(A break from the Japan holiday food rant. Next and final Japan blog issue will be out next week!)
My family keeps pestering me to get a job. I know... I really want to move out again, too. 630Please respect copyright.PENANARO4E6j2xnd
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But the thing is... I'm worthless to companies. The economy is declining, so of course competition will be more intense.630Please respect copyright.PENANA3PxiCUz2e1
And me, in my field. Sure, my GPA is a little above average, but so what? There are so many people out there better than me.630Please respect copyright.PENANAUUzXD3ZGo1
What else can I offer to the company? I don't have anything special. They're looking for talented, passionate individuals. I don't have talent nor passion. I don't have a reason to work that's not money. Sure, I like talking to people, I work well in a team, but come on. 630Please respect copyright.PENANAxwxuHGgEf3
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When it comes to technical work, I'm not confident in anything at all.630Please respect copyright.PENANAMcb3JX6vQg
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A year ago, I didn't know anything. I was optimistic, excited to get an internship. So I aced my interviews.
But this time, I'm as unsure as ever. It's not even just "impostor syndrome". It's a fact. I have crap time management, I'm not motivated at all, not passionate, I don't like learning new things, new systems or anything related to the field. Who'd want to hire me?
And all this reflects in my digital interviews as well. I get choked up, and mess up multiple times.
I just... 630Please respect copyright.PENANAiJBXuNR4O4
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I wish I could be happy without needing that money and status. Be fulfilled. Content.630Please respect copyright.PENANAxupRlu834p
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Anyway, that's that.630Please respect copyright.PENANAqIM7uaX7pE
(Though at the time of publishing this, I have a job. Not relating to my major, but it’s fun. I wrote this a while ago.)
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