6Please respect copyright.PENANAhW8Po7DyGf
眨眼間,糸師冴已帶起一陣小小的勁風,左右嗑球從糸師凜身旁切過。6Please respect copyright.PENANAs0Y7T06i8t
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——好快。運球比在日本時俐落太多了。6Please respect copyright.PENANAIR9q0yXSzt
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哥哥跟在日本時相比,已經是完全不同境界了⋯⋯6Please respect copyright.PENANAL7afmcJ6cf
但現在不是吃驚的時候。6Please respect copyright.PENANA0Z6RFQ7rbq
6Please respect copyright.PENANAE9dYxKs7KO
糸師凜一瞬間屏住呼吸,雙腳幾乎是本能地啟動,急切地追了上去。他不容許自己再落後。6Please respect copyright.PENANAMSczRo6MrH
6Please respect copyright.PENANAI6SGq1EEaG
——我要擋下來。6Please respect copyright.PENANAz2IYwqEU1r
6Please respect copyright.PENANATZaeoZ7Z7L
他擋在哥哥面前,感覺自己的心跳和寒氣混在一起,像是連體溫都被壓低了幾度。6Please respect copyright.PENANApSlQRP9ITI
6Please respect copyright.PENANAGhFyTmTZVk
糸師冴的球輕輕一撥,朝左側切出。6Please respect copyright.PENANAbFpmeMTb6m
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很好。他預判到了!6Please respect copyright.PENANAg41gs4bMVw
他知道哥哥會從左側過來!那個節奏、那個角度、那個閃避方式——小時候在家門口練球,他就已經記熟了!6Please respect copyright.PENANAmxvpbglWa5
6Please respect copyright.PENANA74OeLaar9m
哥哥從左側切入,腳步外閃內閃,他太熟悉了——從小就記得的節奏。6Please respect copyright.PENANAgQlojTPEQI
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他預判對了——6Please respect copyright.PENANAVETLpbhT4e
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但下一秒,他才知道——他錯了,錯得太乾淨了。他連「破綻」的定義都搞錯了。6Please respect copyright.PENANAx4MrO0UyGT
6Please respect copyright.PENANARWc7pWyxSP
糸師冴的身體微微晃了一下,讓人以為他會外切;下一秒,卻瞬間內閃轉身。6Please respect copyright.PENANArPRj5bHTBX
糸師凜的重心剛好壓在外側,等他想要調整時——已經來不及了。6Please respect copyright.PENANAy1f7IEJHI2
6Please respect copyright.PENANAiV11LrXxu8
哥哥那假動作,根本不是用來「騙」的。它只是用來「誘發錯覺」的——就像彈琴的人不需要真的踩下踏板,光是那一瞬的手指佈局,就足以讓你產生旋律已經轉調的錯覺。6Please respect copyright.PENANAxaYNcW4k96
6Please respect copyright.PENANA0qLK5iHbSX
他根本沒看到哥哥什麼時候轉向的。6Please respect copyright.PENANAs8zrAdUX0t
只有球影一閃,耳邊風聲擦過,被人抽走了他自以為把握住的未來。6Please respect copyright.PENANAHVxtU1StlZ
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他的腳還沒踏實,球已經不在眼前。6Please respect copyright.PENANANulRzlWTKF
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下一秒,他看到哥哥的身影拉遠,像是整片雪地都順著他的步伐。6Please respect copyright.PENANAVPMs1QkE3X
6Please respect copyright.PENANAfFU6ZNTf8c
——不只是技巧的問題。6Please respect copyright.PENANAAZKZZWjByx
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他感覺自己像是站在一條錯的樂譜上,看著一首根本沒學過的交響樂在眼前展開,而他甚至連第一個音符的讀法都還搞不清楚。6Please respect copyright.PENANApnxatbokFN
哥哥每一個動作都太流暢,像是經過無數次打磨過的語言,快得像從未停頓的句子。糸師冴沒有一絲遲疑,每個轉身、每次變向,都是提前思考好幾步的連鎖反應。6Please respect copyright.PENANAJg28t8JxmW
6Please respect copyright.PENANA0H2bCP2M5r
他的本能,在哥哥面前,什麼都不是。6Please respect copyright.PENANA3CkWsuOg9U
6Please respect copyright.PENANA2QciVGyrPW
他這才明白,他與哥哥之間的差距,不只是球速、不只是技巧——6Please respect copyright.PENANAko69qtcEAf
6Please respect copyright.PENANAQPcVb5TX1B
——哥哥的運球是「從世界那邊帶回來的東西」。6Please respect copyright.PENANA5KkBtPaTMO
6Please respect copyright.PENANAxPZ4V0oIlM
於是他慢了。他的所有一切,他的視野根本跟不上。6Please respect copyright.PENANAPSUC50sA0b
他看似預判成功,但他不明白的是——那只是哥哥「讓」他預判的方向。6Please respect copyright.PENANAuOtRgYYvXj
6Please respect copyright.PENANAVxrxHyEOBy
他什麼都沒擋下。6Please respect copyright.PENANAwUKkXviyXH
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哥哥的球風早已融入世界級比賽的壓迫節奏;而他,無論多努力,都還沒真正踏出過那一步。6Please respect copyright.PENANAIB2LKOoBLN
他還沒有見過那種比賽的「速度」,本身是怎麼毀滅一切判斷的。他從沒參與過那樣的比賽,也沒遇過這樣的對手,所以他的反應永遠只會在「以為自己正確」的那一秒內崩潰。6Please respect copyright.PENANAIFYARK2HMA
6Please respect copyright.PENANAmEPAs1zPod
糸師冴的鞋底掃過混著雪的草地,乾淨俐落地收住了球,糸師凜連反應都來不及——6Please respect copyright.PENANA4MZ6UiFy2C
6Please respect copyright.PENANAFAGS9uqz5U
他只聽見鞋釘劃過濕草的聲音,還沒抬起腳,那顆球就已經不見了。6Please respect copyright.PENANAYgqars8xQN
6Please respect copyright.PENANAAyjaQ4QhNF
他甚至沒能碰到一根鞋帶。6Please respect copyright.PENANARxU0uko839
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——這不是他記憶中的哥哥了。6Please respect copyright.PENANAUpLXvaRRkD
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眼前這個人,帶球的時候根本沒在看對手,彷彿視線整場都貼著球道,而所有人只是他節奏中的障礙物——不會讓他改變路線,也不會成為理由。6Please respect copyright.PENANA0ux8VyhHad
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糸師凜這四年學會的所有技巧,在這場雪裡,都成了毫無重量的紙片。6Please respect copyright.PENANAMKFPgMT6pR
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根本來不及碰到球,糸師冴已用腳背將球收停,轉身的動作快得像一道殘影。6Please respect copyright.PENANAKLeS7c2yET
6Please respect copyright.PENANAHccSkcpep9
——這就是現在的哥哥?真正見識過世界的水準⋯⋯6Please respect copyright.PENANACR4LFVatws
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哥哥早就超越他很多很多了。他完全沒有反應的空間。幾乎是照著本能,糸師凜再次從後面追著糸師冴跑。6Please respect copyright.PENANAsJjMWH4Y1G
6Please respect copyright.PENANAiWNBJdczGP
「——哥哥!」6Please respect copyright.PENANABMMxFDsSxH
6Please respect copyright.PENANAXqcOlUaTmo
距離禁區只差幾尺,糸師冴卻停了下來。6Please respect copyright.PENANA7ohGikrn3C
糸師凜追上來,勉強撐住快要跪下的雙腿,慌亂地擋在哥哥面前。與其說是在防守,不如說只是弟弟想找哥哥講話。6Please respect copyright.PENANAgvMZagDPQC
6Please respect copyright.PENANA76XxdKK9Mu
「為什麼、為什麼呀——哥哥!」6Please respect copyright.PENANAljKmR0stjX
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糸師冴再次啟動。糸師凜下意識撐開身體,試圖封鎖路線。糸師冴蹲低身形,右腳輕勾——6Please respect copyright.PENANAy1NLWv9VRY
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「凜,我不在的這四年期間。」6Please respect copyright.PENANATvycXn9dL7
6Please respect copyright.PENANAhG92xYfc7M
穿襠過人,球從糸師凜的雙腳之間輕盈掠過。6Please respect copyright.PENANAe1IrVt72jW
6Please respect copyright.PENANA33sOCdYqET
聲音輕飄飄地落下時,哥哥早已越過他,直逼禁區。6Please respect copyright.PENANAMRziMXXzY9
6Please respect copyright.PENANA0fSfgLXQod
「——你都在日本做了什麼?」6Please respect copyright.PENANAeX8PX5Evs6
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啪——球網震動。6Please respect copyright.PENANAJuXpsqeDdv
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贏了。哥哥贏了。6Please respect copyright.PENANAuKwR0Y7WlN
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「結束了。」6Please respect copyright.PENANAip6LA7M8dc
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糸師冴對糸師凜說。回頭時眼神清冷,語氣裡沒有一絲情緒,彷彿這一切只是例行公事。6Please respect copyright.PENANAK4zzoVC94s
6Please respect copyright.PENANAnq5GX37RT4
糸師凜蹲坐在地上,胸口劇烈起伏。他望著哥哥幾乎沒有停下的背影,過去四年的畫面像是決堤般湧入腦海。6Please respect copyright.PENANAdulWOlsNt2
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——冬天早晨,自己一個人在操場上練體能,指尖凍到失去知覺還不肯停下來。6Please respect copyright.PENANAlGooiEhopf
——他不參與任何社交。在所有人都離開後,堅持自己練習到夜半。6Please respect copyright.PENANAGz487D0HJD
——那些日子裡,他一邊補上哥哥留下的空缺,一邊學著咬牙讓自己成為「球隊的支柱」。6Please respect copyright.PENANATwjKPo89hM
——記者說他是「糸師冴的影子」,也說「即使是影子,也得發光才行」。6Please respect copyright.PENANAtQGsHSBCLi
——他把那些話都吞下去,一個字都沒反駁。他只告訴自己:6Please respect copyright.PENANALY4m7qLd4f
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「再撐一下,哥哥會看到的——他會知道,我真的追上去了。」6Please respect copyright.PENANAfJNqPgjDOJ
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他不只一次地幻想過:某場比賽結束後,轉身看見熟悉的少年站在場邊,說一句「踢得不錯嘛,凜」。6Please respect copyright.PENANAv6PuLGjbnn
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他以為只要自己夠努力,哥哥會以他為傲。會驕傲地說「不愧是我弟」。他們會並肩站上世界的賽場,一起迎向同一束聚光燈。6Please respect copyright.PENANAhfLegURYAW
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可剛剛發生的那一切,把這些年他撐起來的信念,一腳踩碎。6Please respect copyright.PENANAPxjSxmC0u9
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糸師凜勉強地笑了一下,語氣裡卻沒有半點勝負的戲謔。6Please respect copyright.PENANAFs91ZFbSWD
6Please respect copyright.PENANAPg63O4sptJ
「哥哥,等一下⋯⋯」6Please respect copyright.PENANAMuvEWAs1wp
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聲音輕得幾乎被風雪吞沒。6Please respect copyright.PENANAgic1RMo9s5
輸給哥哥,他沒話說。6Please respect copyright.PENANAF0NZDUz9ub
因為他們本來就說好,是哥哥要成為世界第一。他只想——哪怕站在他身邊就好。6Please respect copyright.PENANAtN5AhblwEJ
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「哥哥不在的時候,我非常努力。為了成為日本第一,跟哥哥一樣被挖角。」6Please respect copyright.PENANApD2Wb1l5dp
6Please respect copyright.PENANA5WMzP8Q8iQ
他抬起頭,看向那個他從小就仰望的身影,眼神不再只是崇拜。6Please respect copyright.PENANA8gmNRLKdL9
還多了點什麼。可能是痛,也可能是害怕。6Please respect copyright.PENANAbxodr3iaE4
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「我努力讓自己替代哥哥,為了球隊而戰⋯⋯」6Please respect copyright.PENANAhkQ6xWOTvu
6Please respect copyright.PENANAQy7vJTNfmN
他咬著牙,不讓眼淚落下。但鼻音已經壓不住了。6Please respect copyright.PENANAHlUJI1xSxK
6Please respect copyright.PENANAuwb7E4CHNE
「我只是想——當你再回來的時候,我就能跟你說⋯⋯」6Please respect copyright.PENANAGsR5vHDGs8
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比起落敗的失落,糸師凜的眼神更像是乞求。6Please respect copyright.PENANAHQXS6Y5Vmo
6Please respect copyright.PENANAU6vWkE7j4o
「按照約定,我都做到了。我成為日本第一了——」6Please respect copyright.PENANAuRXQE2VRzk
6Please respect copyright.PENANA71mgeRz8cE
他慢慢垂下頭,做最後的掙扎。6Please respect copyright.PENANA6DZZT4tTjo
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這四年他很努力。一邊學著被肯定,一邊學著承擔從未有人教他怎麼承擔的東西。他拼命練習、拼命表現,背後卻永遠空著一個缺口。6Please respect copyright.PENANAgJH9M5pUha
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——所以他拼命變成哥哥的身影。6Please respect copyright.PENANAEP0Rxx1tLI
忍受沒有哥哥的球場,忍受那些了無生趣的比賽;他撐過一個人上場、撐過所有人的比較和嘲諷。6Please respect copyright.PENANAvFlGJDT1cM
6Please respect copyright.PENANAYP6NfHMKwi
只為了——和哥哥一起走到世界的球場上。6Please respect copyright.PENANAhx8Z2XgNes
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「我真的很努力啊,哥哥。」6Please respect copyright.PENANA1J17igGssE
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說出這句話時,聲音終於破碎了。6Please respect copyright.PENANAyW9YW3EBfR
他像是被時間抽空了一樣,整個人癱坐在雪地裡。6Please respect copyright.PENANALj0hbA2WPa
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「我一直、一直都想——跟你一起踢球。如果不能一起的話,我就⋯⋯我就不知道,還有什麼理由繼續踢下去了⋯⋯」6Please respect copyright.PENANAJPPvvvWfXZ
6Please respect copyright.PENANAZL9Wk8JRsr
頹然地坐在地上,他雙手無力垂放在身前,全身疲軟得像被一場太長的夢掏空了。6Please respect copyright.PENANA3FJrIrr7xZ
6Please respect copyright.PENANAWRdQOYiNg5
雪一直落,落得更大了。6Please respect copyright.PENANAUMJUPmz1Dy
落在他肩膀上、落在他指尖上。6Please respect copyright.PENANA4npHJRuUl8
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「——那就放棄啊。」6Please respect copyright.PENANA2JzGiQSvpS
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這句話落下時,比雪還冷。6Please respect copyright.PENANA3u2fQfaA3x
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糸師凜猛地抬頭,眼睛瞪大,像是根本不敢相信自己聽見了什麼。6Please respect copyright.PENANAimcbcbW8hq
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糸師冴站在雪中,沒有動。他的表情平淡得像霜結在眼角,眼神沒有任何光點。6Please respect copyright.PENANAupzhHHwX5b
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「真無聊。你以為會被安慰嗎——白痴嗎你?」6Please respect copyright.PENANArZf2eIOypS
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起風了。風雪斜斜刮過兩人之間,擋不住哥哥寒風刺骨的表情。6Please respect copyright.PENANAPc1pWT54dg
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「什麼日本第一,什麼替代哥哥⋯⋯聽到我想吐。」6Please respect copyright.PENANANO7FtfGDLe
6Please respect copyright.PENANAtn3V94utuP
語尾輕輕一斷,像是強忍太久的噁心情緒終於洩出來。6Please respect copyright.PENANA10DawsRgso
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「你只是運氣好,投胎成了我弟——」6Please respect copyright.PENANAGGfguH3vxM
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他像吐出壓抑太久的怨氣,語氣低而冷。6Please respect copyright.PENANAM0KuGWKFDq
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「對我來說,你已經是個既礙眼又麻煩的弟弟了。」6Please respect copyright.PENANA0OGjAbx2g0
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風雪更大了。6Please respect copyright.PENANALsw10lNisy
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「別再把我當你踢球的理由了。」6Please respect copyright.PENANAwCr3YTqy9j
6Please respect copyright.PENANAIDPnc2zb2O
他經過糸師凜,腳步穩得像是已經計算好每一寸雪地的摩擦力。6Please respect copyright.PENANAwIlQan2xfR
而他經過的那一刻,沒看弟弟一眼。6Please respect copyright.PENANAbr3M4nzi2h
6Please respect copyright.PENANAnaY7zHEKqb
「踢不好球的你,沒有任何價值。」6Please respect copyright.PENANAIBePiULazi
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糸師凜的心跳漏了一拍。6Please respect copyright.PENANA99rYTnu4og
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「滾吧,凜。」6Please respect copyright.PENANAWWHEKlgKIN
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那句話砸下去,像是一記釘子,釘在他支撐了四年的夢正中央。6Please respect copyright.PENANAf6PCgsYeDl
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糸師冴走向場邊,停在那只擱置在雪裡的行李箱前。他拉起手把,力道像是在拖動什麼沉重的東西。6Please respect copyright.PENANAdqF2fqqnqf
6Please respect copyright.PENANAl0OOAhoNu1
他站直時,回頭看了一眼。6Please respect copyright.PENANAyTI4Ov5gqH
那一眼裡沒有恨,沒有怒,甚至沒有勝利者的快感——6Please respect copyright.PENANAigigWlnK6F
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只有理智。6Please respect copyright.PENANArzq46snUif
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是壓抑過後、乾乾淨淨的理智,把所有遲疑都封死在眼底。6Please respect copyright.PENANASvbyquG2qV
6Please respect copyright.PENANAxfsB9m5nPM
「我的人生已經不需要你了。」6Please respect copyright.PENANAru0gWxxMja
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那聲音一落下,雪驟然下大。6Please respect copyright.PENANAlBLCIkfQ1D
風打在糸師凜的臉上,他卻沒轉身避開。6Please respect copyright.PENANAv4qpnR2reF
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他努力了四年的夢,在那句話裡崩塌了。6Please respect copyright.PENANAMbq62doM7t
他努力了四年的自己,被哥哥一句話,放棄了。6Please respect copyright.PENANA38t6ViepPi
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雪落進眼睛裡,他沒有擦掉。6Please respect copyright.PENANAkCigmSvUwD
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因為,那個會替他擦掉眼淚的哥哥——已經不在了。