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January 1, 2005
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As he leans forward, I know my world is about to change. This guy has way too much power over me. What am I even doing? 817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4wkBWG79B8
This is not me.817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxOsEDkcS1c
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I am not impulsive. 817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6zfKIs8XNA
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I do not lose control.817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU5y1PW2otJ
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I do not kiss random guys.817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPkM2W4yfw8
Okay, so he isn't completely random since his friend is kinda dating my friend, but still... I don't know him. At all. 817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcRLSubUF0k
From want Ness has told me, he is a total player. 817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpZTiJBgq2L
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I run my eyes down his body. A very hot player. 817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVCidj0Kj3i
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With big bulging muscles. 817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwjF4VDMiXV
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And hair a girl could sink her fingers into...817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBwvTpkyZL6
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And dimples... 817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdDyzAIrqK6
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Encasing a heart stopping smile.817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRmiF8mC1Zd
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And deep green eyes... That just so happen to be staring at me. 817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYwYHGz2Po2
Crap. He's really close. Is that desire in his eyes? Or maybe he is completely repulsed by the kiss we shared. Oh no, is he going to vomit on me? I really like this dress.817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJm6DtoXlCJ
What is he doing? What is he thinking? Would it be weird to ask him? Duh... Of course it would be weird!817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOyWblyneuO
Is he waiting for me to make a move? What should I do?817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡomHU3UX7tF
Crap, he has me over thinking everything. I need to stop. What does 'Ness always say? I sneak a glance in her direction, but she's stuck to Nate like a sucker fish. She is definitely not going to be any help.817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQGsLipWGoP
"Just go with the flow." I hear her voice replay in my head. Right... I can totally do that. Easy enough. 817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQJ7c5rFIWZ
The flow... 817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡphMIpkD536
But what is the flow here? Is the flow kissing or not kissing? Does the flow involve talking or not talking? 817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhjlmwA8ShB
Gah! I need to know what he's thinking. Would I totally ruin everything if I said something? I have to say something. 817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4Leml5CLtE
He pulls back slightly, giving me room to breathe. I immediately miss his closeness. I miss the warmth of his body near mine. My body notices the loss and begins the pull towards him again.817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkbInB78d8d
Good god, I have been single for less than a day and I am already craving someone else. 817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZsRbADqcHK
I am not this girl. 817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRXt5a51sqO
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I am independent. 817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡftNpHbZSIX
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I am intelligent. 817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiLQ9NdWyTU
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I do not crave any guy. 817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7Nb1dfS9Rp
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I have my head on straight. 817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWi0420nRa6
I will NOT fall for him. Or his tricks.817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxs1we8OpgJ
"Kat?" His eyebrows draw together, giving him a look of concern. 817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmR3aBbiKSS
Shoot. How long have I been sitting here staring off into space? 817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj8w5LGQL4G
"Uh... Yeah?" My voice comes out strained. What the heck is wrong with me? I bring my hand up to hide my face. Maybe if he can't see me, he will forget I'm the idiot sitting here. 817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIWmobGeugX
Hey, a girl can hope, right?817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcA0q2RR5Va
No such luck. He pulls my hand away to gently lay it on the table, but he doesn't release it. 817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPJi7SyHJOh
"You okay?" He quirks a brow. I wonder if he feels the flow of electricity between our hands like I do. Does he feel the pull between our bodies, as though they long to be united?817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5Rwy9coKAL
Or am I just totally crazy?817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUvGF2QN2YG
I glance down at our entwined hands ignoring my brain's plea to pull away. This connection with him is oddly comforting.817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfZpvq65koz
My eyes slide up to meet his. "I'm fine." I manage to get the words out, but even I'm not convinced. 817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOMcZEwYZhn
He lets out a soft chuckle before leaning forward to whisper in my ear. "I can literally see the wheels turning in your brain."817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnm5a5hpmch
I pull back, my mouth dropping open. God, could I be any more awkward? 817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5ZKnKoqZtC
I'm not sure what to say, but he continues without prompting. "I didn't realize anyone actually thought that hard." His cocky smirk returns. 817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSB1pCIAnop
I scoff, yanking my hand from his. "Sorry to burst your bubble, but not every girl is an air brained bimbo." I cross my arms while leaning back to glare at him. 817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjSjqAWSUEZ
His eyebrows shoot up in surprise, his hands raised in surrender. "I never said that."817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQpt4MiDrAu
"Yeah, well... I have thoughts." Crap. That was really lame. "Deep thoughts." Yeah, that didn't make it better. How much did I drink?817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9tle0jP16x
"I bet you do. I didn't mean to imply anything about you... or the entire female gender." He seems genuine, but maybe he's being condescending.817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyEoHp3enpk
I can't decide if I want to believe him or not. Being offended is easier than being vulnerable.817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡATFXszb91e
"Well, maybe you don't know everything." I try to hold onto the indignation, but I feel it slipping away as the confusion fills his eyes. 817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2FVApSnrji
I can tell he's trying to figure out where my hostility is coming from and where he went wrong, but I just want to be angry. And it has nothing to do with him.817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjhNyNHizlN
"Never said I did." Insecurity flashed across his face amplifying my need to comfort him. Opening up could be a terrible idea. I'm going to blame the alcohol in my system. 817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHsPpq1WCAb
"I..." I let out the breath I didn't realize I was holding. "I... uh... tend to over think things. Pretty much everything. And today... actually yesterday, at this point, was not the best day." 817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdY4VbRkmWH
"I didn't know..." His eyebrows draw together, the concerned look returning to his beautiful face. "You really can talk to me you know."817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkoH8zEYfap
He gently pulls my hand back to his and begins to rub his thumb along my palm. An involuntary shiver runs through my body.817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8jMrg6xkGf
I am so screwed. 817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTkZg1FgNrD
He's not only incredibly good looking with the body of a Greek god, but he seems to be a pretty good guy... 817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7a5CFnIzTl
Dang it. I will not fall for him. 817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡymk57d3196
I feel drowsy, like I'm floating. "But can I trust you?" I whisper. In the back of my brain somewhere, I know that was lame... but I can't filter anymore. 817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡss7btMVJaI
"Of course." He looks deep into my eyes, like he's trying to convince me, but I'm already convinced. My eyes burn from the need to close them.817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyID3u8UYTp
I open my mouth, unsure what's going to come out. "The douche bag knew I would catch him, didn't he?"817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9XJresIwxZ
"What are you talking about?" I hear his voice through the haze. 817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmqALaLK6nK
I'm not sure how to explain. "He had... she was... he had her... doing that... in our bed. He probably just wanted an excuse to get rid of me. I was too boring. I could never do... that... what she was doing... I couldn't. I wouldn't."817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNormzaHelR
I hear male voices mumbling. It feels like there's water in my ears. I think 'Ness is talking, but I can't understand her. But she will understand what I'm trying to say. She always understands me.817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoy228b2w9P
I can't stop myself now that I've started. "I really thought he loved me... God, I loved him... Didn't help though. I'm not what he wanted." Spots dance in front of my eyes. And my lungs burn.817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡia6OrK6NIg
"Why am I such a prude? Why wasn't I enough?" It's hard to breathe... and my face feels wet. Am I crying? I really need air. Everything hurts.817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTdg4d54mQA
I can feel my body giving into the darkness, as my mind drifts to my soft bed. I just want to sleep. I just want this night to end. I feel my eyelids growing heavy. I'm unable to stop them from closing, not that I would want to. 817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk2m1Hq4Kjt
"Kat?" I hear Ben's anxious voice in the distance, but all I can feel is my body giving into sweet sleep. My body just wants to shut down and I want to let it even though I know this isn't a good idea.817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpuUSIIHTpE
As he catches me in his strong arms and his scent surrounds me, he is my last thought before the darkness pulls me under. 817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyFziNB0kJo
I will not fall... any more... for him.
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