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January 1, 2005
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As he leans forward, I know my world is about to change. This guy has way too much power over me. What am I even doing? 818Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6KTFcnhMLS
This is not me.818Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb9PUSmUYdC
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I am not impulsive. 818Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3bu3KJ5Hxi
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I do not lose control.818Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa2xnHxWfZI
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I do not kiss random guys.818Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd8qRW7Ibbz
Okay, so he isn't completely random since his friend is kinda dating my friend, but still... I don't know him. At all. 818Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCxcAmv3b2n
From want Ness has told me, he is a total player. 818Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJpztdSnUFB
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I run my eyes down his body. A very hot player. 818Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgAAB4g21n4
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With big bulging muscles. 818Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpRIcwOEAaG
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And hair a girl could sink her fingers into...818Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeFJbSLhP5f
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And dimples... 818Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4krkATfGeI
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Encasing a heart stopping smile.818Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9KhwlrJ2fU
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And deep green eyes... That just so happen to be staring at me. 818Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2SUW5UqwUQ
Crap. He's really close. Is that desire in his eyes? Or maybe he is completely repulsed by the kiss we shared. Oh no, is he going to vomit on me? I really like this dress.818Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9ckYYngRFX
What is he doing? What is he thinking? Would it be weird to ask him? Duh... Of course it would be weird!818Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY8xHzKYssf
Is he waiting for me to make a move? What should I do?818Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnr9JuSkDau
Crap, he has me over thinking everything. I need to stop. What does 'Ness always say? I sneak a glance in her direction, but she's stuck to Nate like a sucker fish. She is definitely not going to be any help.818Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW9J8YGvGr5
"Just go with the flow." I hear her voice replay in my head. Right... I can totally do that. Easy enough. 818Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKq0VB6M1ap
The flow... 818Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡykp0ovC3PG
But what is the flow here? Is the flow kissing or not kissing? Does the flow involve talking or not talking? 818Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7ZKTBdkR3r
Gah! I need to know what he's thinking. Would I totally ruin everything if I said something? I have to say something. 818Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE9h1h6omoc
He pulls back slightly, giving me room to breathe. I immediately miss his closeness. I miss the warmth of his body near mine. My body notices the loss and begins the pull towards him again.818Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDR8bLYF10K
Good god, I have been single for less than a day and I am already craving someone else. 818Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4zXoTh397K
I am not this girl. 818Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgTNKee4GrR
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I am independent. 818Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKGE6VPBH9Z
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I am intelligent. 818Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaGu5T8Uuu6
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I do not crave any guy. 818Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIbkbm72WkR
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I have my head on straight. 818Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQLcKeH23R4
I will NOT fall for him. Or his tricks.818Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnTek9P5iFi
"Kat?" His eyebrows draw together, giving him a look of concern. 818Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkYhaJ2M7Lp
Shoot. How long have I been sitting here staring off into space? 818Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3ChlyUfHTf
"Uh... Yeah?" My voice comes out strained. What the heck is wrong with me? I bring my hand up to hide my face. Maybe if he can't see me, he will forget I'm the idiot sitting here. 818Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz2StqOcBna
Hey, a girl can hope, right?818Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI5X0y7orSl
No such luck. He pulls my hand away to gently lay it on the table, but he doesn't release it. 818Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvEsTUU5ElH
"You okay?" He quirks a brow. I wonder if he feels the flow of electricity between our hands like I do. Does he feel the pull between our bodies, as though they long to be united?818Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnoCiIpuQ8O
Or am I just totally crazy?818Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9KaEvAkB4V
I glance down at our entwined hands ignoring my brain's plea to pull away. This connection with him is oddly comforting.818Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlafScHxyJS
My eyes slide up to meet his. "I'm fine." I manage to get the words out, but even I'm not convinced. 818Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDFdc7B5hP2
He lets out a soft chuckle before leaning forward to whisper in my ear. "I can literally see the wheels turning in your brain."818Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe9t8AJJnWT
I pull back, my mouth dropping open. God, could I be any more awkward? 818Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd1IwxD6agZ
I'm not sure what to say, but he continues without prompting. "I didn't realize anyone actually thought that hard." His cocky smirk returns. 818Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvM2nNrRzaS
I scoff, yanking my hand from his. "Sorry to burst your bubble, but not every girl is an air brained bimbo." I cross my arms while leaning back to glare at him. 818Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz9fxv0vi56
His eyebrows shoot up in surprise, his hands raised in surrender. "I never said that."818Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ934hpZAlPy
"Yeah, well... I have thoughts." Crap. That was really lame. "Deep thoughts." Yeah, that didn't make it better. How much did I drink?818Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4TzfahCzbs
"I bet you do. I didn't mean to imply anything about you... or the entire female gender." He seems genuine, but maybe he's being condescending.818Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeLMRtY7SQG
I can't decide if I want to believe him or not. Being offended is easier than being vulnerable.818Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtSE5VNXaMf
"Well, maybe you don't know everything." I try to hold onto the indignation, but I feel it slipping away as the confusion fills his eyes. 818Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIXUKScXZxn
I can tell he's trying to figure out where my hostility is coming from and where he went wrong, but I just want to be angry. And it has nothing to do with him.818Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPTey4j2u95
"Never said I did." Insecurity flashed across his face amplifying my need to comfort him. Opening up could be a terrible idea. I'm going to blame the alcohol in my system. 818Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYMT4ZeGwwe
"I..." I let out the breath I didn't realize I was holding. "I... uh... tend to over think things. Pretty much everything. And today... actually yesterday, at this point, was not the best day." 818Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmKSX4had6A
"I didn't know..." His eyebrows draw together, the concerned look returning to his beautiful face. "You really can talk to me you know."818Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzyhlUY1ljv
He gently pulls my hand back to his and begins to rub his thumb along my palm. An involuntary shiver runs through my body.818Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMIU5P98Soz
I am so screwed. 818Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdBaWwL9KIt
He's not only incredibly good looking with the body of a Greek god, but he seems to be a pretty good guy... 818Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9JKUWkKMHj
Dang it. I will not fall for him. 818Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2tQgoeLXgy
I feel drowsy, like I'm floating. "But can I trust you?" I whisper. In the back of my brain somewhere, I know that was lame... but I can't filter anymore. 818Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlSbFQBM88h
"Of course." He looks deep into my eyes, like he's trying to convince me, but I'm already convinced. My eyes burn from the need to close them.818Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLrXaDGtEQY
I open my mouth, unsure what's going to come out. "The douche bag knew I would catch him, didn't he?"818Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3IRSjIPH6q
"What are you talking about?" I hear his voice through the haze. 818Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmcwfmFumwj
I'm not sure how to explain. "He had... she was... he had her... doing that... in our bed. He probably just wanted an excuse to get rid of me. I was too boring. I could never do... that... what she was doing... I couldn't. I wouldn't."818Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQBLzSn1mpE
I hear male voices mumbling. It feels like there's water in my ears. I think 'Ness is talking, but I can't understand her. But she will understand what I'm trying to say. She always understands me.818Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeQBphFJ8H1
I can't stop myself now that I've started. "I really thought he loved me... God, I loved him... Didn't help though. I'm not what he wanted." Spots dance in front of my eyes. And my lungs burn.818Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcPo0u3xCyQ
"Why am I such a prude? Why wasn't I enough?" It's hard to breathe... and my face feels wet. Am I crying? I really need air. Everything hurts.818Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy0mmcJSMcX
I can feel my body giving into the darkness, as my mind drifts to my soft bed. I just want to sleep. I just want this night to end. I feel my eyelids growing heavy. I'm unable to stop them from closing, not that I would want to. 818Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA21s7nXe2R
"Kat?" I hear Ben's anxious voice in the distance, but all I can feel is my body giving into sweet sleep. My body just wants to shut down and I want to let it even though I know this isn't a good idea.818Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbG7l0UhH2f
As he catches me in his strong arms and his scent surrounds me, he is my last thought before the darkness pulls me under. 818Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHVTyMthtD7
I will not fall... any more... for him.
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