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December 31, 2004
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Same day
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I know it's dumb, because I really want to kiss him but I know better. My mind is so disappointed with my body right now. I can't believe I asked him, god he probably thinks I'm desperate... or a total whore. 779Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6xnxh3vQOG
I take him in with a sideways glance. His muscles are bulging out of his tight T-shirt. His curly brown hair is just messy enough to look effortless, but he probably spent a lot of time on it. 779Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOStfNcQTq6
He is obviously a womanizer, he literally oozes sex appeal. I cannot let myself fall for a guy like this. I will only get hurt, like with the jerk who will not be named. I will not fall for him. 779Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpZAbOdwvhl
Ben leans in close to me. I can feel his breath on my neck, but I'm afraid to turn towards him. I might not be able to wait until midnight to kiss him. I will not fall for him.779Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZDnFtIYhwB
"Hey, what's going on?" I hear his voice faintly in my ear. 779Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbTuC0JLcva
I turn, surprised by the question. "What?" I can't remove the look of shock on my face. Why does he even care? What should I tell him? I'm not good at lying, but I can't tell him the truth. 779Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCgjuOk8hvG
Crap, I just realized how close our faces are. His eyes are intense and his lips are so... tempting. I will not fall for him.779Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr4HUcIrlaE
The sincere look on his face is almost convincing, but there's no way he really wants to know. I know guys like him and they don't care. Guys like him only care whether they can get in your pants or not. Asking him to kiss me wasn't a great step in the plan to not fall for him, but like usual Vanessa bullied me. 779Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMdWw9RkexD
"I don't know what you are talking about." I decide to pretend... Okay, I know it is technically a lie. I already know it's going to fail because nobody ever believes me when I lie, apparently my face gives away too much or something. They make it sound like it's something I need to change, but it's my face, what can I do about it?779Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3cm1L2b7Nd
He looks at me hard and with his stature, it is almost intimidating. "No really, Kat."779Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5Z5GMxfEDo
"I... uh..." Oh no, this isn't good. I want to tell him all my secrets. I need to stop drinking, I'm not thinking clearly. I need to make rational decisions. I will not fall for him.779Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW7VUg7SOX1
"Yes?" He asks me, with a cocky raised brow. 779Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9LyCjusrdc
"I... uh... uhm... you see..." I lick my lips and his eyes dart down to my mouth. His gaze returns to my eyes as he prompts me to continue. 779Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMdsXkuSBcu
His body is calling to mine. I lean forward, needing to be closer to him, longing to breathe him in and taste him. I've never been so ready for a kiss, especially with a complete stranger... not that I kiss a lot of strangers. 779Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGBLdaUvozH
Shoot, was I saying something? 779Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7esSLbyvSC
"I think you might be bad news." Crap. I inwardly cringe. I didn't mean to say that out loud. 779Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsuEzcufeiH
He smirks, showing his adorable dimples. "Bad news, huh?" God, he is so sexy. I am so screwed. I will not fall for him.779Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr3fwcq24Hm
"Mmhmm..." is all I get out before the countdown to midnight begins. 779Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEdLXeZ7prf
"Ten." His eyes make their way to my mouth. 779Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0tQy7QpYmR
"Nine." He licks his lips. 779Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCN5Q9NFrgO
"Eight." He leans in until we are touching.779Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWQ4n4URAzx
He slides his hand to caress my neck. 779Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLHOe7PCwsu
"Seven." His eyes burn with desire as they meet mine. 779Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe1RYNjduU7
"Six." My body screams at me to kiss him, while my brain yells at me to stop. 779Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhVTHHAHM6G
"Five." It's just a kiss. I will not fall for him. 779Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhzTnLvHj9T
"Four." He leans in until I can feel his breath on my lips. 779Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE3cvBtKPF6
"Three." I'm breathing him in. It's intoxicating. 779Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlEyDpOb2nJ
"Ready?" He asks into my mouth. I manage to whimper, but the 'no' refuses to leave my mouth.779Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx0J55j4LgO
"Two." I will not... I will not... do something.779Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqiZX45B6Pv
I could get lost in his eyes.779Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBVJG44s2lx
"One." Shoot... what was I doing again? 779Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBEXL8gYt3R
"Happy New Year," he whispers as his lips gently brush mine. 779Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZyDubCw0dr
The room erupts around us, but it all fades away when his soft lips meets mine. When his mouth begins to move against mine, it feels so right. 779Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHik14PivY2
It feels like this kiss is waking me up from a deep sleep that I didn't even realize I was in. I feel alive and powerful, but nervous and scared at the same time. This is so good and so very bad. 779Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHmUfNuUgLj
I never want this kiss to end, I want him to deepen it and take it further, but he doesn't. He keeps it gentle and slow. Forget his eyes, I could get lost in his mouth. 779Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2rluNnXwJh
All too soon, he pulls back.779Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkyG63qFUbN
Immediately I feel lost and confused. I wanted so much more of that. So why did he stop? Maybe it's me. I'm probably a terrible kisser. Oh god, what if I am a terrible kisser? How do you know? Can I ask him that? No way, that would be too awkward. 779Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLpcGBdV4oX
What was I thinking? This kiss was a terrible idea. Why did I ask him? Why? This was so stupid. 779Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡooEuMYn4H6
I cover my mouth with my hands, as embarrassment seeps into me. I need to know what I did wrong. 779Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5k4Q8QmxhP
"Was it bad?" I try to hide the hurt from my face, but I can feel the sting of tears in the back of my eyes. I blink to remove them, but they threaten to spill over. 779Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBoRvbnhsYl
He just stares at me with a stunned look on his face. Oh no, it was even worse than I thought. He hates me and he's probably trying to wipe the kiss from his brain. Or maybe he's trying to plan his escape. 779Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvAjBrftJ6A
"Ben?" I try to shout over the sound, but everyone is celebrating around us. He looks frozen. Did I break him? 779Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4qp4DcFL5j
Crap, is it possible to break someone with a bad kiss? Do they send an ambulance for that?
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