夢醒來了。1208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrVzltJgqwa
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不論是昨天的那個。1208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡchsV02MXxt
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還是從孩童時期開始的那個。1208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqlCWScQnDn
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早上８時。1208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ05kGQ2ITSf
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「嗶嗶嗶，嗶嗶嗶！」1208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7MrAlpB0o9
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我拍熄鬧鐘，結果它自動轉成了收音機。1208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJZJ2up0Zx5
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「斯里蘭卡經濟一夜間突然崩潰，有專家以”雪崩＂形容，根據外電報道…」1208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo7JLzySBbM
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直接拔電！1208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZWYtCf3nr5
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房中又回歸了平靜，我把電池扔到一旁，喘一口氣躺回床上。1208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡob25fjWIuu
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這下子該怎麼辦？我扶扶額頭，以眼角餘光望向躺在我旁邊全身赤裸的妍妍，沒想到最後我和她還是越過了那一線。1208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlly8s6hKae
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本來應該是目標達成，處男畢業，我應該歡呼才對，但現在心頭更多的卻是不安。1208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZIYdMYAFNP
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明明沒有對不起任何人，我又為何這樣動搖？我的良心為何在責難我？1208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPsSLx9nrTS
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我聽從了自己的感覺行動和妍妍渡過了這一春宵，現在本應消失的另一個盤算卻好像冤魂不散似的，要把我從內撕裂！昨晚的躊躇沈澱成劇毒，鑽入我的骨髓中折磨著我！1208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEVxzLiTPw2
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…總之，先穿回褲子洗個臉吧。1208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1Oc92OGgcK
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我到床尾執回自己的褲子和內褲穿好，跑到浴室胡亂梳洗一下。已經接近枯萎的體力經過一晚的睡眠後已回到了最低水平，至少現在能站穩。1208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcrWsUXlh5c
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妍妍還沒醒呢，她也筋疲力盡了吧。1208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZEzX3DTaSJ
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感覺現在跑掉會使情況更加糟糕，所以我在妍妍家廚房搜索了一輪，然後熟練地煮起了早餐。油香四溢，感覺這早上要多吃點蛋白質補充一下。1208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLMZAwBh3qJ
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親身上陣比想像中更累人啊。1208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBT87cNuEdW
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不知道是香氣還是聲音，妍妍從睡房中探出頭來：「嘩，第一次事後朝早有人煮埋早餐俾我食。」1208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsIIJPOUVQS
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再炒一隻蛋。1208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyCGzhlUTGH
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「煮慣晒。」我說，「希望岩你食，我係你間屋只搵到呢Ｄ。」1208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqRwVkmeDgS
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「哦，我買返黎放架咋，我本身懶煮飯。」1208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaJ6kC24I6V
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「你去刷牙洗面先，就搞掂。」1208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡauRDaNyxxm
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再再炒一隻蛋好了。1208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYdQKX0MHIj
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把早餐擺好，將幾乎全新的圍巾掛回原處後我坐下來等正在梳洗的妍妍。1208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHlHKD6A8uF
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……屋中靜得耳朵發痛，這已經不是安靜。1208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIHpeGkxgMT
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這是冷清。1208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlwndkY4VSZ
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當中的分別是…我們的家，我們居住的空間或多或少也有一些和我們掛勾的東西，飾物之類吧。我屋有我和童桐的合照，亞基成長的照片，我拿過的獎牌獎盃。無論是童桐的毛公仔，Beta的飛機杯，程太家中的刺繡之類，除了是一個空間外，家應該是我們留下歲月痕跡的地方。1208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgtcPe3BkMS
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但這兒…甚麼也沒有。1208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcVhiJrTCqG
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牆上是空的，廚櫃的調味料連包裝也沒有打開，電視櫃內的遙控已經封塵。1208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHwWrThgghA
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相比起「家」，妍妍的這個單位我更覺得像是一個戲棚，只是裝成家的樣子，但根本只有表象，內在…1208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3zv6Yk9Zqq
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…甚麼也沒有。1208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA9oMeZb69u
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這就是我所感受到的「冷清」，按我媽的說法就是沒有「人氣」吧。1208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiLhbHSW3Fw
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正常來說準備好早餐後我應該會玩著手機等她，但是現在我對自己的手機只感到恐懼。手機還躺在豆袋沙發上吹著冷氣，早就因為電池耗盡而黑屏。1208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE3lh2x6mFV
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不過叉電線就在手機旁邊不到兩米，手機只要一插便能復活，但我卻不敢這樣做。1208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6UQMmqryFy
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爸媽先不說，童桐會有多少個未接來電，未讀訊息？1208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp9p2uXcsiT
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明明妍妍說叫我別再理童桐，我就是沒法…真的沒辦法。1208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQkYg3AcoYB
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「唉。」我嘆一口氣，因為打從心底覺得自己無藥可救1208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6lnWSTBU2w
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「晨早流流唉聲嘆氣做咩？」化好淡妝的妍妍冷不勝防地從後出現環抱著我，從後把頭輕輕枕到我肩上。1208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyPqcONDWxr
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「哦無，我驚亞基無早餐食拆屋。」我撒謊。1208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNB5yAAwOQ9
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「……」妍妍表情微妙，然後放開我站起來，「收音機既電，你拆既？」1208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMhyhN4QYGa
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我苦笑：「我對斯里蘭卡經濟雪崩無咩興趣。」1208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKp2H12CR9i
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「你撳呢度就熄到。」她把裝好電池的收音機型鬧鐘展示給我看，「我啊…自己一個人住，有時候全日都唔會同人講野，咁亦代表全日都唔會聽到人講野，所以我好似d老人家咁。部收音機除左做鬧鐘，夜晚有時都會聽下等間屋無咁靜，係唔係…好老套？」1208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKPttdmqxbj
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字句中，滲透著落寞。1208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzUOqs9mHsX
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剛剛屋中的冷寂感浮現腦海。1208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4cfV1tOgoc
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回想起剛剛她說有人為她寫早餐，那份發自內心的喜悅和喜出望外…1208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl5Z0z6qGC2
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…叫我心痛。1208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB75HlE81tl
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「點會老土啫。」我說，「今時今日一天都係衛星，我仲練緊射箭喔？」1208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmrdOpvKPCH
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妍妍吃笑：「依加我知你射野叻啦…我地都就黎俾１０後叫阿姨，食早餐啦，唔使等我…咁多炒蛋?」1208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ519zRhszcH
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「易整。」1208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrcXlrzcImm
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我把那句以形補形吞回肚中。1208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVBnjyYRFcr
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妍妍與我都好像有種默契：誰也不正面提及昨晚的事，誰也不確認我們現在的關係，直到早餐完結為止我們都處於這種曖昧狀態之中。
終於連碗也洗完，我和她坐到沙發上，她摟住我的手臂把頭靠到我肩上。1208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡERl4razwrL
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「……」1208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyOoSdPfDzv
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「……」1208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUPLCJ3erjB
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我們都不願打破這寧靜。1208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4KAb5KNt5M
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我是她的甚麼人？她是我的甚麼人？朋友？但我們有這種關係；性伴？但我們只有過一晚這種關係；一夜情？我又不覺得止步於這種關係；情侶？我們誰也沒有向過對方表白，甚至—1208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrM7a7HKBQe
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—甚至知道我們對彼此都沒有愛情。1208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYwbqd8JiqO
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她只是想找人提供一個肩膊，一種慰藉；我只是想找機會鬆開煞車，試圖否定童桐是我的世界中心。1208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgqyI1iwJv9
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老天，我做了甚麼。1208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFAwRQH2i3Q
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感覺糟透了，我指心理上，五味雜陳也沒法形容現在我的感受，好像把所有人際關係塞進攪拌機打成一團然後喝掉，不難喝，但味道過於複雜混沌，難以陳述。1208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0kfWRdfNwL
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「之後…你有咩打算？」我先開口，感覺在沒有感情基礎下和她有了這種關係，有點佔她便宜，所以我心中或多或少有種負責任的感覺，剛剛那頓早餐是，現在先行開口也是，我希望使她感受到我的關心。1208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFf28MXITPS
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「…我應該唔再做ＰＴＧＦ。」1208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfEqGduaaZd
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「都好既，你係唔係就畢業？」妍妍比我大一年。1208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwUuuGLqGYn
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「就快。」她說，「諗緊…都係唔搵工住。」1208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxawgv46YD5
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「抖下先？」1208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW0wReheVCV
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「嗯，我可能去個長旅行， Working Holidays之類。」她說，「我都唔知，我個人無咩計劃，可能話過去咁多年…我都無任何方向，得過且過，依加有種從新出發既感覺。」1208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTnj2J9a6Gr
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她口中沒有一絲自由的喜悅，我想起情聖說看到我鎖定目標卯盡全力的身姿。我和妍妍可能有類似的過去，但我們的背影大概不一樣吧。1208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe7YEbwuaAF
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「你會搵到既。」1208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE0K4yV2zZC
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「…你唔係會同我一齊既咩。」妍妍卻說。1208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhxmS8OkcrX
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「……」1208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS2SAET08Uc
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「其他人即使岩Feel，我信任佢…都未至於做到呢個地步。」她說，「你對我黎講已經係…最特別既人，呀遊。」1208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQGLj3Tdxht
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妍妍已經說得好婉轉了，現在她已經把交球權交到我手上。1208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXDFEbgC765
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她閃亮的眼神，又有點期待，又有點害怕。1208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZW56DF5McS
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「…對唔住。」1208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqqRMnj2htD
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她先是默靜了片刻。1208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbskWJrsP2b
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「點解要道歉？」1208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhNcZNaiP6H
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我搖頭說：「如果你想我同你起一齊，我好榮幸，係我修到既福氣，我亦都好樂意，搵一日我會正式向你再表白一次，然後正式係一樣…」1208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTkCaHSXvql
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她嘴角揚起。1208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjtQSqhs6IX
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「…但係。」1208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhRPLLWxSA5
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她嘴角塌下。1208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1AiMgk9UYk
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「我心入面仲有童桐，我仲未完全放低到佢，當然我可以呃住自己再呃埋你同你一齊，但我…唔想咁對你，我唔可以明知道自己仲掛住佢既情況下同你係埋一齊。」1208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXb0JaRIo6T
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「………」我未見過妍妍這樣抑鬱的臉。1208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuBrb7xfeX6
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那不但是傷心，更加是絕望，對上一次看到這表情是在被核彈爆破的植嵐晨臉上。1208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAlf8D0kteV
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糟糕糟糕糟糕糟糕糟糕糟糕！1208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHvhr7J9XEA
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發現自己鑄成大錯的我手足無措：「我，我，我會努力去忘記佢…然後同你係埋一齊！你你你俾少少時間，我處理好我同童桐之間既事，我就會…」1208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq3COEr1dAo
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「你唔好呃人，馬川遊。」妍妍冷冷地說，她眼中充滿了冰冷。1208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeoVdYeqmo1
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…我就說了，我從來不是甚麼好人。1208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡshNO8Ex0Ve
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「我無呃你，我會努力忘記佢…」1208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBLjByQA94o
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「你係度呃緊既唔係我，係你自己。」妍妍凝視著我說。1208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOsCJkUs4aK
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「……」我無言以對。1208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5Fl36UNM4X
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「我都係過來人，我都曾經同你都一樣，曾經將一個人視為我既一切，我既全部！」她痛心地掩著胸口說，「根本無可能！無論過幾耐都無可能忘記到！你唔止想呃我！仲要連自己都呃埋！！」1208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMuPW3I8lRt
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回音在寧靜的房間中激蕩，窗邊花瓶折射的晨光也如凝結了一樣。1208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1dMnDFLwVO
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「……我…」我沒法斬釘截鐵的否定她。1208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnT3R1ppDM4
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由於壓制率不足，呀遊處於兩頭唔到岸的心理狀況
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「我唔想做衰人。」妍妍說，「唔好搞到我逼你係我同佢之間揀一個咁。」1208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSkFjsilNrt
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不，童桐沒有錯，妍妍也沒有錯。1208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgJznr04WSw
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錯的只是我罷了。1208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhifwKUdcTv
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我才是那個最該死的垃圾，沒想到連我也有成為渣男，賤男的一天。1208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRhFj6fwFTf
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「我本來就唔期望你會放得低佢。」妍妍黯然地說，「…我係度期望咩啫…唔通你真係會放低佢…然後同我一齊咩。我只係個PTGF…俾錢就可以擁有既人…童桐係你眼中係完美女神…由細玩到大既青梅竹馬，我又點及得上佢…」1208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ47ZjUz6p4c
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一連串的喃喃自語我盡數聽到耳中，本來打算安慰妍妍的我，在一晚的縱慾後成為了傷害她的另一個混蛋。1208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡweMBMIWJX6
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老實說，我希望妍妍痛揍我一頓，這樣我心可能會好過一點。1208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ1JpB7UjXd
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我連說抱歉也覺得更抱歉，我不知道可以怎麼辦，果然沒有感情基礎就不應該在這兒過這一晚嗎。1208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdIc7vC7Dul
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這種級別的關係困境，已經不是我可以解決得了。1208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEPF1BxQUtR
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面如死灰的我走向手機插回叉電線，開機。1208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq5B4cPoIdt
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未讀訊息：７1208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ2w2mai6Br
［來自阿媽的２個未讀訊息］1208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuoD6Ckx69f
［來自童桐的４個未讀訊息］1208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdRMWF3hYf3
［來自英姐的１個未讀訊息］1208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxZHl43MSnG
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我通通無視，打開Beta情聖所在的群組，輸入：「黑色警報，集合時間２３００」1208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRoKSw7EQiU
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[黑色！？你唔同童桐一齊左咩，ＯＫ喇不過，不過個個時間我應該睇緊大瀑布未必收到漫遊]在渡蜜月的情聖。1208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIBlQzZo5mc
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加拿大時差是１２小時，但情聖還是照樣答應。1208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh7SS5lshUx
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鎖機後我轉身坐回妍妍身邊，她臉上的愁雲慘霧沒有消散過，看到她這樣我也很難過。1208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF5wltFzyXc
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「…」喃喃自語完畢的她看著我，然後說，「我唔係個Ｄ…依加我係你既人，你就要負責任個種，其實尋晚對我黎講只係好平常。只係…你知唔知自己想點？呀遊。」1208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxgHL1fHoha
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平日那個成熟知性的她似乎回來了些許。1208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd5u6ZJtUfX
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不，好似不對勁？1208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQKHjpuwoGI
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「…我唔想你傷心。」我說出心底話。1208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNrpDdhxRvH
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和童桐平日的那種一哭二罵三掀桌比，妍妍的確是在我和認真討論我們之間的關係。1208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKcgZ7PJlIV
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「但係我又放低唔到童桐。」這也是心底話。1208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdUWSxNNsJS
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「我亦唔想你扭曲自己，一邊掛住童桐而硬夾同我係一齊。」她苦笑,「點可以要你放低一個你愛既人，同一個你唔愛既人一齊？如果係咁，我就好自私。」1208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnzTpaLbhnB
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但我可能是。1208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgdhQn2nBx1
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「…你真係好好。」我說，「唉，我尋晚…或者真係唔應該…」1208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8dEfuvTb4t
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老實說我那時也是十五十六，可能沒這樣少，大概是七十多對八十多吧。1208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGkkmKAR6mL
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「我尋晚好開心，喊得好痛快，之後…都好享受。」她說，「你唔使覺得後悔。」1208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaB7gL3Ek6l
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「…但我依加好似對你唔住咁。」我說，「明明無打算同你係一齊，但又同你…」1208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6OMkANbaxH
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「我本來就唔應該期望你放得低佢，依加咁樣我都有份自己攞黎。」她哭著搖頭說，「其實我都唔知自己對你係咩感覺。」1208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9VLIInaQOT
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解決辦法我真的想不到。1208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbsGXcTQUaM
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但接下來妍妍的那一句，重擊了我的心坎。1208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTKL7PbVbSu
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「但係你再咁樣…我怕我真係會鐘意左你，呀遊。」
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和妍妍在一起，我便扭曲了自己，即使我自己願意也辦不到，她也不樂見。1208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmvWLLkScWO
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放棄妍妍，我和她之間的關係更加是不知所謂，而且我也成為了傷害她的人。1208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEhpbcyf3O6
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我們已經走到了死胡同。1208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8fEu9gGySf
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「記唔記得尋日我話童桐一定有一個原因先唔做你女朋友?」妍妍說,「就好似你依加唔同我一齊既原因係童桐一樣。」1208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9fgkpcG0C5
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「…嗯。」1208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDoeh8aTVAN
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「或者你應該搞清楚呢個原因係咩，先至再諗我同你之後點算。」妍妍說。1208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMuIEN9O1H4
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不，我知道她在打甚麼主意。1208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7YGJ6StidK
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「個原因係咩，我都唔會放棄童…」1208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdHxGnMl3ml
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「你諗清楚先好講。」妍妍瞬速打斷我的狂言。1208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj4ffeXFQdG
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「…」1208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuqBPywVvwu
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「你咩意思。」1208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE0Lrp2HLUO
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「對我黎講，你唔同我一齊既原因就係童桐。」妍妍說，「佢既原因係咁既份量，咁既級數，而且我同你之間係無感情基礎，而你，童桐兩個之間係有，佢咁都拒絕你…佢個個原因既嚴重程度，恐怕超乎你想像。」1208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhEaMpICxma
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「……」我突然心中生畏。1208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVMrZqP0FJt
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到底是…甚麼的理由？1208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡipVW2emtdv
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妍妍有著情聖一樣對於人際關係的洞悉和掌握，她的分析合理得叫我恐慌。1208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtfqCi024bg
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「所以到時你搞清楚決定放棄童桐既。」她欺近我身前，「我又未必會肯同你一齊，你準備繼續打飛機喇，Ａ０遊。」1208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡapz77t14fP
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…妍妍竟然…1208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXgOMVfxsig
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「…多謝你。」我已經明白了她的心意。1208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW6gYkQQkSc
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「嗄？做咩無啦啦多謝我，我，我要脅緊你喎，我，我明明笑緊你A０，做咩…」1208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo8QeJ8d1kX
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她只是在給我一個下台階。1208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4iuMkIYaSv
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妍妍為了我不要這樣苦惱，故意叫我去查清童桐的那個原因，使我不用繼續在這死胡同中打轉，使我可以繼續前進，不用理會她，掌握著所謂的初心，所謂的理想，所謂的目標志向初衷決意真愛！！1208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8Iv3gIIiv7
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那麼。1208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdYmrFATJZ5
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當下困在迷宮之中的人。1208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRbdKBtI82J
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便只剩下妍妍自己。
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