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She doesn't believe me.737Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCsJeHqOgPs
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Of course she doesn't. Why would she? She sees me as a womanizing man-whore, which isn't completely untrue. But she doesn't know the truth.737Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA7lPx1MBuz
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No one does. 737Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKrfTURnhlN
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I plan to keep it that way. It's not like the truth would make anything better. 737Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSUZr0JrkeH
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Well, not until now. Not until her.737Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDxFXGbShpV
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But this is a fake relationship, so there's no need to come clean.737Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG0QMdgVnXS
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She's not with me because she wants to be, she's with me because I'm an end to a means. Shit, that isn't right. I'm a means to an end. There we go.737Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb0RP8xTEXw
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Thank god I didn't say that out loud. She would have had my balls for that slip up.737Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXFLq5RGDuy
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I will have to make her see that I am not the guy she thinks I am. I can show her, just to prove a point, of course. 737Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNBjcStJc5U
She obviously doesn't want to be with me for real. She's made it very clear that this is fake. 737Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtHW5Oo2mRS
"Okay, we got off track a bit. Let's see, one was me not dating. Two was us not liking each other. And three was what again?" We blew through the first two pretty easily, I'm fairly confident the last one won't be that hard either.737Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLVHRH1KSsH
"We have barely even looked at each other in the past month, so why would we suddenly start dating now?" Since I met her, I could barely stop myself from staring at her. Guess she wasn't looking at me, though. 737Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNy5Q3bt7sr
"Okay, well... for starters, that's completely untrue." At least on my part. "Besides, plenty of people start dating while barely knowing each other." 737Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡplEcSoe9uN
"What's untrue, exactly?" All of your little reasons.737Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSyYoUyhbh8
"I definitely looked at you." Every second I was near you.737Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhfXvnkX8LG
"Okay, I didn't mean literally. I just mean, we haven't talked. We could barely stand to be in the same room together. So what changed?" She sounds annoyed. Shit. 737Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkFJDY9g0jO
"Well... You know... maybe the reason we couldn't stand to be in the same room together is because of our strong desire to be together, but we thought we couldn't be, so we avoided each other." Oh shoot. I didn't mean to be quite that honest.737Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZeHBq271ta
"Okay, maybe for me, but no one is going to believe that for you." If only she knew...737Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfKdyjDZgJH
"Sure they will. The guys teased me constantly for staring at you, so they will totally believe I was just pining after you." I immediately regret the words as soon as I say them. She's not going to believe me anyway and I sound like a total pussy.737Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxPNrGDqN4Q
I wait for her retort, but I hear nothing but a sharp intake of breath. 737Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcBmDZBV6m2
I feel her nose brush against mine. She must have leaned forward accidentally... 737Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ67Pci5JzaX
But then her lips meet mine. 737Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbkpRcvvdtv
The kiss is soft and delicate, just like her. It's sweet and completely her. It causes something to stir within my chest. 737Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRmi6uyPVLm
It makes me want more. And not just sex. I want more of everything. 737Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR9YVSuJlXz
Oh, so much more.737Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJjC5VJ4OUR
Too bad this isn't real. She doesn't really want to be with me.737Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ3e1cVd2s9
Fuck, I can't want more. 737Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIdx9g3Xp76
She breaks off the kiss. "Oh god, that was dumb. I'm so sorry."737Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkWrII5dqOP
Why is she apologizing? 737Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyxpmzgeflh
"That was a good practice kiss." I try to reassure her, even though it's we killing me that this isn't real. 737Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFpDFnOg1Ew
She releases a breath. She must be embarrassed. Shit, she's probably over thinking again. I need to stop her before she dumps my fake ass. 737Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzzR74spIaO
As much as I hate pretending, not being around her would be so much worse. This past month has been hell. I tried to keep up appearances, flirting around, but my heart wasn't in it. 737Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvLVPStmOnb
A part of me kinda hoped it would make her jealous. Yeah, like that would ever happen. 737Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUnnFIdlw5k
Just look at her. What does she have to be jealous of? She's fucking perfect.737Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkk6eJwB1lG
Okay, time to distract her. "You know, we are going to have to be convincing, so we need to get used to doing coupley things."737Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1E8JUkMTwg
"True..." She doesn't sound very convinced.737Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0j0bLOJUbh
"Okay, I think I know what will help." I try to sound less exhausted than I am. She needs reassurance more than I need sleep. "Let's play a game. We need to get to know each other."737Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtcD1NSCBZ2
"It's easy, just tell me something about you and I will tell you something about me." I know it's lame, but I couldn't come up with anything better. My brain is turning to mush from the alcohol and lack of sleep. 737Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6xUTK93Cqa
"I think you misused the word 'game'." She giggles. Thank god, crisis averted.737Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOsLonmm7vC
"Maybe." I laugh with her. "Just tell me something about you."737Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaXMtgVfuyc
"No way, your game. You go first." She slaps my arm with the hand I'm not holding. I don't even know why I grabbed it in the first place, it just felt natural, and now I don't want to let go. 737Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3y05BjrWY7
"Okay, give me a second to think." I hope something comes to me because my mind is completely blank.737Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi6g1l8CNEo
"While you think, can I have my hand back?" She tugs her hand, but mine doesn't budge. 737Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp84jOrf5ms
"No way, this hand is mine now." I squeeze it tighter. 737Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsGmLturIFc
"I am actually going to need it though." I bring our clutched hands to my face to place a kiss on hers.737Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkNEcLrEHIU
"Nope. It's mine. You can't have it." She pulls a little harder, but I'm much stronger than she is. She's not getting it back unless I let it go.737Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAJXt7VVuwP
"Ow. You're hurting me." I immediately release her hand, just before she begins to laugh.737Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUCaOwOhL5s
"You little liar!" I hop up on my knees, to pin her down with one arm as my other hand tickles her side.737Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrEOlwxyUvg
She's squealing and begging me to stop. "Who knew you were so ticklish!" I move up to her armpit, continuing my assault.737Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKHj2yNd0Ki
"Stop! Stop! Okay, okay! Let's play your stupid game." Her breathing is heavy as she punches my chest with her little fists. 737Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJDhBOY3K3z
"Okay, Beautiful. Let's play, but..." I grab her hand again, locking our fingers together. "...this is still mine. I let it go under false pretenses."737Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6nioAhxu6b
She groans, but doesn't say anything. Oh right, I'm supposed to go first. 737Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkZSB0YC0GV
Dammit. I really didn't think this through.737Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMAu1Idm2Hc
"Uhmm... I think we should change the game slightly. Ask me any question and I will answer honestly. Then you have to answer it too. We can take turns coming up with questions." Oh god, what a huge mistake. What if she asks something I can't answer.737Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzX3rpRfmIh
Shit. Shit. Shit.737Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdB1hBdWWwm
"Okay... Let's start out easy. Tell me about your parents." This could be very bad. Why didn't I think of this?737Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsdIrvPRzia
"They are pretty typical, you know, just parents." I didn't think she would start off here. 737Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGEvvw6Cs0b
"That's it? Seriously?" She sounds disappointed, but I can't get into the truth.737Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNVssUPFzkL
"There's really not much to say. My dad runs Alexander-Murphy Enterprises, so he works all the time. My mom is great, but she wants me to get married and it's all she talks about when I see her." There, maybe that will be enough to switch topics. 737Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcaH3NdFigy
"No way! Your dad runs AME? So, you're what like, super rich?" I was used to people referring to it by its acronym, but I didn't expect Kat to be that familiar with the company.737Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpZLagzQFzF
"I guess. He owns it, well him and Uncle Declan." I've already said way too much, but for some reason I want to be honest with her.737Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcaZp1uFvAo
"Wait... So is Joseph your brother? And Cole?" Shit. I was hoping she didn't know about my family.737Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ68YU5FWKWy
"No." I blow out a breath. I really didn't want to get into this tonight. "I am Joseph Alexander."737Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPBKFvzpBAn
"But you go by Ben?" I can't tell if she's more in shock or curious.737Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrRq1A3AZvC
"Nate and I both decided to use our middle names so we wouldn't be as recognizable." I've always hated my first name anyway. 737Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOxakCuHLQz
"Wait... So... Nate is Declan Murphy Jr.?" Shit, Nate is going to kill me. "You two are New York's most eligible bachelor's? Well, according to People magazine anyway."737Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKBuT3BxDwq
"Yeah, but please don't say anything to anyone. The reporters will swarm this place if they find out." I can't believe I told her all this. This could really mess everything up. 737Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0eY6clCvFg
"Ben, I would never. I just can't believe you're little Joey. Wow. You really grew up. You were just a little scrawny kid, what happened?" I feel a small victory since I worked so hard for this body, but the memory of the lying, backstabbing bitch is enough to put a pretty big damper on it.737Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeI4lRg7hLK
"Samantha." I mutter, half to myself. Shit. It slipped out before I could think. 737Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBu67MXeqpr
"Who's Samantha?" She sounds so curious, but I definitely didn't want to get into this tonight.737Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD8Go5OpYrL
"No way. You've already asked your question. And you got a ton of information. It's my turn. Tell me about your parents." I just want to talk about something other than me.737Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeVJoB85awi
"Well, they are pretty typical, you know, just parents." She throws my words back in my face.737Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL6ZHvFU5BG
"Ha ha ha." She's so fucking adorable.737Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg3FcWyO9mj
"Okay, well my dad is a little different and my mom, well, she died last year. Brain tumor. My dad prayed and prayed, but it just wasn't enough." Woah. I can honestly say, I did not expect that. 737Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPK6G6OSCb6
"I'm so sorry, Kat. That has to be hard. As annoying as my mom can be, I can't imagine losing her." I hear her sniff and I know she is crying. 737Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2Y1zr44s3l
"You know, this game kinda sucks." I try to lighten the mood.737Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8kz9Qqf2hQ
She let's out a little laugh. "Yeah, but it kinda worked. We know more about each other, right?" 737Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb6M0M8sn6f
"Yeah, I guess. Let's get some sleep. I'm afraid to know what time it is."737Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvZCkr8jaAQ
"Okay, I'll go. Thanks for doing this." She pushes up off the bed. 737Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV9DXMHLufe
"No, stay. Please." I hang onto her hand for dear life. 737Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ45oP2XDTpU
"I really shouldn't." She can't leave. I need her.737Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn7p8tW2zxH
"You're upset and I would feel better if I could just hold you for a bit. Please." I don't want her to be alone right now and if I'm being honest, I don't want to be alone either. 737Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0E90CErUdE
"If you insist." I really do. 737Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq6Ti8EWdkE
She lays her head on my chest as I wrap her up in a hug. 737Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR8hupt6DJa
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