童桐回到自己的家中後，我著她好好休息，由我過去我家那邊把枕頭拖鞋之類搬回去她這邊。1182Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjy4Nzi5g2s
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正當我收拾好準備回去時，我媽卻攔住了我。1182Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKaoWwYSRuR
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「過黎傾傾。」我媽說。1182Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLWhFuZW62y
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我爸在書房關著門，大概是因為颱風來襲而在家工作，所以廳中只有我和我媽二人，至於亞基看到我坐到沙發上，馬上躍到我膝上扭摸扭抱。1182Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxRPX0cdvz3
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我笑一笑然後抱抱牠，再給牠滿滿的撫摸，不只牠享受著，我也感到心中的壓力藉著手中的毛茸茸感覺釋放了不少。1182Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwxY6BkwuP7
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好可愛…1182Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlxvtOyfQFn
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參考圖 IG:bordercollie_08141182Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHI1mH2qNA7
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「呀遊，你對PTSD有幾多認識？」1182Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdFilh1QPxC
1182Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhIKtzdIZEb
「睇戲睇過。」我說，「就…有咩創傷事件後，會好驚相關既野，發惡夢，見到鬼之類，你想話童桐就係咁？」1182Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuAHDL2Ih8M
1182Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpFF79oBc8j
「你既算係克板印象。」我媽就，「我之前做ＨＲ個時，試過有同事出過事，升降機工業意外，成個頭扁左。」1182Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0nkP3isPdq
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我就不去想像了。1182Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFD1jtwTARD
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「事後在場目擊者，或多或少都有PTSD既傾向。童桐佢依加咁樣既情況，令我諗返起個時。」我媽說。1182Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5S0el8u93M
1182Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrXtNph4SJy
「…你講下係點。」我說，「我想幫童桐。」1182Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkeaSBIDeJd
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「童桐可能係PTSD，亦可能係PITS，詳情既你帶佢去睇心理治療師，但兩者都似。」1182Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRct7254t4b
1182Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTnBaB68ZWb
「又咩PITS…咩16型人格測驗？」1182Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlmKuxKMFD4
1182Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXg9CXvJ3df
「唔係。」我媽白我一眼，「PTSD多數係受害者身上出現，而PITS叫加害者創傷壓力，多數出現係加害者身上，例如戰場上殺敵既軍人，屠房宰殺動物既員工，合法開槍制止暴行既警察之類。」1182Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdljH81aVqk
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「童桐明明唔係加害者，利律師係差館同我講…」1182Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHB0DPpMOwR
1182Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA70ALeJPfJ
「呀遊，佢係唔係都好，問題係佢覺得自己係。」我媽說。1182Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh5jagtTC4Z
1182Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBPDaELJHiE
「童桐…已經係第二次遇到呢種事。」我心中一沉。1182Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGYLlnfbSyM
1182Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwZ3HrfNrqf
「嗯。」我媽說，「PITS患者一般黎講會比起普通PTSD更嚴重，呀遊，你明唔明，童桐依加係被好好好嚴重既心理問題困擾。」1182Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhAsG1vWPox
1182Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1HruHgvnCF
「嗯…我知道。」1182Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTGvQUixkIv
1182Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1DQOLqv0CO
「但你唔可以怪佢，佢都唔想，就好似普通傷風感冒咁，你無只係你好彩，總之…係症狀上先當成係PTSD解釋，只係更嚴重，亦更難醫。」1182Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ42HHYBvnNJ
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接著我媽以她當年還是超級HR時處理過的經驗，向我解決童桐現在的情況。1182Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡce8WVr65cz
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PTSD可以在創傷事件後馬上爆發，或在數月後平息，但也可能持續，變成慢性綜合症。無論是當年工業意外翌日，在升降機內抱頭痛哭的員工，還是看到一向黏自己的亞基而恐慌發作的童桐。1182Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwoEoVTjwxK
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而創傷又可以被貯藏在程序記憶中，患者即使看起來沒甚麼異樣，但一但做出相關的動作，便會馬上病發，那個員工好像是聽到升降機超重的「嗶嗶嗶」警告聲而馬上情緒崩潰。1182Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVgYMSBuDwX
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至於做惡夢，性情大變，失眠，逃避或對相關人事物感到恐懼，暴躁易怒，過度警戒，易受驚嚇，再次處於相似情境會感到不安，恐懼，呼吸困難，發抖等，便和電影拍的大同小異。1182Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuS971km5OM
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也和童桐現在身上一樣。1182Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8gYJIQJ3El
1182Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡweZ0cQrF80
「但即使係點，呢個係病，童桐仲係你認識，你鐘意既童桐，你既青梅竹馬童桐。」我媽說，「佢只係病左，而呢個病係有得醫，就同厭食症一樣。」1182Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMHESXzfk90
1182Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ55M9Q8PPqZ
「一打完風我就會帶佢去睇醫生。」我說，「錢方面，阿媽…」1182Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTtrc2achDV
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「得啦，我本來就當童桐係我地個女咁，依加更加當佢係新抱，錢方面你唔使擔心。」1182Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKVqe7ZBkZx
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我愛我媽。1182Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTFgyQdSS7g
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「你要好好照顧佢，PTSD又好, PITS都好，都係有得醫，只緊要係你陪佢，照顧佢，俾安全感佢。」1182Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ03LFecL7ZA
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我點點頭，雖然不知道我能不能辦到。1182Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1OULP1HTfi
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「喂，你有幾鐘意童桐？」1182Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcOYlgYY2uD
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無需任何思考。1182Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtpxbfbDIeu
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「要幾鐘意就有幾鐘意。」1182Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZpW07JPuew
1182Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrytq0Fr4i5
我媽問：「照顧佢一世，用一世人陪佢對抗呢個病你願唔願意？講緊既係一生一世。」1182Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdZoU2RPCzs
1182Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNfFHDMMK6h
「幾多世都願意。」我口出狂言，但我的確有這份覺悟。1182Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQBLrLtltoI
1182Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcLTteFsiCP
已經經歷了這麼多歡笑，跨越了這麼多眼淚，這份決意我背負得起。1182Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvvq5uBsoUS
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也必須要由我背負。1182Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdmgLfVaX3Q
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即使我再弱小，這點我也不會讓步。1182Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUSF7GE4KFE
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「既然係咁。」我媽舉起右手，「就交呢個俾你。」1182Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCTZee1hz2m
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回到童桐那邊，我首先拿出一個狗玩具。1182Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcRZUQJnZfd
1182Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa5QqblT9pN
「呀遊…？」躺在床上的童桐問。1182Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUUVYMRPXa1
1182Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzxip2FFx5r
「係亞基俾你。」我說，「佢似乎覺得自己做錯，叼左佢最鐘意個舊骨去我地房門口，應該係想送俾你想你原諒佢。」1182Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBlhAB6KEfB
1182Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSOj44lNl0N
「……佢真係好可愛。」1182Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0eovrs0nHe
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「佢好唔開心。」1182Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQonWKTxwZk
1182Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEvA01lZluW
「我…我知道…」童桐痛心地搖頭說，「係佢救左我地，計埋之前，佢已經救左我地第三次，但我…我一見到亞基，我就聽到架車撞落Kay既聲，聽到煞車聲，我仲聽到Kay既慘叫聲，我唔應該放開亞基，一日都係我……」1182Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3jBotaxnE4
1182Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7T8C1Ty9D9
她深深地在自責。1182Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ60Gm6fE94u
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別忘了，Kay在襲擊我們之前，是童桐的組員，二人在大學也是好朋友。1182Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDC3GpEstFD
1182Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIr9VlGu1mz
而Kay不但變成拿刀砍我的女人，更加在童桐面前被貨車撞成血肉模糊。1182Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2t3Z3U9ZIE
1182Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeHjUboyjdm
「佢唔會嬲你啦。」我把狗骨頭放到床頭，輕輕擁住童桐，「佢一定等緊你返去同佢玩，搓佢肚肚。」1182Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGfD6zTiABF
1182Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFuWWRiMe7D
「我係唔係癲左？呀遊，我…」1182Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1EyR9gmQC6
1182Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡET7SthvSI7
「你唔係。」我親吻她的頭髮，「等打完風我會同你去睇醫生。」1182Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7d4N8pW6HO
1182Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOSVz7l6GoY
「…我唔想入青山…」童桐是認真的感到恐懼。1182Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNsEdBRbbAp
1182Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡllPkU9sV8K
我笑道：「點會，只係見下社工，心理咨詢之類，記唔記得睇戲個種，坐係度同你傾計就收你貴一貴個種，哈哈。」1182Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoc5SoGG89c
1182Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbBi0GX0iFg
「…嗯…呀遊，今晚可唔可以開燈訓？」1182Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvr6kEmuJAL
1182Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ5jFkWlcWd
「梗係可以。」1182Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqaFMoHFzIy
1182Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNHEfuzmP6D
「講個秘密你知。」1182Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwGtzxXLVtu
1182Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡllb4QxMkVb
「仲有咩秘密我係唔知？」我說。1182Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYtLsukWBfe
1182Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUVmLi8JqRF
「其實我驚狗。」1182Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8PN2nMJsGl
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「下？」1182Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwccacPGQci
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童桐說：「記唔記得細個，有一次我媽咪黎探我，我覺得佢唔想見我就離家出走出左後山個度涼亭度？」1182Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFssUqtvYAD
1182Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUFF98xKsYg
「哦個次，你仲偷偷地收埋學校個種膠水飯盒添。」我說，那次我上山找童桐，結果和她一起被狗追，還好我爸找到我們。1182Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaaMh4olpVA
1182Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡag1gOXVrU7
「個次咪俾野狗追既，好在叔叔救左我同你…我個次之後就好驚狗。」童桐說，「所以我好珍惜亞基，難得我唔會驚佢，但我諗都應該係因為你…所以我唔想自己以後都驚佢…」1182Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa1VQBU0GcA
1182Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5XZ5q6m5GB
「慢慢克服。」我說，「我…我細個都驚坐過山車喇，依加咪又唔驚。」1182Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJuHYfTLAXa
1182Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb61iptBYVM
不過原理應該不一樣。1182Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡteT24vbh5V
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「咕嚕…」童桐肚子悶響。1182Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsamO36zmEa
1182Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz4WtOG714i
「…童桐，你上次食野係幾時？」1182Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsJYZpElQsN
1182Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgHJcusfUSy
「係差館，菁婷小姐買左兩餸飯俾我。」1182Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYvuK1YYdgp
1182Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnBgoIcsRyq
「你依加肚餓？我去煮野俾你食。」1182Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFT1VPNxgiw
1182Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhXDW6oXSHu
「唔啦。」童桐搖搖頭，「刷左牙，唔想刷多次。」1182Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnc5rRYBAhi
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看她心情也吃不下吧，還是不要強逼她好。1182Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlJ5i2t0hMu
1182Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOSnX6gSd4Q
童桐成個人都憔悴了不少，很難想像一個人在一晚之間能這樣落魄，下午和她去放亞基時她還精神奕奕，傍晚出事到現在凌晨，童桐卻已經變成了一個愁眉不展，鬱鬱不歡的少女，看著我便心痛。1182Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmaXDmh5Ewd
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我真的好想她能高高興興，像過去十多年一樣。1182Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOHDyi3Yb8e
1182Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡypdhnjawKo
我緊緊抱住她，她沒有回抱，但也沒有抗拒。1182Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7X9YEf994M
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「唔好有事，童桐，求下你。」我在她耳邊說。1182Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjsfQC6KYDx
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「……」她卻沒有回應。1182Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBrm27PzYpr
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只要颱風一過去，便帶童桐去看醫生。1182Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWWqLYdk1qz
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這和傷風感冒是一樣的，都只不過是病。1182Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVz5XxPxXNg
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只要是病而不是甚麼不治之症，便能治，也必需要治。1182Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQuyIaIXChZ
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「…三號風球預計於明日日間大部分時間維持，天文台預計超強颱風氣槽將於明晚凌晨時份改掛八號風球。天文台形容，超強颱風氣槽風力強勁，速度緩慢，結構完整，堪稱完美風暴Prefect Storm.」1182Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAMA8xixuqn
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只要風球一過，我便要帶童桐去看醫生。1182Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7qXH2MDWge
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「…繼續返黎我地既節目。」電台主持人接話。1182Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdbaUvZfQpB
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「即使風暴再強，即使風暴再完美，都唔好忘記晴天就在烏雲之後守候。」他帶有磁性的聲音格外叫我聽得入神。1182Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM6JALYe2zB
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「世界上或者有所謂既完美風暴。但係唔會有永恆既暴風雨。風暴再完美，都會消散既一日。」1182Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe8BT2E4QwK
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「風暴再完美，我地都要記住總會再次見到晴天。」1182Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡagJGVEtSKu
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眼角泛淚。1182Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb387A589AI
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「呀遊？」童桐問。1182Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9LWgFzsaRa
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「…無事。」我把眼角輕蹭到童桐身上，感受著她的心跳，她的脈動。1182Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFVoMtsIbM1
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在我失去意識墜入夢鄉前我聽到電台在放著一首歌，最後的歌詞也呼應著窗外的完美風暴，我也擅自將之代入到我們的困境中。1182Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyorMmYg2eD
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／／還能互安慰1182Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI9YmofDaWO
不必天氣多清朗1182Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3xyaaSIMRO
狂雨暴雪一起對抗1182Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeHPwMSUXZZ
任歲月再壞 不致心慌／／
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第二天早上，屋中卻只有冷清。1182Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5eAAWI4XaE
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床上只剩我一個人，我打開童桐家中每一扇門，爺爺嫲嫲在聽著粵曲，卻沒有童桐的身影。甚至有亞基在的我家，也沒有童桐的身影。
童桐不見了。
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