「我的人生已經不需要你了。」40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT6Ap2yYsM9
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那句話砸下來的瞬間，她整個人像是被凍住了。40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQEG80e319V
肩膀無聲顫了一下，手指不由自主地收緊。40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3eU6EhiZWK
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她以為自己只是旁觀。40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsOXA1zEEIt
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不是主角，不是對象，只是走在他們旁邊的人。可以陪著，也可以被忽略。40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMnBNBvIl01
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可不知道為什麼，當他說「我的人生不需要你了」時，那種被劃開的感覺，也清楚地穿過了她的胸口。40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA76HdSMXQu
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那句話，像冰一樣貼在胸口——讓她瞬間無法呼吸。40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5VP7CrJXnB
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太冷了，風雪打在臉上，她卻感覺不到溫度。40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC3a1MInO8u
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她不知道為什麼會這麼痛。40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZpMd3lqHkH
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明明不是她的名字，明明他沒有看她一眼。40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfZ1cUa1a4G
可那句話落下的時候，她心裡有什麼一直藏著、沒敢觸碰的、沒想拆穿的東西，在這個寒冷的夜晚，被整塊連根拔起。40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMG1ttvCTvB
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一股空洞從心口炸開。身體還站著，靈魂卻開始往下陷。40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM33WyHCZOm
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她甚至來不及想「為什麼」，情緒就先崩潰了。40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYvvzJ3HUbx
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原來，有些話不是說給誰聽的——可偏偏誰聽見，誰就會受傷。40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3sBDS2uAhD
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她站著，像某種情感斷層的現場。40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡin6ENTzRyI
腦海一片空白，卻又被什麼東西撞開，瘋狂閃回過去的畫面——40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXDKibEzsBN
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一瞬間，記憶全洩了出來。40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXEo1jPKnKx
那些她以為已經風乾的碎片，此刻卻鋒利得像刀子，割得她眼睛發酸、喉頭緊縮。40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7ZdVErTO4C
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她記得，小時候的小凜其實一開始並沒有特別喜歡足球。40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBQezJ9IV1y
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他那時總是抱著恐龍和奧特曼，滿臉困惑地看著站在門口繫鞋帶的哥哥，一副搞不懂「足球哪裡好玩」的樣子。40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXUyzDmwzbR
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而冴，去練球前，總會回頭問待在家裡自己玩的弟弟：「要不要跟我一起去？」40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaXgRW4xS78
那語氣不像是在邀請，更像是習慣性地等弟弟跟上。40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtcBF78mFte
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直到有一天，小凜在學校球場外，看見冴踢進一球——40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiwAE6ADxtl
乾淨俐落，從起跑線拉出的弧線，擦進球門右上角那一瞬間，網子鼓得像是驕傲地呼吸了一下。40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQNaxSzlLkd
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「哥哥好帥。」40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW7eipUhz5J
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那是小凜當時唯一的評語。他眼睛發亮，第一次主動放下玩具，盯著球門，又轉頭看向場上的冴。40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUY0bTLW4ds
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從那以後，他每次都帶著玩具，跟在冴身後去練習場。玩沒幾分鐘，目光就會悄悄飄向哥哥。40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh7AHqtYEX2
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直到某次，他再也忍不住，衝進場裡去接哥哥的球——40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcxgdiPIOa5
而冴，在小凜胡亂闖入球場、在眾人一片罵聲之中——看見了弟弟的天賦。40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxzDP5FV1UX
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從那天起，小凜開始每天背著球袋，跟哥哥一起出門，一起練到天黑。40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbaXypacwqd
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冴從來不對弟弟兇。40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3brZCaidJF
他嘴巴再毒，對其他人再冷淡，對小凜卻總是耐心得像另一個人。40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡydHliwC78D
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他會蹲下來幫小凜調整步伐，教他鎖膝射門的角度；比賽後會幫他貼肌貼、揉腳踝。40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkc825oKYCJ
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有人罵小凜踢不好，他第一個站出來擋下，冷冷地說：「他是我弟，輸也得我來罵。」40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE8fJrGs6jA
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那時候，她總覺得他們不像哥哥和弟弟，是像兩顆並行的星，一起轉動著某種還未來臨的命運。40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5SCquZO5Es
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小凜那時常常說——40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKvQ1pMj8Gt
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「我也想像哥哥一樣帥。」40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEV8l4ClvvD
「我也想被哥哥說一句——踢得不錯。」40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY5vQVi0qBr
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她知道，那些話不是為了博取認可。而是因為——冴就是小凜想成為的大人。40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLri8b9pvKL
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她記得那樣的冴：40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJElmwwZpjb
拿到RE·AL邀請函時不是先開心，而是先問：「他弟弟呢？」40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡekK68RuQu9
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她也記得——他總把為數不多的零用錢全拿去買冰棒給小凜吃，像把全世界的好都攢著、把全部的好都留給那個人。40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUoF74FNNYx
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「你只是運氣好，投胎成了我弟。」40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmVeX4mE5VX
「我的人生不需要你了。」40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7ztL7HpQ7y
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可現在，這樣的哥哥，說出那些話時，眼神裡一點情緒都沒有。40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTlVhnLA4l3
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太不像了。40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS0lE2rcQrN
那不是她認識的冴。40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH37SsL0LhF
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她再怎麼回憶，那份溫柔與保護都還在，只是現在卻變成了利刃，狠狠割開了彼此的距離。40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHaMG8sFhla
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她從來沒看過他那麼冷的樣子。40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh4rX8DaDt6
像被什麼東西逼得太緊太深，才會用這樣的話把一切推遠，推到誰都不敢靠近。40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVyDdkQ39Qs
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她完全認不出這樣的他。40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhbzrArGedh
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震驚、困惑、無能為力。40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYpNCC0KkxU
不只是弟弟被拒絕了——她也一樣。在這場雪裡，被他一刀劃開，拒絕了。40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMDQyCWRMZP
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只是，她晚了一步才懂。40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7rGrASMqtg
只是——他沒說出口而已。40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjokbdDu814
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現在，他一個人，越走越遠。40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSmc0e0HOIE
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她明知道只要抬腳就能追上，可就是動不了。40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn614hmBuHj
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她站在雪中，一步也沒動，只剩下雪落在她帽子上、肩膀上、心上——像一層層壓下來的沉默，把她釘死在原地。40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYugVJJSZwS
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一片雪掉進她眼裡，她顫抖地眨了眨。40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwKIM0Kpbcz
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他走遠了。背影沒停下，連一眼都沒有回頭。40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ807dJEuo69
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「⋯⋯冴。」40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkZcm81F7Hj
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她低聲喚了一下，聲音小得幾乎被風雪吞沒。40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnqYZKPE7gZ
星野莉奈沒有哭。她只是站在那裡。某種早該凍結的情感終於碎成冰塊，散落在漫天大雪裡。40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4bcwTNxz0F
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她看向前方——那個蹲坐在地上的背影。40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgqNsJnB3ZK
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小凜。40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1BNpdOThZN
他沒有起身，也沒有轉頭，只是一直垂著頭，整個人都被剛才那番話壓垮了。40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwAZfnVKhZE
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這場雪夜裡，崩塌的不只是兄弟之間的夢想，還有很多東西——那些話，不只刺進小凜心裡，也像利刃一樣，插進她從沒說出口的期望裡。40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdrQ1ifEnL2
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原來不是只有她覺得痛。40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡicLqw60dKl
原來，小凜也一直在撐——只是從沒說出口。40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsKk4CgIjOn
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哪怕再痛也不吭聲；40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0BnNWB8BeV
哪怕隊友不理解，他還是用哥哥的方式踢球；40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXU7ZDfZa58
哪怕整支隊伍都在變，他還是想成為那個不讓哥哥失望的人。40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJiVs4IZzZC
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他只是，用了和她不一樣的方式，在撐著。40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ9rp5RDqPU
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她看著他瑟縮著的背影，忽然發現，小凜——只是一直拚命裝得像哥哥一樣強。40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡamqRUUgo1G
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可現在，那個他努力模仿、無條件信任的「哥哥」，卻對他說出了最殘酷的話。40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiFdZDkWp9b
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星野莉奈吸了口氣，慢慢邁開腳步，踏進雪地。40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3TCq1e3z8e
她沒有先追那個離開的人——她走向糸師凜，像是先確保有人不會就這樣倒在雪裡。40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwK0ed2fxmX
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她蹲下身，什麼都沒說。只是輕輕撿起他丟在場邊的外套，披在他的肩頭，把帽子拉起來幫他蓋住頭。然後用手掌輕輕拍拍他的背。40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuCDMVyZYhG
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像是在說：我知道你很難過，我也一樣。40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCJJCgXR9ga
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雪還在下。她沒有催他，也沒有說那些會讓人更難受的安慰話。40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5XOjbQXTH4
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她只是陪著他，靜靜地，讓這場雪先落完。40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXCJHTV1t7q
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——然後，她會去找他。40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJfcNIqIHAq
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那個說出「我的人生不需要你了」的人。40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzRSo60AI0S
那個，現在比誰都更像是失去了什麼的人。
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