夢醒來了。1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrwueQ8aALY
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不論是昨天的那個。1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtJTncRTpzH
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還是從孩童時期開始的那個。1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTKa5iuhZ2M
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早上８時。1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGEtt4yTIvZ
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「嗶嗶嗶，嗶嗶嗶！」1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz2uuwpmqX9
1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTTYoOt0E8J
我拍熄鬧鐘，結果它自動轉成了收音機。1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡslOMCge5ay
1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgL6CYSzfRt
「斯里蘭卡經濟一夜間突然崩潰，有專家以”雪崩＂形容，根據外電報道…」1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5fMTqwj4ri
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直接拔電！1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu80pibhT4t
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房中又回歸了平靜，我把電池扔到一旁，喘一口氣躺回床上。1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtz8a4LL4VE
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這下子該怎麼辦？我扶扶額頭，以眼角餘光望向躺在我旁邊全身赤裸的妍妍，沒想到最後我和她還是越過了那一線。1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3Bl8Eypki7
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本來應該是目標達成，處男畢業，我應該歡呼才對，但現在心頭更多的卻是不安。1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ9V8HpGVZ4
1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaJtkVSXuyp
明明沒有對不起任何人，我又為何這樣動搖？我的良心為何在責難我？1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3JXtDZTD8Z
1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGDTIIYIYia
我聽從了自己的感覺行動和妍妍渡過了這一春宵，現在本應消失的另一個盤算卻好像冤魂不散似的，要把我從內撕裂！昨晚的躊躇沈澱成劇毒，鑽入我的骨髓中折磨著我！1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk5hzuSqMyk
1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz3mIg5ps83
…總之，先穿回褲子洗個臉吧。1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWQ8DSASFtO
1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡneqEkw0kkx
我到床尾執回自己的褲子和內褲穿好，跑到浴室胡亂梳洗一下。已經接近枯萎的體力經過一晚的睡眠後已回到了最低水平，至少現在能站穩。1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr6EC6xbyYB
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妍妍還沒醒呢，她也筋疲力盡了吧。1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4Qhp0lcYak
1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9h7vH3llYE
感覺現在跑掉會使情況更加糟糕，所以我在妍妍家廚房搜索了一輪，然後熟練地煮起了早餐。油香四溢，感覺這早上要多吃點蛋白質補充一下。1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnHcZpkSzgE
1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1gCRfToLpI
親身上陣比想像中更累人啊。1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKPr4Ofx9wb
1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlA4bNPbA1K
不知道是香氣還是聲音，妍妍從睡房中探出頭來：「嘩，第一次事後朝早有人煮埋早餐俾我食。」1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡivV3D6TnCU
1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr5Bh7LCYbW
再炒一隻蛋。1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl9UBBYEdTe
1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRPQv5Ri8C1
「煮慣晒。」我說，「希望岩你食，我係你間屋只搵到呢Ｄ。」1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ29zPhl5iz8
1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI3O7rgC66L
「哦，我買返黎放架咋，我本身懶煮飯。」1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ785iOUvKj0
1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmnbCMBULT2
「你去刷牙洗面先，就搞掂。」1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuLOVCDvJ98
1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyfEOJjUSjS
再再炒一隻蛋好了。1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtyxXvuGQG0
1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ13qu70DBJv
把早餐擺好，將幾乎全新的圍巾掛回原處後我坐下來等正在梳洗的妍妍。1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9FzwJnhn0H
1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqMc8VASQGw
……屋中靜得耳朵發痛，這已經不是安靜。1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVID9VdC564
1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdJKMEpw7SF
這是冷清。1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ6KZmYjYYb
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當中的分別是…我們的家，我們居住的空間或多或少也有一些和我們掛勾的東西，飾物之類吧。我屋有我和童桐的合照，亞基成長的照片，我拿過的獎牌獎盃。無論是童桐的毛公仔，Beta的飛機杯，程太家中的刺繡之類，除了是一個空間外，家應該是我們留下歲月痕跡的地方。1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuje9UH1SAA
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但這兒…甚麼也沒有。1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAbPMfAIOeD
1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrh3YxIO45M
牆上是空的，廚櫃的調味料連包裝也沒有打開，電視櫃內的遙控已經封塵。1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4EnJcJBUiJ
1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtJYyvag1vU
相比起「家」，妍妍的這個單位我更覺得像是一個戲棚，只是裝成家的樣子，但根本只有表象，內在…1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXTJpTRfLCT
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…甚麼也沒有。1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYnP08Zx7C5
1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH30hNr2FMX
這就是我所感受到的「冷清」，按我媽的說法就是沒有「人氣」吧。1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxTNEnzFjH4
1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgNfkXg4MYc
正常來說準備好早餐後我應該會玩著手機等她，但是現在我對自己的手機只感到恐懼。手機還躺在豆袋沙發上吹著冷氣，早就因為電池耗盡而黑屏。1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAObgdTKEDn
1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhBf8pswMRY
不過叉電線就在手機旁邊不到兩米，手機只要一插便能復活，但我卻不敢這樣做。1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcWVi8boxBX
1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIqhX5yzxwl
爸媽先不說，童桐會有多少個未接來電，未讀訊息？1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNcWXS6lk8n
1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4I98yjNUbw
明明妍妍說叫我別再理童桐，我就是沒法…真的沒辦法。1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuAWnVzg6ML
1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiN9XGhfwrL
「唉。」我嘆一口氣，因為打從心底覺得自己無藥可救1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDQvGzAPPdp
1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8x4zQ9ZW9a
「晨早流流唉聲嘆氣做咩？」化好淡妝的妍妍冷不勝防地從後出現環抱著我，從後把頭輕輕枕到我肩上。1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzJ2vVNyyqS
1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR8gHGYNU62
「哦無，我驚亞基無早餐食拆屋。」我撒謊。1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3qnlwbnfOV
1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsxrdAMnSgx
「……」妍妍表情微妙，然後放開我站起來，「收音機既電，你拆既？」1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi7PW2EvCBI
1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPMhxvF3Hik
我苦笑：「我對斯里蘭卡經濟雪崩無咩興趣。」1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡicSVyrdCvq
1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzyjtYCFdR3
「你撳呢度就熄到。」她把裝好電池的收音機型鬧鐘展示給我看，「我啊…自己一個人住，有時候全日都唔會同人講野，咁亦代表全日都唔會聽到人講野，所以我好似d老人家咁。部收音機除左做鬧鐘，夜晚有時都會聽下等間屋無咁靜，係唔係…好老套？」1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYoVU7i8Wzl
1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6WMGbKogN6
字句中，滲透著落寞。1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡes24EfVJ2y
1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyVN6dvZp2C
剛剛屋中的冷寂感浮現腦海。1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx7Tr3oIFml
1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEYYqcH4oxj
回想起剛剛她說有人為她寫早餐，那份發自內心的喜悅和喜出望外…1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5iNH58tWU3
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…叫我心痛。1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNIXWznxdCT
1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1LhxlOu8JO
「點會老土啫。」我說，「今時今日一天都係衛星，我仲練緊射箭喔？」1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSa53FPrK9H
1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLgOzPOeaVF
妍妍吃笑：「依加我知你射野叻啦…我地都就黎俾１０後叫阿姨，食早餐啦，唔使等我…咁多炒蛋?」1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGSeoKRLyNa
1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoz2rONFB1e
「易整。」1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3O6cQ7qjc8
1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcuyOZOLSDm
我把那句以形補形吞回肚中。1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzRms90JWZC
1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9CpE3Q5gNf
妍妍與我都好像有種默契：誰也不正面提及昨晚的事，誰也不確認我們現在的關係，直到早餐完結為止我們都處於這種曖昧狀態之中。
終於連碗也洗完，我和她坐到沙發上，她摟住我的手臂把頭靠到我肩上。1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOTHo1S86ug
1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD0OxzOOijw
「……」1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5VhsQpjIPv
1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNCX587B7ys
「……」1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJDDpFQzqn5
1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd0Uj2YhTRN
我們都不願打破這寧靜。1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCVDq10RgEo
1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnCnFbU3lJa
我是她的甚麼人？她是我的甚麼人？朋友？但我們有這種關係；性伴？但我們只有過一晚這種關係；一夜情？我又不覺得止步於這種關係；情侶？我們誰也沒有向過對方表白，甚至—1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf2qgVfTvmZ
1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaJgCCDCuyW
—甚至知道我們對彼此都沒有愛情。1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoQ6D3V9AVZ
1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyuM8jCr2X1
她只是想找人提供一個肩膊，一種慰藉；我只是想找機會鬆開煞車，試圖否定童桐是我的世界中心。1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaVDLVnLFDt
1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiPpz1vL69A
老天，我做了甚麼。1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwFX3ulUrxe
1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7kJI1gisOn
感覺糟透了，我指心理上，五味雜陳也沒法形容現在我的感受，好像把所有人際關係塞進攪拌機打成一團然後喝掉，不難喝，但味道過於複雜混沌，難以陳述。1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgycHlhAj9E
1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpEpHMDWu2j
「之後…你有咩打算？」我先開口，感覺在沒有感情基礎下和她有了這種關係，有點佔她便宜，所以我心中或多或少有種負責任的感覺，剛剛那頓早餐是，現在先行開口也是，我希望使她感受到我的關心。1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6V1gDA6k6R
1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWohtpiuu2G
「…我應該唔再做ＰＴＧＦ。」1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhjtHlCCP4J
1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT0CScGepWq
「都好既，你係唔係就畢業？」妍妍比我大一年。1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA24PZ2VqsW
1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCCRKDRTlak
「就快。」她說，「諗緊…都係唔搵工住。」1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyT9vxSRcU4
1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9CKadeAl5N
「抖下先？」1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMRiU397Wak
1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw6MgFfawmz
「嗯，我可能去個長旅行， Working Holidays之類。」她說，「我都唔知，我個人無咩計劃，可能話過去咁多年…我都無任何方向，得過且過，依加有種從新出發既感覺。」1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtXtoOpoXQG
1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlkoRT7iAHe
她口中沒有一絲自由的喜悅，我想起情聖說看到我鎖定目標卯盡全力的身姿。我和妍妍可能有類似的過去，但我們的背影大概不一樣吧。1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWcvOKT6QV8
1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQHZHjw0Cba
「你會搵到既。」1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrWH2BYfE72
1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKb1VMohYku
「…你唔係會同我一齊既咩。」妍妍卻說。1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkaDdZMM7wM
1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu2cHMIV9Ml
「……」1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdkthp5icDW
1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQTnJTRQyGf
「其他人即使岩Feel，我信任佢…都未至於做到呢個地步。」她說，「你對我黎講已經係…最特別既人，呀遊。」1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaT5jCt7mBc
1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfa9ZCuXWmS
妍妍已經說得好婉轉了，現在她已經把交球權交到我手上。1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd4RiNasBXr
1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡctSaJfUQ0N
她閃亮的眼神，又有點期待，又有點害怕。1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnuRHZ4GX6w
1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6VPE36RYBE
「…對唔住。」1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv9sJ6tqjOK
1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzvn5dxEd5D
她先是默靜了片刻。1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCwSsleVUfW
1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyIA4mFdgTE
「點解要道歉？」1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwGuVdRsA3X
1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnur6zg7Cga
我搖頭說：「如果你想我同你起一齊，我好榮幸，係我修到既福氣，我亦都好樂意，搵一日我會正式向你再表白一次，然後正式係一樣…」1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPn6tPiJavA
1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNlZfc9aB88
她嘴角揚起。1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEGyzxpUdUt
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「…但係。」1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5VukSgwTaZ
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她嘴角塌下。1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYvuoaNm70w
1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ4PheocGc5
「我心入面仲有童桐，我仲未完全放低到佢，當然我可以呃住自己再呃埋你同你一齊，但我…唔想咁對你，我唔可以明知道自己仲掛住佢既情況下同你係埋一齊。」1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOwRcEAdBTn
1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWSbcWgaNkS
「………」我未見過妍妍這樣抑鬱的臉。1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzjQl323WBm
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那不但是傷心，更加是絕望，對上一次看到這表情是在被核彈爆破的植嵐晨臉上。1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7S024pjozk
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糟糕糟糕糟糕糟糕糟糕糟糕！1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpKUpb56FGh
1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡofpiRTjLzy
發現自己鑄成大錯的我手足無措：「我，我，我會努力去忘記佢…然後同你係埋一齊！你你你俾少少時間，我處理好我同童桐之間既事，我就會…」1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1CpkUdOKxb
1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqdw7VsK04w
「你唔好呃人，馬川遊。」妍妍冷冷地說，她眼中充滿了冰冷。1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG1xcUTkKIL
1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7BQYPmSiuz
…我就說了，我從來不是甚麼好人。1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7a26dlZCm9
1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfRAHpLbbOv
「我無呃你，我會努力忘記佢…」1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsT2NZfZaIB
1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDCCwwYHEsd
「你係度呃緊既唔係我，係你自己。」妍妍凝視著我說。1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHdwciS7gaF
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「……」我無言以對。1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrv4dJmbc5z
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「我都係過來人，我都曾經同你都一樣，曾經將一個人視為我既一切，我既全部！」她痛心地掩著胸口說，「根本無可能！無論過幾耐都無可能忘記到！你唔止想呃我！仲要連自己都呃埋！！」1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnaGTIUH568
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回音在寧靜的房間中激蕩，窗邊花瓶折射的晨光也如凝結了一樣。1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUqfPBUy5qf
1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlEveyu0TUC
「……我…」我沒法斬釘截鐵的否定她。1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMqGCbucy5I
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由於壓制率不足，呀遊處於兩頭唔到岸的心理狀況
1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ5s3UrV58l
「我唔想做衰人。」妍妍說，「唔好搞到我逼你係我同佢之間揀一個咁。」1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJpk9CNgTQU
1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa1BUMYT9cA
不，童桐沒有錯，妍妍也沒有錯。1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡALRD4ommjK
1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAVAyZ4M2wy
錯的只是我罷了。1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQJcZEfwtsj
1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcFsQQvIVOj
我才是那個最該死的垃圾，沒想到連我也有成為渣男，賤男的一天。1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7OfhY2irPQ
1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0hKTfYYVgs
「我本來就唔期望你會放得低佢。」妍妍黯然地說，「…我係度期望咩啫…唔通你真係會放低佢…然後同我一齊咩。我只係個PTGF…俾錢就可以擁有既人…童桐係你眼中係完美女神…由細玩到大既青梅竹馬，我又點及得上佢…」1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnaFUwXSeck
1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzTgZQecQXW
一連串的喃喃自語我盡數聽到耳中，本來打算安慰妍妍的我，在一晚的縱慾後成為了傷害她的另一個混蛋。1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb52xHhRIU4
1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHEbkhhh7NX
老實說，我希望妍妍痛揍我一頓，這樣我心可能會好過一點。1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWGnk3ww3sB
1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgL4xyouHAN
我連說抱歉也覺得更抱歉，我不知道可以怎麼辦，果然沒有感情基礎就不應該在這兒過這一晚嗎。1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsydkjDP8PC
1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUNKKSfY2yi
這種級別的關係困境，已經不是我可以解決得了。1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmyPDaZX5V4
1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy9nvLzuZ2M
面如死灰的我走向手機插回叉電線，開機。1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡINIZhtEraU
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未讀訊息：７1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpHZrdDbTnM
［來自阿媽的２個未讀訊息］1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8REynmEVp3
［來自童桐的４個未讀訊息］1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmxvfD8VOIP
［來自英姐的１個未讀訊息］1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjJAZDxgDmG
1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ55gcba9Q5v
我通通無視，打開Beta情聖所在的群組，輸入：「黑色警報，集合時間２３００」1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1hPhyI7ZXc
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[OK] Beta1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvuNUACZK8i
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[黑色！？你唔同童桐一齊左咩，ＯＫ喇不過，不過個個時間我應該睇緊大瀑布未必收到漫遊]在渡蜜月的情聖。1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2aKUP9DuYK
1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6iU1DdUWkP
加拿大時差是１２小時，但情聖還是照樣答應。1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡno0tWJ3els
1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8jemqUHBVI
鎖機後我轉身坐回妍妍身邊，她臉上的愁雲慘霧沒有消散過，看到她這樣我也很難過。1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡogTDCvcVDy
1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2tAxozSKPG
「…」喃喃自語完畢的她看著我，然後說，「我唔係個Ｄ…依加我係你既人，你就要負責任個種，其實尋晚對我黎講只係好平常。只係…你知唔知自己想點？呀遊。」1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPQ9HP7QxRN
1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVjN1VmNt4G
平日那個成熟知性的她似乎回來了些許。1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡixIgfzNHSO
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不，好似不對勁？1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsBacQGiz5U
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「…我唔想你傷心。」我說出心底話。1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh5Df6hx6Jb
1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnuAv8EJGcT
和童桐平日的那種一哭二罵三掀桌比，妍妍的確是在我和認真討論我們之間的關係。1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMPvb7Eq8Il
1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwUQDQg4juW
「但係我又放低唔到童桐。」這也是心底話。1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVUpz3pkTfw
1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRWIyHWeQg6
「我亦唔想你扭曲自己，一邊掛住童桐而硬夾同我係一齊。」她苦笑,「點可以要你放低一個你愛既人，同一個你唔愛既人一齊？如果係咁，我就好自私。」1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXyhTyyi3jb
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但我可能是。1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8KA9al5Njf
1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6FmOyP7NCP
「…你真係好好。」我說，「唉，我尋晚…或者真係唔應該…」1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3iHE1NANjM
1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡps46Vbgf3T
老實說我那時也是十五十六，可能沒這樣少，大概是七十多對八十多吧。1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1g1M7ii5dh
1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3g4xScgMb8
「我尋晚好開心，喊得好痛快，之後…都好享受。」她說，「你唔使覺得後悔。」1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYd0yjEr06Z
1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaCNWu8RhYy
「…但我依加好似對你唔住咁。」我說，「明明無打算同你係一齊，但又同你…」1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqWzeWYnDiz
1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2Fu6w2UaLI
「我本來就唔應該期望你放得低佢，依加咁樣我都有份自己攞黎。」她哭著搖頭說，「其實我都唔知自己對你係咩感覺。」1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkE37SnOmKX
1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu87gF8jmVD
解決辦法我真的想不到。1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx1Kpe5eaAw
1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZWmqxf7FCl
但接下來妍妍的那一句，重擊了我的心坎。1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡonOcmommMM
1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa7DelPk0kW
「但係你再咁樣…我怕我真係會鐘意左你，呀遊。」
1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBJotYsTJHd
1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6ZGZ36OHbf
和妍妍在一起，我便扭曲了自己，即使我自己願意也辦不到，她也不樂見。1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLq9X9LGLey
1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzgRW62RDfB
放棄妍妍，我和她之間的關係更加是不知所謂，而且我也成為了傷害她的人。1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ35PcU1YE7o
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我們已經走到了死胡同。1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqWqvb7pEK1
1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuoVyYZVNKB
「記唔記得尋日我話童桐一定有一個原因先唔做你女朋友?」妍妍說,「就好似你依加唔同我一齊既原因係童桐一樣。」1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡht5xOtzwkA
1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS8ytIDmAgR
「…嗯。」1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSSPxJbP27l
1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXIJxIOWeyg
「或者你應該搞清楚呢個原因係咩，先至再諗我同你之後點算。」妍妍說。1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0gUd5KJlWa
1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVMasNrYzLF
不，我知道她在打甚麼主意。1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0egPCtpg1Q
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「個原因係咩，我都唔會放棄童…」1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw9y6iVguAO
1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAdHpdh96PJ
「你諗清楚先好講。」妍妍瞬速打斷我的狂言。1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMGIKQ4kycd
1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlQHj7ogpW6
「…」1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJR7Sth8iz7
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「你咩意思。」1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgCYfGMyNJW
1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4vgrbUSOJ1
「對我黎講，你唔同我一齊既原因就係童桐。」妍妍說，「佢既原因係咁既份量，咁既級數，而且我同你之間係無感情基礎，而你，童桐兩個之間係有，佢咁都拒絕你…佢個個原因既嚴重程度，恐怕超乎你想像。」1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQcgYS2cxjd
1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4KUwej4aEB
「……」我突然心中生畏。1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyWALLYI4uY
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到底是…甚麼的理由？1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQS0nnu7cLR
1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxmO5pPowhm
妍妍有著情聖一樣對於人際關係的洞悉和掌握，她的分析合理得叫我恐慌。1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUWKVmt8ck2
1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlr8Qkm5Udh
「所以到時你搞清楚決定放棄童桐既。」她欺近我身前，「我又未必會肯同你一齊，你準備繼續打飛機喇，Ａ０遊。」1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0fBTMFgSoz
1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcafrsIVZsq
…妍妍竟然…1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ54IdH5vsG8
1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw1sg2TUh77
「…多謝你。」我已經明白了她的心意。1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsn5SDlFfEx
1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjSDMq3fu93
「嗄？做咩無啦啦多謝我，我，我要脅緊你喎，我，我明明笑緊你A０，做咩…」1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBI13fspLOg
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她只是在給我一個下台階。1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡALd7oM0NfI
1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4c2XYDiaxq
妍妍為了我不要這樣苦惱，故意叫我去查清童桐的那個原因，使我不用繼續在這死胡同中打轉，使我可以繼續前進，不用理會她，掌握著所謂的初心，所謂的理想，所謂的目標志向初衷決意真愛！！1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8cjGnl3AQb
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那麼。1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHpBn69BsaC
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當下困在迷宮之中的人。1147Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkflCgAZjgQ
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便只剩下妍妍自己。
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