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January 1, 2005
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As he leans forward, I know my world is about to change. This guy has way too much power over me. What am I even doing? 748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4gM8bUZve2
This is not me.748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf3g8qpa7Zj
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I am not impulsive. 748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnfJQKW2iz6
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I do not lose control.748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrrSCaswl10
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I do not kiss random guys.748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNOnznxl5KQ
Okay, so he isn't completely random since his friend is kinda dating my friend, but still... I don't know him. At all. 748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQY6Rdf1XPP
From want Ness has told me, he is a total player. 748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDJJIW01n59
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I run my eyes down his body. A very hot player. 748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9003Ig2DGL
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With big bulging muscles. 748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡExiYx7Cgxd
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And hair a girl could sink her fingers into...748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfir20SF3Su
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And dimples... 748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhAKVpx6C0T
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Encasing a heart stopping smile.748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC7GXvQcK98
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And deep green eyes... That just so happen to be staring at me. 748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQhWBYV81nX
Crap. He's really close. Is that desire in his eyes? Or maybe he is completely repulsed by the kiss we shared. Oh no, is he going to vomit on me? I really like this dress.748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqP0XtsltdH
What is he doing? What is he thinking? Would it be weird to ask him? Duh... Of course it would be weird!748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC1ySPngmdf
Is he waiting for me to make a move? What should I do?748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrYeN3TEEHO
Crap, he has me over thinking everything. I need to stop. What does 'Ness always say? I sneak a glance in her direction, but she's stuck to Nate like a sucker fish. She is definitely not going to be any help.748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMmEwyiqBwt
"Just go with the flow." I hear her voice replay in my head. Right... I can totally do that. Easy enough. 748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbfSGdh2Hpa
The flow... 748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnUxrkgZrL4
But what is the flow here? Is the flow kissing or not kissing? Does the flow involve talking or not talking? 748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUkHXXzhd2A
Gah! I need to know what he's thinking. Would I totally ruin everything if I said something? I have to say something. 748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡru8VnYS6dH
He pulls back slightly, giving me room to breathe. I immediately miss his closeness. I miss the warmth of his body near mine. My body notices the loss and begins the pull towards him again.748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡii3PYVAQ8N
Good god, I have been single for less than a day and I am already craving someone else. 748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ74qA6M6v6A
I am not this girl. 748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl901fTm0Rh
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I am independent. 748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmZogfazCv6
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I am intelligent. 748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpyJj6yaMuu
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I do not crave any guy. 748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu4bsmL8r84
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I have my head on straight. 748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP5e4zvAp1l
I will NOT fall for him. Or his tricks.748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡasMCrO5fya
"Kat?" His eyebrows draw together, giving him a look of concern. 748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjiinqcH1xN
Shoot. How long have I been sitting here staring off into space? 748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4UEi16oVj0
"Uh... Yeah?" My voice comes out strained. What the heck is wrong with me? I bring my hand up to hide my face. Maybe if he can't see me, he will forget I'm the idiot sitting here. 748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIsyrFWjhVr
Hey, a girl can hope, right?748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKOZqJSfn6r
No such luck. He pulls my hand away to gently lay it on the table, but he doesn't release it. 748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD5dhRIFPQU
"You okay?" He quirks a brow. I wonder if he feels the flow of electricity between our hands like I do. Does he feel the pull between our bodies, as though they long to be united?748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOotC1yDvkw
Or am I just totally crazy?748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiN9Lb8Yrw0
I glance down at our entwined hands ignoring my brain's plea to pull away. This connection with him is oddly comforting.748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAf0rekmVkb
My eyes slide up to meet his. "I'm fine." I manage to get the words out, but even I'm not convinced. 748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIIHhsCHrnH
He lets out a soft chuckle before leaning forward to whisper in my ear. "I can literally see the wheels turning in your brain."748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsHZZQIl1S5
I pull back, my mouth dropping open. God, could I be any more awkward? 748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2SGp9iJkEH
I'm not sure what to say, but he continues without prompting. "I didn't realize anyone actually thought that hard." His cocky smirk returns. 748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7z4AYYfUPT
I scoff, yanking my hand from his. "Sorry to burst your bubble, but not every girl is an air brained bimbo." I cross my arms while leaning back to glare at him. 748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUeVmaFWDMp
His eyebrows shoot up in surprise, his hands raised in surrender. "I never said that."748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjwA70QsrBl
"Yeah, well... I have thoughts." Crap. That was really lame. "Deep thoughts." Yeah, that didn't make it better. How much did I drink?748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn8Cl4Tbvzg
"I bet you do. I didn't mean to imply anything about you... or the entire female gender." He seems genuine, but maybe he's being condescending.748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmOtIylX11n
I can't decide if I want to believe him or not. Being offended is easier than being vulnerable.748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGnsNRWdZ8s
"Well, maybe you don't know everything." I try to hold onto the indignation, but I feel it slipping away as the confusion fills his eyes. 748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMJwqlO3Nqh
I can tell he's trying to figure out where my hostility is coming from and where he went wrong, but I just want to be angry. And it has nothing to do with him.748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8BLSUp44yr
"Never said I did." Insecurity flashed across his face amplifying my need to comfort him. Opening up could be a terrible idea. I'm going to blame the alcohol in my system. 748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡstIAOvZ4dM
"I..." I let out the breath I didn't realize I was holding. "I... uh... tend to over think things. Pretty much everything. And today... actually yesterday, at this point, was not the best day." 748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIxEyaFjxxI
"I didn't know..." His eyebrows draw together, the concerned look returning to his beautiful face. "You really can talk to me you know."748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkRvxrICB1F
He gently pulls my hand back to his and begins to rub his thumb along my palm. An involuntary shiver runs through my body.748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1Siaea2NVp
I am so screwed. 748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2eRLz1QJN2
He's not only incredibly good looking with the body of a Greek god, but he seems to be a pretty good guy... 748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYLbgcVnt3F
Dang it. I will not fall for him. 748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdFXwk32rEN
I feel drowsy, like I'm floating. "But can I trust you?" I whisper. In the back of my brain somewhere, I know that was lame... but I can't filter anymore. 748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9ocslfZlRQ
"Of course." He looks deep into my eyes, like he's trying to convince me, but I'm already convinced. My eyes burn from the need to close them.748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEDZJ9f7t3t
I open my mouth, unsure what's going to come out. "The douche bag knew I would catch him, didn't he?"748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWQJdAXmbbt
"What are you talking about?" I hear his voice through the haze. 748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5sV1eZRAug
I'm not sure how to explain. "He had... she was... he had her... doing that... in our bed. He probably just wanted an excuse to get rid of me. I was too boring. I could never do... that... what she was doing... I couldn't. I wouldn't."748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaSx8CLr184
I hear male voices mumbling. It feels like there's water in my ears. I think 'Ness is talking, but I can't understand her. But she will understand what I'm trying to say. She always understands me.748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAvQnE4MaOl
I can't stop myself now that I've started. "I really thought he loved me... God, I loved him... Didn't help though. I'm not what he wanted." Spots dance in front of my eyes. And my lungs burn.748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrz9Gk3FWOj
"Why am I such a prude? Why wasn't I enough?" It's hard to breathe... and my face feels wet. Am I crying? I really need air. Everything hurts.748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmqeE0UJnF4
I can feel my body giving into the darkness, as my mind drifts to my soft bed. I just want to sleep. I just want this night to end. I feel my eyelids growing heavy. I'm unable to stop them from closing, not that I would want to. 748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡngzp4JFsMm
"Kat?" I hear Ben's anxious voice in the distance, but all I can feel is my body giving into sweet sleep. My body just wants to shut down and I want to let it even though I know this isn't a good idea.748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6H4zHGhrV6
As he catches me in his strong arms and his scent surrounds me, he is my last thought before the darkness pulls me under. 748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwDcgFSHdLl
I will not fall... any more... for him.
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