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「去哪？」546Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy7YpuBAd3W
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「急事。」546Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡva5Q3juqxd
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「你不吃晚餐？」546Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV9JiAO49u2
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我沒應答，逕自出門。546Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbjJW8pn4p8
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冬夜六時。厚衣下的溫暖身軀與袒露的臉和手，不協調感令我忐忑不安。546Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBkLrRvxGNX
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難以言喻的鬱悶。546Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNX759r4CMd
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長嘆。546Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4wRn52TVlp
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「紅萬。」我邊說邊掏出八達通。546Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyKHMOOiyXf
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店員爽快從身後陳列架取來貨品，熟練在收銀機屏幕上點點按按，然後給我贈品——果汁味肉乾三小包。我有意無意瞄了瞄她的臉。大眾臉，過目即忘。546Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQjOqbXShTV
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「不需要贈品？」她驀地抬眼，與我眼神對上。是發現我的無禮目光嗎？546Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8VzNFrtAwA
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「我……錯認是口香糖。」我慌忙編個爛藉口，連忙接過香菸和肉乾。546Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvKJ1OAOoKn
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她假笑，沒再搭理我，拿起抹布四處抹。546Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSQhgORkh4o
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我走出光線充足的便利店，重踏漆黑夜空下的大街。546Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVBATQVHnlj
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另一種不協調。另一種忐忑，另一種不安。546Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkzJWd2kOct
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櫥窗五光十色，路人絡繹不絕。人潮亂中有序，不約而同在紅色燈號前止住，然後在綠色燈號亮起當刻同時邁步。一致得神奇，一致得可怕。並肩而行的男男女女在過路以後分道揚鑣，不為曾經的遇見生起任何印象或猶豫。546Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKE36S2I7KB
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心血來潮，我莫名其妙拐到小巷去。546Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0OUHSq1Z7f
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污水，雜物，廚餘，鼠餌，坑渠。546Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ73QOxbdfTf
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髒，亂，腐，毒，臭。546Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTXro7MGj8T
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為何要到這種地方來？不是捷徑，不知盡頭何處，不懷目的……546Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqmZVXMkr16
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小巷盡處是另一小巷，盡頭以後是另一開始。路接路，走又走。不停前行，像是正在找出口；絕不回頭，像是不打算找到真正出口。546Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTANZ7FAYqm
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厭煩日常走過的路，不欲重覆。若問想要到甚麼地方去，其實我沒有答案。很奇妙。眼下似乎有很多選擇，實質一切已成定局。那是大街，這是小巷。大街在明，小巷在暗。大街繁華，小巷冷清。546Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeq3AwHaBOb
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註定的。546Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡycsuucPmm9
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冷清小巷盡頭會有好東西麼？我不相信，亦不願輕言不相信。546Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRgPcMN3ebe
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汪——汪——嗚——拐角傳來狗隻悲鳴。546Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh3LlMyL8KU
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停步。猶疑。546Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQbtnVEWRlZ
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惻隱？慈悲？然後呢？根本沒有然後，因為我自顧不暇。546Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7jogAI0DBf
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轉身。546Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjI2RhZ7amo
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汪——汪——嗚——拐角狗隻再次悲鳴。546Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUNRLWSolaf
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我回身走去。546Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6uIveQyouj
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惻隱？慈悲？不，好奇罷。546Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8E35UrRne9
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把小狗抱入懷內。546Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYdaZxQKcBk
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「暖和沒？」我傻傻自語——嘴巴極需要說話理由。546Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9XPcnleqZc
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陣風從後疾過，寒意夾雜水氣與鹹香。546Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb8nJtPUvFj
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海風？海濱公園步道？546Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡndwGNko783
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「一起散步去吧。」我沒期望小狗會回答，但我需要溜達原因。546Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ6lDYeWyVz
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多拐兩個彎，我帶著小狗在兩幢高樓之間走出來，恰巧看見銀月自海平面升起。清澄，純淨，圓滿。546Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL39uw1UmMB
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「看！這是月亮。」我指天示意小狗往上望去。546Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbOyyFFWYyc
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汪——牠回答，但沒有依指示抬頭。546Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwveC91R2HT
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「找個好地方坐坐吧！」為免小狗中途跑掉，我微微拉下外套拉鏈，把小狗往內塞。牠沒反抗，甚至懂得稍為伸出頭部，方便呼吸和看風景。我真慶幸剛才沒有對牠視若無睹：「乖。」546Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSLNJ6KBSQ9
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銀月清冷，步道冷清，寧靜。心跳規律，呼吸有序，乏味。回憶很多，未知更多，迷惘。546Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe09anhObWO
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「我上一次來海濱公園是小學畢業後的那個暑假。與幾個特別要好的男生相約到來踩roller，跌了幾跤，膝蓋流血。明明怕血，明明怕痛，偏偏為保面子而強說無事，硬撐一整天。結果翌日膝蓋腫黑大片，痛得要命，不得不到醫院求醫。結果在醫院留醫足足兩個月，九月中才可到新學校上課。」我在路邊長椅坐下，拆開一包贈品肉乾給小狗充飢，報答牠聽我發牢騷。546Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpmP4gD26ti
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「留醫期間，我生氣朋友們不來探望我，打算出院後臭罵他們一頓。出院後，我忙於學校課業，忘記致電他們，然後順理成章忘記他們。當我再次想起他們，已是高中畢業的事。」我點菸，一吸一呼，虛假短暫的舒爽。「其實沒甚麼大不了，無需要記在腦袋裡。但事情就是發生過，不是說忘記就可以忘記。」546Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0aArQAdGuo
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記憶零碎，思路紊亂。嘴巴想要表達更多，無奈腦袋運轉不來，沒能將感受化為言語……算了吧。反正小狗根本沒興趣聽下去。546Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeHSargSMNz
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「你似乎對肉乾比較有興趣。」我又拆開一包肉乾予牠。牠吃得津津有味，舌頭不時舔舔嘴邊，甚至舔到小小鼻頭。546Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQmUdEuBC5x
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我笑，笑牠傻氣可愛。546Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡngrcBQ3cm5
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又吸一口虛假短暫的舒爽。又呼一口難以言喻的鬱悶。546Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ10DtTMbSsY
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鬱悶何來？546Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJWFo5AaIBU
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學業壓力？愛情煩惱？家庭不和？546Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2MgJYZmnmg
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也許統統都是，也許統統不是。546Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQpn41u2Dcz
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多件零星不順心瑣碎事湊在一起成為一股無法消弭的鬱悶。546Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFa97tOifmf
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有如一根經過繁複工序生產的香菸。546Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY0Tv1lmtU2
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有如一塊由豬肉、糖、鹽、增味劑、醬油、香辛料、護色劑、色素組成的肉乾。546Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkXjafD00l2
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「好吃吧。」我又拆開一包肉乾。趁小狗專心咬嚼，我彈走菸屁股，將牠從懷裡抽出，來個深深擁抱。546Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtPDloqNEXf
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然後呢？根本沒有然後。546Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrmHgxO56JN
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我輕輕放下小狗，動身邁步離開。546Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVwsLwixdxJ
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正如牠知道我身上沒有更多肉乾，自然而然不會跟上來。546Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ39xIQnJzxf
