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家宜拿著一紙文憑畢業。890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡltTYSD01SP
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和很多其他年輕人一樣，她是有夢想的，並一直堅持著。她一直在心中盤算著，要找一份怎麼怎麼的工作，要怎麼怎麼實現她大計……但眼見一封封求職信杳無音訊，石沉大海時，她開始著急。890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXqVN4i6UjB
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日復日，她心想：「機會在哪兒？」890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4l6OlebtWi
890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWSjDBmT26B
終於，有回音了。縱使只有一個面試機會，她仍興奮得很。890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlBzgneeVIC
890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDSB4iY25t1
面試當日，她穿著整齊，拿著沉甸甸的公事包，於烈日下到一幢舊式工廠大廈去。到達門口時，大汗淋漓的她，被玻璃門後的公司吸引著——是她夢寐以求的室內設計公司！還記得修讀室內設計文憑時，她常幻想著自己會受聘於一間大型室內設計公司，每天都從忙碌中獲得滿足感…890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡirfztpoVMI
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面試後數日，有回音了。「八千五？」她在心裡嚷著：「當日不是說月薪一萬嗎？」890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGr4KISC4bj
890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxQvURwuGwr
「你是零經驗的畢業生…」電話另一頭的男聲解釋說。890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6CoAxfY0Fj
890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDawMyF8Hhq
「好。」家宜吁了一口氣，把心裡的標準降低了少許。890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJEq9fy8LyQ
890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡclDugBCg4C
「那麼，明天上班。」男聲的口吻近乎發號司令。890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRaeEjB2Y9a
890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVJYqZ1zQXp
掛線後，家宜把消息告知媽。890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQsenxkpEnt
890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdbED72uYYY
「八千五…」媽想了想：「差不多…」890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKDfamg39AR
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家宜沉默了。890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmn9tSiaSh9
890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3trBUDUxHg
媽瞥了瞥她，續道：「『零經驗』、『Fresh Grad.』…八千五，已算是不錯！」890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjyuWA6eM7w
890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1hCyJ1qh2k
這一句話，又把家宜的標準拉低了。890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnRpCJsVpIu
890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1lEhPrO3Xs
原來，她自己只值八千五！
一年後，進步不少的家宜被擢升，成為初級設計師。890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzaWSje9hy8
890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtNT3VLz7Ns
自此，仍然年輕的家宜，決定不會再穿著花花綠綠，只會穿黑白灰。890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFJ0bJOBGqP
890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb6bu6RXWmF
有人說她成熟了，進步了。890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNch6BrT3AT
890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZMngCoL5Ja
「我可不這樣認為。」家宜很想要這麼答，但卻總把說話生吞回肚子作罷。890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmJVegKX8I0
890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA9Tlqmk3Ju
似乎，大家都只看到她「正」的一面而已。890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8bFnIhWh0V
890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ603qkoNOsr
這就是大家想要看見的家宜嗎？一個只會穿黑白灰、不苟言笑的女人。大家似乎忘記了——家宜只有二十歲，是屬於青春的年華。真正的她，可是一個愛笑愛玩的小女生；但這只會令她被標籤為「不思進取」、「幼稚」、「被寵壞」的新生代。890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPtDMWSn09m
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還是向現實低頭好了。890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeIdOy0K4ov
890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO9S6WFSwfl
家宜又再穿上套裝，遮掩仍然年輕的身體；化濃妝、塗豔抹，好讓笑容沉重得消失了似的。890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmJrIS9l9dq
890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfjyEqYN2hI
這就是，大家想要看見的家宜吧！
「我回來了。」家宜脫下高跟鞋，一屁股坐在沙發上。890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAnz4hzWi8d
890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkXBCTJtW7E
「發薪了嗎？」媽聞聲而至。890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJyT6xhKqLr
890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9a6JNAShUE
「發了。」家宜從手提包拿出支票和糧單。890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZuuKQGGvEO
890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQmqO1dndg2
媽看了看，聲線幾近尖叫：「你不是已經升職了嗎？」890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRDYbcjSils
890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbFkxcA2iEP
家宜沒答話。890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVde8kYH7vl
890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp54q8CslMF
望著家宜，媽氣得火燒心。890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRL0Gwzoqf8
890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAHsmqr5Xt4
當初，是家宜承諾會賺到更多的錢。890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8OY1UcaeMf
890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxqV2nYYFXL
當初，是她講理想，擅自推掉一份待遇優厚的工作。890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA9AlsF3pHE
890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡElOwx0DWq5
當初，她根本不應為興趣而揀選室內設計。890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMBgVV4kcll
890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3xZjYBc6sZ
當初…890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfnj7nPc9o6
890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDnlRfs7UtT
整個晚上，媽一言不發。890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSSRezt4lnB
890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTg1XhVIqWv
家宜很難受，但卻選擇不多話。是的，她很後悔——為何她當初那麼有理想？原來，理想真的不可當飽飯吃！890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYh6skhU7JH
890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKZJGOgJWlS
但現在，何如？
這是家宜首次到酒吧來。890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKz0d7Xt6j4
890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2u9GBIGmIU
形形色色的男女，都不約而同地帶著一對黑眼圈；家宜也不例外——她昨晚失眠了。890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsB2DeZJ3cU
890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl2yuNVJlkX
從未試過被人當中那麼奚落，還要她道歉。但更難以置信的是——她道歉了。890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzv9lIfgC2N
890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwoNXgkmcpl
根本不是她的錯！890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiNllZchWLb
890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfTHR1zDd2H
但道歉可保住一椿生意…890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1SKLdtLajB
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卻扭曲了自己…890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyqYZzm2QxN
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值得嗎？890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5JYbjkfFm5
890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqcp3x2LruI
「你是家宜嗎？」有人從後拍了拍家宜的肩膊。890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5SKyzWrcib
890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAx1WPTmWOj
「學姐？」家宜不自覺的伸出手來，公式化地打招呼。890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfqXvIaxkuI
890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaS8jerIDPU
「近來好嗎？」學姐也成熟了不少：「還在那室內設計公司工作嗎？」890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkEOo6mteuk
890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnG2QNHDQNz
「是的。」家宜雖然盡力隱藏，但仍掩不住眼裡的失意。890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4uPl6nuGAo
890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxjfOV9QrR2
「我最近自己設立了一所室內設計公司…」學姐有意無意的說：「需要聘請設計師…」890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7Xg4LMMueO
890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQufGdAvDwO
「設計師…」家宜頓時精神起來。890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmdYFcNKgad
890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdpZ7EzPrnu
「雖是自主度高，但薪金卻…」學姐小心翼翼的試探著：「你會來幫忙嗎？」
草擬了一整晚的辭職信，就在手心。890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7ALV9Os09I
890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJDhfhiynCL
只要家宜有勇氣遞上，再加幾個模稜兩可的原因，理想便能確切的握在手心。890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEE2GPyKF6k
890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡafkCGC5ihh
「理想不能當飽飯吃！」這句話突然在家宜耳邊響起。890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAwPlWm3jqG
890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEJR9cGSrJF
曾講過這句話的人，有媽、朋友、同事、上司…甚至家宜自己。還記得，講這句話時，家宜自己的心情是絕望的。但大家的表情卻很輕鬆，活像只是講及一些與自己不相干的事。890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbmVm3ONm9K
890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMGm7lqfk3l
理想，不相干嗎？很遙遠嗎？890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtdv13vX6aW
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難道大家年輕時沒有理想嗎？890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5kb933Ssor
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還是大家根本知道現實裡沒有理想，乾脆直接放棄了？890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTIJURzLtUs
890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTmmPTCPzbl
不管了，先遞信吧！890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6K3U7J7N43
890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRVc2yVb3OJ
「你…」老闆氣定神閒：「很缺錢吧！」890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfVKc1RdCtj
890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPtdRYwbuMj
家宜呆了。890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjRTPysV5JS
890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm7N0xKJJUY
「加薪能留住你嗎？」他豎起兩隻手指，示意加薪兩千元。890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzOyUoUoXuN
890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQV6K0mgB29
她沒即時否定——猶豫了。890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7yC1YRY5EQ
890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4VkwN4rDuN
「既然沒問題，你先去工作吧！」他以微笑作結。890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLnpIns6brV
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這是…放棄了嗎？890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJXDXC5UOPY
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家宜只知道自己剛才的確心動了，再沒追求理想的資格…
天，灰灰的。890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2rbjZvqnVE
890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoq2KWmBfBS
家宜傻傻的抬起頭來，心想：「我到底在做甚麼？」她的手在顫抖著，弄皺了手心的辭職信。從來不相信「為五斗米折腰」；但今天終於領略到。890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKVDTEBxg1S
890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4WTMW9sXPx
家宜垂頭喪氣地來到家門前，勉力地堆起笑容，按下門鈴。應門的是媽。890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX1xv9PRemG
890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4ZdaM42lUM
昨晚，為了工作上的去留問題，她和媽吵起來了。當時大家都氣得面紅耳赤，卻未能分出勝負。家宜最記得媽那一句：「生活艱難！」890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgNJ3fAHrZx
890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiKo5DaXHSe
當時聽畢，家宜禁不住吐了句：「錢不是萬能的！」但二十四小時後，她願意收回那一句話。890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg6f31vcZBO
890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLU6t9NN2FD
「真的辭職了嗎？」媽的語氣，冷淡得令人難受。890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjsyDMh8TNZ
890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVDPPB9HETF
「沒。」家宜感覺到自己的眼淚快要奪眶而出。890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBqasmjZict
890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKlOB0Ovdyi
「真的？」媽的表情很複雜，既喜且悲。890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2Gp2W97ImH
890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcjMgavOOpM
是的，她很高興家宜沒有辭工；但她實在太熟悉家宜的脾性了——幾近頑固的堅持自己的想法。要是她的想法改變了，原因有二：想通了或是徹底被「擊潰」了。890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGMzpwm86LM
890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg6BgiJOYhD
媽選擇相信後者：「有話要講嗎？」890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyfIoHJMrQx
890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYuo098TS8j
「沒。」家宜搖搖頭。890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVDW5SR1ffa
890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2Uf23aXOl1
回到房間，家宜躺在床上，呆望著天花板。890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX8LNFeQrbQ
890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4h6oxQdwqv
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