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December 31, 2004
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Same day
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I know it's dumb, because I really want to kiss him but I know better. My mind is so disappointed with my body right now. I can't believe I asked him, god he probably thinks I'm desperate... or a total whore. 814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4Vf2SwF2am
I take him in with a sideways glance. His muscles are bulging out of his tight T-shirt. His curly brown hair is just messy enough to look effortless, but he probably spent a lot of time on it. 814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKyeEW2qt6m
He is obviously a womanizer, he literally oozes sex appeal. I cannot let myself fall for a guy like this. I will only get hurt, like with the jerk who will not be named. I will not fall for him. 814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhJg6dKV3cf
Ben leans in close to me. I can feel his breath on my neck, but I'm afraid to turn towards him. I might not be able to wait until midnight to kiss him. I will not fall for him.814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo9DHA4CqB4
"Hey, what's going on?" I hear his voice faintly in my ear. 814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkr2pySLNy3
I turn, surprised by the question. "What?" I can't remove the look of shock on my face. Why does he even care? What should I tell him? I'm not good at lying, but I can't tell him the truth. 814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz63waPacrY
Crap, I just realized how close our faces are. His eyes are intense and his lips are so... tempting. I will not fall for him.814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp2w95dC3Mn
The sincere look on his face is almost convincing, but there's no way he really wants to know. I know guys like him and they don't care. Guys like him only care whether they can get in your pants or not. Asking him to kiss me wasn't a great step in the plan to not fall for him, but like usual Vanessa bullied me. 814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmeb8nTT8Qi
"I don't know what you are talking about." I decide to pretend... Okay, I know it is technically a lie. I already know it's going to fail because nobody ever believes me when I lie, apparently my face gives away too much or something. They make it sound like it's something I need to change, but it's my face, what can I do about it?814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsLWvEEnUoJ
He looks at me hard and with his stature, it is almost intimidating. "No really, Kat."814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFsYkOhSwNE
"I... uh..." Oh no, this isn't good. I want to tell him all my secrets. I need to stop drinking, I'm not thinking clearly. I need to make rational decisions. I will not fall for him.814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqtrfP2HgzO
"Yes?" He asks me, with a cocky raised brow. 814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP6X8maSRpO
"I... uh... uhm... you see..." I lick my lips and his eyes dart down to my mouth. His gaze returns to my eyes as he prompts me to continue. 814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡToE02A2fTL
His body is calling to mine. I lean forward, needing to be closer to him, longing to breathe him in and taste him. I've never been so ready for a kiss, especially with a complete stranger... not that I kiss a lot of strangers. 814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlVW5HqzUCS
Shoot, was I saying something? 814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLi7ncnYPA3
"I think you might be bad news." Crap. I inwardly cringe. I didn't mean to say that out loud. 814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEeiQeP3E5F
He smirks, showing his adorable dimples. "Bad news, huh?" God, he is so sexy. I am so screwed. I will not fall for him.814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvSfDGEavrr
"Mmhmm..." is all I get out before the countdown to midnight begins. 814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0x16MNYGjg
"Ten." His eyes make their way to my mouth. 814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQiVB5K1l75
"Nine." He licks his lips. 814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4aTduSM3ZX
"Eight." He leans in until we are touching.814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmekxHOXQa9
He slides his hand to caress my neck. 814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVmKlYq1BCC
"Seven." His eyes burn with desire as they meet mine. 814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyVR9uaArFV
"Six." My body screams at me to kiss him, while my brain yells at me to stop. 814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH4Y2n6UQuT
"Five." It's just a kiss. I will not fall for him. 814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLbBqn5snjt
"Four." He leans in until I can feel his breath on my lips. 814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGl6QwD3lLn
"Three." I'm breathing him in. It's intoxicating. 814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXPkoNkuUsO
"Ready?" He asks into my mouth. I manage to whimper, but the 'no' refuses to leave my mouth.814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡft4wSELHKv
"Two." I will not... I will not... do something.814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRTFfX8yQOi
I could get lost in his eyes.814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt1b8Y4ceHC
"One." Shoot... what was I doing again? 814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNsNwPks1qv
"Happy New Year," he whispers as his lips gently brush mine. 814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaUfiBvMtUf
The room erupts around us, but it all fades away when his soft lips meets mine. When his mouth begins to move against mine, it feels so right. 814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ20meAXCVTw
It feels like this kiss is waking me up from a deep sleep that I didn't even realize I was in. I feel alive and powerful, but nervous and scared at the same time. This is so good and so very bad. 814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM8Q0rjvO06
I never want this kiss to end, I want him to deepen it and take it further, but he doesn't. He keeps it gentle and slow. Forget his eyes, I could get lost in his mouth. 814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu0PEHexSxh
All too soon, he pulls back.814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDkxw60Y9kJ
Immediately I feel lost and confused. I wanted so much more of that. So why did he stop? Maybe it's me. I'm probably a terrible kisser. Oh god, what if I am a terrible kisser? How do you know? Can I ask him that? No way, that would be too awkward. 814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLKz0pBZ7NN
What was I thinking? This kiss was a terrible idea. Why did I ask him? Why? This was so stupid. 814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsrODEkwR80
I cover my mouth with my hands, as embarrassment seeps into me. I need to know what I did wrong. 814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7KvtQ4zyJe
"Was it bad?" I try to hide the hurt from my face, but I can feel the sting of tears in the back of my eyes. I blink to remove them, but they threaten to spill over. 814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIe8oP6W5Hp
He just stares at me with a stunned look on his face. Oh no, it was even worse than I thought. He hates me and he's probably trying to wipe the kiss from his brain. Or maybe he's trying to plan his escape. 814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI987ctZuYM
"Ben?" I try to shout over the sound, but everyone is celebrating around us. He looks frozen. Did I break him? 814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGuPKsZXe94
Crap, is it possible to break someone with a bad kiss? Do they send an ambulance for that?
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