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我在書枱前呆了大半日。熱茶已涼，但我未嚐半口，心思都在眼前電腦屏幕上——剛輸入的文字不停被刪。字越少，心越亂，人越躁。532Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2cWjTrLR04
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不了。受不了。我離座往廚房換茶去。532Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtoVV1VYUlj
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廳中老妻瞄我半眼，大概知道發生甚麼事，沒有作聲，繼續看電視。我對她的不表態不勝感激——她以最聰明的方法維護我的尊嚴。532Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX6KbGmNYDL
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滾水撞上茶葉，水仙香氣隨著冉升白煙溢散開去。532Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWE9DXtoPbI
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壓力似乎一併消散。532Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX9h1ieYQsY
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茶盡。我再續杯。532Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2rX8IP71zV
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添茶不是長遠之計——屏幕白頁上始終沒有片言隻字。532Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0rcebA90jk
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嘆一口氣，慨嘆自己太天真可愛。怎麼會相信自己有寫作天分，而且一信就是幾十年。幾十年來，不停寫，不停發表，不停被無視。我只得不停安慰自己說旁人不識貨。532Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYiQT2gmuE3
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口不對心。心裡其實清楚自己料子如何。但我還是堅持寫下去。532Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6MRLtBWrFM
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是習慣、面子、尊嚴緣故，更是不想承認自己做了一個長達幾十年的白日夢。532Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ120IrXNFkX
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夢醒一場空。532Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTrETOExhAd
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我本平庸，無甚專長，唯獨寫作能力相對身邊友儕略高丁點。丁點而已，卻足以讓我樂透幾十年。532Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAvwS5xH9y4
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工作不順利時，我會告訴自己——我的專長不在工作上，所以被罵亦是無可厚非；人際關係不如意時，我會告訴自己——如果世人只能用文字溝通，我該是表達能力最好的人；走倒運時，我會告訴自己——我正在為快要誕生的偉大作品累積靈感……532Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOI09nA9m04
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一切都是有意義的。如果我真有寫作天分的話。532Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7UR1OKSfo5
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捧著熱茶回到座位。身在心在能力不在。532Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmYelRUZqgV
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在刺眼的屏幕白頁前，我又嘆一口氣。532Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwDSXXId4R8
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我不曾長大，仍是幾十年前那個我，沉浸在中文老師讚賞的我。同學們紛表羨慕我的寫作天份，請教我如何想出精彩故事、練出動人文筆。532Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2R5kALFjWh
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我沾沾自喜。532Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡawpELNMHob
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細心回想，我當時已覺竅門不在天分，而是努力。努力鑽研文字的運用，努力細味名著佳作當中的韻味，努力思考故事情節起伏，努力觀察分析人世百態……名副其實的將勤補拙。532Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUfP370Bu8J
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但我沒有向同學們坦白。532Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbxHcsTqInG
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因為我喜歡被讚賞的感覺。532Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyya2A1oLWw
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努力，努力，努力。532Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHEsRZ1ciND
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我的寫作技巧與日俱增，亦在多個學屆寫作比賽中獲獎。532Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7SxNZOpghz
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我以為自己將來鐵定能夠成為作家。532Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXGbgHntnSl
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以為。532Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGybivat3b0
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告別校園後，我成為一個普通文職。普通收入，普通打扮，普通生活。532Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkfiT5CaPMp
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普通得輕易被取代。普通得難以承受。532Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEKWgEZHb1d
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我不得不告訴自己我是多麼的有寫作天份！我是多麼的獨特！532Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvnjouMjgH7
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某夜下班回家，我泡了一壺水仙，乘著茶香全情投入寫作世界。沒有外物打擾，我的世界只有我。一切如願。那麼順心，那麼安寧，那麼快樂。532Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtIF8pPrilp
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我的作品感動了我。532Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhh50NcNwgy
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我希望藉此找到更多懂我的人。532Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtP0ApLpchI
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幾十年來，不停寫，不停發表，不停被無視。我的世界與真實世界不斷相互碰撞。面對無止境的打擊，我不曾問自己為何堅持。因為一旦心生此等疑問，變相在內心種下「自我質疑」的根苗，一發不可收拾。532Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNBSrHACHhS
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無法接受自己幾十年堅持建基於一個沒可能實現的夢想。532Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlRFRMuNEI0
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無法承受自己生來就是如此普通、平凡、平庸……532Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUZauYN9Cy7
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熱茶又涼了。532Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLJrC3NF4um
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屏幕白頁上始終沒有片言隻字。532Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpvKiwAIpUr
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老妻繼續以不表態維護我的尊嚴。532Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSYERAbHT18
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我的作品只感動了我。532Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ16OPgWwbVz
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因為我的感受只有我讀得懂。532Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs9zzXoZABG
