在TG上，大家互相交換照片，今年的動漫節我只去了兩天。578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ53uwrtl9kC
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Annie看完我cosplay男角和女角的照片，她看到其中一張我cosplay著女角跟一另一名女coser的合照，便回應：578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCIdmbRRRK0
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Annie：你隔離嗰條女好靚，你啲frd嚟？578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi3UFcgRsTq
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我：梗係唔係啦，啱啱先識嘅（笑喊578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTDep8TBMv1
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接著Annie也給她的化妝照我看，又交流著化妝心得。578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3BS1ZB2qPi
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論「擠牙膏式」聊天戰術，對我來講cosplay、化妝、寫網絡小說，這三大話題是最長壽命的話題，能用來談很長、很長的時間。578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUj0mEH6d9l
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總之，我最終目的就是要把她約出來見面！578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrSzibhjDlI
578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPJDXadJbL0
每次我以cosplay裝扮出席這類活動時，都必定認識到新朋友，男女都有，也是同樣cosplay的人，然後他們都會跟我交換IG。578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ11iYZ6ZH1h
578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFGZRV2tvVJ
在我的IG裡，粉絲頗多，主要有兩類：一是從cosplay圈認識的人，二是我從網上寫小說而招來的讀者粉絲和其他作者。578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEmTQfBgZZy
578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8tCIjlJqSP
每逢我發佈小說的宣傳文，只有十幾個讚好，但當我發佈cosplay照時，不論是男裝還是女裝，總會引來多3倍的讚好，真是人靠衣裝。578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvUlKXoTHhW
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因此有人會覺得我的朋友圈子大，但其實這只不過是假象；因為我都很少與人會面，平日頂多都是跟我唯一好友Jason見面或獨自一人到cafe消閑。578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyXO5VXa8tx
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Annie：你個樣本身可以好女仔，出街實冇人知你係偽娘。578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi8nlm6c1G8
578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp9996XAcUN
我：但冇計啦我太高喇，實出賣男兒身㗎（笑喊578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwwfKdZ1jY0
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Annie：其實我好憎啲男仔睇樣578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtDaFHjNx0W
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我：做咩突然間講呢啲嘅？578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkPoftoSHLA
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Annie：以前試過交換完相之後，條仔嫌我肥，就即block我578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTpWk9zuFZs
Annie：我真係好自卑578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyRM0so7o3e
Annie：啲人成日都同我講，話我個樣唔差，叫我扮下靚就有578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAPav0rQ67k
Annie：佢哋口口聲話唔介意肥閪，但係行動上就好誠實咁話我知，佢哋跟本介意。578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPubkfkzQWT
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其實我也很清楚知道，這個世上沒有絕對的零歧視。很多時候人只是出於禮貌，而在表面的社交應酬上，包裝自己的說話，但心裡仍然保留真正的自己。578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ7RM0SrWO5
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所以我的世界觀是：適者生存，與其努力去改變世界，倒不如學習保護自己。578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3ERBfI69R2
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偽娘也會被歧視嗎？當然有，只是我比較幸運，身邊的人大致上都是禮貌跟我相處；或可能有人心底裡不喜歡，但我相信既然有人不喜歡，那麼總有人喜歡，每個人總會找到自己的一套生存之道，多訓練自己的敏感度，便可容易地觀察人心，從而使自己作更好的決定。578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqMrQFAJfyf
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所以在前面說到創建Tinder帳號時，我都說，即管大膽表明自己是偽娘身份，當有人被我吸引進來之後，再慢慢過濾誰是真正交友。578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIBlQ5kNr6l
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或許有人問：你這樣不辛苦嗎？不做偽娘就好了。578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqa2YTi7qWa
578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAV0of2saHz
我會反駁：食得鹹魚抵得渴，為心靈滿足而選擇紋身的人，會害怕生活上的阻礙而放棄嗎？578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgMgAZ8gW3y
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我們又繼續聊，然後我嘗試開玩笑地拋出一句。578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnCIZQF1dHp
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我：我好想食豬扒飯。578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5LK6vEcb8o
我：不過我想食你件豬多啲（笑喊578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjY8pUVBdeR
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Annie：我唔係豬扒！！578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnvVx4k7r48
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糟糕了，我講錯說話，焦慮的我想嘗試修復。578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpYVu2SOPmz
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我：豬扒都有豬扒嘅好（笑喊578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE4B0Sr2jG4
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Annie：可以啪啪聲嘛（大笑578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXj89Yh6zs0
Annie：同埋，我呢啲高嘅係叫坦克車唔係豬扒578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqpUSa4wqd7
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最原始的對話版本我已經忘記了，也刪了；總之大概記得，我以「豬扒」這個詞語來開玩笑，說過幾句；但是勾起了Annie的怒火，而我又嘗試熄滅。578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuDRk8bm2bn
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我：噢，原來我一路以嚟攪錯咗豬扒呢個term嘅用法。578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHM994VBBpe
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沒辦法下，我只好裝傻混過去。578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFtbUxRDQIY
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本以為如此便蒙混過關，於是我們又如常地相處下去。578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVPaUfaWBwn
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接著幾天後，我又約了一個攝影師在派對房裡拍攝泳裝照片；但是照片要修圖，要等待一陣日子才有。578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmnYbgxsQOb
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這晚我又跟Annie聊到半夜三更。578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDGizqiVHdY
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Annie：你去影泳衣咁有冇相？578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyNb9haqPbW
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我如實地交代暫未有相片，只有一張我當場的自拍照，是上身照，相中的我看起來與一個穿三點式的女人無異。578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8lyKrOHmk9
578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFVUI3WMTw0
艷濃的妝容、長長的啡捲髮、以及黑色三點式泳裝，露出大面積白皙的肌膚，正正是我當時的打扮。578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHQsEh4ntA7
578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNQGQviG4iq
Annie：慘囉慘囉，連你都咁靚。578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpoHQ5NPvsc
Annie：我一見到有排骨精就有種想保護佢嘅感覺578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEALgjk0sam
Annie：驚佢俾風吹走578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaL0oRIzHfz
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我：你講緊邊個排骨呀？（笑喊578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFrbbzMtq5n
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Annie：我好唔中意啲男仔自大578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyQbNA6i6UK
Annie：見過有啲男仔喺網上露佢自己上身578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV4qYhl6gGH
Annie：佢以為自己有六舊，有好大條J578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlRkmVj5FTt
578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhV31W2shyh
我：俾著係我直情同人講：我冇J㗎（笑喊578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQizVgaoqtd
我：冇六舊肌同大J，咁咪做返女人囉（笑喊578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNG5U9RWfGo
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我不像一般的某些直男，在網上放出袒露上身的大漢照。不穿衣服，我都會，只是我不會這樣表達而已。578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoTAaUcMHXl
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事實上，我的確在Tinder放過一張三點式泳裝照，還有假髮和妝容；並不是因為我對自己男性特徵（例如6腹肌）沒自信，而純粹是因為我喜歡美麗的自己。578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHCiLdUHf2e
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以火影忍者的語言說，大多數男人都是使用鳴人的「逆後宮術」，而我則只是在用「後宮術」，一個「逆」字只是男版和女版的分別。578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKGQVTVf6QT
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Annie：半夜三更瞓唔著，突然性起，傾吓性？578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKR4gESSqIn
578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdkB7sW6Q2h
我：你做乜咁突然想講18禁呀？M到？（笑喊578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh9fMwfrOA7
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Annie：係呀，你又知？（笑喊578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡywe44i2Gx4
578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxoSTLsULmo
我：我憑直覺亂估咋578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡROCeB74iPH
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Annie：好奇想知你唔打飛機㗎咩？578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡncZNTSRC8w
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我思索了一會，然後回覆。578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0CJvwIqMxW
578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOzuR9HkUE6
我：打呀，但我嘅性幻想唔係男女扑嘢咁簡單。578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcWPyxkfON8
578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtmjFOj1TrK
我的性癖，是戀物。事實上對於女性的胸、陰道，不是主要的興趣；因此如果有大胸妹子在我面前引誘我，是沒有用的；唯一能刺中我「死穴」的只有女裝。578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoIairZ5ssg
578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxtlKIq2oDI
Annie：我屋企都有兩件sex toy578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqTAIk84nMJ
Annie：我試過自己裝上假J然後插落第二條女度578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGE1S2dFJEZ
578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaxICnFnJBB
我：你本身都係bi？578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuFzWFuJ1qR
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Annie：唔係嘅，只係貪屌女仔好玩（大笑578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRJqaP8UfOa
578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi3OlY0EZZQ
我：話說今日我去私影時都就嚟出水578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡehhQzL4zXP
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Annie：你都冇閪，點出水？578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHVUDhCKcTd
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我：人工閪😏578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtDKWXoEL9I
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Annie：😳😳578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOltuRrGRYb
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我：你嚟上我啦（笑喊578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaHDxkxeGAT
578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzq5T594WRs
今晚看似她已經把我說的「豬扒」拋諸腦後；另一方面，我們已經聊了1.5個月，我三番四次約會她，她都不出來，漸漸地我也被磨去了耐性和動力。我開始有點迷惘，下次應該如何提出約會，還是只保持網上關係就罷了？
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