It's been about two weeks since the wedding, and my lip has returned to its normal state. I can't say I'm not pleased.543Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡESRTg70ipY
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I haven't seen David since the morning after the wedding; I've had at least one photo shoot each day, which is a 180 from the level of struggles that I was facing not even four months ago.543Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCMk8hWgi5C
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As I walk to the kitchen in my small apartment, I begin to wonder... what does David do? He's never told me. He must have a pretty good job to own two houses, but somehow, I've been fuckíng the man for weeks now and I still don't know.543Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKTlffc9my9
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I shrug off the thought, and reach up to open the cabinet and pull down the jar of Jablum Instant Coffee, I feel a sharp pain in the left side of my pelvis.543Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLFUjMFtR5o
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"Fuck," I hiss, bending over.543Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx9DqpN7xDu
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This is what you get for not eating dinner last night. Gas pains.543Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡim7zIcjKjZ
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I straighten up and reach for the coffee again, this time retrieving it, and make myself a cup of steaming black coffee with scrambled eggs and bread along with it (I'm too lazy to do anything else).543Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGAS8iqhzTF
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So, back to David. What does he do? For some reason, I wouldn't be surprised if he was into some shady shit. 543Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5Z1TtteyZI
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Oh, well. 543Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKSxxu4xIrR
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I guess I'll just have to ask the next time I see him. I make a mental note to do so, and even though I'm extremely forgetful, I'm pretty sure that I'll remember this.543Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8FaEeBEcSO
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After resolving to ask David about his occupation the next time we speak, I continue to eat, not really for the taste of the food, but rather out of necessity. It's something that happens to me sometimes — I don't feel the urge to eat, but I know that I have to do I force myself to.543Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2VLPnZWETb
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On other occasions, I'm like a pig, consuming everything in sight until I feel as if I'm about to burst like that poor man at the end of 'Monty Python's The Meaning of Life'. 543Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT87Uy5DFeo
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I have no idea why my eating patterns are so random — they aren't affected by my mood or period, they just seem inconsistent.543Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiplXMaUHuw
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After I finish and wash up the plates, I go back to my room and check my phone.543Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM4ldu4beNN
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I have two missed calls from none other than Marcus.543Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7czjKw4jVx
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"Answer your goddamn phone," he growls when I call him back.543Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcWPvt5wKvb
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"Whatever. Why are you calling me?"543Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6SuWRGJ8LA
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"You have a new job offering. It's an event. But—"543Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhHjxNcDNQJ
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"I—"543Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFko9wqM2nJ
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"But—"543Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEPbEI7DcyI
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"You—"543Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnDUkOe1VrB
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"But," he says, drawing out the word so that I will let him continue.543Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDjmV13Q60D
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I shut up.543Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhhFve3idtz
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"It's a free speaking/poetry open mic event. They're offering thirty thousand, because they're a little low on funding, but—"543Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNA680E3ZmS
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"I'll go," I say before he can finish his sentence. I love poetry — and he knows it. I love reading it, I love writing it, I love hearing it. There's no way I'm passing up this opportunity.543Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnv6bGYwmHG
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"Great. It's on Thursday coming at nine p.m. I'll text you the address and remember to get there early."543Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqDNx7cRWa0
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"Yes, sir!" I say in mock salute.543Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyRIssXgSpr
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I hear him laugh through the phone.543Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkRU7CGBsrT
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"By, Leah."543Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwOuaO0Sg2K
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"Bye."543Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2qPNSvnxiu
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I sigh as I hang up the phone. Today is Monday. What is it with all of the late bookings? 543Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMQSn41pFN6
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Well, at least you aren't broke anymore.543Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy9U5Oo7trS
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With that optimistic thought in mind, I go back to the kitchen for another cup of coffee.543Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjP6bxXfryN
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Poetic Justice is a small, intimate setting. It is located outdoors, and has a small stage area with a few small tables and a bar located at the back.543Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmpYlsafWXe
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"Hello, you must be Leah," says a young woman who has just approached me, dressed in a pair of jeans and a grey blouse.543Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrY3IjQmMtn
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"Good evening. Andrea, right?" I ask. That's the name Marcus gave me.543Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeMofdc9Mdp
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"Yes," she replies, and begins to walk, so naturally, I walk with her.543Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpN7MYHgrae
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"The bar is straight to the back. Have whatever you want; I've already told the bartender that your drinks are on the house. And feel free to come up and do a little poem; putting down the camera for five minutes won't hurt," she says with a smile, then turns and walks away.543Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOVZnKh9Vx5
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Well that's an odd offer. 543Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZnZr4ipDiq
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I sigh and place my camera bag on a table near to me and start to set up my camera.543Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPsz9j207zf
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"Leah," I hear in a voice that is all to familiar.543Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXxzBiU937J
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"David?" I reply, spinning to face him. "What are you doing here?"543Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqQXAojsGDk
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"I come here all the time," he replies, his eyebrows knitted together, "and I love poetry."543Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpNj4I9hAJr
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"So do I."543Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbCprFxvcM3
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I now have my camera in my hand, and I remember the pressing question that I had for him.543Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGScunpaKTO
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"What do you do for a living?" I blurt out.543Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiofV4dC0xi
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To be honest, I'm prepared to hear anything; from a drug dealer, to a pimp. I wouldn't judge him, though.543Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFexOkTOnhR
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"I'm a graphic designer."543Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4PzXijVtc8
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Well I wasn't expecting that.543Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmOTUuo4Mq0
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"I also sell ganja on the side. I have links with a ganja farmer."543Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoF3hU6UG1S
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That's more like it.543Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIe4XKxDzkN
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We stand there in silence for a few seconds, and then he clears his throat.543Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB5KRfka8DN
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"I have to, use the bathroom. See you later."543Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuIQWpOFaps
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"Okay. Bye."543Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbhIUjzW1Aa
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He walks off and I go to the bar and get myself a glass of ginger ale. I stand idly by the bar for a few moments, and before I know it, Andrea is on the stage.543Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy0wLplNill
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"Good evening, ladies and gentlemen. My name is Andrea, and tonight, I'll be your hostess. So as you are all probably aware, we are having a poetry/free speaking open mic event tonight. Who would like to go first?"543Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKeEyCNVa19
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A young girl around my age walks awkwardly up to the stage, and performs a dramatic rendition of Dry Foot Bwoy by Louise Bennett.543Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0AMiXbvrn7
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As the night continues, I find myself being more and more entertained. One man performs a ballad inspired by his daughter; a young boy performs a free verse dedicated to his mother in the audience. 543Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcinBAL7LNi
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Then, a tall gentleman steps onto the stage.543Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjMSiwJFoiq
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"Hello. My name is Henry."543Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3tepmZxlvc
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People in the crowd say their greetings.543Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnBR7WMunpy
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"Tonight, I will be performing a free verse poem I wrote."543Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBeIpl5iYEs
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He clears his voice, then begins.543Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG24QjiaeFO
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"Have you ever been in love?543Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjX9VE8C1RA
Had your soul so deeply entwined543Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw6bUglzcEL
With another's543Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI8F18QgzbZ
That you cannot figure where yours ends543Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPON0dYPgIW
And theirs begins?543Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKIJbNVQGbt
So madly and deeply in love543Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPg83YNYK1Y
That that person's heart beats with yours;543Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMVw5WvMd97
Just looking at them is blinding; 543Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHcVGmp7PMj
It's like staring at a supernova 543Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdt1CXRYAhN
But you do it anyway543Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxpV7U4Hs6n
Because when she's there543Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFJ4mv28dBS
Logic and Reason die."543Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡePkoGEKMPz
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I feel my stomach curl with unease, tension filling my body, because I know that it's going to go downhill — I can feel it.543Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAbhcjPNVCW
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"Now imagine what it feels like 543Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9sAFeuBdY8
To have that person543Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG8EFrjWofW
Ripped 543Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPSyLsQ4Mxj
From your life;543Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVHWT6Y89F6
Torn away from you.543Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3UMOInyCQv
You can't breathe. 543Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFWKII4tLba
You're dead, yet you aren't,543Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK4Ftohd4dc
You still 543Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI1vD7cJvc5
Walk543Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfrImnBmZwS
Talk543Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqpWUL07atR
Interact 543Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU23i2zelcW
With the people around you,543Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeHSBQYE8Kd
But on the on the inside, 543Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3vRuNpUZI9
You're hollow;543Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu0622Xd6U6
Dead."543Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2BnKCpUxF1
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This is not how my night was supposed to go.543Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUrYaxdebTM
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"It's been ten years,543Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcNVMxGwIXT
My love, 543Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIRBICfEGTX
And every day, 543Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbNHqyAdWS3
Every hour, 543Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXVP70ca9bu
Every second without you 543Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0tvaZfQAIA
Feels like 543Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLY2p7mEDYW
Torture."543Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3WL0gBSHMG
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By now, I feel like I'm being tortured. I want to leave, but as I look through the viewfinder of my camera, I know more than anything that I can't.543Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡULjttAAPPl
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"I would ask for 543Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs10S4WluHf
Forgiveness,543Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPTApKBwvq4
But I can see that you've... 543Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYAhMPWKnXE
Moved on, 543Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ0dazOklyb
And found happiness elsewhere. 543Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdh1ilJLRvu
And I have to live543Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYcCeyUkeUW
With the consequences 543Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs1F5SYkyBK
Of my stupid actions 543Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXPE3apeApV
For the rest of my life. 543Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5YsXBhLX6c
I have to live with this 543Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡchMKbAIQ9c
Torture, 543Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNgYBtHbl91
This 543Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTJhZi8grLL
Pain,543Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡchX1k07Py7
Because I have never stopped,543Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdRT14N2bOz
Loving 543Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoDH6XwpriM
You,543Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfzh2BTEwKN
And I don't think I ever will."543Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1s6HvDxbaO
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By the end of the poem, I feel like I might drop my camera.543Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTx6LpBXpkB
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All of the emotions that I have been trying to surprises come rushing forward as Henry says his poem, because I know exactly what that feels like. I don't want to remember it, but I do.543Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0tAKzNIYuB
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Tears fill and spill over my eyes as the audience applaud Henry; I can no longer see Henry through the viewfinder of my camera.543Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbhK6uzVcTK
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This pain, this ache in my chest, this is what happens when you suppress your emotions, and pretend that your past is nonexistent, when you refuse to acknowledge what was once there.543Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3j5C6bUJ5c
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Pressing the ignore button on the past — repeatedly, in my case — is not only disrespectful to the highest degree, but also stupid, because the past won't change.543Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsDQalU5qHF
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The fact that I'm in a place called Poetic Justice and my stupidity has finally caught up to me isn't lost on me. How ironic.543Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKAik3HBbIr
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Suddenly, a strong arm is wrapped around me, and the camera is being taken out of my hand. I let out a broken sob into his chest as he rubs my back soothingly. I don't even know how long we stand there like this.543Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY0T6LPvQnW
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In the back of my mind I know that I'm crossing a line, breaking my own rule letting him comfort me like this, but in this moment, I feel too broken to care.543Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpOWWd66O5E
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We finally pull apart, and he looks at me cautiously, as if I'll break.543Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhHpw2cGYq1
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"I'm okay," I say to reassure him.543Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYz1SsdRVKq
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He doesn't look convinced.543Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlQEaLU0Mxy
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I look down at the ground and sigh, then look back at him. 543Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB3A00LnlyF
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Then I realise he isn't holding my camera.543Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9Xb6v9o2tf
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"Where's my camera?" I ask frantically.543Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMvvxpafrwx
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He nods behind me, and I see my camera bag sitting on a table behind us. I sigh loudly in relief.543Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhBmAxo1FrO
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I look up at him, and maybe it's because of how vulnerable but safe I'm feeling with him right now, but what I say next just feels right.543Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnj6ouc1k28
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"I've been in love before; madly, madly, deeply in love," I say, my voice cracking all over the place. I take a shaky breath. "It hurts to think about what could have been; what will never be. I wanted to be a mother, to be the mother of his children." 543Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY7f1Xoclqo
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I'm hyperventilating.543Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVUCFoGIXFd
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"Breathe, Leah. Take deep, steady breaths," he says to me while rubbing circles into my back.543Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwcDwIbRkW2
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When I finally calm down he speaks again.543Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIfKuTtNAAu
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"If you don't mind telling me... what happened?"543Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBVGYuB9GAe
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My chest starts to hurt, my eyes are burning, but I owe him an answer. I brought this up.543Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWVBCApOV82
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I look him dead in the face as my eyes fill with tears once more.543Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBYWQq09Pr8
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"He died."
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