(A break from the Japan holiday food rant. Next and final Japan blog issue will be out next week!)
My family keeps pestering me to get a job. I know... I really want to move out again, too. 517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv8vhp3VoGt
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But the thing is... I'm worthless to companies. The economy is declining, so of course competition will be more intense.517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQPM1BTTLIX
And me, in my field. Sure, my GPA is a little above average, but so what? There are so many people out there better than me.517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeSHbc4VBrl
What else can I offer to the company? I don't have anything special. They're looking for talented, passionate individuals. I don't have talent nor passion. I don't have a reason to work that's not money. Sure, I like talking to people, I work well in a team, but come on. 517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSUSsUEg8wR
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When it comes to technical work, I'm not confident in anything at all.517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbuesfCPuk3
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A year ago, I didn't know anything. I was optimistic, excited to get an internship. So I aced my interviews.
But this time, I'm as unsure as ever. It's not even just "impostor syndrome". It's a fact. I have crap time management, I'm not motivated at all, not passionate, I don't like learning new things, new systems or anything related to the field. Who'd want to hire me?
And all this reflects in my digital interviews as well. I get choked up, and mess up multiple times.
I just... 517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvbRpqOxGI3
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I wish I could be happy without needing that money and status. Be fulfilled. Content.517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5CZxjT0sxw
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Anyway, that's that.517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQSKWPSBNM5
(Though at the time of publishing this, I have a job. Not relating to my major, but it’s fun. I wrote this a while ago.)
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