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January 1, 2005
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Same day
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"That's... not... I wasn't..." I try to explain, but now that the lust haze is gone, I am unable to rationalize my actions. 674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxh9ULcWh1Q
Was that what I was doing? I wanted to stop thinking about everything and I figured with what I heard about Ben, he wouldn't complain. 674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn5ADoqj4d2
"Ugh... I'm such an idiot." I cover my face with my hands. I just want to get out of here. Laying next to him in my underwear after being rejected is so embarrassing. I need to leave.674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxQQTEJVNcY
He pulls my hands away from my face. His eyes meeting mine. "No, you aren't. You are just hurting."674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3Pf4WDHqz7
Is that it?674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHrhBk4FYgR
When I caught him with that whore, I was almost relieved. Maybe I'm just not processing my emotions properly... 674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ20C9GOS7xi
I should be devastated. I mean, I am really upset, but I feel more like I'm mourning the life I lost, not the person. 674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdthmSKxj4K
I think he wanted to get caught. He probably hoped I would join in or something.674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNvlEEp157k
What a creep. How could I give so much to him? I cannot let myself get wrapped up in another man like that again. 674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2vnC9nkpgy
I need to be strong. 674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqARIyYrNXp
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I need to be independent. 674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9PoTdijyGv
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I need to make better choices. 674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvOvJmJEXkQ
I need to... not be here. Crap.674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSVk5c5lBop
Ben makes me feel weak and vulnerable.674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqp9kDT7SdE
But also powerful and wanted. 674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzis5U7NujE
Ugh... I am so confused. 674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYBEVhj0LRP
I do know that hopping from one guy literally onto another is not a good choice.674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3vu8IaxK1b
I also know that nothing casual can happen with my best friend's boyfriend's best friend. That would be all kinds of complicated. 674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdn7nYnSdKO
Hopefully I haven't made things too awkward. Oh god, what if they get married? I will have to see him all the time. I will be reminded of this night forever.674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHcaJ6rmEqt
He smirks, tucking my hair behind my ear. "There she is, the wheels are turning again." 674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKCKE5XDkRn
I can't help the laugh that bubbles up. I probably sound insane, but this night is all sorts of messed up. 674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfBy60j4bes
His face lights up and his dimples emerge. Crap. His smile turns my insides to jelly.674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIf426cbkZH
"Come on, Katarina, give the poor little hamster a break. Tell me your thoughts." He gives me a reassuring smile. I'm not sure I like him using my full name, it makes my heart flutter.674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIYOo9eY86Q
"I think..." I need a light topic. I just want to ignore my problems. "I think this has been the weirdest night."674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIkDGHxzx9Y
He nods in agreement. "Weird good or weird bad?"674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5QH1LpR3QY
"Hah... Both?" I wince, knowing he's going to prod for more and I don't want to go any deeper.674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVU41JDJSXe
"I am going to have to agree with you." I was not expecting him to agree. "Although, I think yours had a bit more bad than mine." His hand caresses my cheek and I can't help but lean into his touch. 674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhC0GsxM6LG
I am so weak. 674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxhEqHHNISg
"Hmm..." His touch is relaxing and I feel the day catching up with me. The emotions and tears taking their toll on my body. 674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzJJtkGirVn
"You falling asleep on me, Kitty Kat?" I can hear the smile in his voice, but I'm having trouble keeping my eyes open.674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkK2xltYaGZ
"I am not a cat." I say, as sternly as I can muster, but it comes out weak. 674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡul5sHJXjUS
"Meow." He chuckles at his own joke.674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIjWq1dve1X
"You are so not funny." I mumble.674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlQKokc9Kx7
"Oh come on. You're no fun." He tries to tease me, but he doesn't realize just how accurate he is. 674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdHyxiN0ZbO
Maybe if I were more fun, things would be different. 674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMb93n4euuz
"If only you knew..." I snuggle into his hard chest, hoping he won't ask anymore questions. 674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGN2QW5yuFq
I know I should leave, but I just can't bring myself to part with him. I'm sure he's filling some void and I'm being pathetic, but he hasn't thrown me out yet.674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTOZ8VGMIAs
In fact, he pulls me tighter. Resting his face in my hair. 674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhWb1UdmKjP
"Don't worry, I will protect you." He whispers and as I drift off into oblivion, I actually believe him. 674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDCliuXvO6V
I awake to the sounds of muffled shouting. There is a heated argument somewhere nearby. 674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfniCH7A88z
When I try to move, I bump something hard with my elbow and freeze. I hear a groan and feel the bed move slightly. I am not alone.674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYXTn8yJEgM
Oh no. 674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu05llaJnh7
What did I do? 674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrToBvP2WEE
Scanning the room, I realize I have no idea where I am or who could be behind me.674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaKVmoCAYSd
Unless Vanessa is having a really rough morning, that was definitely too deep to be her voice.674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS2F0PKvHwr
Crap. I am too afraid to look, who could it be? Bits and pieces from the night come to me, but not enough to piece together anything solid.674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQz3B725Gwx
I remember crying at some point.674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqPVBGa3qEB
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I remember drinking more than I should have.674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1E03pJITmH
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I remember Vanessa being her usual self. 674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnZGwv7XUXI
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I remember her new boy toy stuck to her side. 674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRVMDQNRBSi
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And I remember... Uh oh. 674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkA2u6LT3Ed
It couldn't be... I wouldn't... Would I?674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWGDBu6F29c
Am I really asking myself this after waking up next to some random guy? Well, maybe not so random...674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF5c8XhovBL
Oh god, this is all sorts of complicated. 674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAzflzR3olC
Okay, I just have to know... I try to roll over gently, without disturbing him. 674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNnwA2Eud3K
I find a pair of amused green eyes staring back at me. A gorgeous grin with dimples on his stupid perfect face. 674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMaf8jyI0of
Crap. 674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNemZLHDUqr
I know I'm blushing hard, I can literally feel my face burning. 674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpSyjb3FHR6
How did this happen?674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMiwwu8UgeN
"You done freaking out yet?" He asks with a chuckle. 674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsT1vqPWLDQ
Is he... laughing at me? 674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzWWdW6j5ED
"Uh..." And just like that, he has short circuited the connection between my brain and mouth. 674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhuiAfAGTtS
"Don't panic." He talks softly, like I am some wild animal that might bite him.674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuPOuG0BDAc
I am totally panicking. I just can't decide if I want to run out of the room or stay and figure out what exactly happened. 674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK8VsW6ut1Q
My curiosity wins, just barely. 674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb5Dh8euba1
"Nothing happened." I must look really confused, because he feels the need to explain further. "We didn't have sex."674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzG6D1H5mtX
"Oh..." I'm not sure if I should be relieved or hurt that he was naked laying next to me.674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRtyz2yts4x
Nope. Not letting my mind go there.674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡml3zK13Nui
I choose to feel relief. I wouldn't have remembered it anyway. 674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAlxc7VzH03
"Not for lack of you trying, of course." He flashes a cocky smirk at me. 674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZzZct5MnB9
I feel a frown tugging at the corners of my mouth, despite my attempt to keep my face neutral. No, I didn't throw myself at him, did I? 674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6cCAZahAR5
I vaguely remember waking up and thinking I heard my name through the wall and then... 674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWod5qLjfCN
"No way... I... Oh god!" My eyes pop open so wide, they begin to hurt.674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1roLwcLzi7
Crap. Did I really climb on top of him? Yep, I was totally grinding on him.674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOqbSQzsL1m
I gasp, my gaze running down his body before I can stop myself. I take in his muscles, but his bottom half is covered in a sheet. 674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuZaVGXz3Mu
His eyes meet mine. "Reminiscing?" 674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ09xry7LYm0
"What! No!" My voice is too high and rushed to be convincing. 674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW906cPOnk4
I remember licking his defined chest.674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXNP20hRvya
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I remember... 674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7Coh3XRRkM
he was naked!674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeDp5iz3zPr
I inwardly groan. I totally touched him. I know how big he is and... 674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsXmuipeglg
Oh god! I know how he tastes. 674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNx0o1XFolv
"Shit." I know it's inelegant, but I can't think of anything else to say.674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk8BQmLHSTk
His mouth pops open as his face twists in shock. "Did you just... I can't believe you just said shit!" 674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVLfjF47RvS
"What? Why not?" I sit up, feeling defensive. 674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡydSlceSmsQ
Why is he so shocked? He barely knows me. Why does he assume this? Did I say something weird last night?674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSyl9BAjoVC
"You seemed kinda offended when I cussed, so I guess I just assumed..." He looks shy, almost like he was caught doing something wrong.674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcUvdlkNFgW
"Based on?" Sure, I don't make a habit of using curse words, but it's more an ingrained reflex than an actual choice. 674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdA96A1nuZH
He hesitates, like he's afraid to say and I begin to feel slightly nervous. Crap, what did I say?674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwd9af9Tp5I
"You... uh... kinda flinched." He blushes and looks around the room. Insecure Ben is totally adorable. 674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBsCZ0GDc88
"Oh." I'm honestly not sure how to respond because I definitely can't tell him the truth. "Well, I wasn't offended."674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrjoL3C104s
"Okay." He blows out a breath, looking up at the ceiling. "If you say so." 674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡia8R1jZgFp
He looks completely unconvinced but I can't give him more than that. 674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhUeWUGoTAX
"So." He clears his throat. "Not to be totally awkward here..." His gaze drops to the tent of his crotch before his eyes scan the floor. 674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRFJVkkHTST
"And not that I would mind laying in bed with you all day." He looks down my body and winks. "But, maybe we should get dressed?"674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0hA2LVeXBv
I look down at myself, just now realizing I'm sitting here in lacy underwear. 674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnb0zG7ir5t
When I don't respond, Ben flashes his smile. "Or not, I mean you look great." 674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfQ1qltywK2
I am unable to hide the look of shock on my face before I snatch the sheet to cover myself. 674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4AcRnIKknB
Which is no longer covering "Little Ben", if you can even call it that.674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmYxdmdzjSd
Oops.674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa1J043SghC
Of course that would happen to me! I take a moment to look at it in the daylight and wow, it's like a sculpture. 674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRxNMoYME8b
Unable to stop myself, I have apparently lost my filter completely around this man. 674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡByiReZHXDL
"Well hello, Big Ben." I try not to giggle like an immature school girl, but Ben's laugh makes me laugh harder. 674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxNSyIbFVm4
"Big Ben, huh?" He grins, making my stomach flutter. He shakes his head, amused. "What am I going to do with you?"674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt2xYXOUP3u
My mouth goes dry as my mind conjures up all kinds of things he could do to me. It feels like all the air was sucked out of the room as I struggle to control my breathing. Is it hot in here, or is it just me?674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxrjfcKTbpD
My gaze returns to "Big Ben", as it seems to grow, straining to reach me. 674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7ZBLcuEtzE
Prying my eyes away, I meet his green gaze. He's no longer grinning or teasing, in fact, it looks like he's in pain. 674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡffUeP2wofi
"So, you like what you see?" His eyes never leaving mine. I try to close my mouth and steady my breathing. I need to keep my composure, but my head nods without my approval. 674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ76DTAlQyQP
I lick my lips, remembering last night. I can't get my mouth to form words.674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeJF3EDtqB6
"Because I wouldn't mind seeing a little more." He reaches forward, tugging down the sheet. 674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBmAIkvbDZ6
He sucks in a breath. "Fuck, Kat."674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcEv8RhunkZ
I close my eyes, my insides turning to liquid fire. I love his cussing, like he can't control himself. Maybe it's because of my background and it makes him seem like such a bad boy, but it turns me on, like crazy.674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXdLrT2O9ya
He caresses my breasts through the sheer fabric. "God damn, you are beautiful." 674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRa8LUR4veK
I absorb his words as another wave of lust hits me. I know this is a bad idea. I know we should not be doing this, but I'm not sure I could stop it, even if I wanted to. 674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkcBu0iemRV
His hands move down my body as his mouth meets mine. His kiss is hungry and desperate and I can't get enough. 674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRe32Lk9sn3
His hand grazes me where I'm aching and I nearly explode. I need him. Now. 674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaFI9PUYSui
"Do you have a condom?" He has to have one in here somewhere, right?674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4Vs6YgH1ww
He blushes and looks slightly uncomfortable. "Actually..." We both freeze as the sound of yelling grows closer. 674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRrHIHgzp99
I pull the sheet up to cover myself just as the door bursts open. All I see Vanessa's fiery hair flying around as she takes the scene before her. "What the fucking fuck is fucking going on in here?" 674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTzY2bP1Kwd
I know her well enough to know when she can't think, she drops f-bombs. Her gaze drops to Ben's crotch, before he grabs a corner of the sheet to cover himself. 674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0MjvMFBcrl
I can't help the laughter that bursts out of me at the sight of her craziness. "Calm yourself, Vanessa."
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