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January 1, 2005
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As he leans forward, I know my world is about to change. This guy has way too much power over me. What am I even doing? 791Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3F4cOxlixF
This is not me.791Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN6PsqarFFR
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I am not impulsive. 791Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMqosopcMi0
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I do not lose control.791Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtCkijEJAcf
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I do not kiss random guys.791Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1UoIgztpAS
Okay, so he isn't completely random since his friend is kinda dating my friend, but still... I don't know him. At all. 791Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl8uoD969wK
From want Ness has told me, he is a total player. 791Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcmSSoamAjy
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I run my eyes down his body. A very hot player. 791Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrKCKu2zVoF
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With big bulging muscles. 791Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXaxWI5By0l
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And hair a girl could sink her fingers into...791Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK9LZzbM5Lg
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And dimples... 791Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeQRxUsrGg2
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Encasing a heart stopping smile.791Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIM2DKw8TH3
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And deep green eyes... That just so happen to be staring at me. 791Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF91GGOqbov
Crap. He's really close. Is that desire in his eyes? Or maybe he is completely repulsed by the kiss we shared. Oh no, is he going to vomit on me? I really like this dress.791Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcVSk0ZH8qf
What is he doing? What is he thinking? Would it be weird to ask him? Duh... Of course it would be weird!791Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9y08tasaRp
Is he waiting for me to make a move? What should I do?791Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLnPnuXCOKk
Crap, he has me over thinking everything. I need to stop. What does 'Ness always say? I sneak a glance in her direction, but she's stuck to Nate like a sucker fish. She is definitely not going to be any help.791Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡErzRA8jpM2
"Just go with the flow." I hear her voice replay in my head. Right... I can totally do that. Easy enough. 791Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVhNS6IyaSq
The flow... 791Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz9Ov1g0aBN
But what is the flow here? Is the flow kissing or not kissing? Does the flow involve talking or not talking? 791Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUl5Y8SrXI5
Gah! I need to know what he's thinking. Would I totally ruin everything if I said something? I have to say something. 791Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5HW0ep8xpY
He pulls back slightly, giving me room to breathe. I immediately miss his closeness. I miss the warmth of his body near mine. My body notices the loss and begins the pull towards him again.791Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3m6OeqJB5X
Good god, I have been single for less than a day and I am already craving someone else. 791Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm3RY69lBOJ
I am not this girl. 791Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcHsgi4z62I
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I am independent. 791Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8I6B3UpXvb
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I am intelligent. 791Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp4JQhVzrqd
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I do not crave any guy. 791Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEmGxB6yPPI
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I have my head on straight. 791Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMxFddmS3mC
I will NOT fall for him. Or his tricks.791Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7fFKtv9ZzN
"Kat?" His eyebrows draw together, giving him a look of concern. 791Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmIng4nwiDb
Shoot. How long have I been sitting here staring off into space? 791Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfZAzDgEoJI
"Uh... Yeah?" My voice comes out strained. What the heck is wrong with me? I bring my hand up to hide my face. Maybe if he can't see me, he will forget I'm the idiot sitting here. 791Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKDSj60BHrT
Hey, a girl can hope, right?791Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG818RiXUae
No such luck. He pulls my hand away to gently lay it on the table, but he doesn't release it. 791Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGMG50a7Itd
"You okay?" He quirks a brow. I wonder if he feels the flow of electricity between our hands like I do. Does he feel the pull between our bodies, as though they long to be united?791Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXUHPigGLlm
Or am I just totally crazy?791Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxJfYXdNXF2
I glance down at our entwined hands ignoring my brain's plea to pull away. This connection with him is oddly comforting.791Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyMPBvzbLlw
My eyes slide up to meet his. "I'm fine." I manage to get the words out, but even I'm not convinced. 791Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOkd9jKXNRI
He lets out a soft chuckle before leaning forward to whisper in my ear. "I can literally see the wheels turning in your brain."791Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvw28t9bOKN
I pull back, my mouth dropping open. God, could I be any more awkward? 791Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7hDI84tknb
I'm not sure what to say, but he continues without prompting. "I didn't realize anyone actually thought that hard." His cocky smirk returns. 791Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQQ3r14sA9O
I scoff, yanking my hand from his. "Sorry to burst your bubble, but not every girl is an air brained bimbo." I cross my arms while leaning back to glare at him. 791Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrHHJZ4T3Sk
His eyebrows shoot up in surprise, his hands raised in surrender. "I never said that."791Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡur62xq4p9U
"Yeah, well... I have thoughts." Crap. That was really lame. "Deep thoughts." Yeah, that didn't make it better. How much did I drink?791Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7psesDd3G8
"I bet you do. I didn't mean to imply anything about you... or the entire female gender." He seems genuine, but maybe he's being condescending.791Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqEBI0DHKAF
I can't decide if I want to believe him or not. Being offended is easier than being vulnerable.791Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb0UZs3IlgK
"Well, maybe you don't know everything." I try to hold onto the indignation, but I feel it slipping away as the confusion fills his eyes. 791Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUtJgJbz2JH
I can tell he's trying to figure out where my hostility is coming from and where he went wrong, but I just want to be angry. And it has nothing to do with him.791Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ43E8RNnRd9
"Never said I did." Insecurity flashed across his face amplifying my need to comfort him. Opening up could be a terrible idea. I'm going to blame the alcohol in my system. 791Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaWfOj8RWVs
"I..." I let out the breath I didn't realize I was holding. "I... uh... tend to over think things. Pretty much everything. And today... actually yesterday, at this point, was not the best day." 791Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7ppOvLT4eh
"I didn't know..." His eyebrows draw together, the concerned look returning to his beautiful face. "You really can talk to me you know."791Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4nJRSifqhq
He gently pulls my hand back to his and begins to rub his thumb along my palm. An involuntary shiver runs through my body.791Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6Y7ISGHrZg
I am so screwed. 791Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgUVsOlX3yf
He's not only incredibly good looking with the body of a Greek god, but he seems to be a pretty good guy... 791Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ49oqdKbX4V
Dang it. I will not fall for him. 791Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQiD7uYdcJc
I feel drowsy, like I'm floating. "But can I trust you?" I whisper. In the back of my brain somewhere, I know that was lame... but I can't filter anymore. 791Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMPXpAErszd
"Of course." He looks deep into my eyes, like he's trying to convince me, but I'm already convinced. My eyes burn from the need to close them.791Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0pUpz2G5Bc
I open my mouth, unsure what's going to come out. "The douche bag knew I would catch him, didn't he?"791Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWCzN95gTOM
"What are you talking about?" I hear his voice through the haze. 791Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE9McFh7LmI
I'm not sure how to explain. "He had... she was... he had her... doing that... in our bed. He probably just wanted an excuse to get rid of me. I was too boring. I could never do... that... what she was doing... I couldn't. I wouldn't."791Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV9q48pG1JW
I hear male voices mumbling. It feels like there's water in my ears. I think 'Ness is talking, but I can't understand her. But she will understand what I'm trying to say. She always understands me.791Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLLsuu5dbl0
I can't stop myself now that I've started. "I really thought he loved me... God, I loved him... Didn't help though. I'm not what he wanted." Spots dance in front of my eyes. And my lungs burn.791Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCutF0gfXQZ
"Why am I such a prude? Why wasn't I enough?" It's hard to breathe... and my face feels wet. Am I crying? I really need air. Everything hurts.791Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkKErEi4zJ5
I can feel my body giving into the darkness, as my mind drifts to my soft bed. I just want to sleep. I just want this night to end. I feel my eyelids growing heavy. I'm unable to stop them from closing, not that I would want to. 791Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbsYnP7fiSf
"Kat?" I hear Ben's anxious voice in the distance, but all I can feel is my body giving into sweet sleep. My body just wants to shut down and I want to let it even though I know this isn't a good idea.791Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtGEGY4MTh4
As he catches me in his strong arms and his scent surrounds me, he is my last thought before the darkness pulls me under. 791Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHoFTfgFw1P
I will not fall... any more... for him.
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