It's been about two weeks since the wedding, and my lip has returned to its normal state. I can't say I'm not pleased.519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYUNTc4u4MR
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I haven't seen David since the morning after the wedding; I've had at least one photo shoot each day, which is a 180 from the level of struggles that I was facing not even four months ago.519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡadqZxWwPRK
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As I walk to the kitchen in my small apartment, I begin to wonder... what does David do? He's never told me. He must have a pretty good job to own two houses, but somehow, I've been fuckíng the man for weeks now and I still don't know.519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUvmsOpLarz
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I shrug off the thought, and reach up to open the cabinet and pull down the jar of Jablum Instant Coffee, I feel a sharp pain in the left side of my pelvis.519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl4f8GAnVfY
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"Fuck," I hiss, bending over.519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSbnayqNkuK
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This is what you get for not eating dinner last night. Gas pains.519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEHVGFN5oz2
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I straighten up and reach for the coffee again, this time retrieving it, and make myself a cup of steaming black coffee with scrambled eggs and bread along with it (I'm too lazy to do anything else).519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZtanFb4bld
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So, back to David. What does he do? For some reason, I wouldn't be surprised if he was into some shady shit. 519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡteSigAaayA
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Oh, well. 519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSWxnZrOZ7R
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I guess I'll just have to ask the next time I see him. I make a mental note to do so, and even though I'm extremely forgetful, I'm pretty sure that I'll remember this.519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8lF1dVS0IX
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After resolving to ask David about his occupation the next time we speak, I continue to eat, not really for the taste of the food, but rather out of necessity. It's something that happens to me sometimes — I don't feel the urge to eat, but I know that I have to do I force myself to.519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuQEONE4Whv
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On other occasions, I'm like a pig, consuming everything in sight until I feel as if I'm about to burst like that poor man at the end of 'Monty Python's The Meaning of Life'. 519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsHODxPRHpl
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I have no idea why my eating patterns are so random — they aren't affected by my mood or period, they just seem inconsistent.519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGPG6Eu6rYg
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After I finish and wash up the plates, I go back to my room and check my phone.519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNOccUfEbZX
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I have two missed calls from none other than Marcus.519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlur3OCwW6U
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"Answer your goddamn phone," he growls when I call him back.519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6GDYkV7dH0
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"Whatever. Why are you calling me?"519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ227yppMiEN
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"You have a new job offering. It's an event. But—"519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbk77NZVF5W
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"You—"519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwJdq1ejFkN
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"But," he says, drawing out the word so that I will let him continue.519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrbP117iUoA
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I shut up.519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHoG9I3z0Jh
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"It's a free speaking/poetry open mic event. They're offering thirty thousand, because they're a little low on funding, but—"519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVfOfxJGEuI
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"I'll go," I say before he can finish his sentence. I love poetry — and he knows it. I love reading it, I love writing it, I love hearing it. There's no way I'm passing up this opportunity.519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVlzOFCO957
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"Great. It's on Thursday coming at nine p.m. I'll text you the address and remember to get there early."519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwVBtkTYGKt
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"Yes, sir!" I say in mock salute.519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkuDA27LTyc
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I hear him laugh through the phone.519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmOUYJHwA5O
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"By, Leah."519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPNAiUsMs2f
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"Bye."519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡycf9zmlYsw
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I sigh as I hang up the phone. Today is Monday. What is it with all of the late bookings? 519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsL1ggAFrOV
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Well, at least you aren't broke anymore.519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0H1lEZE6Vh
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With that optimistic thought in mind, I go back to the kitchen for another cup of coffee.519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOuNod88o59
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Poetic Justice is a small, intimate setting. It is located outdoors, and has a small stage area with a few small tables and a bar located at the back.519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPUsITpCUg0
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"Hello, you must be Leah," says a young woman who has just approached me, dressed in a pair of jeans and a grey blouse.519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1N0L3gN8Ot
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"Good evening. Andrea, right?" I ask. That's the name Marcus gave me.519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvJag90XhfB
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"Yes," she replies, and begins to walk, so naturally, I walk with her.519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeJ5NTdbDFy
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"The bar is straight to the back. Have whatever you want; I've already told the bartender that your drinks are on the house. And feel free to come up and do a little poem; putting down the camera for five minutes won't hurt," she says with a smile, then turns and walks away.519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUwXru7M970
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Well that's an odd offer. 519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH7IYakvD9G
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I sigh and place my camera bag on a table near to me and start to set up my camera.519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXzdH4HmcLj
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"Leah," I hear in a voice that is all to familiar.519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJyihkdrS3m
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"David?" I reply, spinning to face him. "What are you doing here?"519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡluXMJnfPNd
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"I come here all the time," he replies, his eyebrows knitted together, "and I love poetry."519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmuaNg9KBh3
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"So do I."519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhGB9pNg0Pa
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I now have my camera in my hand, and I remember the pressing question that I had for him.519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4Bwlq2byB7
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"What do you do for a living?" I blurt out.519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ73Q4zKTzr0
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To be honest, I'm prepared to hear anything; from a drug dealer, to a pimp. I wouldn't judge him, though.519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡab6V6Q90Mi
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"I'm a graphic designer."519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeWeo9e8wlv
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Well I wasn't expecting that.519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡax52y2V1pI
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"I also sell ganja on the side. I have links with a ganja farmer."519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrI2qHt77WK
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That's more like it.519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5jAo6DP7Qp
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We stand there in silence for a few seconds, and then he clears his throat.519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ94zC3rD3D5
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"I have to, use the bathroom. See you later."519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvKYYQlmnDo
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"Okay. Bye."519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOXt7cMmy1G
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He walks off and I go to the bar and get myself a glass of ginger ale. I stand idly by the bar for a few moments, and before I know it, Andrea is on the stage.519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzEL9pLFgSb
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"Good evening, ladies and gentlemen. My name is Andrea, and tonight, I'll be your hostess. So as you are all probably aware, we are having a poetry/free speaking open mic event tonight. Who would like to go first?"519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGXd9K13XVs
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A young girl around my age walks awkwardly up to the stage, and performs a dramatic rendition of Dry Foot Bwoy by Louise Bennett.519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTea2OFNyS2
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As the night continues, I find myself being more and more entertained. One man performs a ballad inspired by his daughter; a young boy performs a free verse dedicated to his mother in the audience. 519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjiHwDSMRf0
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Then, a tall gentleman steps onto the stage.519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU1m2iEDfhW
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"Hello. My name is Henry."519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpFEsJSIZ2d
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People in the crowd say their greetings.519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk24hkZVtjv
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"Tonight, I will be performing a free verse poem I wrote."519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9K5x4kD15P
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He clears his voice, then begins.519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡln3am5vxFt
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"Have you ever been in love?519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6FcLmEDhPb
Had your soul so deeply entwined519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn9MNoxJg7y
With another's519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDdZy6gqFDD
That you cannot figure where yours ends519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0AQ2POd3GY
And theirs begins?519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0nCyvYFhEa
So madly and deeply in love519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKpdC9JkLm3
That that person's heart beats with yours;519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSMRLSnrWZI
Just looking at them is blinding; 519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqJfbuUNInE
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But you do it anyway519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRJPUCQJzRz
Because when she's there519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz5RAEaPlmc
Logic and Reason die."519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4qWf2RBGOE
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I feel my stomach curl with unease, tension filling my body, because I know that it's going to go downhill — I can feel it.519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFFkzj8eoXj
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"Now imagine what it feels like 519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYjCmKgGUnr
To have that person519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzwP8HsljO9
Ripped 519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyQafWi1TEg
From your life;519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw5n0kRCakQ
Torn away from you.519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLbTqRy3a2Q
You can't breathe. 519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdkhSwM65Vr
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But on the on the inside, 519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡINFF78G91m
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Dead."519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPMsE1fOpaY
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This is not how my night was supposed to go.519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjWtNva40zj
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"It's been ten years,519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWyPi0lh5H1
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And every day, 519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbqUQshUKPI
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Feels like 519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ16pKz3i7Dn
Torture."519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUUVXHaCCtv
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By now, I feel like I'm being tortured. I want to leave, but as I look through the viewfinder of my camera, I know more than anything that I can't.519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbwsCreZLbf
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"I would ask for 519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj7tDk1Km6M
Forgiveness,519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAay8R7hHWv
But I can see that you've... 519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTSGORoQauY
Moved on, 519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVWDOY2rewz
And found happiness elsewhere. 519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSYxUk7Bibh
And I have to live519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSYzpCe6baV
With the consequences 519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbhMzcU35KI
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For the rest of my life. 519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVFRGGXBNPm
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Torture, 519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvaoaPDWdU1
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And I don't think I ever will."519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa8uh5RZFpu
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By the end of the poem, I feel like I might drop my camera.519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6Pkixu6ioK
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All of the emotions that I have been trying to surprises come rushing forward as Henry says his poem, because I know exactly what that feels like. I don't want to remember it, but I do.519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkUkOzd201B
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Tears fill and spill over my eyes as the audience applaud Henry; I can no longer see Henry through the viewfinder of my camera.519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2QVfUTPuxK
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This pain, this ache in my chest, this is what happens when you suppress your emotions, and pretend that your past is nonexistent, when you refuse to acknowledge what was once there.519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG9aqTKEAdC
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Pressing the ignore button on the past — repeatedly, in my case — is not only disrespectful to the highest degree, but also stupid, because the past won't change.519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEw0J3PTA47
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The fact that I'm in a place called Poetic Justice and my stupidity has finally caught up to me isn't lost on me. How ironic.519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhH2uUDoCZx
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Suddenly, a strong arm is wrapped around me, and the camera is being taken out of my hand. I let out a broken sob into his chest as he rubs my back soothingly. I don't even know how long we stand there like this.519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwO83oqva1j
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In the back of my mind I know that I'm crossing a line, breaking my own rule letting him comfort me like this, but in this moment, I feel too broken to care.519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvWanGA2Cqk
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We finally pull apart, and he looks at me cautiously, as if I'll break.519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFsKBX4tmX0
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"I'm okay," I say to reassure him.519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcRVbxCxj9R
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He doesn't look convinced.519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY8ziujlbT3
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I look down at the ground and sigh, then look back at him. 519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPAY8YQj823
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Then I realise he isn't holding my camera.519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGGAwHai2aa
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"Where's my camera?" I ask frantically.519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡswWnOK2EP3
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He nods behind me, and I see my camera bag sitting on a table behind us. I sigh loudly in relief.519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtflXx39CtM
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I look up at him, and maybe it's because of how vulnerable but safe I'm feeling with him right now, but what I say next just feels right.519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7iPMiaq7bS
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"I've been in love before; madly, madly, deeply in love," I say, my voice cracking all over the place. I take a shaky breath. "It hurts to think about what could have been; what will never be. I wanted to be a mother, to be the mother of his children." 519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5kSQurdTqK
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I'm hyperventilating.519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡARFNpiVoX4
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"Breathe, Leah. Take deep, steady breaths," he says to me while rubbing circles into my back.519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ69LfNi36Mc
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When I finally calm down he speaks again.519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVw7Ef7LvIJ
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"If you don't mind telling me... what happened?"519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMWf9BcekqS
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My chest starts to hurt, my eyes are burning, but I owe him an answer. I brought this up.519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYQhZ2WHpjT
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I look him dead in the face as my eyes fill with tears once more.519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡegMav3JiPX
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"He died."
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