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February 14, 2005
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Same day
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I see her across the room. 860Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe53f1ptOEZ
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Of course I see her.860Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ95l00r0pzI
I always see her.860Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLKJrf6y4Ia
And she's just as fucking beautiful as always. Maybe even more so.860Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOKK7J9SygW
Damn it.860Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMc2cqxF3Ap
I need to stop looking at her. 860Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLqmMxiMPcL
This is fucking Valentine's Day. The Holiday for desperate chicks, so why the fuck am I sitting here alone?860Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5Wiim6GczI
You already know the answer to that, you fucking idiot. 860Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpxIF6gT3uc
Damn it.860Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUb03LUsy6B
I scan the room for the thousandth time. My gaze lands on her, like it always does. 860Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAKZT30rnap
I want her so much, it physically hurts. I couldn't think about anyone else, even if I wanted to.860Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ75AbKwS3YZ
I don't want to. I want her, only her. 860Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlcFUZqYQ9s
But I fucked it up. 860Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2H94xVPoEV
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Of course I fucked it up.860Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4TXyH1yeLA
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Because I'm a fucking idiot.860Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY1qjQ4GbSD
And now she really hates me. She's been avoiding me this whole time. 860Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNV9F8vRmnl
It feels like a fucking knife in my chest every time I see her and she's not near me.860Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRji363GNcS
I need to touch her soft skin. I want to kiss her sexy lips. 860Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu0DFsOqqFb
Can lips be sexy?860Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS4jiV4hsiB
I don't know, but hers are. Everything about her is perfect. 860Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx5HghxDmrA
I need her. 860Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTLurXi4MX3
A blonde approaches me, Karen, I think. Fuck, I don't know. Who cares. She pushes her arms up in an attempt to display more of her tits and any other time, I would have been interested.860Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡadlZ77N2sZ
It's feels like that was another life. Everything feels so different now.860Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWDHffloQfb
"Hey Ben." She says my name like it's supposed to mean something, but I couldn't care less about what she wants.860Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnpt0xuTtME
Oh shit, I think I may have fooled around with her before. Maybe?860Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW5AIkKordu
"Hey, sorry, I gotta go. See you around." I stand quickly without a plan of where to go, but I figure I can hide from everyone in my room. 860Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYUm2Mq7PVF
Even her.860Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnWkohGTc5A
I close the door, locking everyone out and stumble to my bed in the dark. Shit, I drank too much trying to ignore the girl across the room. 860Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7artmntvTH
I feel something strange as I lay down...860Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcbPvZoxiD1
I'm not alone. Fuck! Who the hell is in my bed?860Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQKRFEOWguh
"Ben?" I hear her groggy voice and instantly relax. 860Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4BobnrK6Qp
"Kat? What the fuck? You scared the hell out of me!" Why is she in my bed? Was she sleeping?860Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfgJd7StRBX
"What are you doing here?" Her confusion coming through her scratchy voice.860Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡduY9KJFkrH
"What do you mean? In case you forgot, this is my room." I'm too amused to be irritated. 860Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZHf9Frty2Y
"Oh." She seems to realize where she's at. 860Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDd1bb8JL4P
"Oh." I chuckle. God, she's so fucking adorable.860Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe5E2i8JSnN
"Sorry." I can hear the embarrassment in her voice and even though I can't see her in the dark, I know she's blushing. 860Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtD0DjrPi0x
She moves, in a hurry to get up and probably run away from the asshole that I am. I need to make her stop. I don't want her to leave.860Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaU4uoSSyA8
"What are you doing in here, Kat?" I hope my question will be enough of a reason to stay at least a few minutes longer. 860Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3T7wbooBCB
It's not. 860Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc21VfOo3gC
She stands up quickly, just as a crash sounds through the room. 860Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBLuNKTQUSA
"Oh shit! Ben, I think I knocked something over." I can hear her scurry around, feeling for whatever it was.860Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJcnWeWoXM0
I laugh. Nothing in my room is that important. "Don't worry about it, Kat."860Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbvlZbHsZC8
"Don't worry about it?!? I'm pretty sure there's broken glass down here!" She's frantically feeling around. She's going to get herself hurt.860Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu88JRDNbiH
"That's all the more reason to not feel around in the dark. Seriously, Kat. It's fine. Stop before you hurt yourself." I hear her sigh, but she stops her movement. 860Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpDXd65kGwM
"Now, tell me. What were you doing laying in my bed? Not that I'm complaining." Shit, that last part wasn't supposed to come out.860Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlDKCMsK2jj
I feel the bed sink next to me as she sits down. "I just needed to... get away."860Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡud7LHqNKgL
"I know the feeling." I sigh. What I don't say is I was mostly trying to get away from her.860Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxQjhY6q7vA
"You do? You know what it feels like for all you friends to be in happy relationships and worried about you and your sad pathetic life?" She lets out a huff. Damn. I was not expecting that.860Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOTACYCaos9
"Uh... Yes?" She gives a humorless chuckle and I can just see her eyes rolling. "Well, I mean, I kinda do. Actually. I guess I just never thought about it like that before."860Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaxXjZIInRY
"Oh." Well, that shut her up, which would usually be a good thing, but I'm not sure what the fuck to say.860Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkOnYCz5Zpu
I decide to use this moment to beg for her forgiveness. "Listen, I just want to say, I am really sorry. For everything. I know you're not a fan of starting over, but do you think maybe you could forgive me?"860Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡezzKdtS8oE
She scoffs. "Oh please, like its that easy. You don't even mean that."860Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTH7TwbHznL
"I do too. More than anything. What can I do to make it up to you?" I would do just about anything she asks, I just hope she does forgive me.860Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRYamaitRba
"Nothing. There's nothing... at... all... Wait! I have an idea." I can hear the smile in her voice. Oh shit, why do I feel so nervous?860Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN7rgc2RWks
She keeps talking, not waiting for my response. "Okay! Just hear me out before you say anything. Okay?"860Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNJlCdXatFB
Again, I couldn't get a word in before she barrels on. "Okay. So, I think we should date."860Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNR1iZmP5TC
I can't stop the sound that erupts from my chest. It's somewhere between a laugh and a choking sound. I'm so in shock that my body has broken.860Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8h3rB0vz27
"I-uh... You-what?" Words. What are words? 860Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHRLtrkfucZ
"Okay, before you shut me down." I wasn't going to. "It's not real. We can just pretend to date."860Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUFLK74S1xL
"Why the fuck would we do that?" Okay, now I'm really confused.860Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyo78PMwhiA
"Because I really need this. And you said anything!" She throws my words back in my face.860Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzWk0QJRNG5
I groan and rub my hands down my face. What the fuck did I just get myself in to? 860Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpJ4vpw8EkS
"Okay, okay. Just give me a minute... to... to..." To what? What the fuck is there to think about? I can't say no. "Just give me a minute to process... all of this."860Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB6Phrh5A0A
"Sure, take your time." I feel her shift on the bed as she lays down. 860Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtfOSh9wQcT
"Make yourself at home." I half joke, because I honestly don't mind her laying in my bed.860Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ06ZKqmgVJZ
She just giggles, stretching out to get comfortable. Damn. I really missed that sound. 860Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2ZR5IS1oqG
I missed everything about her.860Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4COuzwTnQj
I'm going to have to do this. Pretend to be with the girl that I can't stop thinking about. 860Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLUd1hOgJbw
Shouldn't be too hard to fake feelings, it's the keeping them fake part that's going to be a struggle. 860Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa9u7d6xSOq
"Why exactly do you need this?" I have a right to know why we are doing this, don't l?860Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL1PDaXCqEX
She sighs. "Does it really matter?" 860Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDlX3MffOOM
"Before I agree to your crazy scheme, I need to know why we are doing it in the first place." Why can't it just be real? Of course, I don't say that out loud because I'm a huge pussy.860Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡenFhUhVpPP
"Okay, fair enough. Everyone has been treating me like I'm fragile since the whole... you know... happened." I lay down next to her on my back.860Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFHk4QT7j8K
"The whole you know?" I'm completely confused. What the fuck is she talking about? 860Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsHnVVup8Rp
"You know... New Year's Eve?" She sounds embarrassed, but I still don't understand.860Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuqk6A2fRBP
"Why would they treat you differently because of that?" Maybe I'm missing something?860Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYroaK7bnrQ
"Uh... because of... what happened... with you." Shit. This is all because of me? 860Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡewVlLAATcr
"Oh... I didn't... I didn't know." I can't believe she has been struggling and it's all my fault.860Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd18eh6JlZI
"So uhm... Yeah... They act like I'm going to break, so I'm sick of being pitied and worried about and I just want to be normal... And you can help with that. Two birds, one stone. You know?"860Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCfrdy6wqXT
"Uh, am I the birds or the stones here?" I chuckle. She's so weird sometimes. 860Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLNsfsaFJDA
She laughs. "Well, I guess the stone."860Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNJC7VkETkM
"Okay, so what are the birds?" I'm barely able to hold my laughter in to get the sentence out.860Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHiOgpoGiYz
"Wait. No. That's wrong. You're a bird!" She sounds excited, like she's made a huge discovery or something.860Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ92asQ9V6PD
"So... I'm a bird now?" Seriously... She is the most adorable person I know.860Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQpZ6bXMdM4
"Okay, everyone is worried about me because they think you broke my heart or whatever. So, bird one is you. And everyone pities me because I'm single. So, being a pathetic loser is bird two."860Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIJqYgFNRmf
I turn on my side to face her. "You are not a pathetic loser." Completely ignoring the fact she said I broke her heart.860Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXCmYN673Mr
"I most certainly am. That's why I need this. If I can just throw the stone of our fake relationship at the birds, everything will be okay." Exhaustion fills her voice as she turns to face me. 860Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWn7ba9fvVy
I can't help but notice we are only inches apart. I can feel her breath on my face. If I leaned forward a fraction of an inch, our noses would be touching. 860Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQjVa71s38P
Shit. This is bad. 860Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcsPk40HkeB
Faking it is going to be so hard. 860Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhfcwPyqr9y
"So... What do you say, Little Birdie? You in?" Her laugh echoing into the core of my being, reverberating and filling my chest.
I find her hand and pull it to my face, placing a kiss on it. "Let's throw that rock."860Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbhbMDOoCAP
I am so fucked.
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