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眨眼間,糸師冴已帶起一陣小小的勁風,左右嗑球從糸師凜身旁切過。63Please respect copyright.PENANAg7Nvel6JVl
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——好快。運球比在日本時俐落太多了。63Please respect copyright.PENANA8DdRMyrBnZ
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哥哥跟在日本時相比,已經是完全不同境界了⋯⋯63Please respect copyright.PENANAV78m1mRZ8p
但現在不是吃驚的時候。63Please respect copyright.PENANAiiZ3q68vEe
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糸師凜一瞬間屏住呼吸,雙腳幾乎是本能地啟動,急切地追了上去。他不容許自己再落後。63Please respect copyright.PENANAm2tRIDe08T
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——我要擋下來。63Please respect copyright.PENANAgm45nPAEMt
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他擋在哥哥面前,感覺自己的心跳和寒氣混在一起,像是連體溫都被壓低了幾度。63Please respect copyright.PENANA1swK0OyhG1
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糸師冴的球輕輕一撥,朝左側切出。63Please respect copyright.PENANA8KOU5o8ESE
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很好。他預判到了!63Please respect copyright.PENANAjH4zo2T32m
他知道哥哥會從左側過來!那個節奏、那個角度、那個閃避方式——小時候在家門口練球,他就已經記熟了!63Please respect copyright.PENANAMisHNFbvWF
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哥哥從左側切入,腳步外閃內閃,他太熟悉了——從小就記得的節奏。63Please respect copyright.PENANAp1QKIJAe6v
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他預判對了——63Please respect copyright.PENANAPI8xFYuxXP
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但下一秒,他才知道——他錯了,錯得太乾淨了。他連「破綻」的定義都搞錯了。63Please respect copyright.PENANALPa1lRtiW2
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糸師冴的身體微微晃了一下,讓人以為他會外切;下一秒,卻瞬間內閃轉身。63Please respect copyright.PENANAQf0Q2a0ayC
糸師凜的重心剛好壓在外側,等他想要調整時——已經來不及了。63Please respect copyright.PENANA9KOM21vhJu
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哥哥那假動作,根本不是用來「騙」的。它只是用來「誘發錯覺」的——就像彈琴的人不需要真的踩下踏板,光是那一瞬的手指佈局,就足以讓你產生旋律已經轉調的錯覺。63Please respect copyright.PENANAA5XK6nauf5
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他根本沒看到哥哥什麼時候轉向的。63Please respect copyright.PENANAbK5yC9GBtg
只有球影一閃,耳邊風聲擦過,被人抽走了他自以為把握住的未來。63Please respect copyright.PENANAGdJpCxGCT3
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他的腳還沒踏實,球已經不在眼前。63Please respect copyright.PENANAOOgt0dsIn8
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下一秒,他看到哥哥的身影拉遠,像是整片雪地都順著他的步伐。63Please respect copyright.PENANAmbXqoM1R6O
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——不只是技巧的問題。63Please respect copyright.PENANAVwJord8eEE
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他感覺自己像是站在一條錯的樂譜上,看著一首根本沒學過的交響樂在眼前展開,而他甚至連第一個音符的讀法都還搞不清楚。63Please respect copyright.PENANAwv7WxL3Lfm
哥哥每一個動作都太流暢,像是經過無數次打磨過的語言,快得像從未停頓的句子。糸師冴沒有一絲遲疑,每個轉身、每次變向,都是提前思考好幾步的連鎖反應。63Please respect copyright.PENANAgjxTBMeqZ0
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他的本能,在哥哥面前,什麼都不是。63Please respect copyright.PENANAVCjN5596Q7
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他這才明白,他與哥哥之間的差距,不只是球速、不只是技巧——63Please respect copyright.PENANAmH8aVi6QrX
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——哥哥的運球是「從世界那邊帶回來的東西」。63Please respect copyright.PENANARukilZvWMG
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於是他慢了。他的所有一切,他的視野根本跟不上。63Please respect copyright.PENANAaUfi8ZOM19
他看似預判成功,但他不明白的是——那只是哥哥「讓」他預判的方向。63Please respect copyright.PENANA5SIF5LUSLS
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他什麼都沒擋下。63Please respect copyright.PENANAWROPkNDZAA
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哥哥的球風早已融入世界級比賽的壓迫節奏;而他,無論多努力,都還沒真正踏出過那一步。63Please respect copyright.PENANAftjFbaZl7t
他還沒有見過那種比賽的「速度」,本身是怎麼毀滅一切判斷的。他從沒參與過那樣的比賽,也沒遇過這樣的對手,所以他的反應永遠只會在「以為自己正確」的那一秒內崩潰。63Please respect copyright.PENANA31Ux9rKrJo
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糸師冴的鞋底掃過混著雪的草地,乾淨俐落地收住了球,糸師凜連反應都來不及——63Please respect copyright.PENANA5qUl0dfBIh
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他只聽見鞋釘劃過濕草的聲音,還沒抬起腳,那顆球就已經不見了。63Please respect copyright.PENANAzg1OVHQzc0
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他甚至沒能碰到一根鞋帶。63Please respect copyright.PENANA8BNQE1cinS
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——這不是他記憶中的哥哥了。63Please respect copyright.PENANAUj8B32pC9X
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眼前這個人,帶球的時候根本沒在看對手,彷彿視線整場都貼著球道,而所有人只是他節奏中的障礙物——不會讓他改變路線,也不會成為理由。63Please respect copyright.PENANAJo1EpUXYAu
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糸師凜這四年學會的所有技巧,在這場雪裡,都成了毫無重量的紙片。63Please respect copyright.PENANAapaxSiu538
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根本來不及碰到球,糸師冴已用腳背將球收停,轉身的動作快得像一道殘影。63Please respect copyright.PENANAobzTmq3CwZ
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——這就是現在的哥哥?真正見識過世界的水準⋯⋯63Please respect copyright.PENANAhjEO5WHX4I
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哥哥早就超越他很多很多了。他完全沒有反應的空間。幾乎是照著本能,糸師凜再次從後面追著糸師冴跑。63Please respect copyright.PENANA3cLA9S4oji
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「——哥哥!」63Please respect copyright.PENANATERjdEtQc1
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距離禁區只差幾尺,糸師冴卻停了下來。63Please respect copyright.PENANAKIpvpzTEt3
糸師凜追上來,勉強撐住快要跪下的雙腿,慌亂地擋在哥哥面前。與其說是在防守,不如說只是弟弟想找哥哥講話。63Please respect copyright.PENANAkHrR4ZQZnD
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「為什麼、為什麼呀——哥哥!」63Please respect copyright.PENANACXhkptf8sz
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糸師冴再次啟動。糸師凜下意識撐開身體,試圖封鎖路線。糸師冴蹲低身形,右腳輕勾——63Please respect copyright.PENANAtYE2sMAUrY
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「凜,我不在的這四年期間。」63Please respect copyright.PENANA8XzZf185sX
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穿襠過人,球從糸師凜的雙腳之間輕盈掠過。63Please respect copyright.PENANAyAoMxXQjH3
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聲音輕飄飄地落下時,哥哥早已越過他,直逼禁區。63Please respect copyright.PENANA17aJWQ7mlj
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「——你都在日本做了什麼?」63Please respect copyright.PENANAFd2NWvWRMQ
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啪——球網震動。63Please respect copyright.PENANA9kKYgguKCk
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贏了。哥哥贏了。63Please respect copyright.PENANALPWXlYmqVd
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「結束了。」63Please respect copyright.PENANACtNwXrbCbi
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糸師冴對糸師凜說。回頭時眼神清冷,語氣裡沒有一絲情緒,彷彿這一切只是例行公事。63Please respect copyright.PENANAnbingypncG
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糸師凜蹲坐在地上,胸口劇烈起伏。他望著哥哥幾乎沒有停下的背影,過去四年的畫面像是決堤般湧入腦海。63Please respect copyright.PENANAKWXk2YuEN1
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——冬天早晨,自己一個人在操場上練體能,指尖凍到失去知覺還不肯停下來。63Please respect copyright.PENANAqDtAXb29ww
——他不參與任何社交。在所有人都離開後,堅持自己練習到夜半。63Please respect copyright.PENANApERnHhHQRR
——那些日子裡,他一邊補上哥哥留下的空缺,一邊學著咬牙讓自己成為「球隊的支柱」。63Please respect copyright.PENANAMNjTZMTElH
——記者說他是「糸師冴的影子」,也說「即使是影子,也得發光才行」。63Please respect copyright.PENANAtlB0dKrddG
——他把那些話都吞下去,一個字都沒反駁。他只告訴自己:63Please respect copyright.PENANAxO84bUYDq5
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「再撐一下,哥哥會看到的——他會知道,我真的追上去了。」63Please respect copyright.PENANAjWtiaYS9aT
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他不只一次地幻想過:某場比賽結束後,轉身看見熟悉的少年站在場邊,說一句「踢得不錯嘛,凜」。63Please respect copyright.PENANAVUXvDGoCwx
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他以為只要自己夠努力,哥哥會以他為傲。會驕傲地說「不愧是我弟」。他們會並肩站上世界的賽場,一起迎向同一束聚光燈。63Please respect copyright.PENANADtfwKg99pC
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可剛剛發生的那一切,把這些年他撐起來的信念,一腳踩碎。63Please respect copyright.PENANABQwwBWf9yd
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糸師凜勉強地笑了一下,語氣裡卻沒有半點勝負的戲謔。63Please respect copyright.PENANAIM2FVSZmt5
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「哥哥,等一下⋯⋯」63Please respect copyright.PENANAtyFePZFLbQ
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聲音輕得幾乎被風雪吞沒。63Please respect copyright.PENANA5dPxRuIOQm
輸給哥哥,他沒話說。63Please respect copyright.PENANAMIbjcbNdzu
因為他們本來就說好,是哥哥要成為世界第一。他只想——哪怕站在他身邊就好。63Please respect copyright.PENANA18FJuL8pfs
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「哥哥不在的時候,我非常努力。為了成為日本第一,跟哥哥一樣被挖角。」63Please respect copyright.PENANAjqC6uAjYwO
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他抬起頭,看向那個他從小就仰望的身影,眼神不再只是崇拜。63Please respect copyright.PENANApd0UfOwLcU
還多了點什麼。可能是痛,也可能是害怕。63Please respect copyright.PENANAF1AdHzy1KL
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「我努力讓自己替代哥哥,為了球隊而戰⋯⋯」63Please respect copyright.PENANAOwUUDM7IjD
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他咬著牙,不讓眼淚落下。但鼻音已經壓不住了。63Please respect copyright.PENANAniIk5IVhmQ
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「我只是想——當你再回來的時候,我就能跟你說⋯⋯」63Please respect copyright.PENANAf0UxqbLl6X
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比起落敗的失落,糸師凜的眼神更像是乞求。63Please respect copyright.PENANADtc7J3NlML
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「按照約定,我都做到了。我成為日本第一了——」63Please respect copyright.PENANANkiXrcRtDv
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他慢慢垂下頭,做最後的掙扎。63Please respect copyright.PENANAYyfvwzSjKo
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這四年他很努力。一邊學著被肯定,一邊學著承擔從未有人教他怎麼承擔的東西。他拼命練習、拼命表現,背後卻永遠空著一個缺口。63Please respect copyright.PENANAKycHRunTed
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——所以他拼命變成哥哥的身影。63Please respect copyright.PENANAdLrKK6v42b
忍受沒有哥哥的球場,忍受那些了無生趣的比賽;他撐過一個人上場、撐過所有人的比較和嘲諷。63Please respect copyright.PENANAaGXMysvXGS
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只為了——和哥哥一起走到世界的球場上。63Please respect copyright.PENANAynzDgKPgWy
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「我真的很努力啊,哥哥。」63Please respect copyright.PENANAV8xd1kV9xy
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說出這句話時,聲音終於破碎了。63Please respect copyright.PENANAJRQ3qLjf9a
他像是被時間抽空了一樣,整個人癱坐在雪地裡。63Please respect copyright.PENANAuscD5CW7wD
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「我一直、一直都想——跟你一起踢球。如果不能一起的話,我就⋯⋯我就不知道,還有什麼理由繼續踢下去了⋯⋯」63Please respect copyright.PENANA77NP3gZ636
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頹然地坐在地上,他雙手無力垂放在身前,全身疲軟得像被一場太長的夢掏空了。63Please respect copyright.PENANAraS1qjsZeR
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雪一直落,落得更大了。63Please respect copyright.PENANALR4QOtrq4d
落在他肩膀上、落在他指尖上。63Please respect copyright.PENANA2fh5jW35fx
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「——那就放棄啊。」63Please respect copyright.PENANAFOsNpyePoJ
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這句話落下時,比雪還冷。63Please respect copyright.PENANAwwHSBvasqg
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糸師凜猛地抬頭,眼睛瞪大,像是根本不敢相信自己聽見了什麼。63Please respect copyright.PENANA8o1eIz8qDe
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糸師冴站在雪中,沒有動。他的表情平淡得像霜結在眼角,眼神沒有任何光點。63Please respect copyright.PENANAxor484lEB8
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「真無聊。你以為會被安慰嗎——白痴嗎你?」63Please respect copyright.PENANAIff7Htu8g8
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起風了。風雪斜斜刮過兩人之間,擋不住哥哥寒風刺骨的表情。63Please respect copyright.PENANACwAoy0iPtX
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「什麼日本第一,什麼替代哥哥⋯⋯聽到我想吐。」63Please respect copyright.PENANAhAnYSsIhBd
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語尾輕輕一斷,像是強忍太久的噁心情緒終於洩出來。63Please respect copyright.PENANALZh8YU6AXF
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「你只是運氣好,投胎成了我弟——」63Please respect copyright.PENANAsqr5dOET37
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他像吐出壓抑太久的怨氣,語氣低而冷。63Please respect copyright.PENANAHQKyH9n14H
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「對我來說,你已經是個既礙眼又麻煩的弟弟了。」63Please respect copyright.PENANAArC3TXHPCS
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風雪更大了。63Please respect copyright.PENANAS2avyTlHlC
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「別再把我當你踢球的理由了。」63Please respect copyright.PENANAjAZPDKSXkp
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他經過糸師凜,腳步穩得像是已經計算好每一寸雪地的摩擦力。63Please respect copyright.PENANArdohqZfRdf
而他經過的那一刻,沒看弟弟一眼。63Please respect copyright.PENANAtsevUbIE3j
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「踢不好球的你,沒有任何價值。」63Please respect copyright.PENANAQUGqV1AUkJ
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糸師凜的心跳漏了一拍。63Please respect copyright.PENANATxowQs6DpQ
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「滾吧,凜。」63Please respect copyright.PENANA7RhEWGPR3v
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那句話砸下去,像是一記釘子,釘在他支撐了四年的夢正中央。63Please respect copyright.PENANAuzuysQSCG4
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糸師冴走向場邊,停在那只擱置在雪裡的行李箱前。他拉起手把,力道像是在拖動什麼沉重的東西。63Please respect copyright.PENANA8KwxoNCD3I
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他站直時,回頭看了一眼。63Please respect copyright.PENANAvv9Nl9Q8Oe
那一眼裡沒有恨,沒有怒,甚至沒有勝利者的快感——63Please respect copyright.PENANAE4zIvfgL45
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只有理智。63Please respect copyright.PENANAIEdQPkVPRP
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是壓抑過後、乾乾淨淨的理智,把所有遲疑都封死在眼底。63Please respect copyright.PENANAgw60Z3ghjs
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「我的人生已經不需要你了。」63Please respect copyright.PENANApzMUsgI1sa
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那聲音一落下,雪驟然下大。63Please respect copyright.PENANASok4JALIIw
風打在糸師凜的臉上,他卻沒轉身避開。63Please respect copyright.PENANARCpqOGBDTf
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他努力了四年的夢,在那句話裡崩塌了。63Please respect copyright.PENANALWNamJ8fgP
他努力了四年的自己,被哥哥一句話,放棄了。63Please respect copyright.PENANABnR05GK1ZZ
63Please respect copyright.PENANAWoS6NTNhYQ
雪落進眼睛裡,他沒有擦掉。63Please respect copyright.PENANAUVqB6aWywx
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因為,那個會替他擦掉眼淚的哥哥——已經不在了。