It's been about two weeks since the wedding, and my lip has returned to its normal state. I can't say I'm not pleased.516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN1OkrkVFBT
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I haven't seen David since the morning after the wedding; I've had at least one photo shoot each day, which is a 180 from the level of struggles that I was facing not even four months ago.516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡipSGTrSnMj
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As I walk to the kitchen in my small apartment, I begin to wonder... what does David do? He's never told me. He must have a pretty good job to own two houses, but somehow, I've been fuckíng the man for weeks now and I still don't know.516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAYdh5rT00f
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I shrug off the thought, and reach up to open the cabinet and pull down the jar of Jablum Instant Coffee, I feel a sharp pain in the left side of my pelvis.516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWC4FG3NDKJ
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"Fuck," I hiss, bending over.516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvenNObVQx7
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This is what you get for not eating dinner last night. Gas pains.516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo4oy4E5ZVb
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I straighten up and reach for the coffee again, this time retrieving it, and make myself a cup of steaming black coffee with scrambled eggs and bread along with it (I'm too lazy to do anything else).516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡptTSooKQw2
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So, back to David. What does he do? For some reason, I wouldn't be surprised if he was into some shady shit. 516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1nPBnNfw4v
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Oh, well. 516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8HW3vQnJgu
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I guess I'll just have to ask the next time I see him. I make a mental note to do so, and even though I'm extremely forgetful, I'm pretty sure that I'll remember this.516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB5YtDVeJPY
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After resolving to ask David about his occupation the next time we speak, I continue to eat, not really for the taste of the food, but rather out of necessity. It's something that happens to me sometimes — I don't feel the urge to eat, but I know that I have to do I force myself to.516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5hkAjocS9C
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On other occasions, I'm like a pig, consuming everything in sight until I feel as if I'm about to burst like that poor man at the end of 'Monty Python's The Meaning of Life'. 516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTJH3fx2pPB
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I have no idea why my eating patterns are so random — they aren't affected by my mood or period, they just seem inconsistent.516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmW3VyqHrMV
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After I finish and wash up the plates, I go back to my room and check my phone.516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcPtDZeZYTf
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I have two missed calls from none other than Marcus.516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrRNzrAwvhK
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"Answer your goddamn phone," he growls when I call him back.516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvte354oLlO
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"Whatever. Why are you calling me?"516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRNLiJOTak6
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"You have a new job offering. It's an event. But—"516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfcUp7yTQLj
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"I—"516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQJwydmf3Ot
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"But—"516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ06DX7RYlnv
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"You—"516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ00A0AvZXJ9
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"But," he says, drawing out the word so that I will let him continue.516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡva9w6R2nBC
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I shut up.516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaxpxgeLwAv
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"It's a free speaking/poetry open mic event. They're offering thirty thousand, because they're a little low on funding, but—"516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIHXcSUehHh
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"I'll go," I say before he can finish his sentence. I love poetry — and he knows it. I love reading it, I love writing it, I love hearing it. There's no way I'm passing up this opportunity.516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9NTwN0AqSG
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"Great. It's on Thursday coming at nine p.m. I'll text you the address and remember to get there early."516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIOi52FejHR
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"Yes, sir!" I say in mock salute.516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjvLxHMaUOE
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I hear him laugh through the phone.516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJXNAWx1ib7
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"By, Leah."516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYMgprcE0ck
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"Bye."516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8HIW3nE6SS
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I sigh as I hang up the phone. Today is Monday. What is it with all of the late bookings? 516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcmiQ4QWxpp
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Well, at least you aren't broke anymore.516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNT2BLemcsu
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With that optimistic thought in mind, I go back to the kitchen for another cup of coffee.516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9Gevxqfid5
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Poetic Justice is a small, intimate setting. It is located outdoors, and has a small stage area with a few small tables and a bar located at the back.516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsGxPpgkr26
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"Hello, you must be Leah," says a young woman who has just approached me, dressed in a pair of jeans and a grey blouse.516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpJU2aYqPiZ
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"Good evening. Andrea, right?" I ask. That's the name Marcus gave me.516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkJiTvvsg8v
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"Yes," she replies, and begins to walk, so naturally, I walk with her.516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCoNY1GOBLE
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"The bar is straight to the back. Have whatever you want; I've already told the bartender that your drinks are on the house. And feel free to come up and do a little poem; putting down the camera for five minutes won't hurt," she says with a smile, then turns and walks away.516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy4LiEntbC1
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Well that's an odd offer. 516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXutj2juT1P
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I sigh and place my camera bag on a table near to me and start to set up my camera.516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsqipCkNNE6
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"Leah," I hear in a voice that is all to familiar.516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2z7W7TZcFn
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"David?" I reply, spinning to face him. "What are you doing here?"516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiPtwxUzg61
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"I come here all the time," he replies, his eyebrows knitted together, "and I love poetry."516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRUews6qsPe
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"So do I."516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGzbP6K64Y0
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I now have my camera in my hand, and I remember the pressing question that I had for him.516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLTQgxXxtdT
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"What do you do for a living?" I blurt out.516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnxgIdkR9SY
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To be honest, I'm prepared to hear anything; from a drug dealer, to a pimp. I wouldn't judge him, though.516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhOeBvrOLzq
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"I'm a graphic designer."516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC3ape3Hklz
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Well I wasn't expecting that.516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ16QT6yscW7
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"I also sell ganja on the side. I have links with a ganja farmer."516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdwPAyn6t9E
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That's more like it.516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQWsloIwdCR
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We stand there in silence for a few seconds, and then he clears his throat.516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2Vwmv7oVC8
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"I have to, use the bathroom. See you later."516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTzbQ2ekbpG
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"Okay. Bye."516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLFEBCA39ro
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He walks off and I go to the bar and get myself a glass of ginger ale. I stand idly by the bar for a few moments, and before I know it, Andrea is on the stage.516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTZcH0MV1x7
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"Good evening, ladies and gentlemen. My name is Andrea, and tonight, I'll be your hostess. So as you are all probably aware, we are having a poetry/free speaking open mic event tonight. Who would like to go first?"516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQjqgoyHYMS
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A young girl around my age walks awkwardly up to the stage, and performs a dramatic rendition of Dry Foot Bwoy by Louise Bennett.516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiHZa8ubZEb
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As the night continues, I find myself being more and more entertained. One man performs a ballad inspired by his daughter; a young boy performs a free verse dedicated to his mother in the audience. 516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrS58I43E7f
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Then, a tall gentleman steps onto the stage.516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUNU6ub0alq
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"Hello. My name is Henry."516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuPCCMyLaUJ
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People in the crowd say their greetings.516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWDHLATWe7j
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"Tonight, I will be performing a free verse poem I wrote."516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt6Vg5JG6g7
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He clears his voice, then begins.516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBRYGyar7QM
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"Have you ever been in love?516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgzZbua0CxL
Had your soul so deeply entwined516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzAq4nnvwTu
With another's516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3nY6fgiEkH
That you cannot figure where yours ends516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0bMHkrmQ4s
And theirs begins?516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPFSu1fSHy6
So madly and deeply in love516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPiIUoFiSAc
That that person's heart beats with yours;516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxcswrPCiC1
Just looking at them is blinding; 516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuqD8Ywa583
It's like staring at a supernova 516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBgxIx23gBY
But you do it anyway516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP5n8IO1Ec9
Because when she's there516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMxChYJZfgY
Logic and Reason die."516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGSPmtLvJ3u
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I feel my stomach curl with unease, tension filling my body, because I know that it's going to go downhill — I can feel it.516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTxtXpPpVOC
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"Now imagine what it feels like 516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHIYt0osLgr
To have that person516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ410T2NvBsU
Ripped 516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡil68ha8vAD
From your life;516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeq0Rj3nZD6
Torn away from you.516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpB2NnhVgfU
You can't breathe. 516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhjoFEr3qZ3
You're dead, yet you aren't,516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdpBLMfxgB4
You still 516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdt3psvoXta
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Talk516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpJ13rPsN00
Interact 516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpBCV65eYBS
With the people around you,516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgQnMgYNztd
But on the on the inside, 516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMhLZ47hNYN
You're hollow;516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIemlMMoAaT
Dead."516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8CJvONtZDv
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This is not how my night was supposed to go.516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnUd3JMt7hV
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"It's been ten years,516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1Z2Z6uq2lm
My love, 516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbGAoW6s4TF
And every day, 516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzb0uQPGhf6
Every hour, 516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNHolL0rO0Z
Every second without you 516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSUUCYfvXHf
Feels like 516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIyel85LLGO
Torture."516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVQPspiJiyb
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By now, I feel like I'm being tortured. I want to leave, but as I look through the viewfinder of my camera, I know more than anything that I can't.516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoEzmsl3zFt
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"I would ask for 516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6TM6qVBSDd
Forgiveness,516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPYAiJcbns6
But I can see that you've... 516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIEid7ScN17
Moved on, 516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtR6dpgOA6M
And found happiness elsewhere. 516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsMub6WdIGE
And I have to live516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYgCKgyUcUQ
With the consequences 516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGQ9y81rKbl
Of my stupid actions 516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHDHVOSW4ZY
For the rest of my life. 516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBgcD62AxtY
I have to live with this 516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUAQFrgilTX
Torture, 516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZaASjuwrxj
This 516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOQb1lHiJUs
Pain,516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGtSBEjQ7UD
Because I have never stopped,516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaD5vJ8d5HG
Loving 516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZBlZbZQLaz
You,516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWRXp9SHo3W
And I don't think I ever will."516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWFA0DNb0Kh
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By the end of the poem, I feel like I might drop my camera.516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLkHtepVC5v
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All of the emotions that I have been trying to surprises come rushing forward as Henry says his poem, because I know exactly what that feels like. I don't want to remember it, but I do.516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9cEvzd1jM9
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Tears fill and spill over my eyes as the audience applaud Henry; I can no longer see Henry through the viewfinder of my camera.516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnBpaagEi5L
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This pain, this ache in my chest, this is what happens when you suppress your emotions, and pretend that your past is nonexistent, when you refuse to acknowledge what was once there.516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWINPMZxg8e
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Pressing the ignore button on the past — repeatedly, in my case — is not only disrespectful to the highest degree, but also stupid, because the past won't change.516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZCOQEzcrmR
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The fact that I'm in a place called Poetic Justice and my stupidity has finally caught up to me isn't lost on me. How ironic.516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYX2Ms9bSb6
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Suddenly, a strong arm is wrapped around me, and the camera is being taken out of my hand. I let out a broken sob into his chest as he rubs my back soothingly. I don't even know how long we stand there like this.516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBFkOuLxqfb
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In the back of my mind I know that I'm crossing a line, breaking my own rule letting him comfort me like this, but in this moment, I feel too broken to care.516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf6yvCQdLzs
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We finally pull apart, and he looks at me cautiously, as if I'll break.516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxryn5JQ5lv
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"I'm okay," I say to reassure him.516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLzDegaOzbA
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He doesn't look convinced.516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiS34X2xi10
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I look down at the ground and sigh, then look back at him. 516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUQxB6ddAzJ
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Then I realise he isn't holding my camera.516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmbfOxdTdIq
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"Where's my camera?" I ask frantically.516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcuw12BEl6a
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He nods behind me, and I see my camera bag sitting on a table behind us. I sigh loudly in relief.516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxDNK5bEqvE
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I look up at him, and maybe it's because of how vulnerable but safe I'm feeling with him right now, but what I say next just feels right.516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX9Skl41wud
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"I've been in love before; madly, madly, deeply in love," I say, my voice cracking all over the place. I take a shaky breath. "It hurts to think about what could have been; what will never be. I wanted to be a mother, to be the mother of his children." 516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVTeSHBING5
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I'm hyperventilating.516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbARmGxl16K
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"Breathe, Leah. Take deep, steady breaths," he says to me while rubbing circles into my back.516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZjBpeje0Da
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When I finally calm down he speaks again.516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz1ezmQIN1e
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"If you don't mind telling me... what happened?"516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbBDpjHJTWJ
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My chest starts to hurt, my eyes are burning, but I owe him an answer. I brought this up.516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTk6RO6Wc4u
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I look him dead in the face as my eyes fill with tears once more.516Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRqJeC8VYBb
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"He died."
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