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「你還可以嗎？」589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9hOuofhYdy
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「無法不可以。」589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOQ0sG2eitx
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「如需幫忙，來找我吧。」589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHCDTiefKCN
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「謝謝你。」589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiUpMNImeFX
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我對隸屬同組的小妹報以虛弱苦笑。與她向來關係不錯，概略知道彼此家庭狀況——同是經濟支柱，一屋老嫩。聽到她主動提出幫忙，我除了感激，更多的是感覺羞恥。589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrA3q3qWoAb
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唉！多講無謂，反正既成事實。倒不如動腦筋思考如何向妻子說明狀況。589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6a0E7uYnvg
589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCazWGPImPq
疫情關係，全球經濟不景氣。我和妻子預料這段艱難時期將會維持好一段日子，早已節衣縮食，積穀防饑。但我們慢慢沒有想到老闆會有此一著：工作日數減半意味薪金減半。589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8GoF88OYEC
589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0tMAA0bOz2
供樓開支無法削減，父母醫療開支不能削，孩子教育開支不能減。唯一可以削減的只有我們夫妻倆的使用……589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡluJs6Xh0VT
589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9FhmVb2n9S
飯後，兩老早睡，兒女溫習，妻子洗碗。我怯怯到廚房去。589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzRLVwg7fqc
589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtalZ1lCSg9
「老婆……」589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGsvlzj2cwN
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「有困難？金錢？」589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkOC9ccoaaU
589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb4pUb2V3t4
妻子搶佔發言先機，心裡不安的我更覺虛怯。589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUoVV1iFsx6
589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2bUXJWw0LB
「是。明天開始，只需星期二、四上班。」589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgrjMKiiPdI
589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2bgjMl21nV
「嗯。」589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfpc3X3BiFN
589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEZWNyWHpZb
妻子沒再多話，專心洗碗。她的冷靜淡然在我意料之外，卻又在情理當中。無力改變現實，也就只得接受和硬撐，呼天搶地無補於事。589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvoQkGaS4nq
589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp99HkROwys
我回睡房躺在床上發愣。589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5h2zBrucVp
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無能。無力。無奈。589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ868BYjImSo
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千思萬緒化作團團亂線。589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡetKABNiV5I
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剪不斷，理還亂。589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1eQpv9befs
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勿剪，別理。589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8kNXGg9hBB
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待時日將其化解。589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuzPt2iHilh
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莫操心。589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbcXSO4kH7E
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莫操心？589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlU33YE4Lf4
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如何莫操心？589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqqLsRo0UhP
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我知道困境必定會過去，但我必須硬撐直到那天到來。589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8WH5TS0f5F
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撐多久？如何撐？589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ8qaqLxoh2
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不知道……
日出。星期二。上班員工人數銳減，辦公室冷清不少。589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCJ5L4oMMof
589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvdsgcNt4ab
有人若無其事，有人變得寡言，有人大吐苦水。不論個人感受如何，公司繼續營運，世界繼續運轉。589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlolepjf7Op
589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmvc8BL2jV6
啟動電腦。電腦桌面背景是站在浮冰的北極熊。毛色暗啞，骨瘦如柴，神色虛弱。想必多日找不到食物，飢腸轆轆。絕望？誰管你的！天地蒼茫，白皚皚一片。無論北極熊是否存在，北極仍是北極，我仍在地球另端為家庭財政傷透腦筋。589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZohHK3JfMp
589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx9fw60u7tK
午餐。翻熱食物。是昨夜飯餸，白飯菜心排骨。白飯黏糯，菜心苦黃，排骨柴乾。想要一支豉油。下班後去買吧！不了，豉油不是必需品，不該浪費金錢買奢侈品。589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7Wu7dq40Mv
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下班時間，加班。加班同事還不少。沒法子。減少工作日數不代表減少工作量，也不代表工作進度可以放慢。589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmZt5TdKlQb
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每次想及時間、日子，位於電腦屏幕右下方的時鐘就會顯得格外礙眼：它在提醒我妻子的飯菜變涼了、孩子掛念我的心情變淡了、父母與我相處的時間變短了；它在催促我加快手腳完成當前項目，接下來的工作將以排山倒海之勢襲來；它在教導我人生大道理，一寸光陰一吋金，吋金難買寸光陰，更何況加班沒有加班費……589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAJ1sPscwBt
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關機，正式下班。心情太壞，說服不了自己留下來。回首，同事們仍在埋頭苦幹。理解，但無法奉陪到底。589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg3mim6NuN4
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大街上，人影疏落，商店無燈。車站無人，想必有一班次剛剛離站。等。車頭燈或白或黃，在黑夜暗色環境當中尤其刺眼眩目。節慶煙花，演唱會螢光棒，無燈飯廳裡的金魚缸，床頭小燈，被窩裡的手提電話屏幕……腦袋失控，只管想著一堆毫無意義、不著邊際的雜亂畫面。累？是吧。589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJps0gbL1xh
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我笑。589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6u4tOi22wW
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在巴士入站之際決定轉身離開。589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8C9pGMrj78
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忽爾不想回家。
「飯餸在雪櫃。你自行翻熱吧。」589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv4jXC03ZB0
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「好的。」589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDBzPgF5yaz
589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhrEoEEdgxw
我敷衍回應妻子幾句後也就洗澡去。熱水沖去臉上油塵，皮膚霎時變得乾淨而乾燥，微癢微痕。或許每個人都是因為這些不著眼的小耗損而老去。無可避免。無可奈何。是否只得順從？是否只得接受？不順從又如何？不接受又如何？589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVPnznmJ0G8
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只會苦了自己。589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ38QrJ6xEDi
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努力改變過，極力掙扎過，然後一切依舊——世界依舊不似預期。589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiBIvHxtCmn
589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYpkk97plpj
通體蝕骨的無能無力無奈。589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdy74IZ5OOz
589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4KgyFbYs0z
浴後，睡床上。妻子望著天花發愣。天花燈沒有亮著，光源自窗外滲入，剛巧側照伏在天花的小蟲，以誇張得滑稽的比例拉長小蟲影子，如怪物，如鬼魅。589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyvVNuASTdd
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「你的同事有沒有跟老闆反映近來遇上的問題？」589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡItr0gt4kN6
589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZzylHMdQj1
「沒有。大家都在座位上邊罵邊工作。」589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNxVTAOkYcd
589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDP8I1vY6kM
妻子乾笑一聲，側身面窗睡去。589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvVviiCVAnW
589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡih3WEhXRH8
我實在笑不出口，呆望天花數蟲子。589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9QaN6ZVmqI
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一、二、三、四、五……
