夢醒來了。1216Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVKEfu0xlGl
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不論是昨天的那個。1216Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRUAeoVmHVO
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還是從孩童時期開始的那個。1216Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡituQwJXxsF
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早上８時。1216Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzPhAIuRqNY
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「嗶嗶嗶，嗶嗶嗶！」1216Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW565Xlunds
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我拍熄鬧鐘，結果它自動轉成了收音機。1216Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGjxJHYC9O2
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「斯里蘭卡經濟一夜間突然崩潰，有專家以”雪崩＂形容，根據外電報道…」1216Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFqhHErn2mF
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直接拔電！1216Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU9oFatB8cc
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房中又回歸了平靜，我把電池扔到一旁，喘一口氣躺回床上。1216Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOv7wU6CrSU
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這下子該怎麼辦？我扶扶額頭，以眼角餘光望向躺在我旁邊全身赤裸的妍妍，沒想到最後我和她還是越過了那一線。1216Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB3xkUoNgev
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本來應該是目標達成，處男畢業，我應該歡呼才對，但現在心頭更多的卻是不安。1216Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtgoxa3zLGa
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明明沒有對不起任何人，我又為何這樣動搖？我的良心為何在責難我？1216Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9eCXQsUJER
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我聽從了自己的感覺行動和妍妍渡過了這一春宵，現在本應消失的另一個盤算卻好像冤魂不散似的，要把我從內撕裂！昨晚的躊躇沈澱成劇毒，鑽入我的骨髓中折磨著我！1216Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9nm50HWpXa
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…總之，先穿回褲子洗個臉吧。1216Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUAqYoBM0AS
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我到床尾執回自己的褲子和內褲穿好，跑到浴室胡亂梳洗一下。已經接近枯萎的體力經過一晚的睡眠後已回到了最低水平，至少現在能站穩。1216Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ89bEjcFb86
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妍妍還沒醒呢，她也筋疲力盡了吧。1216Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuvPxd5hlQ0
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感覺現在跑掉會使情況更加糟糕，所以我在妍妍家廚房搜索了一輪，然後熟練地煮起了早餐。油香四溢，感覺這早上要多吃點蛋白質補充一下。1216Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqHU8VUuBGR
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親身上陣比想像中更累人啊。1216Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmvwnh0qm5u
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不知道是香氣還是聲音，妍妍從睡房中探出頭來：「嘩，第一次事後朝早有人煮埋早餐俾我食。」1216Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5SKpxIxUGa
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再炒一隻蛋。1216Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY8WeksBhsu
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「煮慣晒。」我說，「希望岩你食，我係你間屋只搵到呢Ｄ。」1216Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWIx7yae003
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「哦，我買返黎放架咋，我本身懶煮飯。」1216Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi3URwsHqoy
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「你去刷牙洗面先，就搞掂。」1216Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt7dFKeimTk
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再再炒一隻蛋好了。1216Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsVpsm0vl3f
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把早餐擺好，將幾乎全新的圍巾掛回原處後我坐下來等正在梳洗的妍妍。1216Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuXlK40XJFf
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……屋中靜得耳朵發痛，這已經不是安靜。1216Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡedpHkMlHoF
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這是冷清。1216Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVgkj5FsYgG
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當中的分別是…我們的家，我們居住的空間或多或少也有一些和我們掛勾的東西，飾物之類吧。我屋有我和童桐的合照，亞基成長的照片，我拿過的獎牌獎盃。無論是童桐的毛公仔，Beta的飛機杯，程太家中的刺繡之類，除了是一個空間外，家應該是我們留下歲月痕跡的地方。1216Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVA8bYMzOl4
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但這兒…甚麼也沒有。1216Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRl1S7Mi15U
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牆上是空的，廚櫃的調味料連包裝也沒有打開，電視櫃內的遙控已經封塵。1216Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGEf14AVBNB
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相比起「家」，妍妍的這個單位我更覺得像是一個戲棚，只是裝成家的樣子，但根本只有表象，內在…1216Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡprzUFiGfIQ
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…甚麼也沒有。1216Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6vTwMFA3fK
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這就是我所感受到的「冷清」，按我媽的說法就是沒有「人氣」吧。1216Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcdjZr1p7Fa
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正常來說準備好早餐後我應該會玩著手機等她，但是現在我對自己的手機只感到恐懼。手機還躺在豆袋沙發上吹著冷氣，早就因為電池耗盡而黑屏。1216Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUgXtT90kl9
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不過叉電線就在手機旁邊不到兩米，手機只要一插便能復活，但我卻不敢這樣做。1216Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD4LmjI9Y3H
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爸媽先不說，童桐會有多少個未接來電，未讀訊息？1216Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9LBIQ9oFhV
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明明妍妍說叫我別再理童桐，我就是沒法…真的沒辦法。1216Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5QdL3W3cRA
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「唉。」我嘆一口氣，因為打從心底覺得自己無藥可救1216Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5aVmbUGUR6
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「晨早流流唉聲嘆氣做咩？」化好淡妝的妍妍冷不勝防地從後出現環抱著我，從後把頭輕輕枕到我肩上。1216Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt0zzshdzm2
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「哦無，我驚亞基無早餐食拆屋。」我撒謊。1216Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYvJxIlwtFT
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「……」妍妍表情微妙，然後放開我站起來，「收音機既電，你拆既？」1216Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs96L3WonV7
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我苦笑：「我對斯里蘭卡經濟雪崩無咩興趣。」1216Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYO6ZUabJ9a
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「你撳呢度就熄到。」她把裝好電池的收音機型鬧鐘展示給我看，「我啊…自己一個人住，有時候全日都唔會同人講野，咁亦代表全日都唔會聽到人講野，所以我好似d老人家咁。部收音機除左做鬧鐘，夜晚有時都會聽下等間屋無咁靜，係唔係…好老套？」1216Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmVB5xwd5Oq
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字句中，滲透著落寞。1216Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkUin926n8s
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剛剛屋中的冷寂感浮現腦海。1216Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD9WJGaSStZ
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回想起剛剛她說有人為她寫早餐，那份發自內心的喜悅和喜出望外…1216Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMxfRNl2JVy
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…叫我心痛。1216Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPEWHP4hY3H
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「點會老土啫。」我說，「今時今日一天都係衛星，我仲練緊射箭喔？」1216Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiWtkzZio6h
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妍妍吃笑：「依加我知你射野叻啦…我地都就黎俾１０後叫阿姨，食早餐啦，唔使等我…咁多炒蛋?」1216Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8CDSPLXvEW
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「易整。」1216Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTMkBuzSAyk
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我把那句以形補形吞回肚中。1216Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIDnsQpOTfV
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妍妍與我都好像有種默契：誰也不正面提及昨晚的事，誰也不確認我們現在的關係，直到早餐完結為止我們都處於這種曖昧狀態之中。
終於連碗也洗完，我和她坐到沙發上，她摟住我的手臂把頭靠到我肩上。1216Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHY6lz0rMXX
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「……」1216Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRIeKt0B6sr
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「……」1216Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIqRZzdfpc4
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我們都不願打破這寧靜。1216Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNi5ibW7kr3
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我是她的甚麼人？她是我的甚麼人？朋友？但我們有這種關係；性伴？但我們只有過一晚這種關係；一夜情？我又不覺得止步於這種關係；情侶？我們誰也沒有向過對方表白，甚至—1216Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVsrsMhqHgM
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—甚至知道我們對彼此都沒有愛情。1216Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnPUC57UDtX
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她只是想找人提供一個肩膊，一種慰藉；我只是想找機會鬆開煞車，試圖否定童桐是我的世界中心。1216Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1fFo1Vxy7Y
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老天，我做了甚麼。1216Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrzrluofq03
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感覺糟透了，我指心理上，五味雜陳也沒法形容現在我的感受，好像把所有人際關係塞進攪拌機打成一團然後喝掉，不難喝，但味道過於複雜混沌，難以陳述。1216Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjPmpLaawJD
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「之後…你有咩打算？」我先開口，感覺在沒有感情基礎下和她有了這種關係，有點佔她便宜，所以我心中或多或少有種負責任的感覺，剛剛那頓早餐是，現在先行開口也是，我希望使她感受到我的關心。1216Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBzt0ByziUP
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「…我應該唔再做ＰＴＧＦ。」1216Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2X4Ta5GLBM
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「都好既，你係唔係就畢業？」妍妍比我大一年。1216Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWKUL7jBmS0
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「就快。」她說，「諗緊…都係唔搵工住。」1216Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4Xb9BuiV2x
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「抖下先？」1216Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh31T74wSUI
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「嗯，我可能去個長旅行， Working Holidays之類。」她說，「我都唔知，我個人無咩計劃，可能話過去咁多年…我都無任何方向，得過且過，依加有種從新出發既感覺。」1216Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkXrCGMxbZq
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她口中沒有一絲自由的喜悅，我想起情聖說看到我鎖定目標卯盡全力的身姿。我和妍妍可能有類似的過去，但我們的背影大概不一樣吧。1216Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmB7BQZPStP
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「你會搵到既。」1216Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVh6hclczuK
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「…你唔係會同我一齊既咩。」妍妍卻說。1216Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxGmzIVUcOF
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「……」1216Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5N5A9CE89s
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「其他人即使岩Feel，我信任佢…都未至於做到呢個地步。」她說，「你對我黎講已經係…最特別既人，呀遊。」1216Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuJakSlhoPX
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妍妍已經說得好婉轉了，現在她已經把交球權交到我手上。1216Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgfy8Hg0d5f
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她閃亮的眼神，又有點期待，又有點害怕。1216Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1zd9pvBgOu
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「…對唔住。」1216Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPGF8ZWUEbQ
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她先是默靜了片刻。1216Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbY2aew6b93
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「點解要道歉？」1216Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgdCHA6X9dg
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我搖頭說：「如果你想我同你起一齊，我好榮幸，係我修到既福氣，我亦都好樂意，搵一日我會正式向你再表白一次，然後正式係一樣…」1216Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMAU9z8PCEw
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她嘴角揚起。1216Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlhBr8ZBRRm
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「…但係。」1216Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlr35kYN7Tl
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她嘴角塌下。1216Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjw50CluDzw
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「我心入面仲有童桐，我仲未完全放低到佢，當然我可以呃住自己再呃埋你同你一齊，但我…唔想咁對你，我唔可以明知道自己仲掛住佢既情況下同你係埋一齊。」1216Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAgv9EmCf7S
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「………」我未見過妍妍這樣抑鬱的臉。1216Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLYAjcK6JTd
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那不但是傷心，更加是絕望，對上一次看到這表情是在被核彈爆破的植嵐晨臉上。1216Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIkBgbF4CWz
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糟糕糟糕糟糕糟糕糟糕糟糕！1216Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡElqyOpGjC7
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發現自己鑄成大錯的我手足無措：「我，我，我會努力去忘記佢…然後同你係埋一齊！你你你俾少少時間，我處理好我同童桐之間既事，我就會…」1216Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ65q7yEJ2Z4
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「你唔好呃人，馬川遊。」妍妍冷冷地說，她眼中充滿了冰冷。1216Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBUDblBOLQ1
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…我就說了，我從來不是甚麼好人。1216Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcyGDl887z8
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「我無呃你，我會努力忘記佢…」1216Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0P9n3a8fnz
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「你係度呃緊既唔係我，係你自己。」妍妍凝視著我說。1216Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHX3wH3BUtm
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「……」我無言以對。1216Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMEbfGbsSVQ
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「我都係過來人，我都曾經同你都一樣，曾經將一個人視為我既一切，我既全部！」她痛心地掩著胸口說，「根本無可能！無論過幾耐都無可能忘記到！你唔止想呃我！仲要連自己都呃埋！！」1216Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuR27bLHp3T
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回音在寧靜的房間中激蕩，窗邊花瓶折射的晨光也如凝結了一樣。1216Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2jDmsuFr5z
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「……我…」我沒法斬釘截鐵的否定她。1216Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXsEXv9VmBT
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由於壓制率不足，呀遊處於兩頭唔到岸的心理狀況
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「我唔想做衰人。」妍妍說，「唔好搞到我逼你係我同佢之間揀一個咁。」1216Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4xZyBBCMXA
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不，童桐沒有錯，妍妍也沒有錯。1216Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSz91MFxvF9
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錯的只是我罷了。1216Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJHOz6U9KGA
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我才是那個最該死的垃圾，沒想到連我也有成為渣男，賤男的一天。1216Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDOcygGlask
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「我本來就唔期望你會放得低佢。」妍妍黯然地說，「…我係度期望咩啫…唔通你真係會放低佢…然後同我一齊咩。我只係個PTGF…俾錢就可以擁有既人…童桐係你眼中係完美女神…由細玩到大既青梅竹馬，我又點及得上佢…」1216Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKYLmrANsvn
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一連串的喃喃自語我盡數聽到耳中，本來打算安慰妍妍的我，在一晚的縱慾後成為了傷害她的另一個混蛋。1216Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1XzxGIFdIf
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老實說，我希望妍妍痛揍我一頓，這樣我心可能會好過一點。1216Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrR3JOksZYX
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我連說抱歉也覺得更抱歉，我不知道可以怎麼辦，果然沒有感情基礎就不應該在這兒過這一晚嗎。1216Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2r1ncHWf32
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這種級別的關係困境，已經不是我可以解決得了。1216Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXd417e8awR
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面如死灰的我走向手機插回叉電線，開機。1216Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡciqsJL6Lpp
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未讀訊息：７1216Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMkch6uh9b5
［來自阿媽的２個未讀訊息］1216Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhZZD1BKNva
［來自童桐的４個未讀訊息］1216Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKrZKWN1Hzt
［來自英姐的１個未讀訊息］1216Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaGKjVN3hgi
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我通通無視，打開Beta情聖所在的群組，輸入：「黑色警報，集合時間２３００」1216Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQZTZga1Mnk
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[黑色！？你唔同童桐一齊左咩，ＯＫ喇不過，不過個個時間我應該睇緊大瀑布未必收到漫遊]在渡蜜月的情聖。1216Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmOc54VTYiL
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加拿大時差是１２小時，但情聖還是照樣答應。1216Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNb7Oqx0u1c
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鎖機後我轉身坐回妍妍身邊，她臉上的愁雲慘霧沒有消散過，看到她這樣我也很難過。1216Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcJ3LjrzAfE
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「…」喃喃自語完畢的她看著我，然後說，「我唔係個Ｄ…依加我係你既人，你就要負責任個種，其實尋晚對我黎講只係好平常。只係…你知唔知自己想點？呀遊。」1216Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsIDbOCKmO9
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平日那個成熟知性的她似乎回來了些許。1216Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBgEYverAJD
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不，好似不對勁？1216Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx7stcn12AZ
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「…我唔想你傷心。」我說出心底話。1216Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ5qDhGeZqr
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和童桐平日的那種一哭二罵三掀桌比，妍妍的確是在我和認真討論我們之間的關係。1216Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR3qKFFlwCq
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「但係我又放低唔到童桐。」這也是心底話。1216Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNVAPyn4mN6
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「我亦唔想你扭曲自己，一邊掛住童桐而硬夾同我係一齊。」她苦笑,「點可以要你放低一個你愛既人，同一個你唔愛既人一齊？如果係咁，我就好自私。」1216Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdXZq8gUwgq
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但我可能是。1216Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtUqvb8Nlvi
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「…你真係好好。」我說，「唉，我尋晚…或者真係唔應該…」1216Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2DweohNMDr
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老實說我那時也是十五十六，可能沒這樣少，大概是七十多對八十多吧。1216Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy6qxfSQNIR
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「我尋晚好開心，喊得好痛快，之後…都好享受。」她說，「你唔使覺得後悔。」1216Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXEsOeFtHGP
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「…但我依加好似對你唔住咁。」我說，「明明無打算同你係一齊，但又同你…」1216Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHFs6D7wiEa
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「我本來就唔應該期望你放得低佢，依加咁樣我都有份自己攞黎。」她哭著搖頭說，「其實我都唔知自己對你係咩感覺。」1216Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFXKC215zRN
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解決辦法我真的想不到。1216Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw4HTjPrGuv
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但接下來妍妍的那一句，重擊了我的心坎。1216Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6M76CmDYHs
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「但係你再咁樣…我怕我真係會鐘意左你，呀遊。」
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和妍妍在一起，我便扭曲了自己，即使我自己願意也辦不到，她也不樂見。1216Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2NzON80gFA
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放棄妍妍，我和她之間的關係更加是不知所謂，而且我也成為了傷害她的人。1216Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡua1u8yydu4
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我們已經走到了死胡同。1216Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡancFPRwKlK
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「記唔記得尋日我話童桐一定有一個原因先唔做你女朋友?」妍妍說,「就好似你依加唔同我一齊既原因係童桐一樣。」1216Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO5DLDGBh5G
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「…嗯。」1216Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD6Dk7EEfd5
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「或者你應該搞清楚呢個原因係咩，先至再諗我同你之後點算。」妍妍說。1216Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDcGecS25Be
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不，我知道她在打甚麼主意。1216Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe2DEWkAxFF
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「個原因係咩，我都唔會放棄童…」1216Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ58WnvtBD7D
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「你諗清楚先好講。」妍妍瞬速打斷我的狂言。1216Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqnfeE0LN6d
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「…」1216Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuAZgLtjiiZ
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「你咩意思。」1216Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTHvz16OQ8E
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「對我黎講，你唔同我一齊既原因就係童桐。」妍妍說，「佢既原因係咁既份量，咁既級數，而且我同你之間係無感情基礎，而你，童桐兩個之間係有，佢咁都拒絕你…佢個個原因既嚴重程度，恐怕超乎你想像。」1216Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLtZSGyLOty
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「……」我突然心中生畏。1216Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmMDGyzSLgE
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到底是…甚麼的理由？1216Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDBRI3TGOBi
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妍妍有著情聖一樣對於人際關係的洞悉和掌握，她的分析合理得叫我恐慌。1216Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgIL4XKYC9d
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「所以到時你搞清楚決定放棄童桐既。」她欺近我身前，「我又未必會肯同你一齊，你準備繼續打飛機喇，Ａ０遊。」1216Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxTIJwGMpVh
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…妍妍竟然…1216Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9TiIXTBXpO
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「…多謝你。」我已經明白了她的心意。1216Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXuvyUH03Md
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「嗄？做咩無啦啦多謝我，我，我要脅緊你喎，我，我明明笑緊你A０，做咩…」1216Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRZNH1N16id
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她只是在給我一個下台階。1216Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx378JbkwXt
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妍妍為了我不要這樣苦惱，故意叫我去查清童桐的那個原因，使我不用繼續在這死胡同中打轉，使我可以繼續前進，不用理會她，掌握著所謂的初心，所謂的理想，所謂的目標志向初衷決意真愛！！1216Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5l31PxkGhQ
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那麼。1216Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVcyerg4Ciy
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當下困在迷宮之中的人。1216Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjtCJzc0ugf
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便只剩下妍妍自己。
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