559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwIlST7tNsz
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「那就好好入睡吧。」559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZdWwX4Aifi
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「可以不醒來嗎？」559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcjtuLz4iFt
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「隨你喜歡。」559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcrnSp96uYp
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「謝謝。」559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFO67OJMiiv
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「不用謝。」559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡavcBQdiMab
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「我愛祢。」559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5wSCts1IEy
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「我愛你們。」559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9Wp4C7BIuq
